The time machine tells me [rebirth]
Chapter 58
Jiang Muzhi's voice still sounded indifferent, but Rong Feijin was sensitively aware of the softening of her attitude, and unconsciously curled his lips together, and a lovely dimple loomed on his cheek.
"'In her eyes, you are unrequited love.'" Rong Feijin pretended to be thinking hard, tapped his chin with his index finger, repeated Jiang Muzhi's words, and then smiled slyly: "So, Amu , I am not unrequited love, you like me... right."
Rong Feijin thought that according to Jiang Muzhi's current attitude towards her, he should immediately deny it in a panic.
But who knows, Jiang Muzhi glanced at her calmly, admitting it very happily.
"So, is there any problem?" Jiang Muzhi asked.
Jiang Muzhi felt that there was really no need for her to deny this obvious fact. They knew each other well, so what if they denied it?It's not that if she denies it, she can really forget her.
Hearing this, Rong Feijin's face slowly turned red, bit her lip, and unconsciously raised her hand to touch her hot cheek.
is there a problem.Rong Feijin recited it happily in her heart, and hurriedly said, "No problem! Of course not!"
Even though she already knew the other party's unchanging intentions towards her, but when she really heard the other party's affirmative answer, her mood was still as good as fireworks.
"Well, then, Amu..." Rong Feijin lowered her eyes, her long eyelashes trembled, and she clutched the corner of her clothes nervously: "Now I'm about to meet the two requirements you mentioned, I'm coming out Now, making money in the entertainment industry is definitely not a problem, can you..." Stay with me.
For a moment, my heart beat like a drum.Rong Feijin felt that the heart that jumped three feet high seemed to be out of his throat, and he was as shy as the confession ten years ago.
She bit her lip and raised her head cautiously, secretly observing Jiang Muzhi's reaction, but to her disappointment, Jiang Muzhi still shook his head slowly under her expectant eyes.
Rong Feijin's bright eyes gradually dimmed, and he looked at Jiang Muzhi in a daze.
Under her gaze, Jiang Muzhi couldn't help but dodge his eyes slightly, and couldn't help lowering his head, his desolate demeanor was mixed with a little panic.
She really couldn't see this man's dejected look, those beautiful eyes were like crumbling stars, and a hole was directly broken in the defense that made her soften.
Jiang Muzhi could feel that his heart was about to move, whispering in his heart over and over again like the temptation of the god of desire: promise her, promise her, be with her, and then not allow her to enter the entertainment industry as a lover... ...Do you have the heart to let her enter that big dye vat alone?Do you have the heart to let her face those ups and downs alone?
No matter how many times she asked herself, the answer was, she couldn't bear it.
Everyone in the world loves each other in self-righteous ways.Jiang Muzhi's heart couldn't be clearer. She and Rong Feijin are both like this, and it's also because they each think that they have done their best to make the other happy, and they will end up in this situation in the end.Rong Feijin pretended to be clever and said that the words of severance were like this, and she pretended to be affectionate and kept silent, and she didn't even ask to stay.
In fact, she didn't blame Rong Feijin much for these things anymore, but when she thought about them occasionally, she still felt a little pain in her heart, but those emotions of wanting to be with her were always clamoring in her heart...
She almost thought that she was going to nod in agreement.But after all, she still couldn't get over a hurdle in her heart. That hurdle was left after Tang Mian saved herself with her life. She couldn't help but blame Rong Feijin, let alone forgive herself.Even if she did it all over again, she couldn't convince herself that A Mian was killed by her love as if it never happened...
Jiang Muzhi carried Rong Feijin on his back, walked to the window sill in disorderly steps, and opened the curtains. She held her forehead in pain, desperately suppressing her emotions, her eyes were red and astringent, and her heart was heavy like a pressure a boulder.
"Sorry, I can't."
What she said was "I can't", not "I don't want to", Rong Feijin was keenly aware of the difference between the two, which gave her the courage to continue and rekindled her infinite hope.
"You can't? Why?"
