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"What else did you do?!"

In front of him, Muzhenxi leaned forward slightly, and pressed one hand on the table. Every strand of hair was written with anxiety and concern.

Xiao Jin had fantasized many times about what kind of situation or opportunity Muzhenxi would ask about the past, and what kind of expression she would have. Now Muzhenxi's reaction perfectly coincides with one of her imagined ones.

Xiao Jin's eyes showed a hint of dodge just right, and his eyelashes drooped, covering up the real emotion in his eyes.

As expected, Muzhenxi said: "Don't hide it from me." His tone was a bit harsh.

Muzhenxi still has a bit of aura when she is serious. Ordinary people are easily overwhelmed by her, and Xiao Jin still has time to evaluate in her heart.

Muzhenxi had prepared in advance that Xiao Jin would not confess honestly, if Xiao Jin was still the Xiao Jin she knew before, so Muzhenxi prepared full patience, Xiaozhi moved with emotion and reasoned, She lowered her brows softly, and said: "I know you may not want to mention it, for fear that I will feel guilty, but you can't make decisions for me in the name of my own good, even though I am not yours yet..." Mu Zhenxi He vaguely mentioned those three words, and said in a persuasive manner, "The relationship between the two of us, shouldn't it be unreservedly honest? Your blind concealment is not for my own good, it is selfish."

Xiao Jin's long eyelashes trembled slightly, but she still didn't raise her eyes.

Seeing hope, Muzhenxi continued his efforts: "Do you remember how we broke up before? The big reason is because you didn't tell me anything. I know I'm not as mature as you. There are many things you think about, and you feel I can't understand it, or I feel that it's useless to tell me, or something else. That's a thing of the past, but we can't let it go, and we can learn from it, and we can't repeat the same mistakes, don't you think?"

Xiao Jin was silent, the hand holding the chopsticks clenched and then relaxed, obviously engaged in a battle between heaven and man.

Mu Zhenxi looked away from her hand, got up from the seat, went around to Xiao Jin's side, squatted halfway in front of her, held her hand, silently gave her strength, and stared at her from bottom to top Eyes, seriously: "I want to know and share everything about you, whether it is good or bad."

Xiao Jin's eyelashes fluttered a few times, without looking at her, she exerted a little force on her hand, and said in a low voice, "Get up first."

Mu Zhenxi didn't dare to relax, and asked softly, "Have you decided to speak?"

Xiao Jin was silent for a few seconds, without saying a word, and moved into the booth.

This is a signal to back down.

Muzhenxi was overjoyed and didn't dare to show it. She carefully sat in the seat Xiao Jin vacated. She looked at Xiao Jin's side face, her eyelids drooped, and she couldn't see her eyes clearly.

When she was thinking about it in her heart, Xiao Jin suddenly looked at her, with a little helplessness in her eyes, the kind of helplessness that was eager to talk but didn't know where to start, and the corners of her eyes slowly turned red.

Mu Zhenxi's nose was punched hard by someone, her heart ached, she almost immediately raised her hand and hugged her into her arms, coaxing her as gently as possible: "Don't worry, take your time."

Digging up the past is a very cruel thing. Muzhenxi has already experienced the pain of scraping the bone to heal the wound, and she feels the same.For a moment she had the thought of shrinking back, Xiao Jin was different from her, she couldn't reconcile with the past unless she dug up this piece of rotten meat, but Xiao Jin wasn't, she didn't look different.

Wooden Sleeper Creek began to reflect on whether his thoughts were another kind of selfishness.Lovers need each other's independent space, respect each other, and force Xiao Jin to recall the painful things. Those painful things have no meaning to her except to make her suffer again.

Mu Zhenxi felt Xiao Jin's slight trembling in her arms, and once again made up her mind, the sentence "Forget it, let's not talk about it" had already flowed into her throat, but Xiao Jin suddenly stopped trembling.

She slowly pulled herself out of Muzhenxi's embrace, but she didn't let go of her hands. She lowered her eyes and said with a calm expression: "They have been refusing to let me go. It's useless to make a fuss, and the things I smashed are also useless." After being cleaned up, I had no choice but to go on a hunger strike and lock myself in my room without eating or drinking."

The person with trembling fingers turned into Wooden Sleeper Creek.

