Light, please shine on me again

Years later, I came here again with the same scenery, the same place, and the same season, but I always felt that something was missing.

It turned out that the light had left me long ago.Now I am like a walking dead, lingering every day is hoping that one day you will shine on me with your brilliance and warm me.

Waiting is very long, in fact, waiting is not terrible, what is terrible is wishful thinking, it must be him.Now I'm going to take everything about you and go to the place where we first met.

This river swallows me coldly, how I hope that you will shine on me with your light at this time, and redeem me from the darkness.Zeyun, Zeyun.Sometimes I think how nice it would be if I hadn't met you...

Six years ago, the breeze blew here, the river flowed quietly, and the neon lights on the bridge were reflected in the river.The autumn water is clear, the autumn river is blue, and he is the only one standing alone on the river bridge. The already desolate autumn is made even more lonely by this lonely figure.Added a touch of coolness to the autumn scenery.As it is written in the poem, "Since ancient times, every autumn has been sad and lonely."

You on the bridge seem to be meditating, meditating, or thinking about something.At first, I looked at your back and thought you were an extremely weird person.

But when you look back, it seems that time stands still, and everything around you also stops.A man in an ancient robe stands on a modern bridge, but there is no sense of disobedience.That moment may have made me realize for the first time what it means to be heartbroken.

In an instant, it feels like the stars, the sea, the sun, the moon, mountains and rivers are not as good as your eyebrows and eyes.That was the first time I saw you. At that time, you were dressed in white and swayed into my world.

Since then, I have been unable to forget your figure in my mind, and it was not until I met you again that day that I was able to put an end to my thousands of thoughts.

When I saw you again, it was already the spring of the second year. Spring is the season of recovery of all things, and the peach blossoms are naturally indispensable.It blooms in the world like a fairy.

That day was sunny and sunny, and I met you again under a peach blossom tree, the one I miss day and night.

The first peach blossoms are white, like fat, jade, and snow.As white as your ancient robes.The peach blossoms in spring should be eye-catching, but for some reason, even the peach blossoms are overshadowed by your comparison.

You are like the sun that can save all sentient beings and shine on this earth.You stand against the light.A ray of sunlight shines through your hair into my eyes.In an instant, it feels as if the sun is only shining for you.

During this period of time, my obsession and longing for you made me have the courage to approach you step by step.You are probably aware of my existence, and you who were standing sideways turned your body slightly to face me.

This is the first time we look at each other, and just looking at each other makes me feel like the deer in my heart is bumping in my heart.It is this anxiety that makes me muster up the courage to speak to you

"Hello, can we be friends?"

It is because of this sentence that changed my extremely ordinary life, and even changed me.

"Yes" is the first sentence you said to me, your voice is so soft.Although there are only two short words, these two words can't even be called a sentence, but as long as it comes out of your mouth, it is enough.

We added each other’s contact information, and I knew your name on the day at the end of April that spring—Lin Zeyun

When I got home, I turned on my computer and clicked on Baidu Tieba as usual, and read the comments as usual.Occasionally, in my spare time, I will post some posts to express my thoughts.Open the post, edit and select the picture and then click the send button.

The content of the post is "People say that I have a disease, and you are my antidote, I can't live without you, this disease is called lovesickness."

After posting, I turned off the computer and lay on the bed staring at your phone number on the phone screen in a daze.I fantasize about our future.

I feel that the surrounding is getting colder and colder, as if the air is condensing.I opened my eyes and watched my body sinking bit by bit. Am I in a small river?No, this is a pool of water.And I'm sinking below.Looking at the shore through the clear water waves, you are smiling at me.His mouth seemed to be saying, "Go to hell."

I woke up from the dream and looked out the window.The day has come, the weather in the morning is wet, and the spring breeze is very comfortable.I was walking on the bustling road, but I didn't know where to go.There's always a voice in my heart that says to me

"Look at what you have become, and think about how in the past few years you have been so cowardly in love, thinking about a man day and night, and making yourself so lazy, but you haven't thought about it yet. Dare to take the initiative to find him, why are you so useless? This is not you, you have changed, this is not the Lin Shang I know."

