wild boy

The second half of the school year came to an end with a chill that was getting worse every day.

After the results of the placement test were announced, the entire grade surrounded the bulletin board.

Ren Zhou didn't want to be pushed and shoved in the crowd, but he didn't want to waste time going to Gu Zinan's place either.He stood on the outskirts of the crowd, like a bewildered rabbit who couldn't find its nest, hesitating whether to look or not.

"Student, what's your name? Let me take a look for you."

It took Ren Zhou a while to realize that the voice was talking to him. He turned his head and looked dully: it was a white and fat boy, who was holding the arm of the tall man next to him, and looked at him with his mouth open in surprise. .Only then did the tall man slowly turn his eyes on Xiaopang to himself, with a look of no interest.

"What's your name? Let me take a look for you." Xiaopang repeated.He blinked and smiled, his expression was so clean that there was no trace of impurity.

The tall man next to him frowned unobtrusively.

Ren Zhou didn't know how to deal with strangers, he hunched his back slightly, shook his head, turned around and left.

He could feel the eyes of those two people still cast on his back, like thorns, making him so awkward that he didn't even know how to walk.

At that time, Gu Zinan was cleaning the second floor. He was riding on the window frame, with one long leg outside the window, holding a rag in his hand, and had a panoramic view of everything that happened downstairs, including Ren Zhou turning back after walking a long way. look.

Cut, what, still reluctant to let go, seeing Ren Zhou's slumped shoulders and hunched back makes him angry.Gu Zinan wiped the glass twice vigorously, making creaking noises.

When leaving school in the afternoon, Gu Zinan walked out of the school gate with her bag on her back, Ren Zhou hurriedly pushed the car to catch up.After five o'clock, the cold winter sun hangs in the west, making the shadows of the two people long.

The two walked together in silence for a while, and Gu Zinan suddenly said, "Don't follow me."

Ren Zhou was in a daze when the wheels turned and made the sound of gently rolling over the ground. He was stunned and said "ah" with a confused look on his face.

Gu Zinan simply stopped, looked at him expressionlessly, and said coldly: "Don't understand? Are you homeless or something?"

Ren Zhou was startled, raised his head slightly, bit his lower lip with his teeth, and turned pale.

"Young master, have you played enough?" Gu Zinan raised the corners of her lips, and glanced at the car following behind, "The game of driving in the slums should be over."

He was tired of sticking with Ren Zhou so unclearly.Even if he knew that Ren Jie gave money, he could not blame Ren Zhou, but Gu Zinan still felt that rotten smell of gold, silver and copper emanated from every cell in Ren Zhou's body, ostentatiously, lingering around the tip of his nose as if showing off.

As if raising old scars to remind him how ridiculous he was.

"Goodbye." Gu Zinan put a distant smile on his face, left without saying anything.

Ren Zhou realized that he was really dull.Even though Gu Zinan gave him all kinds of reasons these days not to let him go home, and in the end he didn't even bother to make up excuses, he didn't even realize that he was annoying the other party again.He held on to the handlebar in a daze, watching Gu Zinan leave without mercy.

How many times has it happened, Ren Zhou thought sullenly.

Gu Zinan always said goodbye too lightly, he could only bite his lips hard, so that the weak request would not escape from the gap between his teeth, and fall back to the bottom of his heart in despair.

Since the holiday, although under the high pressure of Ren Jie all day long, the work and rest still maintain the routine of going to school, but the dream has never been interrupted.

On New Year's Eve, Ren Zhou pinched his cell phone, hid under the blanket, and sent Gu Zinan a text message cautiously.Although it was impossible to eat the big mushroom dumplings made by Grandma Gu, he still couldn't help but have fantasies.

Originally edited a long paragraph, Ren Zhou hesitated for a long time, but slowly deleted it.

In the end, what arrived at Gu Zinan's place was only four simple words, "Happy New Year".

Gu Zinan was busy closing the store and going back to eat dumplings, stuffing bottles of good wine that could be sold into her bag.Anyway, Jia Yu is not too rare, he can earn a few thousand if he sells it.Hearing the sound, he frantically took out his mobile phone and looked at it, then put it back in his pocket calmly.