She guessed it, but hearing it with her own ears was different from guessing.

When the ancients encountered famine, they could change their children to eat. A person who has never suffered from hunger does not know how uncomfortable the taste of hunger is. It is not a fruit dinner for urban white-collar workers who have no worries about food and clothing, nor is it a child who is angry and refuses to eat. do not eat.Muzhenxi tried not to eat a grain of rice for a day before, and was so hungry that he rolled on the bed at night, listened to the roar in his stomach, opened his eyes until dawn, and ate a whole pot of porridge the next morning, and never tried to be brave again.

She is still like this, let alone Xiao Jin who has always been spoiled.Xiao Jin is someone who would get angry even if she didn't eat a good meal, let alone choose to go on a hunger strike.

"How long have you been on a hunger strike?" Muzhenxi pinched his palm with his fingernails and asked.

"Forgot, they forced me to eat during this period." A hungry person's ability to resist food plummets. When he is so hungry that his vision is blurred, every cell in Xiao Jin's body protests when she smells the smell of food. They will spontaneously approach the past, and only by pinching themselves hard can they maintain their sanity.

During the time of the hunger strike, Xiao Jin's body was covered with bruises and bruises that she pinched out, which was shocking.Even so, Xiao's father and Xiao's mother still did not change their minds. When she was lying on the bed too hungry to move, unable to resist, Xiao's father and Xiao's mother gave her water, because she hadn't eaten for too long, and it had psychological effects. Xiao Jin had a rejection reaction to the food and couldn't eat it, but it didn't matter. A private doctor gave her nutrient solution, her body could recover slowly, and their daughter could slowly get on the right track.

Her hunger strike ended in failure.

Xiao Jin kept her eyes open every day, looking at the ceiling above her head, without saying a word, like a silent stone statue.

Xiao Jin said: "But I didn't eat, and I was so hungry that I was dying. My parents relented. After all, I am their only daughter. I just accidentally went the wrong way." Xiao Jin sarcastically said The corner of her lower lip hooked, "They don't want to see me die either."

"Then you went back to China?" Mu Zhenxi was so distressed that his voice was hoarse.

"Yeah." Xiao Jin nodded, "But when I went downstairs, I accidentally dropped my leg. The broken bone was broken, and I was recuperating on the hospital bed for a while before I came back."

She had a broken right leg, had surgery, implanted a steel plate, and left a scar. Muzhenxi will definitely find out and ask questions in the future.

Xiao Jin shrugged her shoulders and laughed at herself: "If I hadn't made that fall, maybe I could have come back to see you sooner, so I wouldn't have missed so many years with you. I'm so useless."

It took me so long to fight against my parents before I won, I didn’t see Muzhenxi’s letter, I searched for five years to find Muzhenxi, and I was delayed for five years because of an unwarranted misunderstanding.

She is really useless.

Xiao Jin buried her eyes on Muzhenxi's shoulder.

The shoulders were warm, Xiao Jin cried quietly, without making a sound, but the tears were very violent, Mu Zhenxi hugged her sideways, feeling her clinging body shivering from crying.

Muzhenxi's eyes were swollen, but she held back her tears.

Muzhenxi raised her face, just raised her hand to gently pat the other person's back, kissed her temples tenderly, and repeated in her ear over and over again: "It's okay, it's okay, it's over, I'm here."

"Close your eyes and don't look at me." Xiao Jin didn't cry for a long time, Muzhenxi estimated that it was only about 3 minutes.After that, he calmed down, remembering to maintain his image, and ordered Muzhenxi to close his eyes before raising his head.

Muzhenxi was funny and sad, he closed his eyes obediently, and even raised his hands together: "Close it."

Xiao Jin came out from her and said, "I'm going to the bathroom, you wait here for me."

"it is good."

The sound of footsteps sounded in my ears, getting farther and farther away, Mu Zhenxi opened his eyes, quietly watching Xiao Jin's back, the emotions in his eyes were obscure and difficult to express.

She didn't know that in order to come to her, Xiao Jin had worked so hard to come to her, and the suffering she had endured was over, but what happened to Xiao Jin, she couldn't gently expose it.Xiao Jin just said a few words, and countless images flashed through her mind. Her girl who is always proud, petite, and delicate, should be held in everyone's hands. The predicted accident was on the verge of getting out of control, no, it was out of control, she roared, screamed, vented, hysterical, and became the kind of person she used to disdain the most.In the end, she was helpless, she went on a hunger strike, and exchanged her own life for a glimmer of life in their relationship.

