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Zhuang Qiushui had seen Qiao Zhi smile in various ways.Joyful, gentle, proud, and occasionally slightly sad.But this is the first time, seeing the other party smile, her heart beat like this.

Her chest seemed to be burning, and the pain and panic made her unable to think.

She seemed to be sure for the first time that she was so infatuated with this person in front of her... It was simply inexplicable and illogical.

Qiao Zhi was still muttering to himself: "But I kind of want to eat something sour...how about we pack some sauerkraut and meat?"

Qiu Shui was puzzled, and responded noncommittally.

The teacher once told them that human beings have the habit of social animals, so they want to find the same kind, seek partners, and move forward together.She used to think that Qiao Zhi was her kind, and she was looking forward to seeing the selfishness, jealousy and resentment hidden under that perfect body.

Abandoned by her parents, living under the fence, and having her younger brother Guo Qingshan's "happiness" as a comparison, she thought that Qiao Zhi would resent life and curse at reality.

She was looking forward to seeing the jealous, dissatisfied, and even vicious side of the other party, but she was disappointed in the end.

She thought about some of the past.In those gloomy, dark days of despair, she used to feel that every breath of air she breathed was bitter and prickly; every second she spent was painful.It's not that she is not afraid, she also hoped that someone would come to save her, but none of the "saviors" she had placed her hope in finally saw her.

Suffering in the world is like snow and rain, and life is full of mud and sand. Even if you are as merciful as Buddha, you cannot save them one by one.

So she put away her timidity, and like a shady mouse, she was cautious every day, circling in front of A Niang and the villagers in every possible way, begging for a living.She walked on thin ice, trembling, resentment and despair quickly matured her, and learning to read people's faces was the first lesson life taught her.

Just when she thought she had the only choice of shrinking into the crowd, Qiao Zhi told her that there was actually another choice.

Qiao Zhi seemed to be disappointed in life, but she didn't take revenge on life as she expected, or choose to compromise. She chose a path she never thought of - to be a lone wolf.

Qiu Shui has no doubt that she has made such psychological preparations - even if everyone leaves me, I will go to the end of my life with strength.

What is there at the end?

Qiushui likes her self-confidence and her ease. In the process of "liking", she racked her brains, tried her best, and endured the torment in her heart to remove the "dirty" from her body little by little.

She betrayed who she once was.

Because she doesn't want to be a mouse anymore.

If possible, she would like to be the sky, the grassland, the cold north wind, and the Qinghui that gently envelops the lone wolf in the middle of the night.

***

The weather is getting late, and the more violent the wind and snow outside the house, the more it makes the cabin warm and cozy.The sound of the charcoal fire and the crackling of the fighting on the TV set were so lively.Qiao Zhi and Qiu Shui sat on the bedside and watched with relish, and saw the protagonist in the movie running away in a hurry and staying overnight in a deserted temple. Because of his hunger, he took out two big sweet potatoes from his bag and lit a fire to roast them. .

The TV was black and white, and it was bought by Luo Hai two years ago. Qiao Zhi kept yelling at him to change to a bigger color TV, but he promised, but quickly forgot about it.

Television sets were a rare thing in those days. Although black and white TVs had no color, and the sweet potato scent did not pass through the picture tube, Qiao Zhi still watched with salivation in his mouth and yelling in his belly.

"We seem to have some peanuts left in the kitchen. We don't have any roasted sweet potatoes. It would be nice to have some peanuts!" Qiao Zhi got out of bed excitedly, opened the door, wrapped her clothes tightly, and walked to the next room. Just two steps away, there was a sudden pause in her footsteps. .

She turned around in disbelief and looked under the vines.

"Azhi."

The man's voice was shrouded in the night, and it became deeper and hoarse and indistinct.

Qiao Zhi's hand gripping the clothes suddenly tightened.

is it him?

Her palms were sweating, her heart was beating unbelievably fast, and it was difficult and frightening to walk just a few steps.

"Brother!" Her voice was choked up, and her expression seemed to be overly surprised.

Luo Hai opened his hands.

Tears welled up in Qiao Zhi's eyes instantly, and she threw herself into his arms.

Luo Hai finally hugged her for real, and sighed with satisfaction and regret.

"Why did you come back now?" Qiao Zhi hugged him tightly, tried her best to restrain the trembling of her voice, and buried half of her face into his shoulder.

"I'm sorry, brother is late." Luo Hai patted her head, and the corner of his mouth slightly hooked.

"It's not too late." She sniffled and smiled, "It's not too late, I've been waiting for you, I know you will definitely come back!"

Luo Hai let go of her, touched her cheek, his expression was hidden in the night, and he couldn't see clearly: "Are you scared?"

Qiao Zhi shook her head first, then nodded embarrassingly under his gaze: "I'm afraid you won't come back."

The fingers lingering on the girl's cheek froze slightly.

Luo Hai suddenly looked at her steadily.

Qiao Zhi was puzzled by his look: "What's the matter?" He smiled again, "Go into the room and tell me, how long have you been standing outside? Your clothes are all wet, go inside and bake."

