【Leian】Love at first sight

It's hard to imagine that such a guy would be single for so many years, An Mixiu stared blankly at the note in his hand and thought.This kind of superb provocative technique, if the willpower is weak, I am afraid that you will have to surrender.

An Mixiu put his hands on the desk, and the note with the whispered words of love was squeezed tightly by him for a while, and then loosened, as if what was pinched in his hands was no longer a note, but his heart.As he has always believed, Lei Shi is always smart.His intelligence is not only derived from grades, but also a kind of wisdom that penetrates people's hearts—of course it must be what he wants to penetrate.Lei Shi knows that his young crush is the shadow that An Mixiu can never get out of, and all the words and actions of Lei Shi in the past are lingering.But time cannot be turned back, let alone right and wrong in this human melodrama.But when someone crosses the long river of time and comes to you, say that it’s been hard work for so many years, and it’s great to still like me and accept me.No matter how hard-hearted one pretends to be, no matter how much inner dams are erected, they will all be washed away.

But now, all these words have been fused into four words, lying on An Mixiu's palm.He wanted to put it away, but his hands were shaking so much that he couldn't open it for a long time. He raised his head in panic, and met a pair of smiling eyes.

gosh.An Mixiu asked himself at that moment, such a person, how could he not be moved?

But the last line of cautious psychological defense did not make him directly agree to Leishi.Was all this enough, he asked himself.It's not that he's hypocritical, but now he sees his own heart clearly.Is his feeling for Lei Shi still as hot and unchangeable as it was many years ago? Can he still disregard the eyes of the world and disregard his parents and family, and want to be with him desperately?This is not only the answer he gave himself, but also an explanation he gave Leishi and this relationship.

Now, An Mixiu, is he ready for dating?

"Leishi, I—"

Just when An Mixiu was hesitating to speak, a sudden ringtone of the mobile phone interrupted the ambiguous atmosphere.Lei Shi's expression froze, and he took out the ringing mobile phone from his pants pocket, but as soon as he picked it up, the other end of the phone was cut off immediately.He lowered his head strangely, only to realize that it was actually Camille's call, and after hanging up, he sent a message.

[Speed ​​home, hurry up! 】

Lei Shi knows Camille's character well, this kid will never joke casually, so since he said that, it means that the matter has reached the point of imminent danger.

"What's wrong?" An Mixiu blinked blankly, not quite understanding the current situation.

"Sorry, I may have something to do right now. It should be something urgent at home. Camille told me to go back quickly..." Lei Shi stood up in a hurry, just about to walk out of the classroom door, he immediately hooked it back, holding the security with both hands. Mixiu was on both sides of the table, holding the other party in his arms, and asked eagerly: "But what I just said - those words are from the bottom of my heart, will you give me a response?"

An Mixiu felt the warmth that was close at hand. He raised his head and looked at Lei Shi's earnest expression, as if facing a child begging for candy. It was full of hope, longing, and imperceptible self-satisfaction.He nodded in a strange way, and unconsciously clenched the note with his fingers: "You deal with your affairs first, I... I will definitely give you an answer tonight."

"Okay!" Lei Shi responded happily, and then quickly opened the window and left the classroom.

After he left, An Mixiu slowly stood up from his seat.He glanced at the note again, and then put it in his pocket reluctantly.An Mixiu originally wanted to tell the class monitor and several members of the organization that Leishi had left beforehand, but he was sitting on the window frame and was about to stretch out one foot to climb down, when he saw a pair of beautiful and familiar high heels appearing in his field of vision.An Mixiu's heart skipped a beat, and she raised her head to meet Kelly's pretty face with curved eyebrows.Of course, right now it's scarier than death.

"Let's talk about it first." An Mixiu stretched out two fingers and pretended to swear to the sky, "I'm not dating Leishi."

The expected anger did not come, Kelly just stretched out a hand, looking at him with raised eyebrows as if planning to help: "Aren't you going to come down? Or just talk to me like this juggling?"

"Come down." An Mixiu nodded hastily, and staggered down from the window with Kelly's palm.After he landed, he immediately withdrew his hand in embarrassment, and scratched his cheeks with his fingers in a daze, his eyes rolled around, but he just didn't dare to fall on the face of the person in front of him.He still remembers Kelly's relieved smile when he said that he gave up liking Leishi back then. She was always doing his best, although the current situation is indeed beyond everyone's imagination.

The small high heels that Kelly stepped on made a circle on the ground, she turned around, and walked slowly to the side of the corridor with her back to An Mixiu, lying on her stomach.She raised her head, as if she was looking at the sky, and her voice came lightly to An Mixiu's ears.

"Let me guess, he confessed to you?"

"Cough... that happened just after the holiday."

"It's been so long! You still say you haven't dated?!" Kelly turned around in surprise and looked at An Mixiu in disbelief.