That ray of vitality was even ten years late before people saw hope again.

It shouldn't be like this, how could Xiao Jin do this?

She would rather the other party give up on herself at that time, and continue to live like a proud peacock on the other side of the earth, and there will be another person to take her place, no matter who that person is.

Muzhenxi suddenly raised his hand to cover his eyes.

Xiao Jin propped her hands on the sink, looking expressionlessly at her face dripping water in the mirror.After a long time, he curled the corner of his lower lip sarcastically, and cast a disgusted look at the person in the mirror. The background of hatred gradually faded, and he became helpless again.

Xiao Jin let out a long sigh.

With a character like Muzhenxi, he would feel sad for her, and maybe cry secretly.

Hope this is the last one.

Xiao Jin really doesn't want to bring up the past. It's not that she can't let go of the past, but she just feels that there is no need to add unnecessary sadness.Except for the resentment towards her parents, she had let go of the others as early as five years ago.

Xiao Jin stayed in the bathroom for a long time, she didn't know whether it was to reduce the swelling of her eyes or to leave enough time for the Wooden Sleeper Creek outside.When she came out, Muzhenxi was sitting at the dining table, swiping her phone with one hand, there was a little redness in the corner of her eyes, as if she had rubbed the rouge that had melted in the water.

Xiao Jin didn't sit down again, and asked her, "Are you full?"

Muzhenxi only nodded, fearing that her crying would be exposed by the voice she spoke.

Xiao Jin pointed at the counter with her chin: "Then why don't you go to pay the bill and wait for me to settle it? What about the deal?" Her tone was light and teasing, and she couldn't tell that she had cried not long ago.

Mu Zhenxi nodded again, she stood up and walked a few steps, turned her head and took Xiao Jin's hand actively, pulled her to a position beside her, and held her tightly.

Xiao Jin sighed inwardly, and said helplessly, "Look at the road, what am I doing?"

Muzhenxi obediently shifted her gaze from her face to the road beneath her feet.

Muzhenxi didn't let go of her hand when paying the bill, Xiao Jin went out to earn money, Muzhenxi turned to look at her, Xiao Jin said, "I'm hot, can you let me wipe off my sweat?"

Wooden Sleeper Creek let go slowly.

Kind of goofy.

Xiao Jin wanted to sigh again, she knew this would be the result.

After sending it downstairs to Xiao Jin's house, Mu Zhenxi reluctantly let go of her hand again, and told her, "If you have nothing to do, you can take a shower and sleep after a while. The business trip is very hard, and you have to go to class tomorrow."

Xiao Jin stared at Muzhenxi for three seconds without blinking, and suddenly said surprisingly: "Are you with me?"

Muzhenxi said blankly: "Ah?" She looked up at the number plate on the building, and said, "Didn't I accompany you to the door of the house?" Xiao Jin made fun of her in the car, she thought this "accompanying you" "It's still about sending her home.

Xiao Jin smiled, with a little ambiguity in his eyes, stretched out his hand to hook Muzhenxi's neckline, and said in a voice that only the two of them could hear clearly, "I'm talking about sleeping with me this time."

Muzhenxi's expression froze, he was in a great shock, and his whole body was in a mess.

Xiao Jin stuck to her ear and exhaled, "Will you accompany me?"

Muzhenxi stood there in a daze for a few seconds, lowered his eyes, and looked up at her firmly: "Okay."

Xiao Jin's expression changed suddenly, and she pushed her away.

Muzhenxi was almost staggered by her push, and took a few steps back again and again. She was not angry, but just couldn't figure it out, so she looked at Xiao Jin without blinking, filled with doubts.

Xiao Jin said with a cold face, "I don't want your sympathy and pity."

Wooden Sleeper Creek immediately defended himself, "I'm not—"

Xiao Jin interrupted her: "You are nothing, if it weren't for what I said to you today, would you be willing to come to my house?"

Muzhenxi's confidence weakened, and he changed his words: "I really don't sympathize with you, I just—"

Xiao Jin once again saw through her in advance: "What are you just? Are you distressed? I don't need it."

