Think childish

With Luo Hai making such a fuss, Qiao Zhi didn't fall asleep for half the night. After thinking about it, he couldn't think of a suitable way to persuade him to accept it.

Seeing her worrying, Qiu Shui felt unwilling. While tasting how much she cared for Luo Hai, he also felt that she still had a burden.Although self-consolation requires understanding of the other person's situation, in fact it is impossible to do so, so you can only compete with yourself and get angry.

When the two woke up early in the morning, Qiao Zhi raised his hand and was about to pull him into his arms, but Qiu Shui rubbed his eyes and lifted the quilt to get up, and then pulled the slippers into the bathroom.

Qiao Zhi looked at it, this is wrong, didn't she say that she should have a good morning kiss every morning?Why did you leave suddenly?She lay on the bed and turned over twice, thought for a while, then got out of bed decisively and chased into the bathroom.

Qiu Shui was brushing her teeth, Qiao Zhi leaned on the sink and looked at her, left and right, and finally came to a conclusion - this person was angry.

"Little baby, what's the matter with you?" Qiao Zhi raised her hand to twist a strand of her hair, and scratched her neck. The most sensitive part of Qiu Shui's whole body was the neck. He glared at her with a mouth full of bubbles.

Qiao Zhi snorted twice, but didn't follow her again, and leaned on the sink to watch her wash.After Qiu Shui cleaned up, he went out and cleaned up the bed, then went to the living room to pour a glass of water to drink, and while drinking, he couldn't help but look in the direction of the bedroom—why didn't this person move for a long time?

Sister Hong was making breakfast in the kitchen, when she heard the voice, she glanced over and asked, "Where is Ah Zhi? Are you awake?"

Qiu Shui said: "Get up."

"Then let her pack up quickly and go out to eat." Sister Hong urged.

Qiu Shui said "Oh", and went back to the house with a water glass in his hand. When he saw that the man was still leaning on the sink, he didn't move!

"Sister Hong asked me to eat." Qiu Shui whispered with his back to the bathroom.

A very slight sigh.

She couldn't help but turned around, approached, bit her lip, looked at Qiao Zhi, and said, "Why don't you clean up? The meal is ready, it should be cold when it's late."

Qiao Zhi's eyes suddenly turned red, and she looked like she was about to cry.Qiu Shui was startled, quickly put down the water glass, held her face in his hands and said, "What's wrong? Why are the circles around your eyes suddenly red?"

Qiao Zhi shook her head and said nothing, her mouth also dropped.

"Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry..." Qiu Shui wiped her eyes with his hands in a panic. Qiao Zhi originally wanted to tease her, but for some reason, seeing her touched like this, she really burst into tears.

Qiu Shui was completely panicked. While scolding himself for being ignorant in his heart, he held her face and gently kissed her, apologizing to her like a child.

Qiao Zhi looked at her aggrievedly and said, "You ignore me."

"I didn't!" Qiu Shui didn't know whether to laugh or cry, and was so anxious that he almost swore to the sky. "No, I'm just... I..." An angry shyness flashed across her eyes, "I'm jealous, I think you care too much about Luo Hai, and I'm afraid you'll regret being with me because of him, so I'll just... But I'm not really angry with you, I'm just... How can I ignore you..." At the end of the sentence, she suddenly became shy, as if she hated herself for being worthless, and gave Qiao Zhi a sad look, and lightly Said lightly, "Only you ignore me."

Qiao Zhi pursed her lips, gently leaned into her arms, hugged her and said, "I love you Qiu'er, you have to trust me. You are not the only one who is uneasy about this relationship, I am also worried." She Straighten up, "I'm stupid, if you are angry or troubled in the future, just tell me directly, I will explain, and I will solve it with you, okay?"

"Okay." Qiu Shui lightly touched her forehead.

Qiao Zhi said: "As for my brother...give him some time, and I will communicate with him slowly. I love you and I love him, but these are two completely different feelings. I can clearly distinguish what is my absolute love." What can't be lost, you can trust me [-]%, and besides you, my brother should be the person in this world who most wishes to see me happy."

"Okay, I got it, I won't eat flying vinegar casually in the future." Qiu Shui smiled.

Qiao Zhi nodded, squeezed her cheeks with both hands, pursed her mouth, leaned forward and closed her eyes, kissed her heavily, and then said with a smile: "You can eat vinegar, but you can't eat it indiscriminately. Occasionally being jealous is good for your physical and mental health. I want to know You care about me."

