be safe

"Go ahead." Wooden Sleeper Xi returned to the small conference room and put the phone aside.

The team members watched her come back from answering the phone, their original serious expressions became more serious, and they exchanged glances secretly, worried.

"Ms. Mu."

"Sister Mu?"

Muzhenxi looked up from the information in front of him: "Huh? What?"

The original painting girl looked at her face, and asked cautiously: "Do you think the suggestion I just made is feasible?"

Wooden Sleeper Creek: "..."

She closed the folder: "Come here first today, you guys do the work at hand, the meeting is over."

The two computers whose screens are on automatically turn off and become standby desktops.

Muzhenxi took the mobile phone at the side and clicked into the SMS box, and the message from Xiao Jin lay quietly in it: [I remembered everything, including the truth about why I went abroad back then, I just want to sit down with you and have a good talk Let's talk]

Muzhenxi asked herself, did she really not want to know?Or are you afraid that if you know the truth, you will be shaken again and get entangled with Xiao Jin?During the four years she was waiting for Xiao Jin, she was thinking about why Xiao Jin left her almost all the time.Is she not good enough, is she not worthy of love, grandma is an irresistible accident, why is Xiao Jin like this?

Even though that name was deliberately forgotten by her later, Midnight Dreamback would occasionally think of it uncontrollably, and then woke up from the nightmare, trying to open her eyes wide, holding back the tears.

This is her knot and also her catastrophe.

Xiao Jin sat in the car for an hour with her eyes closed and her cell phone tightly clutched in her hand.

She finally waited for the reply from Wood Sleeper Creek.

【Okay, today at twelve noon, you decide the location】

Muzhenxi calmed down and knocked on the door of the director's office. The director looked up from behind the desk and smiled when he saw her: "Please come in."

Muzhenxi closed the door, walked a few steps in, and said, "Mr. Zhang, I want to apply for a half-day vacation."

The director looked disappointed: "It's only been a long time?" She is not very kind, but the momentum of Muzhenxi's overtime work is too crazy recently. If she hadn't ordered Muzhenxi to go back to rest two days ago, she might have to live in the company during the National Day holiday up.

Wooden Sleeper Creek: "..."

The director generously approved: "Let you take a whole day off and have a good rest."

After Muzhenxi went out, she was completely lost in her work, she turned off the computer, and rested her hands on her chin in a daze.

The phone clicked and the screen lit up.

Xiao Jin sent over the address and box number.

Muzhenxi went to the bathroom, briefly adjusted her makeup in front of the mirror, left the company in low heels, hailed a taxi at the door, and went directly to the agreed place.

Fresh House.

Muzhenxi looked up at the signboard, adjusted his breathing at the door, and walked in with a face sinking like water.The front desk asked with a sweet smile: "Hi, do you have a reservation?"

Muzhenxi put one hand on the counter and glanced inside: "Yes, there is a lady named Xiao, is she here?"

The front desk smiled and said, "Ms. Xiao is here, a few minutes earlier than you."

Wooden Sleeper Creek breathed a beat uncontrollably.

"Please come with me." A waiter came over and bowed slightly, and led Muzhenxi to the box. At the door, the waiter was about to raise his hand to knock on the door, but Muzhenxi made a silent movement, and the waiter retreated knowingly.

Muzhenxi stood in front of the door with a dazed expression for a while. On the day of the reunion, she also stood outside the door like this, full of anticipation. Unexpectedly, she met the person who influenced her deeply again.

Muzhenxi took a deep breath, raised his arm slightly, and before touching the door, the door opened from the inside.

Against the light, Xiao Jin stood quietly in front of her.

The two looked at each other.

With one look, thoughts fluctuate.

Time seems to stop flowing at this moment, and it seems to be going backwards rapidly.

In the early spring of that year, the wind of March awakened the bright earth. Xiao Jin was like a bird that was having fun, holding two bunches of candied haws in her hand, and two schoolbags hanging on her front and back. Lovers fed sugar-coated hawthorns to their mouths.

Mu Zhenxi almost couldn't hold back the sudden soreness in his eyes, and slowly lowered his eyelids to hide the moisture in the bottom of his eyes.

Before she spoke, Xiao Jin stepped aside and said politely, "Please come in."