Wooden Sleeper Creek was speechless.

Xiao Jin pointed in the direction of her house, and chased her away expressionlessly: "Go."

Muzhenxi's feet seemed to have taken root on the ground, and he refused to move an inch.

Xiao Jin suppressed her voice: "Don't force me to get angry."

Wooden Sleeper Creek stood there with its head hanging down, like a big dog in despair.

Xiao Jin's heart softened, she took two steps towards her, and took the initiative to explain: "You will make me feel that I am using my past to kidnap you, and I don't want you to be unhappy."

Muzhenxi whispered: "You didn't kidnap me, I am willing."

Xiao Jin said: "I know, but if you were me, would you accept it calmly? I don't want to say, that's why. The past is the past, I love you because you are you, I hope you love me Also because I am me."

Muzhenxi clenched his fists, and after a while, he looked up at her: "I will forget what you told me today, is that okay?"

Xiao Jin smiled: "Okay."

Muzhenxi laughed, "Then can I give you a hug?"

Xiao Jin said, "Yes."

Mu Zhenxi hugged her hard, hugged her tightly, and rubbed her into her arms together with the Xiao Jin from the past.

Xiao Jin nestled her face into her arms, and slowly closed her eyes.

Both of them can calmly face their own tragic past, but they cannot accept everything the other has suffered. Instead of being trapped in the cage of guilt and self-blame, the best way is to forget together, let go together, and embrace the present together.

It was a very long hug, so long that the neighbors passing by cast surprised glances.

Muzhenxi let her go and said, "Go back."

Xiao Jin said, "Good night."

Wooden Sleeper Creek: "Well, good night."

Xiao Jin turned her head three times a step at a time, and Mu Zhenxi would quickly bend her eyes and smile at her every time she turned her head, bright and bright.

Xiao Jin turned her head back three times in a tricky manner. Mu Zhenxi didn't know what expression to put on, so she simply raised the corners of her eyes with both hands, stuck out her tongue, and made a grimace.

Xiao Jin was amused, and flew into the elevator like a butterfly.

The sky had already darkened, and this time Muzhenxi waited until the windows of Xiao Jin's house were lit before starting to walk back.

After taking a few steps, the phone vibrated.

Xiao Jin sent her a Wechat message: [I'm home]

[I saw it] Mu Zhenxi turned his head, held up the camera of his mobile phone, took a photo of the lit window of Xiao Jin's house, and sent it over.

Xiao Jin: 【Actually observe me secretly?I didn't expect you to be such a wooden pillow creek]

Muzhenxi: [We are not the same, Mr. Xiao, do you have any misunderstandings about yourself? 】

Xiao Jin played a rogue and said: [Do you have evidence?Be careful if there is no evidence, I will sue you for defamation]

Muzhenxi: [You tell me, I happen to know a very good lawyer, it's not certain who wins and who loses]

Xiao Jin: [It's like I don't know a lawyer, I have a super lawyer friend in the United States, let me tell you]

Muzhenxi: [So why do we two sue each other to court, what kind of enmity [meditation]]

Xiao Jin: [The hatred of killing one's father and taking one's wife is nothing more than that [Contemplation]]

Wooden Sleeper Creek: [Take your wife? 】

[System message: Who sent Jinshu to withdraw a message]

Xiao Jin: [Hurry up and go home, what are you hanging around outside, don't you think you haven't recruited enough rotten peach blossoms? 】

Muzhenxi laughed, and started typing without even thinking about it: [What peach blossoms can I recruit, you don't know about our company]

Xiao Jin replied in seconds: [What? 】

Mu Zhenxi withdrew his typing fingers, and deleted all the messages that had been typed in the input box, feeling scared for a while.Thanks to WeChat, I have developed the habit of breaking a sentence for everyone, and I didn't let her send out the news that she and her girlfriend have been running for ten years in the company and are going to travel and get married soon without thinking.

Muzhenxi re-entered: [Our company prohibits dating in the office, and I have two o'clock and one line at home every day at the company, where can I go to attract peach blossoms]

In fact, her company does not prohibit it, but Xiao Jin has nothing to do with the people in the company. When she knows this information, it is estimated that the two of them are already together.

