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Qiu Shui waited at home for three days in a row, during which Qiao Zhi didn't call back, so that little hope that was already shaky was completely shattered.

She decided that Qiao Zhi had escaped, maybe she didn't know how to persuade her, or maybe she had already sensed her intentions and didn't know how to deal with it, in short, no matter what the reason was, it just made her more sure of Qiao Zhi's Attitude - do not accept, impossible.

After confirming this fact, Qiu Shui locked the bedroom door, drew all the curtains, and the bright and transparent room suddenly became dark.She was sitting on the ground with her back leaning against the bed, with her hands spread out, her expression painful, like a distressed soldier who was besieged by thousands of troops and could not escape.

She silently took out her heart and displayed it in front of her eyes, thinking about how to get out of the predicament in front of her.

Why do you like her?If an answer to this question can be found, does that mean that some kind of solution can be found?

Qiushui cut her heart to pieces, trying to dig out an answer from the long years, but when she looked back on her depressed half life, what she finally saw was a heart named "Qiao Zhi". lamp.The heart lamp weakly and stubbornly illuminated the devastated old mountains and rivers in her heart, pure as a joke played by fate on her.

"Now you see the truth?" she said to herself.

Looking at the lamp, Qiu Shui instinctively felt a kind of threat, which was the fear caused by completely dissecting his emotional world and getting the answer.

She finally understood that what she was facing was not a thousand troops, but another herself.That self is cowardly, inferior, naive and weak, and the only thing she can rely on is that heart lamp.She is fully capable of winning this war, as long as she is willing to accept self-destruction.

……

Qiu Shui trapped himself in the house, trying to find a way out for himself, but the result was that he saw more clearly how he might die in the future.

This made her suddenly feel a certain loneliness, like a certain form of despair. You understand this, or this person may have no hope for you in this life, but you still have to continue to live in this full world. It's a boring and painful world, appreciating each other's liveliness, the other's joy, the other has nothing to do with you... Thinking of this, a surge of unwillingness suddenly rushed out of the sticky love, Qiu Shui Desperate thoughts turned a corner, and suddenly completed self-salvation.

She thought, let me try again.

……

On the other side, Guo Qingshan received a call from Qiao Zhi, and rushed to the door with a mission on his back. He slammed on the door and summoned Qiu Shui's soul back.

"My sister said that you are in a bad mood these days, so let me take you out to relax. It just so happens that our class is going to go out to sketch this summer vacation, so you can go with me!" Guo Qingshan said, squeezing from her side. went in. "Why do you draw the curtains so tightly in broad daylight?"

Qiu Shui watched him open the curtains after a few rubs, and the dazzling sunlight suddenly shone into the room. She narrowed her eyes slightly, and asked in a hoarse voice, "What else did she say?"

"Who? Ah... My sister also said, let us eat, drink and have fun, and she will reimburse all the expenses!" Guo Qingshan saw her standing at the door without moving, and walked in front of her with his arms crossed, wondering, "Are you sick? Why is your complexion so bad? Your voice is also hoarse, coughing?"

"No." Qiu Shui walked to the desk and drank the half glass of water left at an unknown time, then cleared his throat, "Did she say when she will be back?"

"I said it." Guo Qingshan turned around and dragged out the suitcase she put under the bed, wiped it with his hand, it was very clean. "She said that there are busy things in T City. This business trip is estimated to be long, and it will take at least a month to come back. I'm afraid you will be bored staying alone, so why don't you call me over?"

When Qiu Shui heard the word "a few months", he clenched his hand holding the water glass tightly, and then slowly released his strength.

"understood."

***

The location of sketching was set at Cangyan Mountain, but instead of going directly to Cangyan Mountain, they had to go to Shijiazhuang first. Starting from there, passing through Stone Village and other places along the way, it was equivalent to painting all the way there.

It took a long time to sketch this time, and several places were needed on the way, so the number of students who voluntarily participated was less. Including Qiushui, there were no more than ten people in total.

Among all the places he visited throughout the journey, Qiushui liked Stone Village the most.There was an old stone arch bridge in that village, as well as various stone buildings and courtyard houses. Whenever she was bored, she would sit on the arch bridge in a daze and watch the small river under the bridge flow silently. My heart is also quiet.

This sketching trip ended up taking longer than they originally expected, and when the two returned to their Beijing home again, it was already half a month later.

The door opened, Guo Qingshan threw the luggage on the ground as soon as he entered the room, then ran to the kitchen and said: "Let's put the luggage first, I'm starving to death, I'll go and see if there is anything to eat?"

Qiu Shui put down his luggage, went to the window and opened the curtains one by one, and then opened the window, the air was convected, and the astringent smell in the room that hadn't been lived in for a long time dissipated.

After a while, Guo Qingshan came out with noodles in one hand and two eggs in the other, and he said depressedly: "All the vegetables in the refrigerator are spoiled and smelly. I searched around and only a handful of noodles and two eggs were left. Eggs."

Qiu Shui went into the kitchen to search again, and finally found half a bag of ham sausage.

"That's all, let's cook some noodles first, go out and buy some fresh vegetables at night and come back." Qiu Shui rolled up his sleeves, took a pot of water and put it on the stove, and said casually, "Go and call my sister." , tell her that we have arrived home safely, lest she worry."

