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"Sister Hong! We're back!" Qiu Shui got out of the car first, and entered the shop shouting.

Li Hong was paying the customer, and gave her a wink with a smile. After paying the bill, she glanced behind her again: "Where's your sister?"

After paying the fare, Qiao Zhi opened the door and came in: "Here."

"Sister Hong, I'm hungry." Qiu Shui rubbed his belly pitifully.

Li Hong smiled and pointed to the backyard: "Your sister got up early in the morning and cooked a table of dishes and is waiting to welcome you. Go and eat!"

Qiu Shui looked back at her in surprise, and Qiao Zhi teased: "Go eat No. 1."

"What?" Li Hong stared, her exaggerated expression looked much more sincere than Qiao Zhi, "Compared to No.1!"

Qiu Shui blushed, and quickly fled with the bag.

At night, Qiu Shui returned to the house after taking a shower, but she didn't see Qiao Zhi. She wiped her wet hair with a towel and walked across the courtyard to the back curtain of the supermarket. He looked at the letter in his hand seriously.

Qiu Shui knew that the letter was written to her by Grandpa Wang.Qiao Zhi read the letter a lot, and the crease in the middle of the letter paper was severely worn out. Qiu Shui even helped her glue it together with tape.

Qiao Zhi couldn't explain why she opened the letter again tonight.

For more than a year, whenever she was flustered, she liked to read this letter over and over again.

Maybe it was because of Director Gong's problem during the day?She was slightly distracted holding the letter paper.

Qiao Zhi had almost forgotten what it was like to be a student while studying at school.For more than a year, she has always felt that she is in a very contradictory state of mind—not like an adult, nor like a child; she has done some things and gained some sense of accomplishment, but she still feels confused and flustered.

People around praised her for being smart and capable, but she felt uneasy while accepting these compliments.Qiao Zhi felt that she had no confidence.It's all just cleverness, she thought.What would she do if one day her cleverness was no longer useful and things were too difficult for her to solve?

Qiao Zhi remembered last week that No. [-] Middle School in the city was closed for the weekend, and she went to pick up Xia Huanhuan from school.At that time, there were many parents who came to pick up their children from school at the school gate of City No. [-] Middle School. She squeezed among them and always felt very awkward. She felt a bit like a little girl who stole her mother's high heels.

When she got home and heard Huanhuan's story about her study and life at school, Qiao Zhi felt even more flustered.She couldn't explain this panic, it was a sense of insecurity and uncertainty that deviated from the majority of the crowd.

She does not believe that there is a firm and regretless choice in the world, especially a choice that deviates from the public, which exists in the repeated game of turning back and moving forward countless times.

The most dangerous thing about fighting the public alone is that if you are not firm in your will and do not have full confidence and persistence in the war you waged, then you are very likely to be persuaded by the public and start to doubt yourself. Am I actually wrong?

Xia Huanhuan, Xie Xiaoqing, Qiu Kai, Teapot, and even her closest relatives have all asked her the same question - do you really plan to go back to study?What if you regret it in the future?

How to do?

Who knows what to do.

Qiao Zhi tossed and turned all night without coming up with an answer. When the two of them were sitting at the dinner table for dinner the next day, she asked Li Hong, "Sister Hong, do you still want to continue studying?"

Li Hong was taken aback, and said, "In our village, it's good for a girl to finish primary school. Many families can't afford it, and they're not willing to."

"You didn't answer my question directly." Qiao Zhi looked at her stubbornly.

Li Hong seemed to be really stumped by her question. After muttering for a long while, he hesitated and said, "I also...don't know, and I don't know what's the use of reading any more...It costs money, and I don't have that kind of effort anyway. It's..."

Seeing her gloomy expression, Li Hong asked softly, "Do you want to go back to study?"

