When I found the heroine as a boy

Xia Wanshuang still didn't finish that sentence, her last two words sounded very weaker than Zhou Qinglang thought she only said half a sentence.

This half sentence was enough for her to be elated.

Coupled with Xia Wanshuang's previous words, she felt that she was the happiest child in the world.

Although that kind of love was different from what she wanted, she was happy enough.

His heart was suddenly full of confidence, and he could despise all potential opponents.

After coaxing the little girl at home, Xia Wanshuang rode out to buy vegetables.

In fact, there is a supermarket not far from home. Xia Wanshuang usually buys vegetables there, but during holidays, she will go to a vegetable market a little further away to buy some chickens and ducks raised by the vendors.

Zhou Qinglang also wanted to be with her, Xia Wanshuang asked her to do homework at home, prepare well for the final exam, and just buy some groceries, she could do it by herself.

Xia Wanshuang parked the car outside the vegetable market, thinking about what to buy today.

The entrance of the vegetable market was dirty, and the black shoes worn by Xia Wan avoided the dirty water and walked inside.

The vegetable market was a bit noisy, with all kinds of bargaining and shouting sounds wrapped in various smells, and it felt a bit messy.

Xia Wanshuang liked the atmosphere quite a bit. After seeing all kinds of fruits and vegetables, she planned to go to the chicken stall first.

The live chickens were clucking in the cage, and the boss was cooking the chickens that had just been asked for by the customers, cutting their throats, bleeding and plucking their feathers.

"Little girl, when you buy chicken, is it tender or old?"

"Buy an old hen and cook soup at home."

"Here, those three are all in good spirits, you can choose."

Xia Wan nodded, looked at the three chickens by the coop, and was about to stand up when she suddenly caught a familiar figure out of the corner of her eye.

This was the fourth time she met that girl. In the noisy vegetable market, the girl in black down jacket passed through the crowd like a ghost, and went straight forward.

This person gave her a very strange and complicated feeling, like a lonely soul living in the sun and walking in the world, and seemed to disappear at any time.

"Boss, keep this chicken for me, I will come and buy it later."

"You have to hurry up. If there are others who buy it after it's sold out, I won't keep it for you."

"Okay, thank you boss."

Xia Wanshuang followed the girl's footsteps and followed with some anxiety in her heart.

There was a long distance between her and the girl, and Xia Wanshuang didn't know why she followed, it could only be attributed to the fact that human curiosity is so irrational.

Walking through the vegetable market, there are old buildings crowded together. The clothes are just hanging outside, and the tangled wires are like the interlaced wrinkles on the old man's face.

Because of the different heights of the buildings, the light of the building Xia Wanshuang saw was strictly blocked by the building in front. It was still daytime, but it made people feel a little gloomy.

The space is not airtight, at the end is the exit of this path, outlined by light.

But the man did not go out, but turned and entered a door,

It was only then that Xia Wanshuang realized that it wasn't all walls, there were two glass doors where the girl entered.

There is also a plaque on the door, which is a massage shop.

From the outside of the glass door, only a brown leather sofa can be seen in the narrow space, and there is a wooden door beside the sofa.

The sound of playing mahjong came from the poorly soundproofed door, mixed with laughter and cursing, making Xia Wan frown.

Suddenly there was a burst of sharp curses and the sound of tables and chairs colliding. Xia Wan felt worried. Before she could decide whether to go in or do something else, the wooden door was pulled open forcefully.

The girl in a black down jacket looked at her through the glass door, with an obvious dazed expression.

Xia Wanshuang saw the red and swollen palm marks on her face, and frowned even tighter.

She used to think that the scars on her body were done by those students in the school, but now that she thinks about it, it's not always the case.

"Want to go for a walk together?"

She didn't ask why Xia Wanshuang appeared here, she could only ask softly if she wanted to take a walk together.

"it is good."

Xia Wan nodded with a heavy heart.

She had no position to say anything, but silently followed the girl and walked forward with her.

"This winter is not as cold as usual."

The girl spoke, with an inconspicuous smile on her face.

"Yes, I feel a little colder than usual."

Xia Wanshuang also said that she was very sensitive to winter, so she could feel that today's temperature is lower than last year, and the cold wind blows into people's hearts.

"Maybe I encountered some good things this year, so I don't think this winter is actually that bad."

Xia Wan listened to the jokes of the people next to her, feeling like a lump in her throat.

She probably understood what she was talking about, and her heart became heavier.

"Didn't you work in that milk tea shop today?"

Xia Wanshuang abruptly changed the subject, thinking that the girl who nodded and greeted her in the milk tea shop that day was actually not quite the same as today.

"I don't need to go there in the future. The boss said he wants to hire permanent workers. It's still inconvenient for student workers, but it doesn't matter. I've already paid off the tuition."

"tuition fee?"

Now this semester is coming to an end, because high school is not included in the nine-year compulsory education, so high school tuition fees have to be paid.

The tuition fee of No. 1000 Middle School is [-] yuan a semester, and the accommodation is [-] yuan.

