lovelorn too little

Numbers flashed, bells rang softly, elevator doors opened and closed, bystanders came and left quietly.

Lu Xinyi cried all the way in the car, and shed another brief tear. To Zhou Ping, he always had too many tears, too much grievance, and too much reluctance, which cannot be denied. There is also too much love, and too much resentment.

Zhou Ping soon hugged him too hot, but he couldn't push him away, and he didn't move even when he was stepped on his feet. At this moment in the dead of night, Lu Xinyi was always angry and screamed, and was out of breath. He raised his head and stared at him. After the clean teardrops fell, Zhou Pingxin's hair tightened, and his hands gradually loosened, and he became more disciplined.

Lu Xinyi turned to open the door, Zhou Ping followed closely behind him, although he still didn't say a word, he was agile, the door opened a crack, and he squeezed in after him.

The house was bought off-the-shelf, and it had been hanging out for a full year before it was in Lu Xinyi's hands. Lu Xinyi came to see it once, but he had only seen photos of Chang Hao adding things to it later on. Later, two emotions of strangeness and stability emerged at the same time. He took a bath and rested by himself, leaving Zhou Ping to explore alone.

Compared with two months ago, the positions seem to be mutually exclusive.

After turning off the light, Zhou Ping groped onto the bed after a while, Lu Xinyi pushed his elbow back when he leaned over, and Zhou Ping grabbed his forearm.

"Go to sleep in another room." Lu Xinyi said, "Hurry up."

Zhou Pingdao: "Okay, is there any other request?"

Without even thinking about it, Lu Xinyi said, "From today on, don't mess with me."

Zhou Ping put his arms around him and nodded, and poked his chin on Lu Xinyi's shoulder: "That's fine, what else?"

Lu Xinyi was hugged too tightly by him, it was not very comfortable, she rubbed against him, found a suitable position in his arms, and continued: "I'll talk about it when I think about it."

Zhou Ping hugged him for a while before getting up, put one hand on top of his head, looked down at him, touched his face with the other hand and said, "Can I give you a kiss?"

Lu Xinyi turned her head towards the pillow, almost buried her face in the pillow, and refused, "No."

"Okay." Zhou Ping said, "Then I'm leaving."

He let go of Lu Xinyi and found a guest room to sleep in. His heart was unexpectedly calm, not because he got rid of most of the weightlessness and panic.He knew that Lu Xinyi was far from trying to forgive him, not to mention whether the forgiveness he wanted was the same as the forgiveness Lu Xinyi would give, it was not clear at all.

If you change places, can you do it yourself?Zhou Ping didn't even dare to ask himself that.

Because the fact is that even the first time Lu Xinyi was cheated by him, it was impossible for him to happen to him.Not to mention the second and third times behind.

The next morning, the two met in the restaurant. Lu Xinyi didn't wake up, and groped to the table with half-opened eyes, and sat down to drink porridge and sweet potato cake.

The one in the pot was still frying. Zhou Ping held up a colander and gave him a plate. He watched him poke the sweet potato cake with a chopstick and eat it with his eyes closed. His eye sockets were red and swollen, so he just said, "Be careful."

"Delicious." Lu Xinyi scooped up the plate, put his arms half around it, and moved his cheeks like a small animal protecting food.

When Zhou Ping came to the table, Lu Xinyi woke up a lot and started to eat with his eyes open.He took a big mouthful of lean meat porridge with the bowl in his hand, and asked Zhou Ping strangely, "Did you sleep well?"

Zhou Pingdao: "Very good."

"Oh." Lu Xinyi picked the rim of the bowl, and asked after a while, "It's pretty good, how is it good?"

Zhou Ping gave him pickled vegetables with chopsticks, and thought about it: "I just had a dream after falling asleep."

Lu Xinyi curled her lips: "Dreams are due to poor sleep quality!"

Zhou Ping didn't speak, but Lu Xinyi said, "Then have you taken your medicine?"

Zhou Ping lowered his head to drink the porridge, and said for a long while, "Eat."

Lu Xinyi said dryly again.

After dinner, Chang Hao also arrived. Zhou Ping escorted him to the door, put on gloves and a scarf for him, and finally put on the down jacket and hat, tightened the drawstring, couldn't help laughing, Lu Xinyi "cut" and patted Opened his hand, turned around and walked crookedly.

Zhou Ping lived in Lu Xinyi's house for more than half a month. By the beginning of February, Lu Xinyi's work was much less, so he never went out for a long time. He basically lived the life of an office worker, but he had to work for a few more hours. Probably seven in the morning and eleven in the evening.