Wooden Sleeper Creek came in and took a seat.

Xiao Jin smiled politely, took out two cups from the tray, poured a cup of tea for Muzhenxi, and pushed them over: "I didn't expect you to come so early, it's only ten o'clock now."

Muzhenxi said: "You don't need to be polite, just speak up if you have anything to say, I'm very busy."

With eyes full of love, Xiao Jin called her softly: "Xiaoxi."

Muzhenxi's teeth clenched tightly, and he cruelly turned his eyes away.

Xiao Jin said: "Have some tea, I'm thirsty all the way here, I don't want to catch up with you."

Muzhenxi turned to look at her, but still didn't touch the tea.

Xiao Jin didn't continue to persuade, and took a sip of the warm tea in front of her, fixed her eyes on her, and said bitterly: "If I said that I was tricked by my parents to go abroad, would you believe it?"

Muzhenxi's eyes trembled, full of disbelief: "What did you say?"

Xiao Jin said: "I had a quarrel with you at that time, and I was in a bad mood. My parents knew about our relationship and said they would take me abroad to relax, and I agreed. But I didn't expect that when I went abroad, they withheld all my money. I was put under house arrest for four months, and you disappeared when I came back.”

How can the children of children fortify their most trusted parents?Especially before, Xiao's father and Xiao's mother deliberately made a compromise to paralyze her.After Xiao Jin was placed under house arrest, she was furious and furious. She threw everything that could be dropped in the room, and thought of various ways to resist, but when she was finally able to return to China, the world changed overnight.

Muzhenxi's grandmother passed away. She failed the college entrance examination and disappeared without a trace. No one knows where she went.

"I made up my mind before I went abroad. When I come back in a few days, I will apologize to you, and I will never talk such nonsense again." Xiao Jin said hoarsely, "But I never waited for another chance to apologize. "

Muzhenxi was silent for a moment, and suddenly smiled sarcastically, full of self-mockery.

It turned out that the nightmare that had plagued her for many years was due to such a simple reason. Xiao Jin was taken away by her parents, so she left without saying goodbye, which was very reasonable and legitimate, and there was no way to say that she was wrong.

She is also a victim.

Muzhenxi suddenly raised his head and let out a sound of ha.

But it's been so many years, so what's the use of talking about it?Is it possible to treat everything as if nothing happened by distinguishing between right and wrong?

Muzhenxi took a deep breath, withdrew the slightly lost expression on his face little by little, and said calmly: "I already know, what else do you need?"

Xiao Jin lowered her head and said, "I'm sorry I couldn't accompany you to see grandma on her last journey."

The sockets of Muzhenxi's eyes turned red suddenly, and his breath was stuck in his throat, his teeth were clenched tightly, and he remained silent.

Xiao Jin pretended not to see her emotional changes, and continued, with a tone full of nostalgia: "Grandma was so kind to me when she was alive. When I went to see her in the hospital, she always told me that I am a very good child. The university must be chosen by me, she treats me better than you, and often asks you to learn from me, do you remember?"

Muzhenxi suppressed the overwhelming anger, not only the eye sockets, but even the eyes began to congeal, and stared at her with flaws.

Xiao Jin asked recklessly: "Did grandma ask me about me after I left?"

Wooden Sleeper Creek exploded suddenly, and said, "Don't mention grandma to me!" Hysterical, with tears in his eyes, roared at her like a beast covered in scars and re-torn and dripping with blood.

Xiao Jin pinched her fingertips hard with her fingertips, tilted her head, and asked her in a strange way: "Why can't I ask? I also love her very much. I want to know if she left me any words before she died. Am I not entitled to know?"

Muzhenxi trembled with anger: "She stayed, she left a message, are you satisfied?!"

Xiao Jin asked, "What did she say?"

Muzhenxi's eyes were red, tears were full, panting quickly, and then he gritted his teeth and said, "Before she died, she asked me where you are."

Xiao Jin tried her best to resist the urge to cry, and asked her calmly, "Is there any more?"

Wooden Sleeper Creek said, "Yes."

The corners of Xiao Jin's eyes were slightly red, and a pair of deep eyes were fixed on Muzhenxi, and said, "Tell me."

