I wish it was just for you

We bid farewell to Ji Chen and Cheng Jue. Ji Chen really followed Cheng Jue to City B as said before. The night before their departure, we spent a drunken, noisy and crying night in Nuanju.Ji Chen spoke lonelyly about how his father and "the woman in the back" ignored her when she went to City B, and gave some money, as if her purpose of asking was only to ask for money, and she didn't even pretend to stay or reluctance.

I know that she actually said that she doesn't need father's love, but she cares very much in her heart. Her running away from home and deviant behavior are just to attract the attention of her father who hasn't stopped for a long time.She knew better than anyone in her heart that it wasn't that woman who took his love away. She never said anything harsh to her after entering the house, and even gave in and tolerated everything in order to please her.Whether it is hypocrisy or sincerity, they have no enmity.

Perhaps it was out of concern for the dead mother. No one should be accepted anymore. This is to maintain a woman's status as a wife and mother. He cannot accept others, but she cannot.Because she knows very well that the impression of her mother in her memory is getting weaker and weaker. In the early years, she could still recall their details clearly and completely, but in recent years, many things have become blurred, and she cannot accept forgetting herself. The fact of the beloved mother, the notebook is full of things she still remembers about her mother, but it is already a bit fragmented, like a broken and messy puzzle, which will never be able to put together a complete picture.

Forgetting plus acceptance is betrayal.

In fact, I prefer to believe that Ji Chen's persistence does not contradict her relationship with her father. The relationship between her and her father may be just an angry word. Words stopped, no one stepped down the steps, and no one had the cheek to ask for peace. At that delicate moment, a change of thought made the two of them what they are now.Once that opportunity is missed, it is missed, and no matter how much you regret it, there will be no mercy in it.

Peipei envied her free and easy at first, but there are unspeakable secrets behind the free and easy. The stories that are said to be chic, the beautiful scenery on the journey away from home, the interesting people she met, the hard sweat and tears on the road are all Ji Chen's flesh and blood.The atmosphere was filled with deep sadness for a while, Peipei didn't say anything, just cried blindly.I seldom saw her cry, but when I saw her crying so hard, I couldn't help but feel moved. I hugged her and let her lean on my shoulder. I patted her on the back, and she buried herself on my shoulder and sobbed tremblingly.

She was drunk, crying and fell asleep in my arms, I put her down, put a pillow on her head, and covered her with a thin blanket.It was the first time I observed her sleeping face so clearly, it was so serene, as if it came from a place not disturbed by the outside world like Peach Blossom Spring, without a speck of dust, it was so clean that no desecration could be tolerated.

My favorite beautiful little person, I hope you will always be so pure and free from any harm.

Looking up again, Ji Chen had already collected his mood, wiped away his tears, and yelled at me not to get drunk or sleep.

This time we parted, I don’t know when we will meet again, I remembered what the owner of the homestay said about seeing Chuxue with the person I like for a lifetime, thinking about a certain day in the future, maybe in the near future, I Will go to City B with Xiang Yunyang, then maybe we can see each other again.

The separation is for a better encounter, I believe Ji Chen and I are like this.