What if you don't want to fall in love with the school bully?

Mama Yang is dead.

He didn't die from lung cancer, but committed suicide by jumping from the window on the fifth floor of the hospital.

When Yang Shaoqing and Jiang Qixiao received the news, they rushed to the hospital non-stop. It was already past one o'clock in the morning. One side of Yang's mother's body was smashed into a bloody mess, and it was a little distorted. Most of the blood hadn't had time to be disposed of. Kneeling in front of the bed with his back slumped and powerless, his hair was gray.

This time he was really ten years old.

Seeing that familiar face lying on the bed full of blood and lifeless, Yang Shaoqing was stunned for a moment, not knowing how to react, staring at her with a dull expression.

That was the person he had identified as his mother since he was conscious, and that was the mother who had cared for him since he was a child. Did she just leave him and her husband and go away?The days of licking the calf and love are finally... never coming back?

Yang Shaoqing frowned, took two steps forward in disbelief, and knelt down in front of the bed with Father Yang, stretched out his fingers and tried to touch her face cautiously, but he couldn't touch her face like it was hot.

"Mom..." He said softly, "Are you... asleep?"

Why not open your eyes?Why didn't you give him any response?

"Mom...you wake up..."

The one who called him before was a nurse from the hospital. He knew that he had already left, but he was... But he just had a glimmer of hope, hoping that everything in front of him was not true, and that his mother would be happy after listening to his questioning. I can open my eyes and smile and say to him, son, of course I lied to you...

This is... This is his mother!

How could she just leave like that!He fought black fists for her, just to cure her and keep her alive. He endured the pain of being separated from Jiang Qixiao, and he never mentioned it. Now, is it meaningless?

Why did that mother who put him first in everything, who had always been cautious, committed suicide?

Is it... is it...

Yang Shaoqing's eyes were scarlet, and he slowly turned his head to look sadly at Jiang Qixiao who was standing by the door and refused to step in.

Jiang Qixiao understood what was in his eyes, and instantly gasped, cold sweat running down his back.

She... committed suicide because of them?

"Shaoqing," Yang's father sighed heavily beside him, rubbed his wife's hand carefully, and said in dialect: "Your mother...she left a message for you, in the bag on the ground. Here, after so many years... You, your mother still found you, you can take it away, after the cremation... I should go. Dad... I haven't left anything good for all these years You, you like men, I think more openly than her, whoever you want to be with is your business, but... she wants to see a perfect you, forget it, you go and listen, it contains everything about you Confuse."

Jiang Qixiao walked away gently.

For some reason, he understood all the dialect words spoken by Uncle Yang. The atmosphere was too depressing, and he didn't want to stand here anymore. The suffocating feeling made him too uncomfortable.

If it was really because of his relationship with Shaoqing that Yang Ma committed suicide...then what should they do?Carrying a life to continue together?Did Mama Yang really force them so to prevent them from being together?Is this... forcing them?Are... blaming them?

Jiang Qixiao's throat was very itchy, and his addiction to smoking fell again, but he promised Yang Shaoqing that he would quit smoking, so he could only bear it bitterly.

Jiang Qixiao stood in the corridor of the hospital for a long time, the surrounding was very quiet, most of the patients were asleep, and occasionally a few nurses walked by.

It was almost dawn when Yang Shaoqing came out, his lips were blue and purple, his whole face was terribly haggard, he held an old mobile phone in his hand, and his eyes were dark.

"Listen with me." Yang Shaoqing's voice was very hoarse, like a patient who has had a cold for a few days, "No matter what it is, you said, face it together."

"Ah."

Jiang Qixiao held Yang Shaoqing's hand and sat on the bench with his lips pursed, rubbed Yang Shaoqing's face with both hands, forced a smile and said, "Listen, no matter what happens... I won't leave you again gone."

Yang Shaoqing lowered his bloodshot eyes, his fingers were trembling, he turned on the phone, and clicked on the only record in the recording.

The audio started to play, and at the beginning there were some clicking noises on the screen. Mama Yang didn't seem to be very familiar with this operation, and her voice came out after about ten seconds.

"Has it already started..." She paused, then let out a smirk, and continued to speak in dialect: "Shao Qing...When you hear this, it proves that I have left...Don't be sad, Don't be sad, this is a decision made by my mother after thinking for a long time... Let me call yourself your mother for now, and I will tell you everything you want to know..."

