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Chu Jing closed her eyes reassuringly, until Wang Yutong opened her mouth when she was close at hand.

"Sister."

She called softly.

Chu Jing opened his eyes, with a trace of doubt between his brows.

Wang Yutong smiled and raised his hand: "There is a leaf on your head."

Gently picked off the leaves that were stuck on Chu Jing's head, pinched the leaves and turned them in front of their faces.

Chu Jing backed away slowly. She understood what Wang Yutong meant, and she couldn't help laughing after she retreated to a safe distance. She smiled at Wang Yutong and shook her head.

Wang Yutong crossed his legs and looked into the distance, ignoring her eyes rudely for the first time.

The thunderstorm released huge energy and blasted to the ground again and again. Wang Yutong curled up his long legs and looked like a small ball, a little lonely, but lonely and resolute.

Her back was telling Chu Jing, no problem, you don't have to come here in heavy wind and rain.

Chu Jing has thought about whether her way is wrong, she has been by her side as a friend all the time, and she suddenly wants to kiss without even confessing, which may be a bit too direct for a girl who grew up in an ordinary environment like Xiao Tong.

Maybe we should change the way of getting along, and it would be better to express our liking frankly first.

Chu Jing planned how to confess her love, and also told Ma Youran about it, hoping that as a best friend, she could provide some guidance.

Ma Youran was not surprised at all when she knew this, she said that she had already seen Chu Jing's intentions.

"I don't think Xiaotong can't see it, she must understand that you are not an ordinary friend to her.

She usually looks like a dull person, but in fact she understands very well in her heart, so she doesn't know why she doesn't say anything. "

"Is there any reason? I always feel that she is pretending to have something in her heart, and she really doesn't like to talk much."

Chu Jing was also a little bit shocked. At the beginning, she was the one who chased after Lao Yu on her own initiative. After completing such difficult moves, she always felt that she was okay. She had also cared for Wang Yutong for so many years, and she felt that the time was ripe before attacking. Thinking of being rejected, although the way of rejection is very gentle.

"The reason is probably related to that person."

When Chu Jing arrived in Dunhuang, he spent a lot of effort with them. After being hit in the face by tons of sand, he climbed Mingsha Mountain, went to the must-see Mogao Grottoes, and then returned to Beijing.

Wang Yutong and his partners took the train to Tibet after arriving in Xining.

The altitude is getting higher and higher, and the magnificent scenery is getting tired of seeing it while walking around Qinghai Lake. Some of them have a cold and are not feeling well after taking the medicine. Wanted a little distraction.

From the graduation thesis to the internship, from the internship to the postgraduate entrance examination, I chatted all over the world, and finally my mouth was dry and my interest was lacking. I don’t know who proposed to talk about my first love. When the topic came together, everyone immediately became excited, one by one. topic, actively selling his first love history.

Of course, all the first loves present were absent, and everyone's first loves failed after being united, each with its own misery and its own scum.

Ma Youran randomly contributed a few jokes that he could think of, and only Wang Yutong sat in the corner without saying a word.

"Little Tong, let me tell you about you. You don't have your first love yet, right?" "How is it possible? All I know is that there are two boys who are writing love letters to Xiaotong and handing over movie tickets. She doesn't have a first love, who will believe her?"

When the two roommates debated endlessly on the question "Wang Yutong's conditions are good, but does he have to have a love history?", the person concerned spoke up.

"I had someone I liked, probably in the second year of junior high school. I gradually discovered that I liked her, and I confirmed the relationship in the third year of junior high school."

As soon as Wang Yutong opened his mouth, everyone booed. The words "determined relationship" are very delicate. Everyone wanted to know how the relationship was determined.

Wang Yutong responded to their booing: "You don't know how to determine the relationship? Stop pretending."

"That's not necessarily true. There may be a fundamental difference."

"You are too yellow!"

"Hee hee, you all understand."

"Don't interrupt, do you still want to listen to gossip, be quiet, let the boy continue talking!"

Probably because Wang Yutong is usually enthusiastic and likes to call friends, but she has always been tight-lipped about her relationship. It is rare that she is willing to speak up. Everyone is very interested and asks what kind of person her first love is.

"What kind of person..." Wang Yutong stroked his chin and thought carefully, "She is very smart, good-looking, and her dimples are very cute when she smiles.

