He doesn't know today

I asked Lu Guican to tell the truth because I wanted him to show his vulnerable side to me.

I swear to God, I mean nothing like that.

I secretly waited for the other party to tell his story frankly, but I didn't expect the boy to open his mouth and make a big move.I can confess shamelessly, as many times as I want.But the content of the similarities with minor differences came from the other party, and I was really overwhelmed.

He fell silent and fell silent.After listening to it, I was dumbfounded.

After a long time, I came back to my senses, and withdrew my salty pig's hand that I suspected to be profiting from. I wanted to respond calmly, but when I opened my mouth, I immediately upgraded from nonsense to dumb.

Too cruel, Lu Guican.

If I had a heart attack, I might have had an attack on the spot when I heard the words I like you.

At the time in the library, the other party put down these three words with a smile on his face. Now his face is still the same, but his expression is unprecedentedly serious and serious.

I won't think about which one is real, I just know that no matter which time, the tension and joy it brings me is real.

No matter which one, the subconscious memory deep in my heart is also the same three words: Me too.

......

In the end, it was Lu Guican who broke the silence first, "What do you want for lunch?"

I say it's all right.

Then he got up and opened the tightly closed curtains, the sunlight broke into the living room through the floor-to-ceiling windows, and everything in front of him suddenly brightened.

The tense and anxious mood I was just now will gradually transition to calm.

"Are you eating takeaway these days?" I saw him pull out a stack of takeaway cards from the drawer familiarly.

He shook his head, "I just ran out of food at home. I was supposed to go to the supermarket today, but I didn't expect you to come here suddenly."

I was immediately disappointed, "Then if I came later, wouldn't I be able to eat the meal you cooked?"

He seemed to relax, showing a familiar smile.

I found out that Lu Guican is also an expert in eating. When he was in school, this person could always report all kinds of shop names and signs.Just like now, the takeaway cards are arranged in several rows on the table, ranging from dinner to dessert.

The two finally ordered a pizza, and while eating, Lu Guican introduced several other takeaway shops.

I bite into my pizza, listening with as much interest as ever.But after listening to it, I felt depressed again.

The subject is an ultimate foodie, but I can't cook.

Speaking of which, how did this person manage to chat calmly after confessing?

……

After eating, Lu Guican brought out a small projector, and the two of them nestled on the sofa to watch a spy movie.

In the film, the hero is worried that the heroine will be hurt because of him, so he deliberately provokes the heroine to leave him.But the heroine returned to the hero in the end, the misunderstanding was resolved, and the two kissed passionately at the end.

That picture made me a little embarrassed.

I took a sneak peek and saw that Lu Guican looked like a normal person, with a calm expression and no expression.

Maybe he was shy too.I took a sip of water pretending to be reserved, and said to myself.

Next, something even more unexpected happened to me.

Lu turned off the CD player, looked down at his watch, and said slowly, "It's almost six o'clock, I'll take you to the station."

"???"

This is different from what I thought. I have brought all my clothes here, and I have completed my mental construction. Why did I go home?

"I'm not going back!" I sat on the sofa and said subconsciously.

He stood up and looked at me, "Don't make a fuss, it will be very late when you get back, isn't your grandma going to lock the door after a while?"

I didn't expect the boy to remember what happened years ago.

I said: "It's too late, I can go to Chen Yu's house to live."

His eyes suddenly turned cold.

I hurriedly said: "Just kidding, Chen Yu won't let me live in his house."

He said slowly: "But doesn't he often go to live in your house?"

I:"……"

Liu Yuyuan, I'm sorry.

"Take the train back." He stretched out his hand, I thought he was going to rub my hair, but he dropped his hand again.

I opened the interface for him to see.

Look, the train is out of tickets! !

"Then take the plane." He still insisted.

"The air ticket is too expensive." I looked at him with a sad tone, "I can't go home."

"I buy for you."

This brother looks determined to drive me out.

Chasing people away right after confessing, what's the difference between pulling someone out and being ruthless?

Uh, but in the final analysis, pulling out O's ruthlessness has an advantage, which is better than mine...

While I was thinking about countermeasures, I caught a glimpse of the boy turning on his phone from the corner of his eye, as if he was checking the flight.

You are so boring, bro!Can I choose one out of a hundred people who take the initiative and not pretend?You still don't appreciate it!

"Can't I stay overnight at your house?" I was anxious, throwing the key point.

After finally coming here, I was about to leave without even touching it.

What a loss!

He turned his head and looked at me blankly for a long time, then suddenly raised the corners of his mouth.

"sure."

I:"……"

Is it my illusion?I feel like I've been tricked.

……

Lu Guican's room was on the second floor, and everything from the layout to the objects in the room was too monotonous.A few landscape sketches were pasted on the wall next to the bookshelf. When I approached, I found that there were traces of adhesive tape on the empty space on the wall. The paper that was originally pasted here was severely torn off.