Qiu Shui smiled: "Then I have to care about my girlfriend."

"Are you still eating?" Sister Hong yelled as she stood at the door.

The two of them laughed together "Pu Chi" and responded at the same time: "Here we come—"

The three of them had just sat down at the dinner table when the phone at home rang loudly. Sister Hong urged the two of them to eat quickly, and went to the sofa to answer the phone by herself.

The hot fish porridge burst into people's nostrils with a strong aroma. Qiao Zhi just took a bite and frowned when it was so hot. Sister Hong suddenly waved her and called her: "Qingshan's phone number, I have something to call for you."

Qiao Zhi got up to answer the phone, and suddenly raised her voice without saying a word, her brows were overjoyed.She covered the receiver, and happily said to Qiushui and Hongjie: "Qingshan is going to propose to Xiaoyan!"

Sister Hong let out a happy "Ouch", stood up and sat down again, not knowing what to do for a while.

Qiu Shui looked amused, and greeted: "Eat first, eat first, don't get excited."

Qiao Zhi got excited, so she sat cross-legged on the sofa and made a phone call.

Guo Qingshan was probably also dizzy with excitement, and the two of them had a heated discussion about a series of trivial matters such as the location of the proposal, the method of the proposal, and there was a tendency to talk about smoking.Qiu Shui was afraid that the porridge would cool her stomach, so she had to sit beside her with a bowl and feed it to her with a spoon.

Because of this unexpected happy event, Qiao Zhi temporarily decided to return to Beijing, and brought her uncle and aunt along.In view of the poor psychological endurance of the two middle-aged people, Qiao Zhi and Qiushui did not dare to "become demons" throughout the whole process, and they arrived in Beijing all the way to Beijing by abiding by their sisterly duties.

The place they finally agreed to propose was in an old church in the couple's university alma mater.Guo Qingshan stayed at his alma mater to teach after graduating from graduate school. He said that it was the place where he and Xiaoyan kissed for the first time, which was very memorable.For this marriage proposal, Qiao Zhi specially dispatched Li Qian, her right-hand man, and after a lot of tossing, finally arranged the old church into a beautiful sea of ​​flowers after a week.

Guo Qingshan once jokingly said to Qiao Zhi, sister, you are so generous that I want to marry you.

The speaker is not interested in the listener, and Qiao Zhi was moved between the sea of ​​flowers and the church for a moment.She was wondering if she should also give her and Qiu'er a beautiful wedding...

The marriage proposal was as successful and touching as everyone imagined. The parents of the young couple came. Qiao Zhi saw Xiaoyan crying and laughing, and nodded to the man kneeling on the ground with tears all over his face and said, "I At the moment of "yes", there is a decision in my heart.

Marriage is complicated and sacred. Qiao Zhi never thought that one day she would have such an impulse—she wanted to marry Qiushui, to be with her forever, and to feel the benefits of that contract with her. beautiful and moving.Although she knew that no matter whether there was this contract or not, they would love each other and be with each other for the rest of their lives.

In the winter of this year, Beijing regained its new life from a catastrophe. The snowfall that arrived as scheduled seemed to confirm the old motto "auspicious snow heralds a good year". "Untimely" vitality.

In the small bungalow in Yushui Garden, Qiao Zhi slowly packed her luggage, especially dissatisfied with the fact that she had to go on a business trip after Chinese New Year.

Qiu Shui looked funny, and wanted to coax her, but because there was an outsider in the room.

Xiao Li gave him such a wink, and immediately said, "Mr. Qiao, I'll wait for you in the car downstairs."

Xiao Li left.

Qiu Shui hugged her into his arms and coaxed her gently, and said a lot of good things, Qiao Zhicai reluctantly got up and packed her luggage.

This business trip will take about a week. Qiao Zhi packed her luggage and was about to zip and close the box when Qiu Shui interrupted: "There is this one, put it in too."

Qiao Zhi took the Walkman from her hand, turned it upside down, looked at it, and asked curiously, "Why give me this?"

Qiu Shui said: "I can't accompany you to sleep with you when you're on a business trip. I've recorded a bedtime story for you. If you can't fall asleep, just open it and listen to it."

The "work villain" in Qiao Zhi's heart was knocked down in an instant, and she pouted into her arms, rubbed and groped for a while, then whispered in her ear: "I have prepared one for you too." Gift, you wait for me to come back."

Qiu Shui said hello.

……

Qiao Zhi received a call from Guo Qingshan late at night on the third day of his business trip.

