I wish it was just for you

When my family tried to fill in the volunteer application, my parents took the trouble to look through the reference materials piled up like a hill, while taking notes with frowning, and did not forget to dislike my grades that were not good or bad.In those few days, their conversations with colleagues, relatives, and friends in the unit always revolved around my volunteering. They also exchanged views at the dinner table and during the walk after dinner. In the aftermath of the nervousness of the exam, I always feel a little bit of urgency that makes me feel suffocated.

"I'm going out for a walk." Leaving aside such an excuse that I have used countless times, I left the house as if I was running for my life.My parents arranged for my volunteering, asked me a little bit about my thoughts, and also kindly emphasized their thoughts by the way.I am happy and at ease. I have no idea about university and major. I have always lacked goals. I just look forward to living a mediocre life like the teachers and parents said, "It will be easy to go to college".

After I went out and wandered around the garden downstairs, I realized that there was really no place to go, so I sat on the stairs on the top floor and sent Peipei a message. Soon, she quietly sat down beside me, held out her hand Give me a bottle of ice water.I took a few sips of the water and opened it. I don’t know if the ice water played a role, or the cool wind from the top floor was blowing us. The summer heat seemed to be blown away, and my heart was not so irritable.

She was talking about Yasunari Kawabata's "Snow Country" she was reading. She hadn't read much, but she was full of expectations for places with snow.

——That's not easy, let's go to see the snow.I suggest.

——Well, let’s go to see the snow this winter.she said happily.

So, we fell into the imagination of winter travel, and we forgot the unhappy things.

The voluntary derived from my parents' careful consideration sent me to a school in another city, L University, which was convenient. Although my major was unsatisfactory, my grades were already high, and my parents were very satisfied with this.

——Hey, what school did Peipei go to?On the day I received the admission notice, the atmosphere at home was obviously relaxed and cheerful, and my mother suddenly asked about this during dinner.

——I don’t know, I asked her and she refused to tell me all the time, saying that she would tell me when she got the admission letter.

Speaking of this is strange, when our family is busy collecting information from various parties, Peipei always looks relaxed.Her parents are enlightened masters, and although they will still express their thoughts appropriately, they still give all the power to her.But the reference books on her desk seem to be rarely turned over. She still reads various books, catches up with dramas, and listens to her favorite songs. But she always disagrees.Although the grades are good, volunteers have to be taken seriously.What the hell is this weird kid up to?

Peipei called at night, and it was my mother who answered the phone.As soon as I heard my mother say "Peipei...", I quickly walked to her side and prepared to answer the phone.The hand stretched out and stayed in mid-air for a long time, and my mother was still talking to Peipei, asking this and that.I simply sat down next to her, but I also heard some news: she was also admitted to L University.Both my mother and I were obviously a little surprised. Her grades could have been admitted to a better school. Before I could slow down, my mother stretched out her hand holding the phone and motioned for me to answer the phone.

——You, what's the matter with you?Do uncles and aunts blame you?I asked a little worried.

——No, the chosen major is the signature major of L University, so they didn't say anything.

——It's a pity that your grades are so bad.

——Well, I didn't fill out the volunteer, haha.She smirked a few times on the other end of the phone, but her tone seemed excited.

——Yes, I knew you couldn't leave me.I made a fool of myself and felt sorry for not imposing my thoughts on her.

She laughed and said "hmm".

That night I lay on my back on the bed, staring at the ceiling and thinking about Peipei’s misreporting of volunteers. How could she, who has always been as careful as dust, fill in her volunteers so carelessly?And her nonchalant attitude before, she didn't look sad afterwards, it's strange, it's so strange.