I asked curiously, "Is there another painting posted here?"

Lu Guican said it was a certificate.

"Certificate?"

"Yes, it was torn by me." He narrowed his eyes, "It doesn't look good."

"..." I was silent for a moment, and chose to change the subject, "You draw carefully."

Just as I was studying the sketches on the wall, Lu Guican suddenly said behind me: "Did you see that painting?"

I immediately realized what he was referring to and nodded.

Lu Guican fell silent.

I waited for a while, and seeing that the other party didn't intend to speak again, I could only curl my lips and continue looking at the painting.

Dinner was also a takeaway, and after finishing packing, it was completely dark outside.

Lu Guican asked where I wanted to sleep.

I thought of something, my cheeks were a little hot, but I still said shamelessly: "Just sleep in your room."

In the end, he didn't understand or pretended to be stupid, "Then I'll go to the guest room."

Seeing that the duck with its beak was about to fly away, I hurriedly said, "We can sleep together!"

"No." He refused without hesitation, and not only that, but also added, "Did Chen Yu and you sleep together?"

Why is there Chen Yu everywhere!

I was helpless, "You are different."

We looked at each other silently for a while, he smiled, and gave me the towel in his hand, "Go to sleep."

After the words fell, he lifted his feet and left.

I stopped him, "Okay, okay, I want to chat with you."

He stopped and looked back at me, "What are you talking about?"

"Can you tell me about your...beating someone?"

"You don't know?" He raised an eyebrow.

I:"......"

I want to hear you say no!

He leaned against the door, as if I would leave after you finished speaking, "You ask."

"You really did it?"

"Ah."

"...Why?"

"I don't like to hear what he says."

... quite domineering

"That's it?" I wanted to say that you have a good temper, but I stopped abruptly.

He probably guessed what I was going to say, and raised the corners of his mouth, "When I can't help it, I really hit people."

As he spoke, he walked up to me without haste, staring into my eyes condescendingly.

I watched the other party's smile disappear, his eyes were like a pool of stagnant water, unfathomable and hidden danger.

I subconsciously took a step back, bumped into the wooden desk behind me, and creaked.

"Do you know how painful it is to have a broken bone?" He narrowed his eyes, and the aura around him became strange and terrifying.

I weighed what I knew and what I didn't know.

I don't know if I really don't know, but I'm afraid that after I finish speaking, the other party will say something to let you feel it.

what's up!

Isn't this person quite normal just now!

"Are you afraid?" Seeing that I didn't answer, he asked again in a deep voice.

"Afraid..." I chose to be an honest person.

You are really fierce when you are not smiling.

He lowered his eyes and backed away a little, "Then just sleep and don't make trouble."

I am afraid, I also know that this person has a terrible side in his heart, and I am afraid that he will think too much, so I hurriedly added, "...But I said it, I like you in everything."

"You said you were afraid of me, but you still like me?" He smiled.

Look, look, this guy is starting to understand too much...

"I... I'm still afraid of pigs, why don't I still eat pork!"

"Are you comparing me to a pig?" The air pressure around him suddenly dropped a few degrees.

I shook my head frantically, "No, you are prettier than a pig..."

Lu Guican: "..."

It doesn't seem right either.

"I'm sorry." Lu Guican sighed suddenly, the coldness all over his body disappeared, "I..."

"It's okay, who told me to like you." I said softly, "Scare me again, what should I do if I really run away?"

He froze, looked at me fixedly, and didn't speak again.

I sighed in my heart, this person is really hopeless.

"Just kidding, you can't drive me away."

Before he could speak, I boldly stepped forward and pecked him on the mouth.

I want him to know that I am more distressed than guarded and afraid.

I feel sorry for him like a hedgehog who is all on guard, and when he shrinks, he hates himself.

……

When I covered it, I felt the other party's stiffness for a moment.

But before I had time to speak, or even back away, he grabbed the back of my head vigorously.

Immediately afterwards, the other party's aura came overwhelmingly.

Under this unusually strong offensive, breathing has become a luxury.

I tasted a bloody smell, and raised my hand to pat him on the shoulder to calm him down, but I seemed to be misunderstood.

He sensed my movement and squeezed my wrist with his other hand.

I have heard countless versions about Lu Guican's beating. In fact, there are different opinions. I have never seen him really angry.Even his vain and cold attitude just now, I also know that the other party is just trying to scare me.

He never exposed that side to me, or as Guan Jia said, he hid it very deeply in front of me.

In my impression, Lu Guican is gentle and has self-control.

But at this moment Lu Guican is impatient, even more emotional than that rainy day.Like a lion that seems to be silent and peaceful on weekdays, it suddenly broke out of its cage, waving its claws and claws to seek revenge and asked.