In recent days, it has been snowing intermittently in Beijing, the sky is gray, and large groups of snowflakes are falling.

The cleaning could not keep up with the snowfall speed, and the roads were heavily snowed. By that night, it finally caused several small-scale traffic jams.

Lu Xinyi danced all day and was already exhausted. On the way home, she waited in the car for nearly four to ten minutes. She was hungry and sleepy, so she proposed to get out of the car and walk back.

It was almost twelve o'clock, the distance was not too far, and there were only snow and immobile cars on the road, and there were not many pedestrians. Fang Dan didn't refuse much, but felt that it was dangerous, so he and Chang Hao simply got out of the car and planned to walk him back. , and wait for the driver to come over slowly.

After walking a few steps, Lu Xinyi received a call from Zhou Ping, who was already the third one tonight, and instead of asking him how the road was going, he just said that he would come to pick him up.

Lu Xinyi listened to Zhou Ping's wind that covered most of his voice, and knew that he was already on the road, and the snowflakes were falling on his hair and face, so he squeezed his phone tightly and said loudly: "I'll wait for you at the KFC at the intersection, please slow down. Do not worry!"

Zhou Ping hung up the phone and came quickly.

The snow was so heavy that Lu Xinyi looked out of the empty KFC through a floor-to-ceiling glass window. In the congested traffic, the night engulfed everything, and the neon lights from the surrounding buildings were no exception.

When it was very close, Zhou Ping's figure slowly appeared. Dense snowflakes covered his big black umbrella, and the strong wind blew on him, but his footsteps were steady, always coming for Lu Xinyi.

The driver also called to say that the car was moving a little bit. If Fang Dan and Chang Hao passed by now, there would be no traffic jam on the way back.

Lu Xinyi took her bag from Fang Dan, said goodbye to Zhou Ping when Zhou Ping opened the door and came in, and urged them to leave quickly.In the snowy weather, no one exchanged greetings, and he was quickly hugged by Zhou Ping to go out, stepping into the swirling snow within a few steps.

Zhou Ping stuffed a heated baby into his arms, held an umbrella in one hand, and hugged Lu Xinyi tightly in the other, and lowered his head to check his mask, scarf and hat while walking.

Lu Xinyi wrapped himself up very well, quite proud of himself, but then a ball of snowflakes flew into his eyes, he let out a cry, and then laughed.

The two of them hadn't gone far when Fang Dan caught up from behind, calling Lu Xinyi's name.

The two stopped and turned around to wait for her, and when they approached, she called Lu Xinyi's name, but she spoke to Zhou Ping: "President Zhou, he can't carry heavy things in his hand, and that bag contains the A bunch of game consoles, please..."

In the wind and snow, you have to shout, and while speaking, Fontaine turned his face to hide from the strong wind blowing directly in front of him, but his voice was still swallowed a lot.

"Okay." Zhou Ping quickly changed his hand to hold the umbrella, and took the originally inconspicuous backpack from Lu Xinyi. Fang Dan said, "Be careful on the road."

Under the blessing of the strong wind, the effect of the umbrella is negligible. During the 10-minute journey, both of them were wet, and their bodies were cold and icy. Stop shaking.

Zhou Ping had already washed and was cooking something in the kitchen. He went in to find the leftover fried fish from yesterday, but he couldn’t find it anywhere. He didn’t want to ask Zhou Ping, so he gave up and took a passion fruit juice to lie down on the carpet to watch the video. .

The sweeping robot cleaned up the stagnant water in the entrance, then turned around and cleaned around Lu Xinyi. Lu Xinyi pushed it with his foot: "Don't touch me, go find fried fish."

Zhou Ping just came out of the kitchen, sat beside him, and reached out to touch his hair to see if it was dry: "No, I want to eat it for two days before doing it."

While talking, he looked at Lu Xinyi's screen. He changed to a turtle and ran after the meat, and it ran quite fast.

He picked up Lu Xinyi with one hand, made him sit with his back to him, and the two of them watched together: "Are you childish?"

It was too cold outside, and the whistling wind could still be heard, and Zhou Ping's arms were too hot, Lu Xinyi didn't hide, and relaxed his body and leaned back against him.

"Loves are created equal." Lu Xinyi said unconvinced, "There are also people who feed ducks, seals and dolphins. There are so many people watching, are they all childish?"

"And you don't understand the games I play, you don't know how to dance, and you don't know the scores I read. Who is more childish?"

Zhou Pingdao: "Well, I was wrong."

Lu Xinyi looked back strangely, only to see that Zhou Ping didn't smile, didn't have a mocking expression on his face, and didn't look at his tablet, his eyes fell on his right wrist holding the tablet.