"After all...it's not a relationship after you confess, right? I refused at the time, but he is persistent now, so I...I'm thinking about it too. I just told him that I would give him an answer tonight. "

"Well, that's it." Kelly looked down at her toes, then looked up at An Mixiu's cowardly look of doing something wrong, and couldn't help but burst out laughing, "I said, are you afraid that I will scold you?" You?"

"Then... I'm even more afraid that you will step on me with your shoes, especially today with high heels." An Mixiu glanced at the other party's heels, and swallowed quietly.

"Hmph, Miss Ben isn't that unreasonable. Well, although I know that it's really uncomfortable for you to be with him now." Kelly snorted coldly, stretched out one foot and kicked in the air He said, as if he was kicking some annoying guy in the head, "But, An Mixiu, I wonder how many people I like in my life. In fact, sometimes I envy you, at least So far, I have never liked anyone so deeply. So if you can really be with him, I have nothing to be unhappy about. Of course! It must be that guy who treats you well! Otherwise, I will I really want to kick him and make him crippled!"

An Mixiu looked at her dancing with a smile on her face, and even afterwards, Kelly pulled him to talk about common sense about gay life.Of course, he interrupted with a blushing face halfway through.

But how lucky he is to have such a lovely girl as a friend.An fan of meditation.

"Hey, An Mixiu, what are you laughing at! Are you listening to Miss Ben's speech!"

"Pfft, I'm listening, I'm listening."

When Lei Shi pushed open the door, there seemed to be a truce inside.Even so, the quiet room still has the smell of gunpowder smoke left by the previous fierce quarrel. Although it is not strong, it is enough to envelop the corners of the whole family, making people want to escape.In fact, he just knew in advance that such a day would come sooner or later, and even had a vague expectation.But when he walked into this place that was about to be broken, he was uncommonly difficult to bear.

After changing his slippers, he walked slowly to the living room, where everyone in the family except him was already sitting, but the position was rather funny: his mother was sitting on the leftmost side of the sofa, and his father was sitting on the farthest side of the sofa. On the right, Camille sits in the middle.It was as if the child was the last bridge across the gap between them, but the building gradually began to have a mind of its own, and began to think about whether it should be buried by collapsing.

Lei Shi stood on the carpet laid in the center of the living room, his eyes gliding from left to right.Except for Camille's calm worries, the other two waited for an opportunity to explode in silence.

It was the father who spoke first.When he heard his voice again, Lei Shi even felt a little dazed.He still remembers the banter and bickering between his parents when he was very young, when his father was still a good father.His voice was gentle and deep, with the self-discipline and restraint of an adult, far less indifferent and full of strangeness than today.

"I'm very sorry, Lei Shi, for being so negligent to you, your brother, and your mother for so many years." The man sighed, and the first thing that popped out was a piercing apology.

Before hearing these words, Lei Shi thought he was indifferent.Regardless of whether his parents are divorced or whether the family is going to fall apart, he will always keep an indifferent gaze watching all this happen.But until this moment, when his biological father really lowered his head and said sorry, he realized that something was surging from his heart, so fast and so violent that he almost burst through his throat and vomited out in an instant.

It was anger, it was disappointment, it was a deep sense of powerlessness.

Maybe like many life philosophies say, we should learn to let go.But when those things happened to me, letting go and understanding became the most difficult decision to make.

"You apologized, then what?" Lei Shi stared at a certain point in the air, with a stiff expression.

"And then we..." He finally couldn't continue talking.Perhaps after seeing such a look on the energetic eldest son, it still quietly touched a certain nerve in him.A certain root hidden in the bottom of my heart still retains the residual warmth of the years.

"We decided to divorce."

It was his mother who finally said this sentence.The woman sat upright on the sofa with her back straight.But it was inevitable that she sat too upright, like a fragile tree branch that could be easily broken with a light push.

"I know it might be difficult to accept for a while, but—" Xu Shi was frightened by Lei's mother's decisive tone, but the man still tried to make some remedies. He wanted to explain and make up.But these are of no use to the established facts.

Leo quickly interrupted him.He clenched his palms tightly and took a step back slowly, the corners of his mouth trembling as he endured the tremendous pain.

"Did you ask me and Camille before you made these decisions?"

"Leishi, I'm really sorry, but your mother and I—"

"Shut up! You are not a competent father at all! Mom... Mom! Never cared about my thoughts at all! You are just a bunch of selfish adults!" Lei Shi only felt that the string in his head was buzzing It stopped with a loud sound, and he roared subconsciously, all the words that had been suppressed for too long poured out of his mouth uncontrollably.He didn't want to face his father's hurt look, nor did he want to face the half-dried tears on his mother's face.He just wanted to escape.

After saying that, he immediately ran out of the door.Camille, who was originally sitting on the sofa, hurriedly chased him out. As the door closed with a bang, there were finally only two "selfish adults" left in the room.

"Big brother! Big brother—"

Camille's footsteps were fast, taking advantage of Lei Shi's slowing down at the corner, he immediately caught up with him.Panting, he propped up his knees, holding Lei Shi's wrist tightly with one hand.He breathed unsteadily and said, "Brother, you—"

But before the words came out, he couldn't continue.Because when he saw this big brother who was always fearless, he actually cried.

