vengeance

early morning.

I opened my eyes, felt under the pillow subconsciously, wanted to take out my watch to check the time, but found nothing in my hand, and then suddenly realized that I was at Fang Rui's house.

oops ha.Easy.

I crossed my legs and stretched a lot.

It's such a comfortable sleep.

I drowsily closed my eyes again and recollected it. It took me a while to slowly lift off the fluffy quilt. At this time, I suddenly wanted to skin it, so I tried my best to fight a carp, and it turned out to be a bad dish, and then I lost my center of gravity. Dive into the quilt.

……

"What are you doing?"

I dare not look at Fang Rui standing at the door with a speechless face, because I think what he sees now is me with my back pouting and almost burying my upper body between the bed and the quilt, which makes me feel very embarrassed.

I coughed with my head down and was about to speak.

"My dad is back." Fang Rui said lightly.

"What the hell? No, what, your dad, no, uncle is back? No, why, why, you, why didn't you say it earlier, oh, it's my day, what time is it, shit, I have to Hurry up..."

"Don't worry, he's out again."

"Ah? Then, I, I, I'll get up and wash up quickly, why don't you call me..."

"It's okay, it's okay, why did I tell you...then you clean it up, breakfast is on the table."

"Okay, okay, I'll hurry up, hurry up..." I hurriedly put on my pants while waving my hands at him and rushing towards the toilet.

Oops, this is not allowed. I pressed my messy hair in front of the mirror. My good and handsome image will not be preserved. It seems that I slept a little free-spirited last night. This is not allowed. I have to leave it alone. I made a good impression, so I looked in the mirror while arranging my appearance and thinking wildly... Hey wait, why am I so nervous when Fang Rui's father comes back.

I thought about it for a while, and then I didn't care, I just got some water and combed my hair up.

Under the weight of the news that Fang Rui's father had returned, my nerves were in a state of high tension all morning. Whenever there was any trouble, I would jump three feet high, and I was always ready to greet Fang Rui in the best state. The first cordial and friendly meeting.

I ran back and forth from the room to the living room probably several times, and finally sat on the sofa in the living room and did not leave.Fang Rui didn't quite understand what I was doing at first, but then he seemed to understand a little bit. Just when I didn't know how many times I jumped off the sofa to look at the door, and then paced back and forth in the living room restlessly, Fang Rui stood watching from the side, seeming to think it was a little funny, I rolled his eyes at him, thinking to smile, laughing, whose father is it, it is poisonous.

Fang Rui stood for a while, then came over to me and told me to go, I will take you to a place.I immediately refused and said no, as if I was facing a big enemy.I thought to myself that it was the critical time, what's the mess here.Fang Rui seemed to be amused by my appearance, and said let's go, that place is very fun, seeing my unmoved face, he didn't say anything, went straight to the entrance, and took the shoe bend from the shoe cabinet Lower your waist and say that if you don't go, I will go.

I was about to go back with a very backbone and say that you can leave as soon as you want, but I swallowed the words back as soon as they reached my mouth.Grandma is a leg, what can I do with my own size when he leaves, let alone what to do when his father comes back, just say how I can deal with grandma when I stay at home alone.So I resolutely ran over to change shoes with me, and said repeatedly, let's go now.

There are continuous mountains in the distance, the sound of waves and tides and the calls of seabirds are intertwined.Fang Rui took me on a road that I hadn't walked before, sometimes it was a bit difficult to walk. After walking for a while along the dense trees and vines climbing on the earth wall, what appeared in front of me was a road from the port. Look at the lighthouse with red roof and white wall blocked by mountains.

This snow-white lighthouse stood quietly at the end of the straight line built on the sea. I was a little excited, like a child who saw something new, and ran straight to the sea with joy.

Only halfway through the run did I realize that there were several children surrounded by the beach below the gentle slope, among whom was Meimei, whom I was familiar with.I shouted excitedly, Meimei put down the things in her hands, raised her face and giggled at me.I was about to go down the stairs, and found that there was more and more wet and sticky sand as I went down.

