light adaptation

Ning Zhanmei called Ning Zhuo and said that he had something important to say, and Ning Zhuo said hello and arrived home before nine o'clock.

"Dad." Ning Zhanmei stood up from the sofa, Ning Zhuo was amused by his aura, "What's the matter? It's in a hurry."

He put away his briefcase and sat next to Ning Zhanmei, "Don't worry, speak slowly."

This seems to be the first time that Ning Zhanmei and Ning Zhuo have discussed something seriously. The sky outside the twelfth floor is a bottomless dark blue. Occasionally, the lights of the plane flashed. The moon cannot be seen clearly tonight, and the orchids are on the window sill. Hidden in the night.

"Didn't I say last time that I'm in love?" Ning Zhanmei said, he was more nervous than he expected.

"Yeah." Ning Zhuo nodded, "I paid attention to that program from Class Eight."

"Then can you guess who it is?" Ning Zhanmei asked.

Ning Zhuo was silent for a while, "There are two candidates, but with your posture today, I basically know who it is."

What Ning Zhanmei said that day was "the most handsome-the one that looks the best." Ning Zhuo was also taken aback when he watched the program of Class [-], and then remembered Ning Zhanmei's description, and his first reaction was the girl who played the prince.But he recalled what Ning Zhanmei said, according to human inertia, he would answer the first characteristic of lovers, and then remembered that this is a reverse play, and supplemented the image in the play.In other words, if it is the girl playing the prince, Ning Zhanmei's word order should be "the most beautiful, no, the most handsome one."

He thought it was Ning Zhanmei's slip of the tongue, but this point was indeed doubtful in his heart. If he wanted to talk about conformity, the boy who played the princess was also satisfied. Ning Zhuo also recognized Bi Qiannian who had come to eat at home in the audience. up.

"Yes," Ning Zhanmei understood Ning Zhuo's meaning, "Dad, Qian Nian and I have been in love for a while."

Ning Zhuo lowered his eyes and did not speak. The silence lasted for about 5 minutes, and Ning Zhan was sweating a lot behind his eyebrows.

"How do you think I should react?" Ning Zhuo asked him suddenly.

Ning Zhanmei thought for a while, and said seriously, "I don't think you will care too much." Ning Zhuo didn't seem to open his mouth, and Ning Zhanmei seemed to have opened some gaps. , I’ve never been to a parent-teacher meeting, and I don’t even know if I’m in junior high school or elementary school when I go back to the old house.” Ning Zhanmei’s heart was beating, and he didn’t know why he was saying this now.

"If I remember correctly, it was the second time you came to my school on the school anniversary?" Ning Zhanmei said, "Anyway, I don't seem to have a mother for so many years, and my father is just a decoration."

"Show eyebrows." Ning Zhuo said in a deep voice, and he sighed, "Let's have a good talk."

Ning Zhanmei took a deep breath and said yes.

"It's true that I have ignored you a lot these years." Ning Zhuo said, looking at the coffee table, "Your grandpa and grandpa both talked to me, saying that you don't kiss me, so there is a problem. You stay in the old house than you are in my house." I'm happier next to you, and I never thought about bringing you by my side, and I brought you here this year when I was transferred from work, and I also wanted to try to patch up our relationship."

Ning Zhanmei remained silent, and Ning Zhuo continued, "Your sister-in-law told me that boys want to get attention, so dad will ask you first, did you do this on purpose?"

"No." Ning Zhanmei said, "No."

"Okay," Ning Zhuo nodded, "Then I won't interfere."

"Why?" Ning Zhanmei seemed to be irritated, "Why don't you care?"

"Do you want me to stop you?" Ning Zhuo didn't seem to understand his anger.

"No," Ning Zhan smiled, "Where are parents who don't care about their children at all?"

"Never asked me about my grades, and you didn't scold me when you went to school after a fight, and you didn't ask me if I was injured. Anyway, does my sister-in-law remember? Well, I'm out of the closet here, why are you so indifferent?" Ning Zhanmei His voice was a little stilted, and he even wanted to ask Ning Zhuo if he was his own, but Ning Zhuo didn't care too much, it seemed that it had nothing to do with who Ning Zhanmei became, he was not disappointed, nor did he have any expectations.

Ning Zhanmei needed a smooth coming out, and he had expected it to be very smooth, but he didn't feel so relaxed about this assumption, because it just proved Ning Zhuo's indifference again.

Ning Zhuo didn't seem to know how to speak, he sighed, "Because I believe in you."

"When you were young, I really didn't do well. I really felt that with your sister-in-law taking care of me, nothing would happen." Ning Zhuo said, "You are my son and your mother's son. Where can you go? But looking at it now, yes I was so self-righteous that I hurt you."

Ning Zhan brows silently.

"I can only care about you as much as I can now, but to be honest, Dad doesn't know how to care about people." Ning Zhuo rarely showed frustration on his face, "Your sister-in-law wants me to ask you more about food and clothing, but I feel You've taken good care of yourself, but I'm talkative and talkative." He paused, "It seems like you don't need me anymore, it's too late."

His son was just over a year away from adulthood. He had grown from a seedling to a tree with strong branches and leaves. Ning Zhanmei was already taller than himself.On the day of the school celebration, Ning Zhuo was proud of his child who attracted thousands of eyes in front of the crowd, but there were more irreparable mistakes and regrets. Ning Zhanmei seemed to have grown up alone. Li grew up to be an adult who didn't need his care.