Qiao Zhi didn't say yes or no. After dinner, she greeted Sister Hong and went straight to Hengyuan.It happened that the teapot was also in the company, Qiao Zhi dragged him into the office, and said with a mysterious face that he wanted to discuss something with him, but the teapot thought something serious happened, and closed the door with a vigilant expression and pulled down all the venetian fans As soon as he turned around, he saw Qiao Zhi looking at him with question marks all over his face.

Qiao Zhi: "What are you doing?"

Teapot: "Don't you have something important to tell me?"

Qiao Zhi: "I have something to tell you, but what are you doing with the curtains closed?"

Teapot: "Beware that walls have ears."

Qiao Zhi: "..."

Teapot: "Tell me, what's the matter?"

Qiao Zhi said "Oh" and sat down. After waiting for a while, she tapped on the desk with her fingers and said, "I plan to go back to school to study."

"..." Teapot: "What?"

"Didn't you hear that?" Qiao Zhi started to flick his eyes left and right, but didn't look at him.

The teapot didn't expect what she was going to say at all, and didn't realize it for a while: "Go back to school? Don't you want to study?"

"It's not that I don't want to. There was no choice before..." Her voice became smaller and smaller.

"Is there a choice now?" Teapot looked at her a little funny, "Our company has just been established, and it's a good time for you to flex your muscles. What kind of books should you go back to read? You are not a student!"

Qiao Zhi: "..."

The teapot fumbled in his pocket and took out a pack of cigarettes. He lit the fire and said, "Anyway, I don't think it's interesting for you to go back to study. I asked you if you still read it earlier, and you said no, why did you suddenly figure it out now?"

"It's not that I've figured it out, it's that...hey, you don't understand even if I tell you."

teapot:"……"

Qiao Zhi was irritated by him, so he reached out for a cigarette and lit one: "I'm just a little flustered, do you understand? I look pretty good now, but in a few years? People have to look forward , As far as my half-baked level is concerned, I might be on the road one day, I still want to learn something down-to-earth, Shen Xinxin."

The teapot seemed to understand, but also seemed to not understand, and asked: "Then you will not panic when you go back to study?"

Qiao Zhi shook her head: "I don't know, I'm not sure, I just know that I'm at a loss now."

Teapot can't understand her confusion, but he feels that even if Luo Hai is standing here today, he probably can't understand it. He hasn't read as many books as him... because of this weird comparison Psychologically, the teapot nodded pretending to understand, and said: "It's just a big deal, if you want to study, you can read it! I'll find someone to put you in a middle school, and I'll just read a class like you No?"

Qiao Zhi nodded: "Okay."

The teapot said again: "Xiaowen called me early this morning and said that Province F had written back, saying that we should go over and talk, so now you..."

"I'm not going. The legal person of the company is you. My existence doesn't mean much. You bring Brother Jiao with you. You two can go over and talk. We'll talk about the details when you come back." Qiao Zhi said.

"to make."

***

Teapot is very efficient in handling affairs, and all aspects of the process have been completed. A week later, Qiao Zhi returned to school with her schoolbag on her back. When the class teacher introduced her, she only said that she was transferred from another school. She treated Qiao Zhi very preferentially, and it was probably because of her superiors. The reason for the greeting.

The feeling of going through the back door was quite mysterious, and Qiao Zhi waited for several days before raising his head again.

The feeling after returning to school... How should I put it, she didn't panic anymore, but her life began to become extremely boring.It's like a person who is used to eating big fish and big meat suddenly starts to become a vegetarian. Compared with doing business, campus life is extremely dull and boring, especially since she has fallen behind a lot in her studies. There are nine out of ten sentences in the textbook She couldn't even understand the words, and as expected, she got the lowest score in the exam.

If it weren't for Xia Huanhuan to accompany her, Qiao Zhi would almost hit the wall - is there something wrong with her mind?What kind of book did you run back to read?

After reading it like this for a while, Qiao Zhi felt that it was not good, and she felt that she had used the wrong method.Staying in a boxy classroom every day holding books and studying hard is not her way out. For a person who is used to living in the wild, you can't forcefully lock him in the house and try to make him make some progress because of it.

