Mild brother control

Han Yi ran across the road to the door of the library: "What's going on?"

Xu Shuo put down his phone, "Song Zhinan is gone."

"Gone?"

"Let's not talk about it, let's look for it separately, find a bookstore, you go to the north of the city, I go to the south of the city, contact me anytime."

"it is good."

The two separated, took a car and searched from store to store until the sky turned cloudy, and the rain and mist began to float down gently. Pedestrians held up colorful round umbrellas, like plants in the dark air. Flowers, the raindrops hit more and more heavily.

The hair on Xu Shuo's forehead was already wet, and his blue and white school uniform was sticking to the skin on his shoulders, like a bird that had been drenched in the rain.

Finding someone at this time has become a matter of challenging the limit. To challenge Xu Shuo's limit, I don't know where Song Zhinan has gone, what he is doing now, it is possible that something unexpected happened, everything is unknown, this is too scary for Xu Shuo Yes, time is ticking, ticking, like urging something.

Xu Shuo was in a daze during the running process, the firelight on the cigarette butts in the back mountain, the hard walnuts in the study, and the hands of the gods in the dream.

If the high temperature, burning and sharp pain could make Song Zhinan appear, Xu Shuo was willing to make himself suffer a thousand times without hesitation, because he knew that the gods would always compromise because of this.

After finding all the stores that could be found, Xu Shuo and Han Yi finally met in front of a bookstore.

Han Yi shook his head solemnly.

Xu Shuo frowned, his face became more and more serious, the wet and cold weather made him trembling uncontrollably, and when he took out his mobile phone again in a panic, he caught a glimpse of the red mark on his palm: "Wait, let me see if there is any I haven't been there before, Song Zhinan might go somewhere else, let me think about it, I can think of it."

Han thought that he was gradually becoming irrational, and he still didn't know it in the rain, so he pulled him under the eaves, "Xu Shuo, calm down."

"Where will he go? Where do you say he will go?"

"calm down!"

"Okay, calm down, I'll be calm." Xu Shuo held the phone and pressed his fingers to his forehead, leaning against the wall, thinking of a slug that had been sprinkled with salt, and slid down weakly little by little until he squatted on the ground.

"Why don't you go home and take a look? It just so happens that you are going to change your clothes too." Han Yi said, "Then call Li Bian and ask him to go to your class to take a look. He may have already returned to school."

Xu Shuo hummed, but still crouched on the ground, as if he had lost the strength to move around.

Han Yi looked at him like this, and couldn't help but said: "Actually, there is no need to be so nervous. Didn't you say that you only took a morning off? He is not a child anymore, and he will definitely come back after the time passes."

Xu Shuo kept his head down, and after a long while, he said in a low voice: "You don't know, my aunt came here yesterday, and he was very upset, he must be very unhappy..."

Han Yi was the only one among his friends who knew about it. Xu Shuo kept it from Li Bian, but not from him.

In fact, it is not only this matter.

there are more.

"I'm scared, really scared, he—" Xu Shuo raised his head suddenly as he spoke, "You think it's possible that he already knew?"

Han Yi asked in surprise, "Your aunt said yesterday?"

Xu Shuo shook his head, "But she and grandma were talking about this outside the door. I closed the door on purpose when I went out, but... I'm not sure if he can't hear you."

"No, don't think about it."

"If you really know..." Xu Shuo pinched himself hard, trying to fade the color of his reddened eyes from being uncontrollable, "He will leave, he won't stay here, he really will go."

"People on my mother's side have always targeted him, and he will really leave."

Han Yi sighed, and wanted to bend down to help Xu Shuo up, "Don't think about it, the most urgent thing is to find him."

"Han Yi...I really love him, very much."

The air suddenly seemed to stagnate, and this place became a deserted wilderness.

A short stern word reached Han Yi's ears, and the hand that was stretched out to help stopped in mid-air, feeling sore in his heart, and finally dropped it, squatting beside Xu Shuo instead.