Muzhenxi said word by word: "Say, you are a good child, tell me to cherish it. Say, she is gone, and you are the only one in the world who will treat me well. Let me make room for you, don't be with me. You quarreled. She also said that with you here, she can leave this world with peace of mind. Finally, she said, I hope we both will be well. "

At that time, Muzhenxi had been broken up by Xiao Jin for a month, and grandma didn't know.

After my grandma arrived, she was often lethargic and had to rely on the ventilator and various instruments to maintain her life. She rarely woke up. When she woke up and looked around, she found that Muzhenxi was alone, and she would faintly ask. She: "Where is Xiao Jin?"

Muzhenxi held her hand, held back tears and lied to her, saying: "Xiao Jin came here when you were asleep." He also showed grandma the fruit she bought, and lied to her that Xiao Jin bought it. Smiled and fell asleep again.

When she was dying, she always wanted to see Xiao Jin, and entrusted her only concern in this world to Xiao Jin with her own hands.Mu Zhenxi lied to her again that Xiao Jin had passed the application for a foreign university, went to the United States to go through the formalities, and could not come back. When grandma was leaving, she was still looking in the direction of the door, hoping for a miracle, and finally closed her eyes forever regretfully. Did not see her until death.

Muzhenxi raised her scarlet eyes and asked Xiao Jin, "Are you satisfied?"

Xiao Jin leaned back on the chair, raised her head, her eyes filled with tears, and said softly, "I'm satisfied."

Mu Zhenxi stood up, walked over to the table with a handbag, looked down at her sarcastically: "put away your tears, she won't be able to see crying now."

Xiao Jin also stood up, raised her hand to wipe away the tears on her face, bent down and said, "I'm sorry. This is because I shouldn't have impulsively proposed to break up back then. I hurt your heart by uttering bad words."

She straightened up and bent down again: "I'm sorry." She took a slow breath before continuing to choke up, "This is for grandma. I didn't get to see her for the last time, and I failed her expectations."

Muzhenxi said expressionlessly: "I only accept the first word, and I forgive you for leaving without saying goodbye. Go to her grave and tell her personally what grandma said, can I go?"

Xiao Jin stood in front of her without moving her feet.

Mu Zhenxi frowned, walked away from her, and the moment she passed by, Xiao Jin reached out and grabbed her wrist, Mu Zhenxi turned around, and said indifferently: "What else do you want to do?"

Xiao Jin suddenly took a step forward, hugged her tightly, and tightened his arms, as if he wanted to melt her into his own flesh and blood.

"Let go!" Mu Zhenxi was furious and struggled. She was usually much stronger than Xiao Jin. Xiao Jin had to use all her strength to force out the veins on her forehead and the back of her hands, so that she could hold someone in her arms .

During the struggle, Xiao Jin's waist bumped against the edge of the table, and the two wrestled silently in this square inch, one wanted to escape, the other refused to let him escape, neither showed mercy to each other.

I don't know when it started, Muzhenxi loosened his strength, gave up resistance, and let the other party hug her into his arms.

It's a decade-long overdue hug.

Too bad it's too late.

Mu Zhenxi put his arms around Xiao Jin's waist, buried his eyes on her shoulders, and murmured, "Why did you come back only now?"

Xiao Jin was taken aback, and her eye sockets instantly became wet.

Muzhenxi said, "Do you know how I got here?"

Xiao Jin opened her mouth and found that she couldn't speak, so she nodded her head twice, tears streaming down her face.

She knew that Wood Sleeper Creek had suffered a lot.

Muzhenxi withdrew from her embrace, lowered her eyes, shook her head and said softly, "You don't know."

Xiao Jin didn't hug her again, his hand slipped from his arm and held her hand, Muzhenxi didn't refuse any more.

Xiao Jin pulled her to sit on the chair again, and the two faced each other. Xiao Jin raised her head and gently touched Muzhenxi's hair, then leaned over and kissed her forehead: "Do you want to tell me?"

Mu Zhenxi nodded, her eyelashes were still moist, she was very quiet and well-behaved, she would tell Xiao Jin like this when she was wronged before, but this time was different from every time in the past.

Xiao Jin smiled wryly in her heart.