Ren Zhou held his mobile phone and waited until midnight in a daze. There was a thin layer of frost outside the window, but he didn't receive any reply.

Even this year has passed.

Ren Zhou and Gu Zinan didn't even check the class assignments, and they didn't know they were assigned to a class until the first day of school.

One sat in the middle of the first few rows of the class, while the other was assigned to the last row next to the trash can. The two seemed to straddle a galaxy without any connection.

The competition list was announced in May, and Ren Zhou's name was crowded among the three.He was fourth in the exam last semester, behind Lin Shao.Although he was puzzled by this list, Ren Jie told him that Lin Shao did not surpass him in physics, so Ren Zhou accepted it as a matter of course.

Gu Zinan, on the other hand, sneered after reading the list, shook his head slightly and walked away.

Even though it was the end of get out of class and the surroundings were chaotic, Ren Zhou still sensitively and accurately captured the unkind smile.

What laughing?Ren Zhou looked at the empty class door in confusion, did he already hate him to this extent?Can't bear even a little bit of his well-being?

On the last day of June, Ren Zhou, as a forcibly appointed study committee member, shuttled through the aisle to collect statistics for arts and sciences.He twisted his shoulders, remained silent, and took the white note from the hands of those students who still couldn't make out their faces.No one communicates with him, Ren Zhou is like a lonely rotating planet in the class, and its orbit does not intersect with anyone.

The last few rows are very close to the trash cans, where Gu Zinan's group of "ignorant" boys usually sit.It was during the recess of physical education class, and there was no one there now.

Ren Zhou gritted his teeth and walked over in small steps.

The desktop is empty.

Obviously the teacher in charge said that the class would be handed in this break, Ren Zhou sighed softly.

Unexpectedly, when he walked back to his seat, he pointed to a few pieces of paper under the pencil case: "Gu Zinan just brought it here."

Ren Zhou smoothed the papers and put them in the palm of his hand, putting Gu Zinan's on top.

liberal arts.

The words "dragon, flying and phoenix dancing" are simple, as if to say goodbye.

Ren Zhou held the papers for selecting subjects for a long time, and they all became warm.

For the first time, he deeply realized that Gu Zinan's life and his life were basically two parallel lines that did not intersect.

Gu Zinan has his own path to choose, and that path is too narrow for him.

Enduring the feeling of emptiness in his heart, he forced himself to open his legs, and walked forward in a daze.The originally clear podium, blackboard, and doors all turned into a hazy mass, and were mixed into other colors by the tear film.

As soon as his hand touched the cold doorknob, the door was slammed open from the outside, hitting Ren Zhou on the shoulder.Ren Zhou was already thin and weak, so he fell to the ground with difficulty, and the note in his hand was out of control, scattered around him.

A group of boys stood at the door, looking down at Ren Zhou's embarrassment.

Ren Zhou's glasses fell out of position, but he could feel countless dirty dust on the ground sticking to his body, and those bacteria that were invisible to the naked eye wriggled their slender tails and drilled in and out from every pore. He couldn't even breathe for a while. I held my breath, feeling like I was about to pass out.

But no.Gu Zinan was still in front of him, he didn't want to be so disrespectful.

"What's wrong? Don't you have eyes?" The boy holding the ball looked at him impatiently.It's not like Lin Daiyu, who is delicate and frail, can't get up after knocking on the door?

Ren Zhou knew that Gu Zinan was also standing in front of him.He could smell the faint soap locust smell sensitively, which made his violent heartbeat slowly slow down.

He propped himself up on the ground, tried his best to get up, and began to pick up the scattered notes.

The group of boys, who were usually not controlled, got impatient and stepped over with their legs stretched out. The footprints of sneakers one by one were directly on the white paper.

The last pair of shoes stopped in front of him for a while, after all, they still stepped over the papers and blew a light fragrance.

Ren Zhou lowered his eyes, feeling his heart ache from the wind.