Her cleverness is not the kind of smartness that is casually polite in the streets and alleys. She can really learn it, whether it is language or music, she just needs to read it once. It is no exaggeration to say that she is the smartest I have ever seen. people.

My grades were always at the top of the grade. At that time, I was poor in English and she taught me patiently. I didn’t understand what the teacher said, but I would definitely understand after she said it.

Sports are also great. In the school sports meeting, the whole class relies on her to run to score points. "

"Is there such a perfect person?" The roommate propped his chin and was fascinated by it. "Then which university did he go to? Do you have a recent photo? How did you break up?" Wang Yutong was in high spirits when he talked about his advantages just now, but All stories have an ending, and this ending is really unsatisfactory.

"She didn't go to college, she dropped out of high school."

Wang Yutong was very calm when she spoke, but just one sentence made everyone's expressions change. It was the first time that even Ma Youran heard her speak in such detail.

"Why did you drop out of school? It's a pity."

Wang Yutong nodded: "It's a pity.

She is very talented, but I didn't say just now that her family's conditions are not very good, and when she was 13 years old, she took care of her paralyzed family by herself... "In an instant, the past stories about Sunshine City flooded into Wang Yutong's mind .

The old movie theater where all the enlightenment movies were stored; the frightening flood; the small dirt road that was covered with rotten vegetables and leaves leading to home... the ugly school uniform; Taekwondo, which was given up after only one day of learning; fifty cents a bottle soda.

And the white shirt that I have never worn again but I am reluctant to throw away.

All the precious memories have the shadow of Qi Yin.

"I used to think that it would be very difficult to forget her, but I didn't expect that it would be many years later when I remembered her again."

Wang Yutong looked at the afterimages falling quickly outside the window, and didn't think it was a shame to cry in front of his friends.

Ma Youran handed her a tissue and silently wiped away her tears.

"Then what happened afterwards?" Everyone stopped laughing, and asked with red eyes, "How did you separate?" "I don't know if she and I were really together.

When I came to Beijing from my hometown, I went back to find her without telling my parents, but she seemed to have a new support, and she didn't pay much attention to me. The last sentence of negation also broke all relations. "

No one asked what that sentence was, and everyone knew that it must be a sentence that people do not want to recall.

It's just that the real end was crueler than they imagined, so that the specific incident was no longer remembered in the busy life, but the gap it tore in the heart continued to hurt, and even if the pain disappeared, the complications remained. , In the end, I don't know where the real pain comes from.

"Probably because the girl's denial of her feelings hurt her, making it difficult for her to accept a new same-sex relationship."

After listening to Ma Youran's statement on the phone, Chu Jing leaned on the balcony to light a cigarette.

In fact, she has always had the habit of smoking, but she just doesn't like it very much. Recently, she has a lot of troubles, and the bad habit has been regained.

"It's also possible that it's not because you've been hurt that you don't accept new feelings."

Chu Jing's hair was disheveled by the cold wind that gradually blew up in Beijing at the end of October, "She is not a person who can't get out of the shadows, and Xiaotong's personality is generally optimistic.

I think there are two reasons why she rejected me, one is that she really doesn't like me, and the other is that she still has someone in her heart that she can't let go of. "

After she finished speaking, she laughed and rubbed the bridge of her nose, "I'm stupid, can there be other reasons?" Ma Youran was rarely serious: "It's not that she doesn't like you, it's too obvious in her attitude, you and I Everyone knows this, so there's no need to play dumb.

She is competing with herself.

Chu Jing, let me ask you what you think, do you really want to be with her? "Chu Jing" hummed, feeling that it was just a modal particle that was a bit frivolous, so he deliberately added two words: "I really want to." "

"Since that's the case, you should fight for it!" Ma Youran couldn't stand it anymore, "Can't you work hard for your own happiness! Even if she still has that person in her heart, it's impossible! How many years have passed, do you want to hug her forever? Do you want to end your life with the hurt of your first love? No one wants to do that.

She also understands Xiaotong, she just needs a legitimate reason to let herself go and untie the twist in her heart. "

"What if she just doesn't want to untie it?" "What if she doesn't want to untie it?" It was the first time Ma Youran wanted to point fingers in other people's emotional world. She felt that Wang Yutong and Chu Jing were too embarrassing Now, what is the most important?Happiness is the most important thing!Face counts ass! "How will you know if you don't try!" Ma Youran roared, "Quickly confess your love to me! Whether you can succeed or not is another story!"