At that time, she was sleeping dimly, with earphones in her ears, when her mobile phone rang loudly on the bedside.With a full stomach full of fire, she touched the phone and found that it was Qingshan calling. She felt strange in her heart, but when she picked it up, she was startled by Guo Qingshan's voice.

He seemed to be crying, but it didn't look like it, there was just a lump in his throat.

Qiao Zhi woke up in an instant, sat up, turned on the desk lamp, pinched her brows and asked, "What happened?"

Guo Qingshan said that Xiaoyan was going to retire, and Xiaoyan would not marry him anymore.

Qiao Zhi was surprised and strange, and asked, "What's going on? Why don't you just say that you won't get married? Didn't you say that the wedding date will be in the beginning of spring two days ago? Did you quarrel?"

Guo Qingshan seemed to collapse suddenly when she was asked, he howled dryly twice, and then cried: "Sister, why does Xiaoyan have to suffer all this? Why can't I bear her suffering for her?"

Qiao Zhi was completely baffled by his howls, and said sharply, "What's the matter, tell me first! You called me in the middle of the night just to let me hear you howling?"

There was silence on the phone for a while, then a rustling noise came, Guo Qingshan said in a hoarse voice: "Xiaoyan is sick."

"Sick?" Qiao Zhi's heart skipped a beat, and her hands on the quilt were clenched for a moment.

"A while ago, she said that she felt a little difficult to breathe, and then her legs hurt. I thought it was because she was too tired to draw recently, so I asked her to suspend her work first, and then said to accompany her to the hospital for a checkup. But I didn't expect her to hide it. I went to the hospital for an examination myself, and finally found out..." Guo Qingshan cried again.

"What!" Qiao Zhi froze.

"The doctor said it was a sequela of SARS caused by overdose of hormones." Guo Qingshan sniffed, "She kept it from me and didn't tell me. She ran around to ask and found out that she was not alone. Someone found out a long time ago. It's all her symptoms..."

Qiao Zhi's back felt cold.

"Please tell me more about the symptoms!"

"... Difficulty breathing, leg pain, eyesight, vision deterioration, and cardiovascular and cerebrovascular problems..." Guo Qingshan said with difficulty.

"Are there many people suffering from this disease?" Qiao Zhi felt her voice start to tremble.

"I don't know, I haven't figured it out yet. Sister, she told me two days ago that she didn't want to get married. I thought she didn't like me anymore. If my aunt hadn't told me the truth, I really...I..."

……

Qiao Zhi couldn't listen anymore, her mind was completely confused, and it seemed that only the word "SARS" was left in front of her eyes, looking at her ghostly.She shivered, and suddenly turned over and got out of bed and began to pack her luggage. As she packed, tears fell down one by one...

How to do?How to do?

Qiao Zhi propped herself up on the bed and cried for a while, then suddenly rushed into the bathroom and splashed herself with cold water - don't think about anything!She looked at herself in the mirror, gritted her teeth viciously as soon as the crying face appeared, and took it back.

Go back and see her, right now, right now!immediately!

Qiao Zhi caught the plane back to Beijing after five o'clock in the morning, and then arrived home.The living room on the first floor was dark and quiet, but she knew that someone who loved her was waiting for her upstairs.

Qiao Zhi threw all her luggage in the living room, went upstairs and walked slowly into the bedroom.But even so, Qiu Shui was still awakened.With Qiao Zhi not around, she always slept restlessly.

"A Zhi?" Qiu Shui sat up from the bed and looked at her with sleepy eyes, "Why are you back at this hour?"

Qiao Zhi tried her best to control her inner emotions, took off her clothes and went to bed as if nothing had happened, looked at Qiu Shui and said, "Hug me."

Qiu Shui was a little frightened by her, and quickly lay down again and hugged her tightly in his arms.She felt the trembling of the person in her arms, and became more worried, and asked anxiously, "Is something wrong?"

Qiao Zhi shook her head slightly, raised her head and kissed her actively, Qiu Shui also missed her, seeing that she refused to say more, so she took off her clothes cooperatively, and kissed her on the forehead comfortingly...

It was already bright after the incident, Qiu Shui closed his eyes sleepily and rested his head on her arm, Qiao Zhi looked out of the window in a daze, turning his head to kiss her from time to time.