"Well, I borrowed it when school started, and I pay back a little every month. Fortunately, I paid it back."

"Then...that's fine."

Xia Wanshuang didn't want to mention her parents. If it was the girl's parents who cursed inside the glass door, it would be very bad. If it wasn't her parents, it would be even worse.

"So have you eaten today?"

"You don't have to talk to me so bluntly."

The girl said with a smile, making Xia Wanshuang a little embarrassed.

"Not yet, maybe I'll go to the rice noodle shop around the corner, there's nothing to eat at home."

"It's actually pretty good to eat by itself."

"Well, I also think, yes, I haven't told you my name yet, my name is Qingluo."

"Is it surnamed Qing? What a special name."

If Xia Wanshuang heard this name without knowing it, she must feel that this is a very happy person.

Because the name sounds very lively, it must be parents who love their children very much to choose such a cute name.

But in this situation, those words are impossible to say no matter what.

"Yes, red, orange, yellow, green, blue, purple, blue, green, and green. They sound very lively names, right?"

As Qingluo spoke, her brown eyes were darkened, she was still smiling, but only by looking into those eyes would she know that the smile was only superficial.

"Here, let me share with you the places I often come to."

Xia Wan raised her head and saw a building with many banners hanging on it, like an office building, but there were many different studios inside. At a glance, she saw dance, art, and taekwondo.

The elevator goes straight to the 32nd floor, the top floor. When you get out of the elevator, you can see the rooftop.

The roof was empty, and the winter wind passed through the body, making Xia Wan's hands tremble unconsciously.

She saw Qingluo walking straight to the edge of the roof, stepping up, her heart was about to pop out, her pupils constricted.

"You...it's dangerous there, come back first, don't sit there."

"Don't worry, it's very comfortable here, and you can see a lot of scenery, do you want to try it?"

Qingluo's two slender legs were dangling in mid-air, her voice was carried away by the wind, and it swayed slightly, like a sigh.

Xia Wan cherished her life, and carefully stuck it to the side, not having the courage to step up,

There are no guardrails here. As long as Qingluo moves forward, she will fall from the 32nd floor and be smashed to pieces.

"Shall we come in and talk?"

"You seem to be very worried that I will jump down like this. Don't worry, I won't just die like this."

Qing Luo raised her head and looked at the sky above her head.

Qingluo's pale face was thin, in Xia Wanshuang's field of vision, half was the gray sky, half was Qingluo's red and swollen face, which looked extremely depressed.

"Actually, I often think about how it would feel if I really jumped down. It should be a feeling of relief. Sometimes when I look at myself, I feel that my soul seems to be floating in mid-air. Just looking at the empty body like this, it seems to be just a A man supported by a pile of rotten flesh and a skeleton."

Qingluo said to herself, and closed her eyes.

The wind in December is not gentle, even very indifferent.

It whizzed past people's ears, leaving a biting cold.

"Some things aren't that bad actually."

Xia Wanshuang thought that she could say a lot of words to explain, but looking at this kind of picture, it seemed that saying anything was futile.

"Only when you are pulled up are you qualified to say those words. I really envy classmate Zhou..."

"Do you know Lang Lang?"

"It's not acquaintance, maybe she doesn't want to know me."

Qing Luo's tone was brisk, as if she had thought of something pleasant.

"You know about us?"

Xia Wanshuang's heart subconsciously became a little vigilant. This person had never appeared in her and Zhou Qinglang's life before, so why did he seem to know their past very well.

"I know some, and I'm sorry if this offends you."

Qing Luo's words were very beautiful, she tilted her head to look at Xia Wan's eyes, her eyes were pure.

"If I had been as lucky as her, maybe I wouldn't be living like I am today."

"You can change it yourself."

Xia Wanshuang believes that fate can be changed by oneself.

"But people can't resist their origins. I tried it, ran away, called the police, and cried, but what did I get back?"

Qingluo murmured in a calm tone.

"I asked for help, but no one helped me. I wanted to run, but I was caught back. I wanted to jump many times, but why should I jump?"

Qingluo pulled up her sleeves, making Xia Wan's heart tighten.

Qingluo has no support from her hands now, if one becomes unstable, she may fall from here.

But when she saw Qingluo's wrist, Xia Wanshuang's heart tightened even more.

The skin on the thin wrist was not smooth and white, and there were marks of cigarette burns, needle marks, pinch marks and some other bruises, which were shocking.

"They won't let me go to school. They told me that it's useless to go to school. It's better to be like them and spread your legs. The younger you are, the more you can get. I knelt down and begged them to let me go to school. They have seen enough of me. I only agreed with my response, but I don't give me tuition fees, I don't know how long I can delay..."

"absurd."

Xia Wan gritted her teeth and spat out these two words forcefully.

"The only way to study is the fairest way, and it is also the best way to let people who can't see hope see hope."

"So I plan to run away with the money after the college entrance examination, but my grades are not good, can you help me?"

Qingluo curled her lips, the abyss lay beneath her feet.