It's useless to say anything at this time, you have to figure it out yourself.

Xu Shuo seemed to be remembering, regardless of whether Han Yi was listening or not, he said to himself: "When I was young, my grades were poor, and I was detained by the teacher every day after school. Wait, he can wait for me for more than an hour. He is so afraid of being noisy, but he never complained to me. Later, because he taught me to do my homework at night, the teacher could only copy it for me. He was vaguely called by the teacher." As he said that, he laughed, "Then he was assigned to high school, he was the top student in the senior high school entrance examination, and his grades only went up but not down. Why did he say that he didn't want to go to the experimental class? Do you believe it?"

"It's for me, you said it's for me?"

……

"I really love Song Zhinan, I really do."

Han Yi replied in a deep voice: "I know."

"What's the use of knowing it?" Xu Shuo sneered, and said lightly, "Song Zhinan doesn't know."

Han Yi looked at him, wondering if he was joking, and said, "Then today is a good opportunity, if he really knows that he is not from your family, then you can confess directly."

"Confession?" Xu Shuo burst out laughing suddenly, as if watching some incredible comedy, "Why are you crazier than me?"

Han Yi stared at him seriously, "I mean it."

"Does it look like I'm joking?" Xu Shuo stood up on his legs, looking at the eyes not far away as if he was out of focus, "Try to confess to your brother and see how he will treat you."

Han Yi disagreed with this comparison, "Our situation is different."

"What's the difference?" Xu Shuo tilted his head slightly, "Song Zhinan and I are not related by blood, but after living for so many years, it is impossible to say that if he is not my brother, he is really not my brother... Unless he is like me, since childhood... "He stopped before he finished speaking, as if he had choked on a date stone in his throat, Xu Shuo smiled self-deprecatingly, "Forget it... there is no unless, he doesn't know anything, where did the unless come from."

"Then what do you want to do?"

"What do I want to do?" Xu Shuo seemed to be raving, "I think Song Zhinan is mine, but if I think about it, can Song Zhinan be mine? If it's not mine, what can I do?"

Han thought that he was going to step into a kind of self-condemnation gradually, and interrupted quickly, "Okay, let's look for it again, there are no bookstores and libraries, where else can we go, you think about it carefully."

Xu Shuo's thoughts were dragged back to reality, and he thought for a while, "It's near home, I went back home and didn't see anyone, and I haven't looked around home yet."

After returning home, the two started to search separately in one direction. The alley next to the apartment was as cramped as the small intestine of a suckling sheep, and a lot of discarded household items were piled up, like obstacles in a parkour game. You have to pay attention to the road under your feet from time to time. , If you are not careful, you will bump into each other.

Xu Shuo ran to the north, found two alleys, and didn't stop until there were fewer and fewer residential buildings passing by, and the surrounding area was so empty that he could hear his footsteps.

Shouldn't go any further.

The front row is full of teahouses for the elderly, and several of them have been opened in a row. The walls in the halls are older than people. They drink tea and play cards, and the smoke is strong. The floor is always sticky with yellow-green phlegm. It looks like the skin is covered with pustular scabies.

In addition to this, there is a small playground. I don't know if it is open at this time.

Teahouses and playgrounds were not places Song Zhinan would go to, not to mention it was still raining.

Xu Shuo thought about it for a few seconds, and decided not to spend any more time running forward. He turned around and wanted to go home to have a look. Several hours had passed, maybe Song Zhinan had already returned home.

Thinking of this, he turned his head in a trance in the rain, ran all morning, his mind was concentrating all the time, suddenly his eyes blurred, he couldn't see anything clearly for half a second, and the cold feeling in front of him suddenly penetrated into his skin inside.

It was as if something was pouring towards him head-on.

The hairs stood up suddenly, Xu Shuo raised his hand to wipe off the water on his face, and saw an old lady holding a steel basin at the door of a teahouse one meter away, looking at him in surprise, "You... When did you run out?"