I knew I was wearing flip flops.I thought depressedly, why don't I take off my shoes and socks?Just as I was hesitating, a skinny monkey-like bald kid ran over and asked fiercely, "Who are you?"

Tsk, it's not cute.

I looked up at him, and there were two sparkling snots of different lengths hanging between the nose and mouth of this little bald man, and he didn't wipe it off.Although it's warm here, it's still winter. A child wearing a white vest and big underpants won't be cold.

I was about to speak when Fang Rui came up behind me and said to the child, "Call me brother."

The kid snorted disdainfully, dropped his big white eyes and ran away, and immediately surrounded him with a few children and ran wildly behind him.

Hey I am short tempered!I rolled up my sleeves and was about to do a big job, but then I thought again: Brother Gu, forget it, if a strong dragon doesn't overwhelm a snake, this kid won't be easy to mess with.

So I walked towards the beach resentfully, thinking that if I didn't get too close to the water, I wouldn't have to adjust my shoes too much.

"Brother Gu, come and see the castle I made." Meimei ran over and held me with her small sandy hand. This discomfort was overcome. Emmmm, I was dragged by Meimei and walked staggeringly on the beach, thinking, I have to admit, my cleanliness probably really depends on what people order.

"Apo, I haven't seen me for a long time, you don't miss me." Fang Rui walked into the bald kid with a smile, and I was stunned, as if I had never seen Fang Rui's expression like this, and I had never heard him use this kind of expression. Whom to speak to.

The kid snorted, rolled his eyes fiercely at Fang Rui, and said fiercely, "I have a name!"

Fang Rui leisurely walked over to him, hugged him and rubbed his head a few times: "What the hell, I'm used to it." This brat was yelling not to touch my head, he was so annoying, so annoying!While struggling desperately, Fang Rui seemed to be making more noise.

The warm sun in the afternoon shines on the sea, and also on the people living by the sea.I looked at Fang Rui's happy expression and recalled the first time I saw him, but I couldn't remember what he looked like at that time.He is taciturn, seems to be indifferent to everything, likes to be alone, never puts anyone in his heart, and does not participate in and exist in anyone's life.At that time, his grades were at the bottom of the class, and he was about to pass every exam. When he was a freshman, he was not allowed to bring a computer, so he often went to Internet cafes and stayed all night. It can be said that our counselors were the last One of the worried students too.As the class monitor, I shared a dormitory with him again. The supervisor asked me to talk about his affairs several times, saying that he had talked with him many times. He had a very good attitude and cooperated with the supervisor’s work very well. After all, he didn’t do much. The bad thing is the lack of enthusiasm for learning, and the instructor can't say anything about him.Every time Fang Rui talked with the instructor, he promised well, but when he left the office, he still went his own way, and the instructor really didn't know what to do with him.

At that time, I also tried to talk to him a few times, but he also showed me the way he used to deal with the instructor.At that time, I really learned and used it. I almost used all the interview techniques I learned. What empathy, empathy, self-disclosure, I feel that I have almost exposed myself. Maybe I still think of me as a big fool.

I am really angry about this kind of confrontation. In addition, I have determined to study sociology since I was 17 years old. I cherish the opportunity very much. I saw Fang Rui’s indifferent attitude towards majors and studies every time. He always said that he didn’t know or didn’t know.Change major?I don't know where to transfer, and I don't have any majors I want to study. I'm not interested, and I can just pass it.

There was a time when I refused to communicate with him, and he usually wouldn't take the initiative to talk to someone, so we probably didn't talk to each other for a long time.Until one time his disdain for sociology finally pissed me off because he misspoken about an anthropologist's theory, and after I corrected him, he actually said oh, whatever.

Oh, whatever?

At that time, I could say that I was so angry that the academic achievements made by people who worked so hard and even almost gave their lives, you actually treat this matter casually with an understatement?From that day on, I secretly made up my mind that I must take the method of slowly infiltrating, so that Fang Rui will be deeply influenced by the sociology major, and finally when he falls in love with this major, he will use these things before to severely I laughed at him and slapped him in the face (I won't say that in order to avoid not remembering later, I even took a small notebook to write down his usual disrespectful remarks to sociologists and the evil deeds he uttered. Because I have already decided that when the time is right, I will hate this little book one by one, so that he can't fuck say speechless and choke).

