light adaptation

"Damn it, he's so handsome." Liu Jingyang was an eyewitness and a member of the team. Lao Meng knew him well, and asked him to recreate the process of the two fighting just now, and then let him go back to class.

He leaned over to Bi Qiannian, and had already finished the whole process of the childish KO of Sun Changyu, "I'm really shocked, it's so sassy." He clicked his tongue twice, "I didn't expect Sun Changyu to be this kind of person... Back then, the team only quarreled with people occasionally, but what they said today...is really ugly. I asked a few people in Class [-] and said that he and Tongzhi had always been at loggerheads, but basically it was his unilateral talk."

Bi Qiannian frowned and listened, "Is he seriously injured?"

"It's serious! I think it's a broken bone, and half of his face is swollen." Liu Jingyang replied, seeing that Bi Qiannian's face turned pale, he immediately reacted, "Oh, are you asking Tongzhi? It's on."

Bi Qiannian nodded, "Lao Meng...is he easy to talk to? Will the punishment be severe?"

"That must be reported to the Academic Affairs Office, and Lao Meng is not up to the task." Liu Jingyang said, "But he will definitely not speak for Sun Changyu just because he is on the team. Don't worry. I guess I should report criticism. Demerits may not be recorded. Gotta watch."

After hearing this, Bi Qiannian sighed and said yes, he is ready to find time to write a review for Tong Zhizhi.Liu Jingyang considered for a moment, "Thousands of thoughts."

"Ok?"

"You and Ning Zhanmei...do you have any problems with Sun Changyu?"

He was puzzled, "No, I haven't spoken to you yet. What's the matter?"

"Yeah, class one was also in physical education class just now," Liu Jingyang said in a softer voice, "When Sun Changyu was taken out, he saw Ning Zhanmei talking with Tongzhi, and said to him... um... gay or something like that. kind of words."

Bi Qiannian reacted for a while, and said yes to Liu Jingyang, and Liu Jingyang continued to spread the childish heroic demeanor with two hums.

In the evening, Bi Qiannian and Ning Zhanmei confirmed the matter, and Ning Zhanmei nodded and said yes, watching Bi Qiannian frown to comfort him, "It's nothing, just treat it like being barked by a dog twice, I didn't take it to heart. "

Bi Qiannian shook his head, "No, it's just a feeling." Half of his face was hidden in the shadow of the streetlights, "It's very similar to when I was rumored to be gay by Liu Jingshu in junior high school, and was slandered by people I had no relationship with at all. Target, if three people become tigers again, it won't be long before everyone will start to hate you."

Cold violence on campus is not so easy to forget. This childish fight was connected with the scene of him rushing to class and beating Zhou Jian in junior high school, which made Bi Qiannian easily alert, just like a herbivore once trapped in a wolf's den Intuition for little bells and whistles based on experience.

Ning Zhanmei frowned after hearing this, then squeezed Bi Qiannian's sweaty hand, and sighed, "What should we do? This time it's not a rumor."

Bi Qiannian looked up at him, and Ning Zhanmei really smiled.

His eyes are a bit long, and he looks cold and cold, and he looks bad when he smiles.

"Don't be afraid." He said to Bi Qiannian, and then asked, "Qiannian, are you afraid?"

He seems to ask one thing, but also seems to be more than one thing.

Bi Qiannian clenched his hand, lowered his head without smiling, "I'm afraid, the feeling of being isolated and excluded is very uncomfortable, very... hopeless."

It was a period of silent years when his voice was not echoed, it was gray, he was nailed to the pillar of shame, and he was always under the light of malicious knives from all directions, scratching his self-esteem and self-confidence.

He didn't talk to Ning Zhanmei before, and after Zhou Jian confessed, the two completely broke off contact. Bi Qiannian changed his tolerant temperament in the past, and learned to fight back against the people who arranged him.For a while, I became very sensitive to other people's words, and got angry easily. Afterwards, I regretted that I lost control of my emotions and became very anxious. During the conversation, he found that his self-cognition and identity had a lot of problems.

Yes, he didn't know his sexual orientation at the time, and he was confused. He only felt that homosexuality was very shameful, and maybe even being a child without a father was very shameful.He felt that maybe he was bad, that he was being punished as he deserved, and fighting back was just a futile resistance to maintain his self-esteem.

Ning Zhanmei looked at him, waiting for him to continue.

Bi Qiannian remembered what Ning Zhanmei said, "This shouldn't be a standard for you to evaluate yourself."

He raised his eyes to look at the friend on the phone at that time, and now the lover he can trust with all his heart, his eyes looked at himself, his hand was in his own, he was waiting for himself, waiting for him to walk towards him.Bi Qiannian had already developed courage.

"But I'm not afraid of them saying I'm gay." Bi Qiannian's eyes sparkled, and he murmured, "I'm not afraid of being gay."

Is it shameful to like someone of the same sex?

of course not.

His palms were sweating, the street lamps illuminated his lover's sharp edges and corners, the two narrow eyelids penetrated into his heart again, he understood Ning Zhanmei's words, and immediately felt a bursting pain.

Bi Qiannian finally salvaged himself who was deeply confused and self-denying a few years ago. This is not shameful, not at all.He did feel uneasy and frightened by Sun Changyu's words without thinking, why?He needs to figure out what he is afraid of, and Ning Zhanmei is also asking him to do so.

He finally clearly separated the past fears. Being isolated is certainly worth fearing, but is it really because of his sexuality that he is isolated?There is no clear cause and effect between the two, and his isolation is the bad intentions of the rumormongers.