Muzhenxi let out a long breath, and rolled his eyes in a daze. Where do we start?It seems to be a long time ago, let's start from the beginning.

Muzhenxi narrated as calmly as water, and his voice was so light that he seemed to be talking about other people's affairs.

"After you left, grandma's illness became more and more serious. She failed to survive the fourth chemotherapy, and her condition suddenly deteriorated. She couldn't be saved and passed away. Fortunately, my mother still had a conscience and bought a cemetery for grandma. , I was suffering during my lifetime, but after I died, I got a long sleep. I returned to Lincheng later, partly because my grandma’s cemetery is here.

"After my grandma left, there was half a month left for the college entrance examination. I remembered what you told me to study hard, and thought that maybe you would come back, so I cheered up and continued to study, but the third year of high school was delayed for too long, and I still didn't pass the exam. The house rented by my grandma was due, and all the money I earned from working part-time was used to treat grandma’s illness, and I had no money to pay the rent, so I was kicked out.”

Her mood gradually began to fluctuate, but the ups and downs were small.

"I was penniless at the time, I was looking for a job during the day, and I was looking for a place to sleep at night. At first, I lived in the park, but I soon found out that there were homeless people in that park, and they looked at me wrongly. I didn’t dare to go. At that time, I would make a wish before going to bed, hoping to see you when I woke up. This was just a nightmare, and it would be fine after a night’s sleep, but when I opened my eyes every morning, I was still alone.

"I saved a little money, bought a bus ticket and left Lincheng, and went to a city further south. I heard that there were more people working there and more opportunities. I went to a factory and started working there. The work is very mechanical and does not need to use any brains. People feel numb after staying in it for a long time. But I have to stay, I have to earn money, and if I have money, I can have a future, although I don’t know what the future will look like.

"Later, I met Yin Xiaoli. She said that I was good at painting and asked me to delve into this professional knowledge so that I could make a living from this craft in the future. I would go to work during the day and come back to paint and read at night. Gradually, I I can really make money by painting, and then it’s now.”

Muzhenxi pulled the corner of his lips and smiled.

Xiao Jin couldn't laugh.

Mu Zhenxi tilted his head and asked her: "Why don't you smile?"

Xiao Jin stared at her quietly, the despair and affection in her eyes almost drowned the wooden pillow creek.

Muzhenxi fell silent, and the curvature of the corner of his lips turned bitter.

Xiao Jin moved her thumb slightly, stroked the back of her hand, and silently comforted her.

Muzhenxi slowly withdrew his hand and stood up, his expression instantly turned cold and unkind.

Xiao Jin just laughed.

Wooden Sleeper Creek said mockingly: "You are always like this, you can easily see through me."

With tears in Xiao Jin's eyes, he said, "Because I love you, and you love me too."

So Muzhenxi's disguise didn't work in front of her. Muzhenxi wrapped herself up layer by layer. On the outside, there were scars that seemed to heal, but in fact it was wrapped in a mass of rotten flesh that was bleeding. Xiao Jin endured it today. Injured eight hundred enemies, one thousand self-injured, but also to reopen her wounds, scrape the bones to heal the poison.

Muzhenxi said lightly: "Then you should know how much I hate you."

Xiao Jin said, "I know."

But she doesn't show any hatred now, which is the biggest violation.

Muzhenxi raised her eyes and looked at her intently: "Do you know that after the college entrance examination, I once passed out in a rented house, and no one noticed for a day and a night, but I woke up again, hungry, and found myself in the I had a high fever, which lasted for three days. I had no money to buy medicine, so I barely survived.

"Do you know, after you left, how many calls I made to you, but there was always no one answering, and then it shut down, and finally became an empty number."

Xiao Jin's eyes turned red.

Mu Zhenxi said: "Do you know that when I was working in a factory, a worker's half arm was caught in the machine, and bloody fingers could be seen at the exit of the machine, and he could move , At that time, I was standing next to her working, watching the blood spurt from her arm, and then the heart-piercing screams. I had a nightmare for a long time, and I was frightened every day when I went to work, for fear of bad luck. It fell on my head, and my hand would get involved. I was scared, really scared, and the more scared I was, the more I missed you, but what about you? Where are you?"