Just after I tried various strategies, I found that going to self-study is a good way to infiltrate him. However, in the process of taking him to self-study every day, I gradually figured out his personality, and even began to know what to do. Get along with him, so that later I gave up the matter of madly holding grudges in small books (when I first went to self-study with him, I even had to memorize it many times a day, so that when I saw the "quick grudge" emoji later, I felt dizzy. Once I had this emoticon pack that fit me so well).

The more we get along, the more I find that his behavior and attitude have not changed much, but my feeling towards him seems to have changed.The remarks that once made me furious seem to be no longer offensive, and I am used to his mourning, his insouciance, his straightforwardness, and his thoughtfulness and kindness that are not easy to be noticed by others.

Just like now, he was holding Apo as if he was going to throw it into the sea, but he was holding the child's waist and head firmly to ensure that he would not let go of his hand due to inertia.

I finally found that my gaze has habitually fallen on him, whether it is in a daze, silent, pondering, or frowning, I have seen so many expressions on his face, but I have never seen him like that. This moment is so vivid, such a brilliant expression.

I used to think that he was a puppet who couldn't speak. He might change due to the external environment, but he never revealed his inner feelings. I also thought that he was a monolith, and nothing would enter his heart. There will be nothing that can affect him and make him show a slightly ordinary human expression.I thought that was his character, and indifference was his normal state.

But now, the wind blows his hair back, revealing his full and smooth forehead.It turns out that he also yells like a child, runs wildly on the beach, and laughs, and is blown by the violent sea breeze so that the back of his shirt is bulging, hunting, and his slender arms are spread out, as if flying , the thin body stretched out, like a handsome young man who is about to ride the wind and leave.

I have seen him smile countless times, but I have never seen him look so free and happy.

In this way, like a real person, a happy, vivid, smiling person.

Suddenly, a strong feeling that I had never experienced before surged slowly, like a wave or a current of water, stirring and surging in my heart, and extending calmly from the atrium to the limbs in a radiating shape open.I am reminded of my controlled experiments.I finally realized that I had set up the experiment and the prerequisites wrong from the beginning.All the experience and feelings are not the conditioned reflexes I acquired, but a natural physiological reaction when facing the stimulation from the person I like. It has nothing to do with gender, Fan Li, Sun Yuzhou and others, and it has nothing to do with Ba Pulov's conditioned reflex experiment has nothing to do with it. It is caused by the secretion of dopamine, so-called love.

And I just created a so-called experiment with self-set goals and goals one after another during the long process of getting along, and realized this long, absurd and struggling self-persuasion process.

"Hey? What are you doing?"

Just when I was about to shed tears of emotion, I suddenly felt a force on my lower back pushing me into the sea.When I turned around, it was that bald brat!There were several brats around me, pushing me to the sea.

"Step in the slot, hey the child can't speak swear words. When we wait, we have something to discuss, ah ah ah ah ah! ..." I was unable to stabilize into the sea. Salty and somewhat bitter seawater.

It's over, I feel a gurgling sound in my throat.It's over now, I can't swim!I subconsciously jumped a few times in the water. In the chaos, I heard Fang Rui shout, and then he was lifted up by his arm.

My lungs were finally full of air again, I breathed heavily, and tremblingly stretched out my index finger to point at a few little kids who were making faces at me not far away and said angrily: "You, you want to kill me! ..."

"..." Fang Rui looked at me from behind, was silent for a while, and said, "Stand up first and try."

"No, I can't," I waved my hands weakly, "My legs are weak, I can't stand up...Come on, eh?"

I looked down, only to realize that even when the waves came over, the water level was no more than my thigh.

Emmmmm...

It's a little embarrassing now.

The author has something to say: Happy New Year!I'm fat again hahahahahahahahahahahaha