"Where do I start... Well, I should write down the questions in advance, so let's start with... the relationship between me and your father. When I was young, your father and I were introduced by our family. At that time, the relationship There are very few people who are as good as us. I love your father very much, and he loves me very much, but we have been married for four or five years and still can’t conceive a child. Many folk remedies are useless. I went to the hospital for an examination and said it was me. I can't give birth... I feel sorry for your father, although he said that it doesn't matter if he has it or not, but I was worried, so I thought about going the wrong way, and wanted to give someone else a hug."

"In those days, some people in the village would give their children to others after they were born. After all, they knew the basics. After a long time, the children knew about themselves, and most of them would run back to their hometowns, and they didn't want others to raise them. We observed It’s been more than a year and we still haven’t made up our minds to adopt their baby, and your uncle wasn’t married at that time, our hope can only be on those outsiders.”

"Your aunt Li was kidnapped and trafficked. You know, the trafficker hasn't been here for many years. He has a team. In fact, 20 years ago, he not only got your aunt Li to come here, but also... I even hugged you back together." Yang Ma sighed, a little hard to say, "Aunt Li didn't know that the child was you at first, and your father and I are old-fashioned, and we don't want to beat or scold you, and our heart aches. Very, you are our baby..."

"The first time you called your mother, the first time you said you loved your mother, the first time you could walk by yourself, your mother saw it... I raised you as my own son, do you know! You are my mother's son Ah! You are my mother's life! You have always... always been so obedient, always so cute... your grades are so good, and you take care of yourself when you make trouble, so have a sense of responsibility..."

"Why weren't you born by me... If only you were born by me, you are so outstanding!" Mama Yang cried through their eardrums, "Never let us worry! I really, really I never thought that there would be such a day... Why do you like men, this is wrong! Mom just wants to watch you grow up healthy and happy! I don’t want others to look down on you, you know? Ah? Do you understand!"

"But...but her appearance made me...never thought of it, I thought, it has been 20 years, how could I find this person in the vast sea of ​​people, how could...how did God play with me like this Well... my son... she scolded me, but she didn't scold me wrong. I did something wrong. If I could give birth, maybe you wouldn't let you follow us to suffer and be wronged since childhood. We were wrong. We didn't think about it. Families who stole children, I'm sorry..."

"Shaoqing...Shaoqing! She said your name is Qiu Hang, Qiu Hang...a very good name, it really belongs to you, good son, mother is shameless! Mom is ashamed of you! What she can bring to you Higher education and high material quality of life, neither of which we can do for you.. would you blame us? Sorry.. mom really loves you, mom watched you grow up.. you don't like the last name Pan's girl, mom knows, mom also knows that you acquiesced in allowing her to approach you just to make me happy, alas, maybe it was destined by heaven, Jiang...he loves you very much."

"I can see that he has deep feelings for you. He is older than you. Mom put all the responsibility on him at the time, and he didn't refute...Maybe you have already met him when you heard this voice, or , listen to me together, it doesn’t matter, listen carefully to what mom says next.”

"Both of you are good children, good children with good character and learning, you are very good, mother knows that feelings are sometimes out of control... don't think too much, the matter of mother leaving has nothing to do with you Do you know? Mom has lived enough, it's mom... In this life, I don't think about it anymore, don't talk about it... You are my mother's life, I can't see...Professor Qiu's painful loss of a child, even more... You can't be taken away by others."

"Anyway, I have cancer, there is nothing I can't fight, right? Don't think I am suicidal, I just... don't want you to earn dirty money to treat me. I have owned you for 20 years, and I am very satisfied I'm gone...you can go back to her. It's rare for mom...it's rare for me not to be selfish, I hope you don't blame me...don't cry, don't cry! Did you hear me! Dad, he has always been It's up to me to choose, even the matter of buying you, you can't blame him!"

"Mr. Jiang, he is from a big city and has helped you a lot. The reason why I let him go was not only because I wanted to see a perfect you, but also because I was afraid that he would play with you. I still look forward to one day in my heart. Anyone who can see you marrying a wife and having children... Forget it, they are all people with half a foot in the coffin lid, how can they care so much, I... I don't know what to say."

"Son, promise mom, don't cry! Be strong! Okay? Don't blame mom... Please! No matter who will live with you in the future, you must take care of yourself! You have a bad stomach, so you must eat well ! Eat less spicy and greasy food! You like to play basketball and skateboard, you must buy yourself the best equipment! Do you know! You can’t wrong yourself! It’s finally time to say goodbye..."

"Oh... say... you agreed not to cry, Mom... Mom can't bear you... Shaoqing... You are really my life... You must take good care of yourself! Whether your surname is Yang or Qiu! You will always be the greatest pride in my life! Mom loves you!"

"..."