In Jiang Muzhi's heart, Rong Feijin has always been gentle and gentle, but this time, her words were strangely sharp, pressing her every step of the way as if she couldn't see her difficulties, and she seemed to be scabbed, but in fact, she was already deep inside. The rotten and smelly wounds were exposed in the air bit by bit.
"You obviously love me, even, you obviously forgive me, I can see your attitude softening, but why can't you be with me again?" Rong Feijin walked behind Jiang Mu, frowning, eyes Eyes full of incomprehension:
"Amu, don't lie to me, and don't lie to yourself. Let me ask you again, are you serious, don't you want to be with me? We missed it once in our previous life, and you really want to leave this eternal love between us. Are you sorry?"
"Don't force me..." Jiang Muzhi rubbed his temples and sighed helplessly.
"I force you? I don't want to force you! But if I don't force you, you can escape forever! You promised me last time to give me another chance. I'm afraid it's just perfunctory, but I believed it!"
Rong Feijin stepped forward excitedly, grabbed Jiang Muzhi's arm, and forced her to turn around: "I have been trying to fill the gap between us, but you have always been there Avoiding, pretending not to see my efforts, you hypnotize yourself in the bottom of your heart, repeating over and over again, we can't be together..."
"Jiang Muzhi, look into my eyes. Tell me why you'can't' be with me. As long as you tell me, I won't force you! Tell me, why!"
Jiang Muzhi listened to Rong Feijin's words in a daze, and seeing the tears in the corners of her eyes that she raised her hand to quickly wipe away, heartbroken.The girl she had secretly vowed to protect forever, in the end, it was she who hurt her the most.
What Ah Chen said was right, she shouldn't be so indecisive anymore, categorically refusing, yet hesitantly approaching and caring, if this goes on like this, she will never be able to draw a clear line with Rong Feijin.
She sighed and spoke slowly:
"Because of A Mian, do you remember? I told you, I can't forget it. I think I also have the common problem of some selfish people - shirk responsibility, A Mian obviously died because of me, my mouth I don’t say it, but I always blame you in my heart.”
"I often think, if it weren't for the unfeeling words you said on purpose, I would not have left Jianghai City, and if you hadn't gotten married, I would not have returned to Jianghai City..." Jiang Muzhi shrugged his shoulders slightly, breaking away from Rong Fei. Jin put her hand on her shoulder: "So, actually, you see, I'm not as good as you think. On the contrary, I'm outrageously selfish."
Rong Feijin staggered. Not only did she remember this, but she also remembered Jiang Muzhi telling her: some things have not happened yet, but the damage caused will not be wiped out... But she doesn't blame Jiang Muzhi at all. Mu Zhi blamed Tang Mian's death on her, because even she thought so, and she couldn't justify it.
"This is a thorn in my heart. Even if Ah Mian is alive now, I can't forget it. So I said, I can't, I can't be with you, I can't waste my friend's life, and... with a murderer Those who killed her are together..."
"How could it be?" Rong Feijin forced a smile, sniffled, and dodged his eyes: "These are temporary, you will forget one day sooner or later, you are still angry now, we can be together .”
Rong Feijin opened his eyes wide as if in a daze: "It's ok...or I will pay her back, if I pay her back what I owe her, you will be able to forgive me!"
"Rong Feijin."
"Okay, then I'll give it back to her, give it back to her..."
"Rong Feijin."
"I'll give it back to her..."
"Rong Feijin!" Jiang Muzhi turned up the volume and swayed Rong Feijin's body: "Be sober! How can you give it back to her?"
Rong Feijin came back to her senses in a daze. She couldn't accept this unsolvable proposition. She smiled helplessly in despair: "But you are the meaning of my rebirth..."
"I'm not." Jiang Muzhi said: "The meaning of your rebirth is yourself, how about treating yourself well? Even without me, you still have to live well, for your mother, for many people..."
Jiang Muzhi suddenly remembered something, she was a little tired, obviously she was standing here talking to Rong Feijin, not to argue with her about these grievances.
"Also, I'm seriously advising you, don't enter the entertainment industry, okay? I'm really worried that you will be counted on."
"It's too late." Rong Feijin replied feebly, "I've already signed the contract."