Guo Qingshan: "Come on!"

……

While staring at the stove, Qiu Shui pricked up his ears to listen carefully to the movement outside the kitchen.She vaguely heard Guo Qingshan say "I had a good time", "It's nothing", "It's okay", and after a rough thought, she can probably deduce what Qiao Zhi asked on the other end of the phone.

The phone call was hung up quickly, and Qiu Shui lowered her eyelashes in disappointment—Qing Shan didn't ask her when she would be back...

"Qiu Shui," Guo Qingshan rolled up to the kitchen door like a wind, looked at her happily and said, "I have good news for you, my sister just said on the phone that she will be back in two days, and I told you not to Run around, and when she comes back, she will take you to meet someone."

Qiu Shui only listened to the first half, and suddenly panicked. He kept stirring the pot with a spoon in his hand, feeling that he urgently needed to do something to calm down.

"The noodle soup splashed out!" Guo Qingshan exclaimed.

Qiu Sailor suddenly stopped, let go of the spoon, and wiped it on the rag twice.

"Did she say she would be back in the morning or in the afternoon?" Qiu Shui asked.

Guo Qingshan shook his head indifferently: "She didn't say anything, she just said that she will come back after two days of work, and she may not come back in two days, what if she can't finish her work?"

Qiu Shui calmed down a little, and asked belatedly, "You just said that she wanted to take me to meet someone?"

"Yeah." Guo Qingshan nodded, "I asked who she would take you to meet? She refused to tell me, she was very mysterious."

A look of uneasiness flashed in Qiu Shui's eyes, and he nodded hesitantly: "Got it..."

……

In the afternoon two days later, Qiao Zhi drove back.

At that time, Qiu Shui was acting as a still life model for Guo Qingshan in the living room, when she heard the sound of a car rolling on the ground outside, she immediately stood up from her chair.

"Sister is back?" Guo Qingshan looked at her.

Qiu Shui pinched the palm of his own hand and said calmly, "It should be."

Guo Qingshan immediately threw the paintbrush, jumped up and rushed out, shouting excitedly while running: "Gift gift, my gift!"

Qiu Shui stood where he was, and suddenly wanted to cry.She shook her head mockingly, followed the easel around.

……

The two hadn't seen each other for almost a month, and suddenly their eyes met, and Qiao Zhi moved away first.

Guo Qingshan went in with the luggage, Qiu Shui watched her close the car door hesitantly, then walked up to him hesitantly, half opened his mouth hesitantly, then closed it again, as if he didn't know what to say.

Once upon a time, they have become so strange?

Qiu Shui clearly heard the sound of something slowly breaking apart inside her body, and a certain unspeakable sadness filled her whole body. For a moment, she wished that she could disappear suddenly.

Then, she heard Qiao Zhi frowned and asked, "Why did you lose weight?"

The originally shattered and silent pain was instantly healed by something more powerful, and then transformed into some kind of morbid comfort by her imagination, overshadowing all the sorrow and anxiety.

"I ran around during this time, and I exercised a lot." Qiushui said.

Unexpectedly, Qiao Zhi frowned even more after hearing this: "Didn't Guo Qingshan say that you were treated well on the way? Why does this look like you have been hungry for half a month? How much exercise can you do if you go out to draw a picture? Still need Digging mountains and rocks?"

Qiu Shui looked at the face in front of him that he had been thinking about day and night, his eyes were as sharp as a carving knife, and he traced the corners of his eyebrows and eyes inch by inch and engraved it in his heart. wait.

Qiao Zhi was startled by the frantic emotion in her eyes, thinking that something terrible happened to her when she went out, hurriedly stepped up the steps and entered the room, and then grabbed Guo Qingshan into the study without any explanation and asked first. A pass.

Guo Qingshan was questioned by her with a dazed face, and after searching his brain for a long time, he suddenly realized: "It seems that something is wrong! Qiushui...she seems to be in a bad mood, seems to have fallen in love with someone?" He carefully observed Looking at Qiao Zhi's expression, he hesitated to affirm his last sentence. "Yes! That's it!"

Qiao Zhi looked at him seriously, and asked, "How did you find out?"

Although Guo Qingshan has now grown into the tallest person in his family, he actually feels that his status is the lowest.For example, as soon as Qiao Zhi became serious now, he felt nervous. Although his sister was asking about Qiushui, he felt as if he had made some unforgivable mistake, and stammered, "Just let us go to the boundless world." On the day of the mountain, she stood on the top of the mountain and suddenly said, said..."

"What?" Qiao Zhi was a little impatient.

Guo Qingshan became nervous, and blurted out: "A high mountain can be climbed, and a sea of ​​people is far away. That's right! That's the sentence! I should remember correctly..."

Qiao Zhi's heart sank as soon as she tasted these words.

She understands Qiushui's temperament, and for her to say such words, it can be seen that she has a deep-rooted affection for that person... She thought of the scene she ran into in Hongse that night, and suddenly felt dizzy.

While her head was getting dizzy, an inappropriate and weird thought suddenly came to her perfectly rational heart - Qiao Zhi thought uncomfortably, is Gu Jia so good?You already like this?

The author has something to say: I want to eat pig's trotters... and then drink two taels of shochu...