She didn't move Luo Hai.

"elder brother?"

Luo Hai took half a step forward, the light in the room leaked from the window sill, and hit him dimly on the face, Qiao Zhi finally saw that there was something wrong with his expression, and panicked in his heart.

"What's wrong? Is the matter still unfinished? You—"

"Azhi." Luo Hai interrupted her.

"Huh?" Qiao Zhi looked at him.

Luo Hai felt the throbbing pain coming from his heart, he suddenly twitched the corners of his mouth as if mocking himself, and asked a question that even surprised him——

"do you like me?"

The words have been spoken, and there is absolutely no reason to take them back, so he simply asked again: "Do you like me?"

Qiao Zhi really wanted to regard this question as a question from a "brother" to a "sister", but it was a pity that the man's strong emotions suppressed in the depths of his eyes made her shudder.

She didn't speak for a long time, Luo Hai understood.

The heavy snow finally fell into his heart.

"You see me as a brother?"

This seems to be a question sentence, but before Luo Hai opened his mouth, he had already given himself an affirmative answer.

But he is still not reconciled.

Qiao Zhi was a little confused, and didn't understand why he asked such a question suddenly.

But even if she didn't understand, the overly obvious loss in the man's eyes still made her feel distressed, and this distress made her eager to say something.

"Brother." She approached him again, holding his firmly with both hands. "I love you."

Luo Hai suddenly raised his head.

The person next to him leaning on the door and listening to the corner also widened his eyes in shock.

Qiao Zhi looked at him emotionally: "Brother, I was too stupid before. I enjoyed your kindness to me, but I didn't really see you, and I didn't cherish you." She was a little embarrassed Laughed, "But it won't happen in the future, you this time... I'm really worried about you, I'm afraid that something will happen to you, you'll get hurt, and most afraid that you won't come back... I'm really, really worried about you , I care about you very much, you are my family, and I love you very much. I thought about it, I always made promises to the Bodhisattva before going to bed at night, and I told the Bodhisattva, as long as you can come back safe and sound, I will I listen to you, I will take good care of you, brother..."

Luo Hai suddenly laughed.

He raised his hand and pinned the broken hair on the sideburns behind her ears for her - he had wanted to do this for a long time.

Qiao Zhi had never said such words to the opposite sex. Even in the snow, her face turned pale from the cold, and her earlobes were slightly red.

Luo Hai looked at her, and finally merged a thousand words into one sentence: "Brother got it."

Qiao Zhi suddenly wanted to cry. Unlike the excited tears just now, her heart was sore and swollen, as if something complicated was piling up in her heart. She didn't understand it, but it made her feel very sad.

"Ah Zhi." Luo Hai looked at her with pity, and couldn't help touching her cheek again, "How long have we known each other?"

"It's been seven years this year." Qiao Zhi looked at him.

Luo Hai smiled lightly, and at the end, he suddenly looked up at the dark night sky.

"I, Luo Hai, have no father and no mother. I'm an orphan. Today, I have enough to eat and wear warm clothes. I also picked up a beautiful girl and a bunch of brothers for nothing. I have nothing to be unwilling to do." He seemed to be trying to convince himself , frowning into a ball.

"elder brother……"

"If a person wants to accomplish great things, he must be ruthless regardless of good or bad things." After a pause, "To do bad things is to be ruthless to others, and to do good things...you have to be ruthless to yourself."

Qiao Zhi's throat and hair were dry, and the hands holding him unconsciously became tighter, and he suddenly had an extremely bad premonition in his heart.

Luo Hai looked at her, and his voice suddenly became very soft: "I owe someone my life, and that person is in trouble now, so I have to give him my life back."

As if her ears were blocked by thousands of wind and snow, Qiao Zhi was stunned for a moment, then looked at him and twitched the corner of her mouth very stiffly: "What did you say?"

Luo Hai pulled out the red hand that was held by her, and held her shoulders.

"I'm going to take the blame for Zhang Peng." He said unexpectedly.

"..."

"……What did you say?!"

The snow fell quickly, and the yard was already covered with white, but the two frozen figures in the yard were colder than the snow, and quieter than the night.

"Are you crazy!"

Luo Hai was noncommittal about this evaluation.

A picture suddenly flashed back before his eyes - a man whose hair was nearly half white after not seeing him for a few days knelt in front of him silently and angrily; cries of pain...

This picture really annoyed him, but...

"Do you know where the 800 million is?" Luo Hai asked her suddenly.

Qiao Zhi confronted him "indifferently", not wanting to speak.

Luo Hai smiled slightly, like mocking, but also depressed: "That idiot, he exchanged all the money into US dollars and gave it to his wife. His wife is also an idiot, who actually hid the money in the hotel cabinet and Under the bed, tsk tsk, you didn't see it with your own eyes, that scene is truly spectacular!"

"Luo Hai!" Qiao Zhi finally yelled unbearably, glaring at him with red eyes.

"His son is sick with leukemia." Luo Hai said, his voice was as cold as if it had been frozen by heavy snow.