Jiang Muzhi thought for a while: "I can pay the liquidated damages. After all, I am responsible for your wanting to enter the entertainment circle..."
"No need."
This was the first time that Rong Feijin ignored her since his rebirth, and even in his previous life, such cases were rare.
She seemed to have lost all her strength, and her whole body became depressed.It looked... as if he had lost the desire to live.This recognition made Jiang Muzhi startled.
"Don't be like this. It's not like the world can't survive without anyone."
"I can't live without you." Rong Feijin raised her eyes and looked at Jiang Muzhi fixedly, her eyes were full of despair.
Her eyes were full of earnestness, but Jiang Muzhi only felt that it was her impulsiveness, and it would be fine after a long time.It's like when Liu Chen and Ji Ningchen broke up, and they were on the verge of death. At that time, they also felt that they couldn't live without each other.But at least before she died, the two of them were not together, didn't they still live in peace?
But that was a long time ago, and now is not the time.Jiang Muzhi believed that if she spoke her mind now, maybe Rong Feijin would be able to jump down from here and prove it to her.
She had no choice but to coax the man: "Okay, I can't live without you. But as you said, I might be in a momentary mood, and I will turn around one day, so do you have to live yourself?" Only by becoming the best version of yourself can you be with me? If you die and I regret it, who will I be with?"
Jiang Muzhi observed Rong Feijin carefully, and found that her eyes moved, as if she was thinking about something, and she was about to agree with her.
So she continued:
"You have to protect yourself well, and you can't let others bully you, so I'll pay the liquidated damages, okay?"
"No need." Rong Feijin still said the same thing. She pulled herself together and forced a smile: "Although I know you are coaxing me, I am still very happy. You are right. There must be a car before the mountain." Lu, maybe time will make you forgive me."
"So, I will not change my decision, I will protect myself well when I enter the entertainment circle..."
Speaking, Rong Feijin chuckled: "Is it because I have been gentle for so long that you have forgotten how unapproachable I was back then?"
She thought for a while, and added: "Of course, except for you. When I first met you, I sent you to your door by myself... And do you think that I made the decision so easily? Naturally, I have something to rely on."
"'In her eyes, you are unrequited love.'" Rong Feijin pretended to be thinking hard, tapped his chin with his index finger, repeated Jiang Muzhi's words, and then smiled slyly: "So, Amu , I am not unrequited love, you like me... right."
Rong Feijin thought that according to Jiang Muzhi's current attitude towards her, he should immediately deny it in a panic.
But who knows, Jiang Muzhi glanced at her calmly, admitting it very happily.
"So, is there any problem?" Jiang Muzhi asked.
Jiang Muzhi felt that there was really no need for her to deny this obvious fact. They knew each other well, so what if they denied it?It's not that if she denies it, she can really forget her.
Hearing this, Rong Feijin's face slowly turned red, bit her lip, and unconsciously raised her hand to touch her hot cheek.
is there a problem.Rong Feijin recited it happily in her heart, and hurriedly said, "No problem! Of course not!"
Even though she already knew the other party's unchanging intentions towards her, but when she really heard the other party's affirmative answer, her mood was still as good as fireworks.
"Well, then, Amu..." Rong Feijin lowered her eyes, her long eyelashes trembled, and she clutched the corner of her clothes nervously: "Now I'm about to meet the two requirements you mentioned, I'm coming out Now, making money in the entertainment industry is definitely not a problem, can you..." Stay with me.
For a moment, my heart beat like a drum.Rong Feijin felt that the heart that jumped three feet high seemed to be out of his throat, and he was as shy as the confession ten years ago.
She bit her lip and raised her head cautiously, secretly observing Jiang Muzhi's reaction, but to her disappointment, Jiang Muzhi still shook his head slowly under her expectant eyes.
Rong Feijin's bright eyes gradually dimmed, and he looked at Jiang Muzhi in a daze.
Under her gaze, Jiang Muzhi couldn't help but dodge his eyes slightly, and couldn't help lowering his head, his desolate demeanor was mixed with a little panic.