"Gu Zinan, come back and pick it up!" The angry voice traversed the entire classroom, stopping a group of sweaty boys in place.

Gu Zinan turned his head to look, and quickly captured in his memory that he was the little fat guy who took the initiative to talk to Ren Zhou at the end of last semester.

Unhappy for no reason, he sneered, "Fat pig, can you say it again?"

A farce was about to kick off, and everyone in the class turned their heads to watch the excitement.Huang Dongdong's face turned red all of a sudden, but he wanted to show his momentum and tell Gu Zinan and the others: "At least you should apologize if you hit someone..."

Gu Zinan's eyes seemed to be filled with black storms, dark and frightening.

"Forget it." Ren Zhou, who had been very quiet all this time, suddenly stretched out his hand and grabbed Huang Dongdong, and said in a low voice.

Huang Dongdong could feel the slender hand that was pulling his sleeve trembling violently. Looking at the fingertips that were so hard that they turned white, he suddenly felt very sad.

Ren Zhou seemed so isolated and helpless that he was willing to escape into the darkness with silence.

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There are not many guests in the evening, and 'Shensha' rarely seems a little empty.Gu Zinan stood behind the bar with her chin propped on her hand, thinking of going back early, passing by the pharmacy and getting some wormwood for her grandma's feet to soak her feet.

Just as the hour hand pointed to eleven o'clock, the door was knocked open.

Jia Yu was wearing a thin dark floral silk shirt, with a sweet smile on his lips, and entered the shop with a man.The two walked all the way to the edge of the bar, only then did Gu Zinan realize that Jia Yu was drinking.

The first few buttons of the thin shirt were all undone, revealing a large part of the white forehead and chest, and the corners of the eyes and eyebrows were dyed a light pink.Jia Yu was completely like a prodigal son in a romantic scene, exuding a lazy and charming atmosphere all over his body.Right now, he was leaning against the man's body as if his bones had been taken away, and said to Gu Zinan, "Give President Liu a martini, something bitter, clear your mouth."

Gu Zinan silently glanced at the man, he was in good condition, but no matter how he looked, he looked like a man in his 40s.

He picked up the long-handled silver spoon with his hand and smoothly mixed the wine.Jia Yu made no secret of his sexual orientation. Although Gu Zinan was not interested in paying attention, he knew that he had never lost anyone around him.It's almost thirty, and he still adheres to the policy of playing one and losing one, wandering around like a lonely soul.

The light-colored wine was slowly poured into the triangular glass, and a few fresh olives were also added for seasoning. Gu Zinan pushed the wine glass forward and left work with a wink.

"This bartender looks quite young, and he's doing really well." The man called Mr. Liu said after taking a sip of his drink.

Seeing the vulgar appearance of the man holding the triangular cup between his fingers, Jia Yu felt a little bored in his heart, but lowered his eyelashes and said calmly: "The child I picked up by hand." His eyes lit up, But it was well hidden in an instant.

After drinking, what should be done still can't be prevaricated.

In the middle of the night, when the man was panting roughly, Jia Yu bit his lip lightly, stroked the man's shoulder and neck with his slender hands, and said softly, "Don't forget what you promised me." Twist lightly.

The man was excited, and suddenly he was pinched hard, he groaned in comfort, grabbed Jia Yu's hair and said in a low voice: "Don't worry, I can't escape you."

Jia Yu smiled, and let the man play with him.

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When Gu Zinan came out of the pharmacy with a big bag of wormwood, Ren Zhou was struggling with a table of physics problems.

They are all the essence of competitions over the years, and it takes hours to solve a problem.Ren Jie set up a countdown hourglass in front of her face, and the sound of her soft movements caught her ears, making Ren Zhou pick at the lines on the pen nervously.

"Are you ready? It's been 15 minutes and you haven't seen anything yet?" Ren Jie finally lost her composure, and her cold voice pierced the silence.

Ren Zhou bit his lip tightly, without even raising his head, he said tremblingly, "Wait a minute, I will make it. I will make it..."

I will make it.All problems, they also allow me to escape from those chaotic thoughts, right as a solace.

The night is still very long.

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