Xiao Jin: [Hmph, there were a lot of people who fell in love with you at the job fair last time, that student stuttered when talking to you, Sister Mu is really charming]

Muzhenxi: [Why don't you tell me how many students peeked at you on the way to the cafeteria last time?]

Xiao Jin: [The hearts of students are pure]

Muzhenxi smiled slightly, and borrowed her words to refute: [Then my students are also pure in heart, besides, the students are pure, but the teachers are not. The school will never prohibit teachers from falling in love with each other. I heard that there are also college teachers. A sorority between ah? 】

Xiao Jin felt guilty for a while. The whole school knew that she had a crush, not only the teachers, but also the students. I don't know which teacher with a big mouth who has a good relationship with the students spread the word.

I just hope that the next time I go to Muzhenxi, I don't reveal my secrets, or I will be too embarrassed.

Xiao Jin: 【I'm going to take a shower】

Wooden Sleeper Creek: [You go and wash, I just got home]

Both of them breathed a sigh of relief at the same time.

Xiao Jin took her pajamas and went into the bathroom. Muzhenxi changed her shoes in the hallway, poured herself a glass of water, and sat on the sofa in the living room. She couldn't help thinking about what Xiao Jin said, and automatically added details, so she swiped Use the circle of friends to divert your attention.

If anyone in her friends list had the most interesting circle of friends, it would be Yin Xiaoli.Apart from going to the backcountry, where there is no internet, Yin Xiaoli's circle of friends is rich and colorful every day, and she has a lot of witty remarks, which can be read as jokes.

She has been busy with work recently, and rarely chats with Mama Yin, Mama Yin probably knows that she is busy, and does not urge her to eat and sleep every morning and evening, knowing that it is useless to urge her.Muzhenxi turned back from her circle of friends today, her eyes suddenly opened wide.

It's not surprising that Xiao Jin likes Yin Xiaoli's circle of friends, he and Xiao Jin are already friends, it's normal for Yin Xiaoli and Xiao Jin to have friends with each other, just Yin Xiaoli's virtue of not letting any beauties go, For a time, Muzhenxi doubted her true sexual orientation.

What made Muzhenxi feel weird was that as early as last year, shortly after she moved to this community, Xiao Jin liked and left comments in Yin Xiaoli's circle of friends.Because the comments in the circle of friends do not show the specific time, in order to avoid accidental injury, Mu Zhenxi deliberately confirmed that Xiao Jin's likes are always in the forefront every time. to the front.

Mu Zhenxi thought about it, last year for a while, Yin Xiaoli was nervous when chatting, as if she was afraid that she would see it, but now it seems that the person she was chatting with was Xiao Jin.

Muzhenxi found the earliest one where Xiao Jin appeared, took a screenshot, and sent it to Xiao Jin.

The mobile phone placed on the storage table vibrated, Xiao Jin hurriedly flushed her foamy face, wiped her hands, touched the mobile phone, and clicked on the message——

Muzhenxi: [Excuse me, when did you hook up with my girlfriend? [picture]】

Xiao Jin stopped taking a shower, turned off the shower head, and stood barefoot back: [Only the time of this circle of friends]

Muzhenxi: 【It's agreed that we won't get in touch with each other forever, huh? 】

Xiao Jin: [[Shy]]

Wooden Sleeper Creek: "..."

What a shame!

Mu Zhenxi put away the rippling smile on his face, and typed seriously: 【What are you doing?Didn't you say take a bath? 】

Xiao Jin: [I'm washing, I just finished washing my face, and I'm going to apply shower gel]

Muzhenxi coughed violently suddenly, and hurriedly took a drink from the water glass on the table.

Wooden Sleeper Creek: [Hurry up!bath!What news! ! ! 】

The use of five exclamation points at one time shows that Muzhenxi's mood is surging at the moment, which is unusual.

Xiao Jin smiled, took a photo of the shower gel on the shelf with her mobile phone, sent it to Muzhenxi, and said: [It smells like milk, it smells so good [picture]]

Muzhenxi silently used a certain treasure to identify it, and placed an order for the same style.

As soon as the successful payment page came out, the notification bar reminded a new message, Muzhenxi cut to the chat interface, and Xiao Jin sent her another picture.

After Muzhenxi zoomed in with two fingers, his pupils shrank suddenly: "!!!"

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