She really couldn't see this man's dejected look, those beautiful eyes were like crumbling stars, and a hole was directly broken in the defense that made her soften.
Jiang Muzhi could feel that his heart was about to move, whispering in his heart over and over again like the temptation of the god of desire: promise her, promise her, be with her, and then not allow her to enter the entertainment industry as a lover... ...Do you have the heart to let her enter that big dye vat alone?Do you have the heart to let her face those ups and downs alone?
No matter how many times she asked herself, the answer was, she couldn't bear it.
Everyone in the world loves each other in self-righteous ways.Jiang Muzhi's heart couldn't be clearer. She and Rong Feijin are both like this, and it's also because they each think that they have done their best to make the other happy, and they will end up in this situation in the end.Rong Feijin pretended to be clever and said that the words of severance were like this, and she pretended to be affectionate and kept silent, and she didn't even ask to stay.
In fact, she didn't blame Rong Feijin much for these things anymore, but when she thought about them occasionally, she still felt a little pain in her heart, but those emotions of wanting to be with her were always clamoring in her heart...
She almost thought that she was going to nod in agreement.But after all, she still couldn't get over a hurdle in her heart. That hurdle was left after Tang Mian saved herself with her life. She couldn't help but blame Rong Feijin, let alone forgive herself.Even if she did it all over again, she couldn't convince herself that A Mian was killed by her love as if it never happened...
Jiang Muzhi carried Rong Feijin on his back, walked to the window sill in disorderly steps, and opened the curtains. She held her forehead in pain, desperately suppressing her emotions, her eyes were red and astringent, and her heart was heavy like a pressure a boulder.
"Sorry, I can't."
What she said was "I can't", not "I don't want to", Rong Feijin was keenly aware of the difference between the two, which gave her the courage to continue and rekindled her infinite hope.
"You can't? Why?"
In Jiang Muzhi's heart, Rong Feijin has always been gentle and gentle, but this time, her words were strangely sharp, pressing her every step of the way as if she couldn't see her difficulties, and she seemed to be scabbed, but in fact, she was already deep inside. The rotten and smelly wounds were exposed in the air bit by bit.
"You obviously love me, even, you obviously forgive me, I can see your attitude softening, but why can't you be with me again?" Rong Feijin walked behind Jiang Mu, frowning, eyes Eyes full of incomprehension:
"Amu, don't lie to me, and don't lie to yourself. Let me ask you again, are you serious, don't you want to be with me? We missed it once in our previous life, and you really want to leave this eternal love between us. Are you sorry?"
"Don't force me..." Jiang Muzhi rubbed his temples and sighed helplessly.
"I force you? I don't want to force you! But if I don't force you, you can escape forever! You promised me last time to give me another chance. I'm afraid it's just perfunctory, but I believed it!"
Rong Feijin stepped forward excitedly, grabbed Jiang Muzhi's arm, and forced her to turn around: "I have been trying to fill the gap between us, but you have always been there Avoiding, pretending not to see my efforts, you hypnotize yourself in the bottom of your heart, repeating over and over again, we can't be together..."
"Jiang Muzhi, look into my eyes. Tell me why you'can't' be with me. As long as you tell me, I won't force you! Tell me, why!"
Jiang Muzhi listened to Rong Feijin's words in a daze, and seeing the tears in the corners of her eyes that she raised her hand to quickly wipe away, heartbroken.The girl she had secretly vowed to protect forever, in the end, it was she who hurt her the most.
What Ah Chen said was right, she shouldn't be so indecisive anymore, categorically refusing, yet hesitantly approaching and caring, if this goes on like this, she will never be able to draw a clear line with Rong Feijin.
She sighed and spoke slowly:
"Because of A Mian, do you remember? I told you, I can't forget it. I think I also have the common problem of some selfish people - shirk responsibility, A Mian obviously died because of me, my mouth I don’t say it, but I always blame you in my heart.”
"I often think, if it weren't for the unfeeling words you said on purpose, I would not have left Jianghai City, and if you hadn't gotten married, I would not have returned to Jianghai City..." Jiang Muzhi shrugged his shoulders slightly, breaking away from Rong Fei. Jin put her hand on her shoulder: "So, actually, you see, I'm not as good as you think. On the contrary, I'm outrageously selfish."
