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"Are you afraid?"

Fu Baiqiu asked this sentence briskly and casually, with a hint of sarcasm and expected understanding in his eyes, but his heart sank heavily, and he couldn't tell what it was like.

Shi Jinzhi shook his head and said nothing.

Even though they have been separated for seven years, she believes that what is in her eyes should be understood by the other party without explanation.

Fu Baiqiu stared at her for a while, and the dusty tacit understanding broke through, and he really understood, she was not afraid.But if we want to explain this question, it is difficult not to involve that unpleasant memory. What identity and standpoint should they use to talk about it?

In fact, it’s okay to say it.

"Sit down." She pointed to the sofa and sat down first.

Shi Jinzhi glanced between the seat beside her and the single sofa, and finally chose to sit beside her, not daring to get too close, with half a body distance between them.

"Two days ago there was a forest fire in xx county. Two young firefighters who went to fight the fire died, and only a bunch of bones that were identified by DNA comparison were left. My colleagues and I have been trying to find a way to get them Restoration to the way it was before, appease the family members and their comrades-in-arms, it was successfully completed today, a memorial service was held, the hero rests in peace." Fu Baiqiu looked at the wall clock, watched the hands pass by second by second, and narrated.

Shi Jinzhi frowned slightly and listened quietly.

"I have been in this industry for seven years, and I have seen countless life and death. Those who drowned in water, died in bombings, and jumped from buildings. 70.00% of them were under 30 years old, and half of them were underage. It is a blessing to be able to die naturally. , but very few.”

"On the morning when you came to see the house, I handled a 15-year-old boy who died in a car accident. His internal organs and bones were smashed after being crushed by the last eight rounds. Embalmed, let his relatives see him one last time, and send him to be cremated."

Like an emotionless machine, she tells stories in a monotonous tone.

Shi Jinzhi is sensitive to the turbulent waves hidden in the calm, just like the "Winter Wind" she has played countless times, the low and slow introduction is just the prelude to anger and passion, music is human emotions, she is born with these perceptions keen.

"My younger brother was only 15 years old that year."

She watched the second hand go around, drooping her eyelids, and her voice became more and more choked up: "My mother, my father, my grandparents, grandparents, and grandparents are all on it. They fell from such a high place without even falling into dust. I stayed."

Shi Jinzhi held her cold hand, wrapping it tightly, fearing that she would pull it away in the next second.

Fu Baiqiu didn't move, his eyes were filled with mist, and the tears couldn't fall down, they were floating and sinking in his eyes.

"There is no need to fight."

"Maomao..."

"You never know which will come first, tomorrow or the accident." Fu Baiqiu took a deep breath, looked up at the ceiling and smiled.

"Since then, I have understood that everything in this world is nothing but death. I chose this profession. I have to witness death with my own eyes and accept a lot of sadness that I don't know whether it is true or false. Only in this way can I convince myself that death is a serious matter. It's a normal thing, I have to live well, maybe one day I will enter that cremation furnace."

Shi Jinzhi turned sideways, wrapped her hands with his hands, and his fingertips slowly slid across her palms, and there was no warmth there either.

"Maomao, I'm sorry."

"What do you have to be sorry for, huh?" Fu Baiqiu's eyes faded and he smiled. The words did not contain any emotion. She really didn't understand why she had to say sorry.

"You're busy with your career, that's right. I have a low sense of morality now. I can find reasons for other people's trivial things like cheating, cheating, marriage and divorce. Apart from death, nothing matters. Anyone who can't think about it, come to the funeral parlor for a while, and think about everything, of course, except mental illness."

Shi Jinzhi stared into her eyes blankly, his heart was suddenly grabbed by something, and he pinched it hard, the pain embedded in the flesh and blood was exactly the same as seven years ago.

"Are you looking for an excuse for me?"

"No." Fu Baiqiu smiled like a child, "I'm convincing myself to forgive you."

