I wish it was just for you

My favorite Pepe:

The place where I am now has yellow sand all over the sky, clear lakes surrounded by yellow sand, black gravel sand seas and dark brown rough stone carvings. When the wind blows, it will make some creepy sounds. Everything is a miracle of nature.

In several places, people can be seen walking on the sand dunes on camels. The camels are connected one by one, and the leading one is being pulled by a man in local clothes, moving slowly. Clothes always give people the illusion that they have crossed the ancient silk road, and not far ahead is the junction of the Central Plains and the Western Regions.

The sun here is very hot, probably because of the summer, and it is also very dry, so you have to drink water constantly.

For some reason, I always feel that although the desert is beautiful, it can only be seen from a distance but not played with, and it is difficult to blend into it.It keeps people thousands of miles away and does not want people to approach.

When it was almost evening yesterday afternoon, I was standing on the backside of a high sand dune. The small sand dunes in front were slightly shorter, and the sharp tops of the hills meandered, but the lines were very soft. The sun shines on the sunny side. One side shows a light brown light, and the side behind the sun is dark brown, so bright and dark, it is as beautiful as an oil painting.

I took a picture of her for you.

love you

Zixi

The Xixi I hate the most:

Right now I'm alone in the office reading your email.

When talking about the desert, people can't help but think of Sanmao, and her sentence: "Every time I think of you, a grain of sand falls from the sky, and the Sahara is formed. Every time I think of you, a drop of water falls from the sky, so formed the Pacific Ocean."

Looking at it this way, doesn’t the desert look extra affectionate?

To me, the desert looks indifferent but lonely.It looks like a majestic and wild beast on the outside, which makes people afraid, but it is sensitive and warm inside, and it can't get close to it.

Back to Sanmao, the feelings of literary youth sometimes make people feel hypocritical, and I used to think so, but I think I seem to understand her thoughts now.

Do not love you

Pei Yu

My favorite Pepe:

Now I am going to go to a "land of the sky" inlaid between the snow-capped mountains and grasslands. It is said that the sky and the earth are mirror images of each other, as pure as a newborn.

Before I leave, I just want to tell you one thing, I hope you don't work so late, the time you send the email reveals the fact that you are still working late at night.Staying up late is not good for your health, and I am very worried about you going home alone.

love you

Zixi

For a long time afterwards, we communicated by mail like this, and also sent her star cards from the post office.Gradually, she also started to tell me about her work and life, but never mentioned about her and Xiang Yunyang.

In fact, I know a small part of their affairs, from Hu Ruili.

After we separated from Xiang Yunyang, we still kept in touch occasionally. At first, it was just as a friend who could continue to communicate. Later, whenever he learned about Peipei, he would disclose it to me.

He knew that I cared about Peipei very much, so he paid a little attention, but after all, he was not someone close to her, and what he could know about her must be related to the hospital or Xiang Yunyang, and it was inevitable that Xiang Yunyang would be involved.

It was in this way that I was able to know that Peipei and Xiang Yunyang were very close, just as I expected.

I am even more convinced that leaving this time is the right thing for them and for myself.

But if she doesn't mention it, maybe she still cares too much about my feelings?

Several times, I wanted to implicitly express my indifferent position in the email, hoping that she would have no scruples, but after repeated deliberation, I still couldn't express my words, and I was worried about touching Peipei's sensitive nerves, which was not worth the loss.

After thinking about it, I finally dismissed the idea.

I stayed in the mountain village deep in the mountains, almost a year after I set off from X City, and I had already traveled roughly around the mountains and rivers of my motherland.

It is not tiring to stop and go during the journey, but after a long period of no fixed place, I always feel that I should stop and rest.Coincidentally, when I arrived in a small town near City X, I saw a faded recruitment notice on the town bulletin board, saying that Yongping Village needed a teacher.

I asked the staff of the town government about the recruitment. They said that because of the poor salary and the remoteness and backwardness of Yongping Village, no one wanted to go after the announcement was posted for a long time.

Their sincerity made me feel so cute, so I said I could go.

The staff member's expression was incredible, and he looked me up and down with his eyes. I was wearing a T-shirt and jeans that I had worn for many days, and I was a little embarrassed.

After reporting on the phone with my parents, I also called Peipei, but I didn't answer the call for a few days. The ride to the village was about to start, so I couldn't delay, so I had to send an email first.

Recently, her reply to emails has been much slower. When I went to the village, there was no Internet, and I was not sure whether there would be a mobile phone signal. I always felt a little uneasy when I didn't wait for her reply.

After traveling by car, ox cart, and on foot, I arrived at the entrance of the village.

The headmaster waited at the entrance of the village with his two children. He held my hand for a long time when he saw me.The principal is an old man who has passed the sixtieth year. He is the only teacher in the whole school. He finally looked forward to me, so he regards me as a treasure.

I was placed in a hut next to the school. The hut was not big, and the beds and chairs looked old, but they were still solid and tidy.I tidied up a bit, washed the dirty clothes piled up in the suitcase and dried them in the small yard behind the house. It looked like colorful flags on the prairie, which was quite beautiful.

When school started the next day, I started taking over the children's lessons.There is only one class in the whole school. There are children of all ages in the class. They teach pinyin and math problems at the same time, but the children are very serious and well-behaved. After class, they surround me and ask me to talk about the city. in the way.

I showed them the photos I took on the trip in the camera, and introduced each place to them. They were fascinated and worshiped me. Although I had no teaching experience, they did not bully me.

The phone signal in the village is not good, intermittent, only one in the southwest corner is closer to the signal tower, and the signal can barely be maintained. I call home there every day to report that I am safe.Also called Peipei, but still no one answered.

But every time when I was extremely anxious, Peipei would answer my call once, mostly saying he was busy, and hung up the phone without saying a few words. After a few times, I figured out the frequency of answering, about once every four days.

The children asked me, would I stay in their village forever?To be honest, it is impossible for me to stay there forever. My willful behavior always needs a deadline. It is too much to ignore my parents’ concerns, but I don’t know when I can leave. I can only do my best during my tenure. a good teacher.

I did not answer them directly, but said that I hope they can go out of the mountains to seek knowledge and broaden their horizons. They are looking forward to the outside world, but I am worried about whether they can maintain their original aspirations after leaving the mountains.Therefore, educating them to strengthen their hearts and learn to resist temptation has become the theme.