Xu Shuo blinked his eyes that were flushed red by the water, but said nothing.

"I'm sorry, young man, I didn't see you running out. I always thought there was no one at the door." Grandma looked at Xu Shuo, her old ginger face was full of apology, "Come in quickly, it's raining so hard, I'll get you some Wipe it off with a towel."

"No need." Xu Shuo paused for a few seconds, "I still have something to do, so I'm leaving first."

"Hey - this child, why does he seem to have lost his soul!"

"Did you find it?"

"What did you do?"

The two searched around their home, and when they met, they asked each other in unison.

Han Yi shook his head, Xu Shuo saw that he was not there either, frowning, he pulled the wet and cold school uniform in front of him that was stained dark in color and waved his hands: "It's okay, I was thrown a basin when I passed by."

"Why don't you just watch when you walk?" Han Yi said to him, still thinking about going home first, it's already at this point, since Song Zhinan only took a whole morning leave, no matter where he goes, he will definitely be gone soon I'm back.

Han thought that Xu Shuo didn't respond at all after he finished speaking. He stared blankly behind him and asked, "What's wrong?"

Xu Shuo didn't answer, just kept watching, his eyes were dark and astringent, and the corners of his eyes were getting red.

Han Yi turned around and saw the two men who had been looking for the whole morning.

Song Zhinan.

The breath hanging in my heart was finally vented, but luckily nothing happened.

He didn't know how long he stood without making a sound. Song Zhinan was facing Xu Shuo in the rain not far away.

"you……"

"Go back first." Xu Shuo said in a deep voice, interrupting Han Yi, "I'm in trouble today, I have something to talk to him."

"Okay, you two have a good talk." Han Yi sighed, and patted Xu Shuo on the shoulder, "Remember to calm down."

Xu Shuo saw Song Zhinan walking towards him step by step, until the distance between them was less than half a meter, and he could even feel the warmth of each other's body temperature in the bitter air.

Xu Shuo's eyes were still red, his gaze was fixed on Song Zhinan's face darkly, and he asked, "Where did you go?"

Someone has to speak first.

"Let's go home first." Song Zhinan replied lightly, as if his disappearance all morning was just a game.

But this game frightened Xu Shuo, he couldn't let this matter pass so smoothly, it was impossible.

"I asked where you have been all morning?" Xu Shuo seemed to be stepping on hot asphalt, sticky, unwilling to move or move, not only that, but also shouted heartbreakingly, why, why sticking I?

"Walk around the neighborhood, where else can I go."

Xu Shuo listened to Song Zhinan's tone, so meaningless and wanton, as if as long as he was happy, everything in the world could smell of sweet oranges.

But for him, does anyone think about Xu Shuo for him?

It's not orange, it never was, Song Zhinan wasn't here, even the freshly baked cake smelled sour and musty.

The sour and musty smell made his tears fall, and the anxiety and panic of the morning all fell away. He, Xu Shuo, never cried. This was the first time since he could remember.

"Walking around my house? Where is it? I searched everything and I didn't see you around here!" shouted out with all his strength, his fists trembling, and the wet school uniform on his chest shook helplessly, like a man in a strong wind. The plastic bag that was scratched, "You lied to grandma and teacher, why didn't you lie to me too? You knew I would be worried, why did you lie to everyone but not to me! You let me know that you lied but didn't Know where you are! What do you want to do! Tell me! Why don't you lie to me! Let me hang like this all morning! Just hang like this!"

Song Zhinan's brain was buzzing from being yelled at by Xu Shuo on the phone, and he couldn't tell, and it was hard to say. Looking at the tears under his eyes, that drop slipped out of a shallow water mark on his face.

"Don't cry." Song Zhinan whispered softly, and wiped his cheeks with the crook of a finger, tears hooked into his own fingerprints.