It was the first time that he faced this matter when Lu Xinyi was awake. He didn't seem to dare to touch it, so he slowly grasped Lu Xinyi's wrist with very little force, tightly encircling it, and his thumb seemed afraid of burning , only rubbing around those dense whitish slightly convex scars.

His expression tensed up uncontrollably, and his breathing was slow and heavy. Lu Xinyi didn't want to break the relaxed atmosphere these days, intending to pull his wrist away, and said, "Then don't call me childish again."

But Zhou Ping didn't let his intention succeed, put more strength, hugged him into his arms, and lowered his head to touch his profile.

"Hey." Lu Xinyi twisted her body uncomfortably, "Let me go."

Zhou Ping didn't move, Lu Xinyi said, "Don't you listen to me?"

Zhou Ping said, "Listen."

"Then relax." Lu Xinyi said, "I'm angry."

Zhou Ping turned a deaf ear to it, stared at it for a long time, finally raised his wrist, kissed it cherishedly, and said softly: "I am also very angry."

Lu Xinyi patted his hand away, this time Zhou Ping didn't insist anymore, let him crawl out of his arms, sat with his head bowed and didn't move, after a while, he said: "I didn't take good care of you."

With her back turned to him, Lu Xinyi was tinkering with the game console he took out from his backpack, and then answered, "It was originally."

After a long while, he looked back at Zhou Ping, still in the same position, turned back to play for a while, and finally kneeled beside him, poked him with his finger, and said stumblingly: "It's still very good to take care of, Fang Dan said I Get fatter and look better."

He lowered his head and put his face in front of Zhou Ping: "Do you think I look better?"

Zhou Ping didn't speak, so he poked Zhou Ping's face like someone who owed him a lot of money: "You just like to scold me, but you don't like to praise me."

"Also called me a dick, I only like to eat dick, and when I'm done, I'll post money to others."

Zhou Ping raised his head and glanced at him, his neck straightened and his mouth tightly closed. After a long time, Lu Xinyi said, "Aren't you apologizing?"

Zhou Ping said, "What's the use of apologizing?"

Lu Xinyi said: "I don't know, but I have to apologize. If you don't apologize, how can I say it doesn't matter?"

Zhou Ping's eyes were focused, he looked at him deeply for a while, and then said: "I'm sorry, Lu Xinyi, I'm really sorry."

There were tears in Lu Xinyi's eyes, but he didn't cry, and his tone was normal, as usual, a little slow, and the tone didn't fluctuate much: "It doesn't matter, you bastard, I will never forget you in my life, every time Thinking of what you said to me, I wish I could kill you."

"Do you think your dick is really delicious? Idiot bastard, you still fucked me, and I will never forgive you, do you hear me?"

Zhou Ping said, "I heard it."

Lu Xinyi added: "Sometimes I really can't figure it out. I can't even bear to scold you even a little bit. How could you say such nasty things to me?"

Zhou Ping moved his lips, his throat was choked badly, and finally he just said: "I will change it."

Lu Xinyi said: "Every day I'm thinking, if I'm still with you, I'm just a dick who only likes to eat dick, what's going to happen next time, you immediately think..."

"No." Zhou Ping slowly held his shoulders, moved closer to him, with a painful expression on his face, and said in a low voice, "I never thought about you that much, I just... I'm too scared Now, at that time, you acted as if you were really going to leave me, there was no hope at all... I was so scared, I was crazy."

After a long time, Lu Xinyi whispered, "I really want to break up, but you will never remember what I told you."

Zhou Ping said quickly: "I will remember now, you know."

Lu Xinyi did know that Zhou Ping began to take every word he said calmly seriously, and sometimes it made him feel that he was a little too much.

But he obviously didn't go too far.

If Zhou Ping hadn't come to him again, if Zhou Ping hadn't made him forget every day the two of them had been together, if he hadn't let him know that Zhou Ping's three years were repeated repetitions of extreme pain and longing, he would have been able to Learn to be a happy person.

If you can't learn it in three years, you can still have many three years.

But as long as he faces Zhou Ping, he will never be able to be truly indifferent. Perhaps any trace left by the person he fell in love with when he was young will be unforgettable.

After the breakup, Lu Xinyi had a very painful time. He always thought of the tearful face that Zhou Ping left to himself at the end, and the "I love you" written on the large cowhide envelope that penetrated the back of the paper.

The envelope contained almost all of Zhou Ping’s property. His mobile phone often received notices of large transfers from one of his bank cards. , the most romantic expression to Lu Xinyi, except for "I love you" that I never want to say properly.