Her appearance was really abnormal, Qiu Shui was anxious, but she refused to open her mouth no matter how much she asked, and remained stalemate until evening——

In the evening, Qiu Shui was making fruit tea in the kitchen. Qiao Zhi had been bored in the study all day. She wanted to find a breakthrough to ask her thoughts, but unexpectedly, she suddenly received a text message from the hospital.

The text message mentioned some symptoms of the sequelae of SARS and the fact that the government is counting the sick people, saying that she must go to the hospital for a thorough examination in the near future.

Qiu Shui was distracted for a moment, the back of her hand touched the kettle, it was scalded, and she quickly retracted, she looked up at the second floor, and probably knew the reason for Qiao Zhi's sudden abnormality.

There were two crisp knocks on the door, and then the half-hidden door was gently pushed open from the outside.

Qiao Zhi turned around and saw Qiu Shui walking in with a transparent teapot.

"Try it, this time I added passion fruit." Qiu Shui poured her a glass.

Qiao Zhi closed her eyes and inhaled lightly, then smiled contentedly: "It smells so good."

Qiu Shui said: "Drink and watch."

Qiao Zhi drank it as she said.

Qiu Shui moved behind her, touched her neck back and forth, and then gradually moved down to the collarbone, stroking it back and forth with his slender fingers, as if he was playing with something he couldn't put it down.

"Ah Zhi." She leaned down, and the hot air from her nose made Qiao Zhi flinch unconsciously.

Qiao Zhi raised her hand to hold hers, and gave a soft "hmm".

"Don't be afraid." Qiu Shui kissed her temples, "It's mine, I can't avoid it, but what if it's a false alarm?"

Qiao Zhi's hand trembled, and Qiu Shui grabbed it even harder.

"I'm afraid." She stood up suddenly, tears fell one after another as if she couldn't hold it anymore, "I'm terribly scared, I don't know what to do? Why is this happening? What if there is no such event? You How can I accept it?"

Qiu Shui couldn't answer her question, so he could only hold her in his arms, and said in a hoarse voice, "Hey, don't cry, let's go check first, and see the test results first, if there is no such thing... I have survived, the sequelae of SARS... definitely will not be a dead end, there must be a way, there must be..." She couldn't go on talking, Qiao Zhi cried her heart, and the uncertain future of her life also made her panic.

Fate always seems to be so mean and stingy. It doesn't see lovers get married, and hot-blooded young people succeed in realizing their dreams. It always has to set some problems to test them.If you pass this hurdle, you will be reborn; if you don't pass it, it seems that there is no other way but to bow your head and admit defeat.

The two spent a long night in torment. The next morning, they came to the hospital, Qiushui began to undergo examinations, and Qiao Zhi waited outside. She couldn't bear it, so she asked a middle-aged man next to him to borrow money. After lighting a cigarette, he walked to the stairwell, and while smoking, he began to carefully recall the details of the past between the two of them.

For Qiao Zhi, this was almost a chronic torture.

She has never regretted it like this.In those five years, if she hadn't hesitated, if she hadn't denied it, if she had been braver, firmer, and understood earlier, wouldn't everything have been different?

But there are no ifs in this world.

If you miss it, you miss it.

……

In the small office, the air seemed to freeze with the doctor's gaze. Qiao Zhi and Qiu Shui clasped their hands tightly, holding their breath, not daring to take it lightly, and finally——

"...The film looks fine, everything is normal." The doctor suddenly relaxed his brows, and said with a smile, "It was a false alarm, congratulations."

Qiao Zhi's heartbeat almost stopped following his words, and then jumped up violently again. She and Qiu Shui looked at each other, and in each other's eyes they saw the joy of the rest of life after the catastrophe.

"When you came here, you said that you didn't have those symptoms, so I guessed that the problem should not be serious. I remember that you were the third batch of patients that our hospital took over at the beginning. Doctor Zhou just happened to be transferred from Guangdong at that time. He was mainly in charge of your patients. , he has always been very skeptical about hormone medication, and the medication is about 2 to 4 mg per kilogram of body weight..." The doctor seemed to notice that he was wrong, smiled, and then frowned, "The situation was serious at the time, Everyone has no experience in dealing with SARS, and found that hormones are indeed helpful in rescuing serious patients, but they are overused..." He paused for the third time, "At that time, no one could take care of these, after all, it was a life... "

After coming out of the hospital, Qiao Zhi's heart was still beating very fast. She suspected that she was dreaming, so she ruthlessly grabbed her arm, and then she smirked.

Qiu Shui also laughed with her, with tears in his eyes.

In her life, God has really treated her favorably.