It was clearly what he wanted to hear the most, but at the moment he was not happy at all, Shi Jinzhi opened his mouth, and the liquid rolling in his eyes immediately slipped down: "Don't, don't forgive me..."

"Live well." Fu Baiqiu turned his gaze away from her tearful face, lowered his head and patted the back of her hand lightly, got up, and floated upstairs like a ghost.

Apart from convincing herself, there is no better way. She never minded, never hated, but the life and death that she had been used to for seven years had worn away all her emotions, and she only picked up a little after seeing Shi Jinzhi. She wanted to ask her something Why, I wanted her to know how much pain I had back then, but at this moment, I still couldn't bear to make any censures.

Can't advance, can't retreat, their relationship can only be like this.

no future.

—— meow

There was a soft cat meow at her feet, Shi Jinzhi lowered her head with tears in her eyes, a drop of teardrop fell on the pudding's furry head, the little guy was full, and rolled around leaning on her trousers, sticking out her pink tongue Licking paws.

Shi Jinzhi smiled gratifiedly, wiped away tears, picked it up carefully, put it on his lap, and grabbed its two front paws to play with it.

"Meow..."

After working overtime for several consecutive days, Fu Baiqiu relaxed his nerves, slept until noon for the first time, got up dizzy, went to the bathroom to wash up, and went downstairs to see that lunch was ready.

Shi Jinzhi came out of the kitchen with the rice cooker in his hand, saw her staring blankly at the dining table, and unconsciously raised the corners of his mouth: "Forget it, I didn't wake you up from practicing the piano this morning."

She got up in the morning and looked at the second floor, the bedroom door was closed, she made breakfast and waited for someone to come down to eat, and then she practiced the piano, and she forgot the time as soon as she got into it. shadow.

Fu Baiqiu: "..."

The two lived together abroad before, and what woke Fu Baiqiu up in the morning was not the alarm clock, but the sound of the piano. To a layman like her, those etudes were just "random playing", like an eggbeater rolling over the keys, and she couldn't appreciate it.

Shi Jinzhi put the rice cooker on the table, opened the lid, and hot steam rose up, blurring her vision. She brought the bowls and chopsticks and put them in front of Fu Baiqiu: "Maomao, eat by yourself, I have something to go home."

Fu Baiqiu just woke up, and subconsciously asked: "What's the matter?"

"I don't know." She smiled awkwardly, quickly concealing the loneliness in her eyes, "I may come back late, you can feed me pudding at three o'clock, six o'clock and nine o'clock, don't feed too much, remember Soak it in warm water, put it in the litter box after feeding, and let it go to the toilet by itself."

Fu Baiqiu turned his head and glanced at Little Pudding who was burying excrement in the litter box. She probably just learned it not long ago, and her movements were still clumsy. Her eyebrows and eyes were slightly curved, and she nodded: "Okay."

Rongcheng is very big, and it takes about two hours to cross by subway. I deliberately dawdled on Shijin Road, and drove for a full hour.

A whole half-mountain manor looks like a small scenic spot from a distance.

Shi Jinzhi tossed the car to the servant to park it, walked in quickly with a sullen face, walked through the front garden and two arched doors, stepped into the main house, turned a corner, and came to the door of the restaurant.She paused, collected her facial expressions, and walked in with her head held high as if she was on a stage.

The restaurant is about forty square meters, and the large round table occupies half of the area. There are only five people sitting around the table, separated from each other. She looked at the gray-haired old man: "Dad." Then she looked at the older man The man five years older: "Brother."

The middle-aged man coughed and frowned: "And your Aunt Ru?"

"Oh, Aunt Ru." Without looking at the woman, she walked to the vacant seat next to her brother and sat down.

"What are you doing? It's outrageous to shake your face as soon as you come back!" Shi Qingyuan slapped the table with anger, and the woman called Aunt Ru hurriedly smoothed things over: "Qingyuan, the child finally came back, don't be so angry Yes, the family will have a peaceful meal."

