your boyfriend

There was the sound of splashing water in the bathroom. Meng Qinshi was as quiet as a chicken in the bath today, and he was not even in the mood to sing his favorite little song. What happened, and Qin Jin's reddish ear tips hidden under the black hair.

What happened next?Meng Qinshi went through it again in his mind——

"Meng Qinshi, do you understand me?" Qin Jin, who finally managed to breathe calmly in the darkness, asked softly.

Meng Qinshi replied without hesitation: "I understand, we have known each other for ten years, is there anyone who understands you better than me?"

"That's not what I meant." Qin Jin calmly pushed him away and turned out of the alley. The streetlight shone on him, casting a slender shadow on the ground.Qin Jin, who was walking in front, looked very lonely, as if he had never really integrated into this world. The city's lights, flowers and willows, and laughter had nothing to do with him.

Meng Qinshi caught up with him and walked side by side: "What does that mean?"

"Do you know where I come from? Do you know my past? Do you know why Gu Yanping treated me like this?" Qin Jin asked questions one by one, as if he could throw away the stones accumulated in his heart one by one. Same as going out.

But even then, he didn't get any easier—

Meng Qinshi was caught by his question. Qin Jin would never mention the past to him, and he would never ask the root of the problem, as if it was discussed. The obscurity and haze mentioned were all hidden, and buried under the red maple tree downstairs in his house, which was about a hundred years old.

Qin Jin stood still suddenly, and when he turned his head to look at Meng Qin, he said quietly: "You don't even know, in fact, you don't know me either. If you know the real me, maybe you just want to leave me again." farther away."

The real Qin Jin——

Meng Qinshi rubbed the foam on his head, drew a circle on the glass mirror with his fingers, looked at his thoughtful eyes in the mirror, and for the first time felt a strong desire for Qin Jin in the past, wishing to get to the bottom of him. Desire to be completely dissected.

Qin Jin played songs in his earphones, and flipped through several pages of the book in his hand, but didn't read a single word.The door of his room was ajar, and the bathroom of Meng Qinshi's house was next door. The sound of splashing water almost drowned out the singing, which was not particularly loud.Gu Zhiyun called him but he didn't answer, the WeChat chat records were all sent by Gu Zhiyun unilaterally.

The last one is still the sentence half a month ago - "Grandpa will be buried tomorrow afternoon."

Qin Jin threw the book aside, let out a long sigh, and scratched his hair irritably.His life may have been a mistake from the moment he was born, especially for the Gu family, especially for Gu Yanping and Huo Manni.

On the swivel chair in front of the desk, Qin Jin's emaciated body was arched into a ball. He sat barefoot on the swivel chair, buried his head deeply in his arms, like a bird that covered its soft inside under a hard shell hedgehog.

Ping ping pong, those harsh and sharp movements echoed in my mind.

The little Qin Jin huddled into a ball, looked downstairs through the gap in the railing on the second floor, two glamorous public figures in front of outsiders tore off the surface camouflage, like two most primitive beasts, He unreservedly showed his ugliest side, completely unaware that there was a child in the house.

"You shameless stinky/bitch! I will provide you with good food and drink, marry you an actor as a wife, and I will get you all the resources and actresses you want. Otherwise, what do you think you are? Good stuff!" Gu Yanping slapped Huo Manni on the face and yelled angrily.

Huo Manni screamed, completely unlike the usual haughty, elegant and beautiful actress, she covered her slapped face with disheveled hair, and cursed at Gu Yanping: "What kind of thing are you! You drink too much! Nonsense! That’s right! I’m a bitch! I’m not only sleeping with you, I’m fucking sleeping with your dad! That kid in the house, who knows if it’s yours or your dad’s!”

boom--

A landslide-like movement came from outside the window. Little Qin Jin, who was holding on to the fence, was trembling. His back was soaked in cold sweat, and his big watery eyes were filled with water. When he blinked a little, he was hot Tears could not stop falling down his cheeks.A five-year-old child can't understand those anger and resentment, there is only one thought in his mind.

Whose child am I?

"I knew it, I knew it!" Like a mad dog, Gu Yanping picked up a chair and threw it at the TV. His red eyes were terrifying. His jealousy and resentment made him lose the power he should have as a group leader. Gesture: "I felt something was wrong when he was born! You still lied to me that he was a premature baby?!"

Huo Manni is like a lunatic who has lost her mind, laughing wantonly in a thunderstorm night.

"I love you so much! Huo Manni! I love you so much!" Gu Yanping was trembling with anger. When he looked up, he found a small figure hiding in the corridor on the second floor. Suddenly, an unknown flame burst into flames. He walked upstairs and dragged Qin Jin, who had already been frightened to the point of losing his speech ability, downstairs.

"What are you doing! Let go of my child!" Homanni's expression changed immediately.

Gu Yanping pushed away Huo Manni who came up to stop him, took Qin Jin's collar and went straight down to the dark and damp basement, threw the nearly five-year-old child into the dark warehouse, and locked the door.

When Qin Jin came to his senses, he was already in the darkness, and the chilly wind came from all directions to wrap Qin Jin's thin body. His eyes were completely dark, and only the roaring thunder kept coming into his ears. For a child who is only five years old, it is undoubtedly a nightmare, a torture that deeply frightens him and will even leave a lifetime shadow.

"Dad, Mom! Let me out, let me out!" The little hands kept beating on the heavy iron door, and the voice was full of despair and bitterness.

"Qin Jin, Qin Jin," Meng Qinshi's voice came from beside his ear, bringing Qin Jin back to reality.

Qin Jin raised his head and looked at the person with eyes full of confusion, his eyes were still a little red: "What's wrong?"