Qiao Zhi learned from the painful experience, and finally, under Bai Jiao's suggestion, she asked the school to study at home on the grounds of poor health, and then hired a tutor to teach at home every weekend.

In this way, everyone is happy.

She alone wasn't enough to study, and Qiao Zhi even hooked up with Sister Hong.

Li Hong didn't even finish elementary school, but it's hard work for the family teacher. One has to prepare two classes, but fortunately the salary is high, and the two students are not stupid.

So many times of cold and heat alternately pass by, and the youthful years of the young man are gone in the blink of an eye.

And this winter, if anything special happened, it was that Qiushui's father, Zhuang Yao, who had been playing tricks for decades, finally succeeded in killing himself.

Zhuang Yao died on the bed of a prostitute, the cause of death was a heart attack.

The two sisters of the Zhuang family no longer had much affection for the debt-collecting younger brother. A few tears were shed at the funeral, and it was over after burning a stick of incense.

There is an old saying that death is like a lamp going out. There are thousands of lamps in this world, but most of them go out quietly. Once the wind passes, a person's life is erased.At least one lamp called "Zhuang Yao" is missing in the world, and no one has noticed it except his closest relatives.

The dead are dead, but the living still have to eat and drink.

Zhuang Ci had trouble with Qiushui's existence for a while, if he wanted to take her home and raise her, it was really not worthwhile to think twice; if he wanted to just ignore her, he was afraid that outsiders would gossip.Finally, after much deliberation, she came up with an idea that she thought was perfect—she planned to find a family for Qiushui to marry her off.

Qiu Shui has grown to 16 years old, and if she puts it in the past, she can get married.

After the funeral, Zhuang Ci took Qiushui home with great fanfare, and then impatiently picked a bunch of people, and finally picked an unmarried young man from her husband's work unit from that bunch of people.

According to her, this young man is young and promising, his temperament is really good, and his family background is not bad, so he is really a perfect husband.

But now, after all, it is not the old society, free love is popular now, Zhuang Ci is afraid that Qiu Shui will lose his temper, so he persuades them to meet and have a look first, if it is suitable, they can date first, and they don't have to get married right away.

Qiu Shui didn't say yes or no, so Zhuang Ci took her assent and immediately started preparing for the two to meet.

On the day of the meeting, the young man came to the door carrying gifts in large and small packages. The couple of the dealer were overjoyed and invited him in to sit down.Qiu Shui sat on the sofa, didn't get up, and didn't pay attention to him. Zhuang Ci stepped forward to pull her, but she ignored him, and only looked up at the clock on the wall.

"The girl is still young, so she's shy!" Zhuang Ci smoothed things out with a smile, "You sit first, sit here." She pointed to the seat next to Qiushui.

The young man smiled cautiously, touched his trouser legs with both hands and just moved forward when the knock on the door sounded again, Zhuang Ci and his husband looked at each other with doubts on their faces.

"I'll go and open the door." Zhuang Ci said, and quickly gave the young man a hand.

However, this time it was an unexpected guest.

The door opened, and Qiao Zhi made eye contact with Zhuang Ci with a smile on her face. Before the other party could speak, she stabbed into the room, and then directly patted a piece of paper into the other party's arms. Zhuang Ci turned over and took a quick glance, and caught a glimpse of " Guardianship" in three characters.

Several people in the room were still in a dazed state, Qiu Shui sat on the sofa and looked at her with a smile, raised an elbow and tapped her wrist, meaning - you are late.

"There is a traffic jam on the road." Qiao Zhi made a helpless expression, pulled the person on the sofa up, and said in a cold voice when passing by the young man, "Excuse me."

The young man looked at her dully, and subconsciously turned sideways.

The author has something to say: look at the world with dull eyes, live naked, without sorrow or joy.

This chapter is a transitional chapter, which is quite boring, and the next chapter will start to switch to Xiaozhuang’s perspective