Shi Qingyuan glared at his daughter, but said nothing.

"Can I eat? I'm so hungry." Shi Jinzhi didn't lift her eyelids, she just stared at the dishes on the table. She remembered that the chef at home had great skills, and she missed it after a long time without eating.

He Ru nodded again and again, with a flattering smile: "Let's eat, let's eat. We are abroad all year round, and it's rare to come back. Auntie specially asked the nanny to buy your favorite dishes. Eat more."

Shi Jinzhi was really rude, and picked up crucian carp meat with his chopsticks.

Everyone also moved their chopsticks. Although they were sitting at the same table, they were too far apart from each other, and there was no sense of warmth as a family having a happy meal. No one spoke, and the two half-brothers and sisters were also very cautious.

The servant came up to pour the red wine, the order was Shi Qingyuan, He Ru, and her brother Shi Hengzhi, and then it was Shi Jinzhi's turn, she waved her hand, chewed something in her mouth, and said vaguely: "Drive."

Shi Qingyuan frowned calmly.

The servant Zhiqu walked away, Shi Jinzhi deliberately chewed loudly: "Brother, where is my sister-in-law?"

"She took Wanwan to travel." Shi Hengzhi looked at his younger sister dotingly, "Eat slowly, and be careful not to choke."

"No, no, um." Her cheeks were swollen and her mouth was full of oil.

Shi Qingyuan couldn't bear to watch it any longer, coughed twice: "Whether you eat or not, didn't your family teach you?"

Shi Jinzhi smiled and said, "Dad, is your throat uncomfortable?"

"..."

There were four adults at the dinner table, two minors, Shi Xizhi, who was the youngest, received a wink from his mother, picked up a piece of lamb chops, and put it in front of Shi Jinzhi on a small plate: "I remember that my second sister likes to eat this the most. .”

"Thank you, Xizhi." Shi Jinzhi put down his chopsticks and rubbed her head, blinking his beautiful eyes, "I heard that Xizhi is learning the piano, how is it going?"

Before the little girl could speak, He Ru interjected, "It's a pity that you are talented, but the teacher's level is not good. Outsiders are not as good as your own family. We should take you as an example."

"Okay, I like Second Sister." The girl looked at her mother's eyes and spoke very quickly.

He Ru: "Xixi, I'll play something for your second sister after dinner... "Dream Wedding"!"

There was a sudden silence at the dinner table.

Shi Jinzhi & Shi Hengzhi: "..."

The siblings looked at each other and ate in silence. Xizhi also seemed to sense the embarrassment, and returned to her seat biting her mouth.

The meal was quiet and weird. Shi Qingyuan occasionally asked Shi Jinzhi a few things about the recent situation, and she responded one by one. He Ru looked at her while eating calmly, and the other two children were quiet. , act according to the face of the adults.

Shi Jinzhi and his brother finished their meal first, and slipped upstairs under the pretext of having something to do.

After closing the door, she laughed out loud.

"Hahaha, He Ru is a bitch, the mistress is different in the upper ranks, both businessmen and Qingqi."

Shi Hengyi was dressed in a suit and leather shoes, and looked like an elite. As the eldest son of the family, he usually took care of the family business and was serious in the company, but now he laughed with his sister like a child. The siblings sat on the carpet with their stomachs covered. Contemptuously said: "Petty, I still take advantage of the family, I hope you teach her daughter."

"Brother, you don't understand this, dogs can't change eating shit."

"Hahaha……"

Shi Jinzhi crossed her legs, pressing her palms on the soft fluff of the carpet, suddenly there was a stabbing pain in her head, as if something sharp had pierced her temples, she hugged her head with her hands, and fell to one side uncontrollably go.

"Jinzhi?" Shi Hengzhi turned pale with shock, stood up and supported his sister, "What's wrong? Jinzhi?"

"pain……"