He would occasionally recall Ning Zhanmei's appearance when he was a child, but it was difficult to say exactly what. His impression was always that his sister-in-law would often boast that Ning Zhanmei won the first prize or help the neighbor water the flowers, and she would also pull her ears. Call him naughty.It's very vivid, but what about the picture of Ning Zhanmei in front of Ning Zhuo?It seemed that he was always embarrassed and evasive, and Ning Zhanmei was too estranged from him.He seemed to always find out what his child did elsewhere, he never asked himself, and Ning Zhanmei never said anything.

Is it too late?He finally wanted to try to be a father close to his life before Ning Zhanmei became an adult.

Ning Zhanmei said no.

Ning Zhuo smiled, "This time you are in love, I am actually prepared in my heart. Not interfering with you does not mean ignoring you. Dad believes that you have your own choice."

It's hard to understand that trust in such a small Ning Zhanmei. In Ning Zhanmei's eyes at that time, it was a kind of indifference, a kind of plainness without love.Ning Zhuo overestimated a child's understanding of "belief", and he was indeed absent for many years.

But today they respectively showed their need for the father and their belief in the child, so that the mutual understanding that was delayed for many years finally came. These are two loves that are not connected, but it seems that they are not connected now. It's too late.

One is willing to apologize and make amends, and the other is not indifferent.Ning Zhanmei remembered what Bi Qiannian said in the flower and bird market to leave room for love, he was willing, Ning Zhanmei thought.

"Dad," Ning Zhanmei said, "I see."

Ning Zhuo nodded, ready to get up and go to the bedroom, then paused again, "Tell your mother about this if you have nothing to do."

Ning Zhan smiled and said yes.His father was often in a daze at the orchids at home, and Ning Zhanmei knew that it was Ning Zhuo talking to his mother.

He still sighed, as if exhaling out the accumulated depression of many years. It turned out that Ning Zhuo was making lame efforts to love himself. He understood where his father's problems came from during this period, and he thought it was funny when he thought of it .

Ning Zhanmei imitated his father and went to talk to Lanhua at home for 10 minutes, and shed tears quietly. This was the first time he spoke to Lanhua, and he usually only thought about it secretly at night.

Mom, can you hear me?I made a boyfriend. He is very nice and good-looking. He is a very strong boy. He is more transparent than me. He taught me a lot. I am very grateful to him.Dad asked me to tell you about this, I guess you won't find it difficult?You're sure to like him.My dad has been acting weird recently. We chatted today and we plan to rebuild the relationship between father and son. Please help us too. I think my dad is still quite stupid. How did you fall in love with him?

Ning Zhanmei laughed at this point, and he felt regretful again, Mom, is it because father and son are not easy to get along with?I think Xu Yun's father is also like him, he is very cold and lonely, and it would be really boring for them to live together.The two old men seem to be rare and warm.If only you were here, Ning Zhanmei looked at the gentle expression of orchids stretching their leaves quietly at night, Mom, I seem to miss you a lot.

Ning Zhanmei gently wiped his tears, but did not continue.He also wanted to say, he had thought to himself, if Zhao Junlan was here, would he not have to stay in the old house every day, and would not have to envy his cousin for bickering and acting like a baby with his sister-in-law unscrupulously? Mother.Will the dishes she cooks be better than my sister-in-law's?Will she force him to wear long johns like my sister-in-law?Ning Zhanmei's tears seemed inexhaustible. He had complained about Zhao Junlan before, but it was too far away. At this moment, he just missed her very much.

When Ning Zhanmei lay back on the bed, he only felt very calm, as if he had released all the things that he dared to think about but didn't dare to think about all these years with continuous tears. It turns out that the expectation of the future is not a bad thing to torture yourself, but to keep suppressing it.

After taking a shower, Ning Zhuo knocked on his door, came in and said that he had freed up time tomorrow and would go to Ning Zhanmei School, reassuring him.

Ning Zhanmei thought Ning Zhuo's seriousness was funny, so he said, "Dad, go to bed early."

He still had a nasal voice, obviously he had cried. Ning Zhuo was stunned for a moment, wondering whether he should care about it, or show the child some dignity.Ning Zhanmei saw Ning Zhuo's hesitation, and his heart warmed up, "Dad, I'm fine."

Ning Zhuo then nodded and said good night.

Ning Zhanmei suddenly realized that Bi Qiannian said to himself with a happy face that Bi Qian was trying to love herself. It turned out that this was the case, and he finally felt the same and was happy.This is not only to be loved, but also to be learned to love. Ning Zhanmei thinks it is amazing, as if he has finally become an important person who needs to spend time and energy for Ning Zhuo. Every time Ning Zhuo hesitates, he thinks about loving himself And a clumsy effort.

He turned on his phone and sent a message to Bi Qiannian, saying that he was so happy.

Bi Qiannian asked him if everything was going well?

Ning Zhanmei said it went well, and our dad spared precious time tomorrow to come to the Academic Affairs Office.

Bi Qiannian made a laughing emoji.

Ning Zhanmei smiled lightly and said good night to him.

Bi Qiannian said good night, and kiss/kitten.