Before I knew it, I had arrived at my destination. I opened the door and walked in. A scent of flowers came over my face, but the scent of flowers was a bit pungent, and I sneezed involuntarily.

"What's wrong with you? Have a cold?" My colleague Xiao Zhang hurriedly came up to him and asked.

"No, the scent is getting more and more pungent."

"The boss is adjusting the spices and may have failed again." Speaking of this, Xiao Zhang couldn't help lowering the volume, for fear that it would be troublesome if the iron cock heard that the wages were deducted.

I am an employee of this flower shop. I am responsible for taking care of the flowers in the flower shop every day. Occasionally, I will sell goods at the front desk for Xiao Zhang's class, collecting change and so on.The work of a flower shop may seem boring, but to me it is the most interesting thing.Only through flowers can I understand the depths of this world, the world where everything grows miraculously.

Every customer who comes to the flower shop, I will compare them to flowers in my heart, and then face them with the attitude of flowers.Just as I was about to classify the new peach blossoms into grades, a voice came to my ears

"Brother Shang, can you keep an eye on the shift for a while, I have something to deal with."

I looked up and saw my colleague Xiao Zhang. He looked harmless to humans and animals, and I couldn't refuse to answer.

"Okay, you go." I thought to myself: I really only call my brother when I ask for help.

Not long after Xiao Zhang left, the doorbell of the flower shop rang, and the door was slowly pushed in.A boy poked his head in.The boy looked twelve or thirteen years old.The boy walked into the flower shop cautiously, for fear of staining the floor.

A childish face came into view, and the boy said

"Brother, are there any carnations here?"

I responded suicidally, "Yes, I will get as much as you want."

Hey, as expected, meeting such a cute child even my voice became softer.The boy thought for a while and said

"Then I want two."

I got up to get the flowers, made a simple package, and the moment I handed the flowers, a middle-aged woman walked in the door, and yelled at the boy regardless of 21

"What are you running around? You can't save me some trouble."

The boy was extremely wronged, and said in a trembling voice, "Mother's Day is coming soon, I just want to make you happy."

The woman's expression changed drastically when she saw the flower in the young man's hand and the tears rolling in his eyes. She who was originally angry suddenly lost all anger.

The boy tried his best not to let the tears stay, but the tears still ran across his cheeks and dripped on his little hands.The woman held her baby in her arms for a while before letting go.

In my eyes, this middle-aged woman is just like the rose flower, with a hot temper.And his son is Poppy.

These things are very common in flower shops, and I think it’s no wonder that they are common. There is even the absurdity of coming here for a divorce and they become brothers and sisters. Probably I have already adapted to this kind of life.

After the mother and son left, I lay down on the table and fell asleep. After some time, the doorbell rang again, followed by an elegant fragrance.This fragrance is fresh and refined, it seems to be a floral fragrance, and it seems that I am not a floral fragrance.

I raised my head suddenly, but I met your eyes, your eyes seemed to have stars, otherwise how could they be so deep and so bright.What is different from before is that you are dressed today not in your old robe but as a sunny and cheerful young talent.

I didn't expect you to have such a side.Now I can probably understand what your name means.Zeyun, Zeyun, warm and moist, Jingxing Qingyun.This is exactly how you are portrayed.

Your voice broke my thoughts, broke my infinite reverie.When I realized it, I realized that I had been staring at your face in a daze for a long time.

"Excuse me, are there any white orchids here?"

"White Orchid" I couldn't help but read it again, and then I remembered that the familiar aroma just now was the unique freshness of white orchid.

I searched through boxes and cabinets, but unfortunately, I never saw the white orchid, which is as white as jade.I had no choice but to turn around and tell you

"Sorry, not available for now."

There seems to be a trace of sadness on your handsome face.Before I had time to say anything, you turned around and left.

Although your figure has long been engraved in my mind, every time I look at it, I will find that it is different from before.

For you, I may just be a cameo in your life script, but for me, you are my antidote and my indispensable source of water.You are my only light, you are my motivation to live.

You are the incarnation of light, then I am willing to be that light chaser, follow your footsteps, and keep chasing and running.

Looking at your distant figure, I once again fell into this endless meditation...