Tears welled up in Xiao Jin's eyelashes, she opened her mouth, but said nothing.

Muzhenxi paused for a moment, then suddenly smiled lightly, lowered his eyes and said, "Do you know that I committed suicide once."

Xiao Jin's expression changed drastically, and he looked over suddenly.

Muzhenxi looked up with tears streaming down his face, and said: "It was the first year when I went out to work. I was not afraid of hard work, but I couldn't find a reason to live. I bought sleeping pills, swallowed a big bottle, and lay on the bed waiting Die. It’s a pity that a neighbor’s sister saw from the window that something was wrong with me lying down, and she couldn’t wake up no matter what, so her brother broke down the door and sent me to the hospital for a stomach wash.”

Muzhenxi shrugged and said, "I didn't die."

Xiao Jin covered her mouth in pain, tears welled up in her eyes.

Muzhenxi raised his hand to wipe away his tears, lowered his head, looked at her again, and smiled quietly: "But you said something wrong, I don't hate you, and... I never hated you."

She said again: "Xiao Jin, I love you..."

Tears fell again disappointingly, Muzhenxi didn't wipe it away, and continued softly: "I can't forget you, but..." Muzhenxi swallowed the fishy sweetness that suddenly surged up in his throat, and poked his finger Tears poured down my heart, "It hurts too much, I don't want to try again."

Xiao Jin couldn't breathe from crying.

Mu Zhenxi walked over, squatted down, and was at eye level with her, gently wiped the tears on her face with his fingertips, and tried his best to suppress the choking in his throat: "Xiao Jin, we really can't go back."

Xiao Jin gradually stopped crying.

Muzhenxi pulled her up and was about to leave. Xiao Jin held her wrist and begged her with red eyes: "Can you walk with me to the door of the restaurant, and then we will separate."

Muzhenxi was silent for a moment, then agreed in a low voice: "Okay."

The two looked at each other's faces, made the final arrangements, and walked out of the box door together.

We both know that this is the last part of our journey together, and we walk very slowly.The floor tiles seemed to have just been mopped, and the upstairs was not carpeted, so it was a little slippery. Mu Zhenxi put his arms around Xiao Jin's shoulders, and Wen Yan reminded: "Be careful."

Xiao Jin raised her eyes and took a deep look at her, then said "hmm" softly.

The waiter came up from the stairs holding the hot soup just out of the pot with both hands. He walked very fast. When he passed by the two of them, his feet slipped and the hot soup poured in their direction.

At that moment, Muzhenxi didn't have time to think, her body's instincts were faster than her brain's, and she hugged Xiao Jin sideways, completely blocking him, and poured a pot of hot soup on her back.

Xiao Jin only felt a blur in front of her eyes, but before she could react, she was inexplicably hugged by Mu Zhenxi, and there was a muffled groan of pain from above her head.

Then there was the sound of the container falling to the ground, and the waiter panicked and apologized: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

Mu Zhenxi let go of her embrace, frowned and swept Xiao Jin around: "Is it burnt somewhere?"

Xiao Jin shook her head, belatedly seeing her clothes soaked in hot soup, her skin flushed red under her white shirt, which was shocking.

Xiao Jin pursed her thin lips into a straight line, her brows and eyes were stern, and she glared at the waiter who kept apologizing and tried to wipe Muxiuxi with her sleeve: "How did you—"

Muzhenxi stopped her: "Forget it, it's useless to embarrass her, don't waste time. I'll go back and get some medicine and apply it. It will hurt for two days at most."

Xiao Jin's eyes were red: "I'll take you to the hospital."

Muzhenxi did not speak, silently reminding the agreement between the two.

Xiao Jin remained silent.

The two parted at the entrance of the restaurant, one on the left and one on the right in two directions, without saying goodbye.

Muzhenxi showed pain, and raised her hand to press her heart. Suppressing the faint and sharp pain from the beginning, she walked step by step until she turned a corner, and the fishy sweetness rose again in her throat. Holding back, he lowered his head and spit out a mouthful of bright red blood.

Top-heavy, and then the sky was spinning, and the wooden sleeper creek hand grabbed a handful of the air in vain, but couldn't catch anything, and his eyes went dark and he lost consciousness.