Qiu Shui stretched out his hand and pulled her into his arms, choking with sobs: "I really love you."

Qiao Zhi touched her back and smiled: "I love you too, I love you so much."

If there is luck in the world, there will be misfortune.

Xiaoyan finally refused to marry Guo Qingshan, and in the spring of next year, the wedding they had originally planned was shelved.Guo Qingshan seemed to have changed overnight. He became silent and didn't like to laugh anymore, but he became more like a reliable man.

Xiaoyan said that he didn't want to get married, so he didn't mention it anymore, but he didn't say anything and agreed to break up, and he became an intrusive son-in-law, shaking in front of Xiaoyan's eyes every day.

Two years later, Xiaoyan underwent bone graft surgery.For patients with the sequelae of SARS, the collapse of the femoral head is like a terrible prediction that cannot be broken. However, after the operation, some of Xiaoyan's symptoms were significantly relieved, and the examination also showed that her bone density was slowly increasing.

Everyone thought that she would gradually get better, and Xiaoyan herself had such hope, so Guo Qingshan proposed for the second time, and Xiaoyan agreed, and after half a month, the two got married.

Unfortunately, the facts did not develop as everyone expected. In less than a year, Xiaoyan's femoral head finally collapsed. The successive operations and the gradual "rottenness" of her body finally crushed her. On a snowy day, Xiaoyan told Qingshan that she wanted to drink the bean curd at the back door of the school.Qingshan agreed, but she committed suicide as soon as he went out.

Xiaoyan was not rescued in the end. After her death, Qingshan resigned from the school and quietly left Beijing alone.For almost two full years, no one heard from him.Later, Qiao Zhi began to receive letters from him, which said that he was a support teacher in Tibet, Motuo, and his life was very boring, but he was very down-to-earth, and he said something sorry for his parents. It can be seen that he Still haven't come out from the shadow of Xiaoyan's suicide.

There were too many letters from Qingshan, so Qiao Zhi thought about finding a wooden box to put them in. She rummaged around in the study, but she didn't expect to find dozens of letters signed to her.Those letters were packed in a black wooden box and placed on the top of the bookcase. The envelope of each letter was written with the words "To Qiao Zhi" and numbered, from 1 to 59, one short It's sixty years old.

Qiao Zhi has already recognized who wrote these letters from the font on the envelope, she sat cross-legged on the carpet, and opened the first letter numbered 1——

"I'm sick, and the situation doesn't seem very optimistic. I feel a little flustered. I wish you were here."

Signed - Nian Zhi

"Spring in Beijing really doesn't have a breath of spring. I still like summer. That's the season when I met you. I really want to see you in a white dress again."

Signed - Nian Zhi

……

"My illness is getting worse, and three people have been taken out of the isolation ward today. I'm thinking, am I dying?"

Signed - Nian Zhi

"I couldn't breathe. The nurse said I passed out. I felt like I saw Lord Yan. I asked him, can you bring Qiao Zhi to me? He said no, so I came back to life." Hahaha."

Signed - Nian Zhi

"...I miss you so much. When I recover from illness, I must go to see you, even secretly. If I die...then I can stay by your side openly. Thinking about it this way, I I am not afraid of death at all.”

Signed - Nian Zhi

……

Qiao Zhi read through the 59 letters carefully, and couldn't remember which letter she started crying. Anyway, after reading the letter, her eyes had completely turned into swollen eyes.

She packed up the letters, sat in the study and sent them all afternoon, and finally wrote a reply letter to Qiushui in 03——

"In my whole life, there was no fun. But fortunately, there was a person who gave me a lot of bumps, a lot of worries, and a lot of love. One night she fell asleep and lay beside me, full of fruits and vegetables Looking at her peaceful face, I thought, I hope that one day in the future, I can meet death with her and be buried in the ground together. When the body dissipates and the bones become rigid, we will be more honest It is the love of two clear and free souls. In this vast land, although we cannot live together, we will eventually die together. This is the most romantic thing I can think of."

Signed - Nianqiu

———End of the text———

The author has something to say: I caught a bug and looked back and found that the written words were gone...

It ends here, there will be extra episodes, but they will be updated from time to time.Just to mention, Xiaoyan is based on a real case, and I have made some adjustments to the timeline of the sequelae of SARS.

I have already said too much about the off-topic of this book, so I will not say any more. Thank you for reading it. I will wait for your comments in the comment area. Bow, see you next time.

I wish you all peace and health.Good night.