"Grass." Lei Shi was dragged staggeringly, leaning against the stone wall at the entrance of the alley, holding his cuffs and hastily slapped his face a few times, "Fucking crying because of this kind of shit, my whole life image will be Gone!"

"...Do you still have an image in front of your younger brother?"

"Of course! There must be a masculine image!"

"It's okay for that man to cry. In fact, I cried secretly once before, when you went out in the morning, just when Dad came back." Camille shook Leishi's cuff, as if to comfort him.

"Originally today... Today I feel that the matter with An Mixiu is about to come to an end." Lei Shi finally wiped away his tears, but the corners of his eyes were still a little red.He sniffled and wiped his foot against the concrete floor, "It's so annoying that this kind of fucking thing happened."

"Camille, tell me, will they still divide the children or something, so we can't live together?"

"I will try my best to fight for it, and say that I can't live without my eldest brother."

Obviously what he said was a witty joke, but Camille looked serious but seemed serious, which made Lei Shi laugh out loud.He rubbed his younger brother's hair affectionately, and led him slowly out of the alley.

"Do you think I went too far in the end?"

The two brothers chatted as they walked.It was not twelve o'clock at this time, and there were not many people on the street.It was a cloudless and sunny day when I went out in the morning, but at this moment, occasionally a few clouds drifted past, blocking the pouring sunlight.

"It's too much, everyone is too much." Camille touched the top of his head, and he was a little unaccustomed to the absence of a hat on his head. "Just ran out like this, what are you going to do next?"

"I don't know." Lei Shi put his hands behind his head and looked up at the sky above his head, "It's also the first time I have such a feeling that I can't go home."

Although as the eldest brother, Lei Shi really can't think of any good places to pass the time.Now with Camille, obviously going back to the high school reunion is out of the question.The chat with An Mixiu on the phone was limited to "Hey, did you get up?" in the morning.Maybe if he told An Mixiu about this matter, he would get another comfort, but after thinking about it, Lei Shi still decided to keep silent.He hates pity.

The rare two brothers were leisurely, so Lei Shi took Camille to eat an expensive buffet.Then the two of them propped their stomachs against the wall and walked along the street to an Internet cafe very far away. Only then did they feel that their stomachs were digested a little, and then they started surfing the Internet happily.

During the period, the father of the two people called, but they were both tacitly ignored by the two brothers, while the mother remained silent, only sending a message to remember to go home in the evening.

When Lei Shi was playing games all afternoon and got dizzy, he received a call from An Mixiu.He said hello to Camille, then walked out of the Internet cafe and stood on the side of the bustling street to pick him up.

"Why, have you already thought about it?" Lei Shi stood under a tall sycamore tree, picked up a leaf that fell from the ground, and played with it in his hand.

"Not yet...but I'm afraid you won't be able to wait any longer." An Mixiu seemed to be on his way home, surrounded by the same voices as Lei Shi's.

"Tsk, hanging people is not a good behavior, Mr. Knight."

"...If you want to talk more, I have been secretly in love for so many years, why, I don't have the privilege to hang you for a few minutes?"

"You are right and you are right." Lei Shi said with a smile.

"Wait a minute, I'll come into the room right away, and I'll tell you when I enter the room." There was a jingle of keys, followed by a click of the door lock, and all the noise that belonged to An Mixiu's family came from the phone.

Lei Shi calmly listened to An Mixiu greet his parents, listened to An's mother's energetic voice as always, and imagined that An's father was sitting in a rocking chair and flipping through newspapers leisurely.Then An Mixiu walked into his bedroom, his breathing was mixed with electric current, which was transmitted smoothly from the microphone, and flowed to Lei Shi's heart little by little.

It was at that time that he suddenly overturned his previous thoughts, and suddenly wanted to tell An Mixiu about it.

"Hey, are you still there? I fixed it."

"An Mixiu, my parents are getting divorced."

"Ah... sorry."

Obviously it wasn't his fault, yet he rushed to apologize.Leo Leo leaned against the tree trunk, watching the almost ravaged leaf swirl and slip from his fingers.He suddenly felt a little better, and the depression that had been accumulated since noon was liberated by this man's voice.He hoped that An Mixiu could say a little more, he could say anything, he would be willing to squat under this tree and listen all night.

"That's right, Thunder Lion."

"what?"

"I just figured out the answer, let's date."

"Why, are you pitying me? Because you heard the previous sentence."

"How should I put it, I have been thinking about whether my relationship is qualified enough today. But until you said that sentence just now, I suddenly wanted to give you a home, or take you into my home. I just I think this should be a good way to talk about love.”

"Well, say it again."

"Let's talk about love."

"do it again."

"I said, let's talk about love."

"do it again."

"Huh? Are you going to talk about it or not?!"

"Talk, talk."

Lei Shi narrowed his eyes and repeated with a smile, "Let's talk."

TBC.