Rong Feijin staggered. Not only did she remember this, but she also remembered Jiang Muzhi telling her: some things have not happened yet, but the damage caused will not be wiped out... But she doesn't blame Jiang Muzhi at all. Mu Zhi blamed Tang Mian's death on her, because even she thought so, and she couldn't justify it.
"This is a thorn in my heart. Even if Ah Mian is alive now, I can't forget it. So I said, I can't, I can't be with you, I can't waste my friend's life, and... with a murderer Those who killed her are together..."
"How could it be?" Rong Feijin forced a smile, sniffled, and dodged his eyes: "These are temporary, you will forget one day sooner or later, you are still angry now, we can be together .”
Rong Feijin opened his eyes wide as if in a daze: "It's ok...or I will pay her back, if I pay her back what I owe her, you will be able to forgive me!"
"Rong Feijin."
"Okay, then I'll give it back to her, give it back to her..."
"Rong Feijin."
"I'll give it back to her..."
"Rong Feijin!" Jiang Muzhi turned up the volume and swayed Rong Feijin's body: "Be sober! How can you give it back to her?"
Rong Feijin came back to her senses in a daze. She couldn't accept this unsolvable proposition. She smiled helplessly in despair: "But you are the meaning of my rebirth..."
"I'm not." Jiang Muzhi said: "The meaning of your rebirth is yourself, how about treating yourself well? Even without me, you still have to live well, for your mother, for many people..."
Jiang Muzhi suddenly remembered something, she was a little tired, obviously she was standing here talking to Rong Feijin, not to argue with her about these grievances.
"Also, I'm seriously advising you, don't enter the entertainment industry, okay? I'm really worried that you will be counted on."
"It's too late." Rong Feijin replied feebly, "I've already signed the contract."
Jiang Muzhi thought for a while: "I can pay the liquidated damages. After all, I am responsible for your wanting to enter the entertainment circle..."
"No need."
This was the first time that Rong Feijin ignored her since his rebirth, and even in his previous life, such cases were rare.
She seemed to have lost all her strength, and her whole body became depressed.It looked... as if he had lost the desire to live.This recognition made Jiang Muzhi startled.
"Don't be like this. It's not like the world can't survive without anyone."
"I can't live without you." Rong Feijin raised her eyes and looked at Jiang Muzhi fixedly, her eyes were full of despair.
Her eyes were full of earnestness, but Jiang Muzhi only felt that it was her impulsiveness, and it would be fine after a long time.It's like when Liu Chen and Ji Ningchen broke up, and they were on the verge of death. At that time, they also felt that they couldn't live without each other.But at least before she died, the two of them were not together, didn't they still live in peace?
But that was a long time ago, and now is not the time.Jiang Muzhi believed that if she spoke her mind now, maybe Rong Feijin would be able to jump down from here and prove it to her.
She had no choice but to coax the man: "Okay, I can't live without you. But as you said, I might be in a momentary mood, and I will turn around one day, so do you have to live yourself?" Only by becoming the best version of yourself can you be with me? If you die and I regret it, who will I be with?"
Jiang Muzhi observed Rong Feijin carefully, and found that her eyes moved, as if she was thinking about something, and she was about to agree with her.
So she continued:
"You have to protect yourself well, and you can't let others bully you, so I'll pay the liquidated damages, okay?"
"No need." Rong Feijin still said the same thing. She pulled herself together and forced a smile: "Although I know you are coaxing me, I am still very happy. You are right. There must be a car before the mountain." Lu, maybe time will make you forgive me."
"So, I will not change my decision, I will protect myself well when I enter the entertainment circle..."
Speaking, Rong Feijin chuckled: "Is it because I have been gentle for so long that you have forgotten how unapproachable I was back then?"
She thought for a while, and added: "Of course, except for you. When I first met you, I sent you to your door by myself... And do you think that I made the decision so easily? Naturally, I have something to rely on."
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