After an unknown amount of time, he let go of the confinement, and I breathed fresh air again, and couldn't help panting.

I felt the desire that was about to move under me, and the shyness rushed out.

What's even more embarrassing is that Lu Guican is approaching again at this moment, his chest is almost touching mine, and I can feel his.

Immediately afterwards, a hand came in from the hem of my clothes very naturally, and a cold touch came from my waist, and then slowly moved downstream until the waist of my trousers.

The strength was not light, and I couldn't hold back a muffled snort.

Like a secret signal, Lu Guican's movements froze, and his hands remained where they were.

I knew the other party's intention almost immediately.

They are all boys, and they are no strangers to doing this kind of thing.But abandoning Finger Girl and being "taken care of" by another person is another matter.

"Can you?" He suddenly asked in a deep voice.

I watched his face without saying a word, my eyes fell from eyebrows to lips.

I like many things, like money, like sneakers, like playing games... When I was with Xu Mingxuan, I thought I liked him, but after the breakup, except for anger and confusion, there are not many other emotions left.

After meeting Lu Guican, I also think that this liking is the same as the previous liking.

I didn't know before, but I didn't know until this moment what true love is like.

When the other person is in a happy mood, he can't help smiling.When the other party loses his mind, he will worry for him from the bottom of his heart.

Also when the other party is approaching, even if I feel uneasy, I would like to get closer to him.

"Isn't it dirty?" I thought my face must be blushing, and I choked out this sentence for a long time.

He seemed to smile, bowed his head and kissed her again, but this time he was very gentle.He first touched my lips, and then slowly penetrated.

He rubbed one hand on the back of my neck like a comfort, while his restless hand mercilessly passed over the barrier of clothes.

I struggled subconsciously, and hit the table again with my lower back.Something was knocked off the table and fell heavily to the ground with a loud clatter.

It was a feeling I hadn't felt for a long time. My body seemed to turn into mist, rising lightly, and then being blocked in midair.

His kiss gradually moved down, and his breath hit my collarbone, like an electric current passing through, bringing a shiver.

Compared to my embarrassment, Lu Guican's expression is calm.Unexpectedly, I felt dissatisfied, and when the other party got up slightly, I also stretched out my hand to him.

Lu Guican's calm expression finally changed.

I dare not even look at him.

He lifted my chin, stubbornly trying to meet my gaze.I saw my reflection in the other person's eyes, and I also saw the surging emotions in his eyes.

After a long time, both of them became breathless, and I felt powerless all over my body, so I sat down on the table and closed my eyes to let my breath flow.

Lu Guican took a piece of paper from the table, first rubbed it casually on his own hand, and then slowly wiped my hand clean.

I couldn't help but take a look.

After a long time, I went online rationally and asked him: "Your parents..."

"They don't usually live here." Lu Guican casually brushed the hair on my forehead, "Go take a shower first."

After experiencing the incident just now, I directly classified this sentence as yellow waste, and I was a little apprehensive, "Take a bath first?"

He was picking up something, but he looked up at me after smelling it.

"What do you do after taking a shower?" I choked up, but he still didn't make a sound, so I cautiously discussed, "Will it develop...too fast."

And to do that, you need to prepare tools!

As a result, Lu Guican laughed outright.

"Just asking you to take a bath." He smiled, "What else do you want to do?"

I:"......"

Sorry, I'm not pure.

When I took a shower, I realized that my wrists were pinched red.

I didn't pay much attention until when the two of them were lying on the bed chatting and reaching for their mobile phones, Lu Guican also saw it.

Seeing the red mark, he immediately pursed his mouth into a line.

"It's okay." I leaned closer to him, and the boy smelled the same as mine.

He hugged me and didn't say anything.

The other party's collar was slightly open. I saw the scar and reached out to touch it, feeling distressed.

"When did this happen?" I asked him.

"When I was in high school." He looked down at me with a focused expression, "Don't touch me."

I ignored him and continued to ask, "How did you do it?"

He grabbed my hand and said again: "Don't touch it, don't you want to remember it tomorrow?"

I stared at him speechlessly, I feel sorry for you! ! !

He smiled, and then said lightly: "I made it in high school."

When I wondered in my heart whether it was the incident of beating someone, Lu Guican gave the answer first, "When I was fighting with someone, he happened to be holding a utility knife in his hand, and slashed towards me."

A few words of understatement, but I heard a cold sweat.

"Cut by a knife?"

He said yes, and said again: "I avoided it, it's okay."

"Then what if you didn't dodge?" I was anxious, "And you're self-defense, they said..."

Lu Guican interrupted me, "He was hurt more than me."

I blinked.

He said to me: "And it was I who made the first move. The one who defended himself was actually him."