"He had no money, owed a lot of debts, and when he had nowhere to go, he was about to jump off the building with his whole family. When he suddenly had a flash of inspiration, he came up with such a way to trick me. He said he could wait, but his son couldn't wait. An expert in Beijing told him that some cell bank in the United States had more samples and was more mature in technology, and he said he was sorry for me, but he had nothing to do, and this was his last chance.”

"When I was 12 years old, in my hometown, I was...a man who was drunk and tried to slash me with a kitchen knife. It was Zhang Peng who took it for me. The knife almost killed him. Really, it was just that short little bit."

"He told me that neither of us has a father or a mother, but now he is someone else's father, and he wants to be a good father."

"So?" Qiao Zhi struggled to restrain her sobs, her eyes were angry and helpless.

Luo Hai shrugged pretending to be relaxed: "Maybe it's not that serious, at least I helped them get back the 800 million, and I paid back the money. I shouldn't be convicted of a particularly serious crime, and I won't be lost." Fate, I am teasing you."

Qiao Zhi twitched halfway through the twitch and was confused by the last sentence of "turning around", and hiccupped hilariously.

Luo Hai looked at her holding back a smile.

At this time, she didn't care about so much, and hurriedly asked: "Really?"

He shrugged again: "Otherwise? I'll take the blame for him, find a way to send him, his wife and children abroad, and give him the money when it's over, and go get shot by myself, am I stupid?"

When saying this, Luo Hai may have really forgotten the 15 private money he gave away before leaving, or he may have deliberately forced himself to ignore it because he was too distressed—after all, it was originally planned to be used by him to marry The dowry money specially saved by someone as a passer-by.

However, Qiao Zhi was only happy for a moment before realizing that he was coaxing her on purpose. This matter couldn't be as easy as he said. She had seen with her own eyes what happened to the police officers in City G when they came over. Yes, even if he got all the money back, he would spend several years in prison for taking the blame...

"Can't we not go?" Qiao Zhi burst into tears uncontrollably.

Luo Hai gently wiped away the accumulated tears in the corners of her eyes with his fingertips, then shook his head: "No."

"Why did you take the blame for him?" Qiao Zhi asked unwillingly.

Luo Hai drew his tongue half a circle around the upper teeth, and said softly: "After becoming a Bodhisattva, it will not be so easy to go back to being a ghost."

The man was silent, looking at her with complicated eyes: "A Zhi, his son is only four years old."

From the moment he handed over 15 to that woman, Luo Hai understood that he must take this crime seriously.

It's just that he is not a real Bodhisattva, he will not really pay for his life, he must get back the money Zhang Peng swallowed, but he does owe him a life, and he will pay back what should be paid.

It's just a few years in prison, and he can still eat.

"Does the teapot know about this?" She anxiously grasped the last straw.

"He knows." Luo Hai said, "I just came back from him."

"..."

"What's the matter with you? He told me that you broke up with your family?" Luo Hai asked.

How could Qiao Zhi still be in the mood to chat with him, and retorted irritably: "He knows? Why didn't he stop you? What was he thinking?"

Luo Hai was silent and didn't answer.

Qiao Zhi's emotions suddenly collapsed, tears flowed out as if she didn't want money, and shouted: "What are you all thinking?? Is this the time to talk about brotherhood?! Do you really want to go to jail?? What if What should you do if you are sentenced to decades? What should I do??"

A snowflake swirled lightly and landed on Luo Hai's eyelids, his eyelashes trembled slightly, and he wanted to speak a few times, but he didn't know how to answer her.

"So you just came to inform me? Right?" Qiao Zhi looked at him heartbroken.

Luo Hai's chest bulged, and the heavy snow seemed to make that place harder and more brittle.

"Yes. I'm here to inform you that I'm going back to City G overnight...to surrender."

"why……"

"Because only when I go back can Zhang Peng have a chance to run."

After saying this, he raised his head and gave her a deep, deep look.

"Brother left everything outside to you, take care of yourself and take care."

He didn't intend to stay any longer, and turned around to leave.

Qiao Zhi grabbed him anxiously: "I'll be with you."

"No." Luo Hai resolutely rejected her, then relaxed his tone, and said jokingly, "Brother must not look good in a prison uniform, don't look at it. If you cry, I can't help you wipe your tears , when the time comes, is it cutting your heart or mine?"

Qiao Zhi shook her head again and again, grabbed his hand vigorously, unable to speak, could only cry desperately, her nose turned red from crying.

"Be obedient, the teapot told me that you want to learn how to do business, and I have explained this to him. He will help you in the future, don't worry, brother."

"..."

"Stop crying, okay?"

"..."

Time couldn't be delayed any longer, Luo Hai bit his cheek, and was about to tear her hand away, but she suddenly withdrew her hand, and then a cold kiss fell on the middle of his forehead.

Luo Hai: "..."

Qiao Zhi stood on tiptoe, held his face with both hands, and pressed it against his forehead. After a long silence, her toes were numb, and then said hoarsely: "I'll wait for you at home, wait for you to come out, wait for me to grow up, I marry you."

"..."

She looked at him and smiled softly: "I don't lie to you, really."

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