There was still a towel hanging around Meng Qinshi's neck, and his water-stained hair was clinging to his neck. His whole body seemed to be wrapped in a thin layer of mist, soft and gentle.The smell of mint shower gel came from him, which was refreshing.

"Qin Jin, I've made up my mind." Meng Qinshi's voice was gentle and slow, he restrained his usual idle attitude, and his eyes were extremely serious: "Would you like to let me know more about you?"

"What?" Qin Jin's heart trembled slightly, his voice trembled slightly as he looked at the face close at hand.

Meng Qinshi reached out and touched Qin Jin's face, and then held his cool fingertips: "I want to know, I want to know everything about you. I haven't asked you all this time, but it doesn't mean I'm not interested in it. I'm just afraid that I'm not happy to ask you. But now, I can't help it, I can't wait to know what you have experienced, so that it will no longer be an obstacle between us. "

Qin Jin lowered his eyes, and the soft light poured down from the top of his head, covering his soft facial contours with a layer of light.There seems to be still the temperature of Meng Qinshi between the lips and teeth, with a faint sweetness of white rabbit toffee.

"Do you... really want to know?" Qin Jin asked him.

Meng Qinshi nodded, with pious and serious eyes: "If you want, I want to know everything."

Qin Jin opened his mouth, but didn't say a word.This past event was not only a scandal to the Gu family, but it was even more difficult for him to tell. For so many years, he even refused to hear the word Huo Manni from anyone, even if it was just the middle-aged and elderly people casually mentioning this smash hit after dinner. The shadow queen who hastily fallen.

Aware of Qin Jin's struggle and pain, Meng Qinshi began to reflect on whether he was too anxious. He coughed lightly and stood up, patting the folds of his pajamas: "Well, if you still find it difficult, let's start today." Don't talk about it, okay?"

No, it's not that difficult, you wait.Qin Jin clamored in his heart. When he looked at Meng Qin, he turned and walked towards the door, his heart sank little by little.

The door opened a gap, Meng Qinshi's hand was still on the doorknob, but the warmth of Qin Jin's chest came from behind him.Those too slender and white arms gently wrapped around his waist, and his fingertips were trembling because of the tension.

"Qin..."

"Don't turn around!" When Qin Jin stopped Meng Qin who was about to turn around, he put his head against the man's broad and strong back, and closed his eyes with a pale face: "Just listen to me."

Meng Qinshi did not move: "Okay."

Qin Jin's hand was holding onto the corner of Meng Qinshi's clothes, as if holding a life-saving straw tightly. No one knew that a thin layer of cold sweat oozed out of his palm at this moment, and his whole body was shaking.

He collected himself and spoke slowly, with a hoarse voice: "Do you know Homanni?"

"Huo Manni?" Meng Qinshi only felt that the name was very familiar, as if it had appeared in his memory.He frowned and thought for a while: "Oh! Is it the one in the movie? That's my dad's goddess, but unfortunately it seems..."

Qin Jin hummed, and then said: "She is my mother."

Meng Qinshi's eyes widened. This news is undoubtedly shocking. Although the actress Huo Manni, who was so popular back then, suffered from depression and committed suicide due to too much pressure in the entertainment industry, announced that she was single for many years, but in fact she was secretly married. status, and married into a wealthy family, and has a son.

If I remember correctly, there is still a poster of Huo Yinghou's youthful youth in Meng Qinshi's father's study room, which is still a treasure that no one can touch.

Meng Qinshi's father would never have thought that the child he watched growing up turned out to be the son of his goddess——

Qin Jin didn't know how he finished it, but he clearly realized that this was the most confusing and logical expression in his history, and he even stammered intermittently afterwards.

Especially when he said that he didn't know whether his father was Gu Yingyao or Gu Yanping, he was surrounded by a strong sense of shame, and he was afraid that Meng Qin would suddenly interrupt him and push him away, or even stay away from him from now on. .

"Meng Qinshi," Qin Jin took a deep breath, his eyes were red, and his heart was full of sourness: "Gu Yanping said something right, you don't know how dirty my blood is, I hate it myself. "

He slowly sorted out his emotions, suppressing everything under the cold and indifferent appearance.Let go of your hand, took a step back, then turned and walked towards the desk.

In the warm and quiet room, the two stood back to back like this, neither of them said a word, the time passed quietly, and I don't know how long it took, Qin Jin finally couldn't bear the invisible torture, and spoke first: "If you mind this matter, I can stay away from you now."

Meng Qinshi did not speak, his back kept heaving, as if trying to suppress his emotions, if Qin Jin stood in front of him at this time, he would definitely see his clenched fists and clenched teeth.

But Qin Jin didn't have such courage, he lowered his head and said softly, "I'd better move out..."

Then he walked towards the closet, opened the closet door, and reached out to tidy up his own clothes hanging inside. Before his hand could reach the hanger, he was pulled far away by a strong force.

After a sudden whirlwind, Qin Jin fell heavily onto the bed, and was caught off guard and hugged tightly.Meng Qinshi's head was buried deep in his neck, and the breath he exhaled was hot.

"Qin Jin...Qin Jin..." Meng Qinshi chanted silently over and over again, each sound was as affectionate and gentle as if he wanted to carve someone into the bone marrow, and the tip of his nose rubbed against Qin Jin's neck Rubbing again, with an intimate attitude.

Qin Jin's hand was hanging in the air, and for a moment he didn't know where to land it.

Meng Qinshi said softly: "How can you be so distressing."

As if being poked into the softest part of his heart, the undercurrent hidden deep in his eyes finally had nowhere to hide. It invaded Qin Jin's mind at a ferocious speed, and finally a hot and passionate expression flowed from those cold and beautiful eyes. Fiery tears.

Qin Jin closed his eyes, and his dangling hands finally landed on Meng Qinshi's shoulders. He heard himself say softly, "From now on, please love me more."