He is not wrong.

This is his Ning Zhanmei, this is his frank love.

How could Ning Zhanmei be his shame?

Bi Qiannian met his eyes, his voice was a little trembling, but he couldn't hide his firmness, "Ning Zhanmei, I'm not afraid."

I used to be afraid, but now I can't, because homosexuality is not an original sin, and the matter of "I like you" is even more so.

Ning Zhanmei is his light, the sharp edge that cuts through the thorns and illuminates the surrounding fields.

They kissed again and again under the shadows of trees, Ning Zhanmei put his arms around his waist and gently wrapped him around him, like catching a clean and innocent child that had broken free from its hinges.

The next day, Ms. Ran arrived at the Academic Affairs Office on time at ten o'clock. Bi Qiannian had already explained the matter to Bi Qian. Tong Zhi was too determined, although he acted first in this matter, but Sun Changyu was indeed the first to speak harshly.She is a well-known gold medal teacher in No. [-] Middle School. Although she doesn't care about discipline, her words are very important.

Ran Nanyan and Bi Qian have known each other for many years, and Bi Qian also helped in the fight in Tongzhi junior high school. She thanked Bi Qian first, Bi Qian shook his head, and the two entered the office together.

Liu Jingyang was summoned as a witness and followed in. There were also Sun Changyu's mother and the sixth class teacher inside, and Bi Qiannian and Xu Yun were waiting outside.

"Teacher, look at my son, he has been beaten like this!" Sun Changyu's mother angrily asked the teacher to see his son's face and the cast on his right foot.

The dean said from the side, "Mother Sun Changyu, this matter can't just be based on who gets seriously injured in the fight—"

"Then why not!?" Sun Changyu's mother felt unreasonable, "You have to be responsible for beating like this!"

The director had a headache. He came here to discuss punishment, not to find a place for anyone. "There is a reason for everything. They were fighting. It wasn't Sun Changyu who was beaten unilaterally. Tong Zhi was also injured."

Liu Jingyang told the story at the direction of the dean, and Sun's mother's face was not very good, and she still said sharply, "Just listen to this one student? Who knows if it's a fabrication."

Ran Nanyan was too lazy to speak, Bi Qian said, "We're not here to ask someone for an explanation today, Sun Changyu's mother, both of these children have to be punished, and the compensation for the medical part should be in place now, right?"

She faltered and hawed, and the dean was mediating. The two children were silent. Ran Nanyan didn't speak from the beginning to the end, and only answered a few words that the dean should remember to educate the children.

Bi Qiannian and Xu Yun waited outside until the end of the big break before opening the office door, Sun Changyu and her son left, Ran Nanyan, Bi Qian and Tong Zhi stopped at the door.They greeted Ran Nanyan and Bi Qian first.

"How?" Bi Qiannian asked.

"I didn't remember it, report the criticism." Bi Qian sighed, "Forget it, Sun Changyu was indeed seriously injured."

Ran Nanyan laughed after hearing that, "You are amazing." She said to Tong Zhi.

Tongzhi's expression was smug, ignoring the fucking teasing, Ran Nanyan went on to say, "Can you give me a clean semester? Your dean must be familiar with me." Tongzhi's electronic products were confiscated. Ran Nanyan had to come to pick up a round, and Tong Zhi had to work to buy it by herself when she got bored, and Tong Zhi had to beg her hard and softly, but in the end she still had to come.

Ran Nanyan didn't really blame him, she knew the ins and outs, Tong Zhi was easy to be teased since she was a child because of her beauty, he listened to it too much and just laughed it off, Sun Changyu probably got the beating because of his ugly words.

"Hey, there's no next time." Although Tong Zhi was used to being trained by Ran Nanyan in front of two friends, she was still a little embarrassed at the moment, "Go back, I'm going back to class too."

Ran Nanyan didn't bother to talk about it anymore, Tongzhi didn't get hurt and didn't lose anything, and with Bi Qian's help, she didn't record it in the file, so the training was over.

"Thank you, Auntie Bi." Ran Nanyan raised her chin.

Tong Zhi immediately bowed and thanked, "Thank you, Aunt Bi, you are my dear aunt."

Bi Qian smiled, "There is no next time, let's go back to class." She looked at Xu Yun and Bi Qiannian again, "It's okay, you two go back too."

After finishing speaking, Bi Qian and Ran Nanyan went downstairs together, Tong Zhi dragged Bi Qiannian back to the liberal arts class, and the two said goodbye to Xu Yun.

"It's really annoying." Tong Zhi grabbed him and said, "It's okay, after this fight, he probably won't pick on me again." He rolled his eyes.

Bi Qiannian nodded, tentatively touched Tongzhi's right arm, "Does it still hurt?"

"It's a bit, it's green." Tong Zhi subconsciously wanted to sell miserably, "I still have to write a [-]-word review and hand it over to the director. Fortunately, my aunt persuaded us and didn't let us go to the rostrum to read." He thought of something and smiled. , "It's inconvenient for Sun Changyu to hurt his leg, so don't go to the rostrum."

Bi Qiannian also laughed, the two of them had already reached the sixth class, the class bell just rang, and he said in a hurry, "I'll get you some medicine when I get home at noon, I'm halfway through the review, please take care of me." Attend class."

Tong Zhi agreed, said goodbye to him, and walked into the classroom feeling refreshed all over, and now she was finally no longer a poor little boy no one loves.