This was different from what I thought. I was stunned for a while, and then said angrily: "That's not your fault, he has a murder weapon, but you don't."

He was amused by me, and touched my neck with his hand, leaving a warm touch.

The two lay quietly in the dark for a while, each with their own thoughts.

"What are you struggling with?" After a while, I asked in a muffled voice, "Do you need to worry about so many things when you are with me? I said I don't mind."

As soon as I said it, I realized that my tone was a little aggrieved.

He was silent for a while, and then said: "It's not entanglement, and there's nothing to entangle, I'm just afraid."

"Afraid?" I raised my head to look at him, I couldn't see his expression clearly in the dark, I could only hear his breathing.

I could feel the other person's gaze, he stared at me, and spoke slowly, "I know what's going on with me, I'm really scared, I'm afraid that one day I'll even kill you."

I emphasized again: "I don't mind."

"I know." He squeezed my hand, "Thank you, Yu Yuan."

……

I stayed at Lu Guican's house for three days before leaving.

After the holiday, Lu Guican went back to school.Chen Yu didn't know about our affairs yet, and he kept looking at me when he was talking to me, with a somewhat cautious expression.

I looked funny, and was about to tell him when Lu Guican called.

"Are you finished?" I held the phone between my shoulders, and while answering, bent my knees to put on my shoes, "Then I'll go find you now."

After hanging up the phone, Chen Yu asked in surprise, "Who?"

I said Lu Guican, and saw him frown, "Are you reconciled?"

"It's okay."

"Thought it out?" he asked me.

"Yeah." I smiled at him, "Why, don't make a bad face!"

Chen Yu curled his lips and ignored me.But before I went out, I suddenly whispered congratulations.

For a moment, I thought I had heard wrong, and looked back at him in astonishment, and got a sharp look.

Lu Guican's postgraduate entrance examination was completely useless, but he did not insist on taking the postgraduate entrance examination in China, but decided to go abroad.

A few days before his departure, I ran to his house to stay with him.I still haven't seen his parents, but I didn't ask much.

On the last night, I hugged him and refused to let go, and refused to sleep.

I know he's on the plane tomorrow morning, but I just don't want to close my eyes, I can't sleep, and I don't want him to sleep willfully.

"I'll be back after a year." His tone was helpless, but the movement of patting his back was very gentle.

"I feel miserable," I told him.

"Ok?"

"How can there be a couple who just reconciled for a few days and will soon become a foreigner?" I grabbed his hand and pretended to be solemn, "Fortunately, it was me you met. If you change someone, you may Not so patient anymore."

He kissed the tip of my nose, and said in a coaxing tone: "Then you are amazing."

After Lu Guican left, everything returned to normal.

When I was an intern in my senior year, I submitted my resume to a local newspaper and was accepted, so I started running around every day.

Because of busyness and jet lag, I lost a lot of lonely emotions.

Lu Guican and I are in contact every day, and our lives have nothing to do with each other, but we can talk and share for half a day.

During a long vacation, Lao Wei took me to see my mother again.

This time the atmosphere was no longer as awkward as before, but at the dinner table she was still very curious about my relationship status.

So while washing the dishes, I thought about it and confessed to her that I didn't like women.

My mother didn't react at first, she was stunned for a long time, and then asked Lao Wei to take me back in a daze.

Old Wei kept scolding me on the road, I kept my head down the whole time, and only said sullenly after he finished speaking: "Sooner or later, I will know."

So he cursed harder.

But not long after, I received a call from my mother. She was silent on the other end of the phone for a long time before she said, "Is it because of my parents?"

I said, "No, it's my own problem."

Then she said something else and didn't bring up the subject again.

A few days later, I got a text message from her.

[No matter what, mom understands you. ]

Chen Yu's internship is also in the local area, and he invited me out for dinner during the period.

He said inexplicably that he wanted to treat him.

After I asked why, Chen Yu said lightly, "I'm in love."

I was surprised: "Haven't you been in love?"

As far as I know he and Wang Ze haven't broken up yet?

He froze for a moment, then smiled, "Yes, you are right."

......

Lu Guican came back on Christmas Day.

He took me to a commercial plaza. There was a three-story Christmas tree in the center of the plaza. There were a lot of people at night, almost all coming in and out.

The surrounding lights suddenly disappeared, and the next second the lights on the Christmas tree burst into light, illuminating everyone's faces.

Amidst the crowd, Lu Guican and I were squeezed in the crowd, and he suddenly took my hand.

I turned to look at him and saw that he was also staring at me.

At that moment, I suddenly remembered that when I saw Lu Guican for the first time, what I saw was the boy's back.At a certain time, I also imagined that the other party would suddenly appear in the crowd.

The person who was subconsciously looking for it in the crowd at that time stood beside him.

Every relationship is heading towards the end, and we have all found our own direction.