On a summer night in June, the sky was full of stars, and the breeze blew slowly, sweeping away the vague noises in the old mobile phone.

On the bench in the corridor of the hospital, two handsome men hugged each other and wept, their brows were full of endless sadness and sorrow, their tears couldn't stop flowing down, and the whimpers came and went, as if they wanted to All the painful emotions are vented out in this way.

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Maybe everyone thinks that this ending is too hasty, but you should be able to see from the previous article that I am a writer who likes to procrastinate and force a bunch of people. , let the story end here!They will live happily ever after!

The following is what I want to say, which can be skipped.

At first, I just wanted to write a story about a little boy who was trafficked and lived happily in the countryside and found true love. I opened the coding software at the beginning of June, because it was the first time I was writing a text, I was very nervous, so I tried to publish it first. After reading the first three chapters, the writing is too sloppy and no one reads it.

At that time, I was very frustrated and disappointed. I felt that I was dreaming. How could anyone read what I wrote, so I used the name "hwszm" as the username of the waste text, which is "Why dream for a living", Just the first three chapters have been changed five or six times, and finally the Buddha is about to change, so I don’t change it.

After recognizing the fact that I am a new scumbag, I didn’t care about whether anyone paid attention to me anymore. I told myself that the first book was used to practice my pen and just write what I wanted to read. I spent a long time During the two-month period when no one responded to the code words, one person immersed himself in writing bit by bit. Since it was not the popular double|sexual abo style of waste writing, the number of words was ten times more than others. Every update has a drop off.

I don't care, I don't care, the more I write, the more vigorous I am, I am immersed in my own plot, and I am even a little afraid of seeing other people's comments, afraid that others will hate my article if they think differently from me.

When I first wrote the milk confession, someone sent me a private message on Weibo and said "send a TXT" very coldly. I said that I didn't finish writing, and that person didn't even follow me, so he continued with a mocking I meant to say a few words about the school bully who is too mentally retarded, too stupid, and the pace is too slow, so what should I do right away...

Her tone was very, very annoying to me.I...well, I don’t know how to say it, it’s one thing to not finish writing, but to be honest, I don’t really want to give it when I see this attitude after finishing writing, hand it to you?you come?

This is my article, you can read it if you want, you can comment if you want, as long as it is polite to mention something or tell me what is inappropriate, I can accept it.but!I hope you don't private message me with a condescending attitude, I don't want to spend time talking to you, thank you.

I didn't write an outline. The whole article was presented after I finished it in my head. I knew it was rough and clumsy. When I read it again, I found that my words were childish, deliberate, and contrived. Many places had no logic at all. I am writing with my own pleasure.

A few days ago, someone left me a long paragraph saying how the protagonist can still reconcile after being like that. I can’t accept such an ending. I thought about it for a long time, and finally I just replied lightly.

I know that what I said will be hard for people to accept, and it will make her have a thought of "Nie Ma, you don't write very well, and I will never read your stuff again", but what am I afraid of, I am not happy to read it I was the only one who felt uncomfortable after trying to eat it. I didn’t want that reader to feel uncomfortable because of forced reading of my article, so I begged to abandon the article.

I wrote this book for myself. Everyone has different views on relationships. Some people think that it was a mistake for Jiang Qixiao to leave Naiqing selfishly. In my opinion, he had a failed relationship before. The relationship also involves the family, and it is also not favored by the family, and it is ugly to break up.

Of course he loves Naiqing. Yang's mother has been emphasizing that he delayed Naiqing's future and made Naiqing become a pervert with him, which subconsciously made him doubt and loathe what he did. He was afraid of repeating the same mistakes, afraid of hurting Naiqing, afraid that everything was wrong, and he was also afraid of being soft-hearted to Nai, so he agreed to Yang's mother to leave secretly.

When Jiang Qixiao was scolded by Yang's mother, he regretted that he didn't restrain his feelings for Naiqing at the beginning, so this time he kept suppressing and patiently, not daring to think about it, but couldn't help thinking about it.

When he left, he thought that he would never reconcile with Naiqing again, but those who have truly loved know that this kind of separation cannot make the two people who love each other really let go of each other.

My view on feelings is that without a third party everything is easy to talk about.

They are in love, a phone call, a period of crying and questioning, and a sentence like "Do you want me anymore" can break Jiang Qixiao's heart into shards of glass, isn't he in pain?Isn't he uncomfortable?Can he laugh without milk?Wasn't he distraught enough?

He hung up the phone because it was in too much pain. He had never cried before and was blocked by tears and snot. I thought everyone could imagine that my writing skills were too poor, and the emotions expressed in too many places were too lacking. I'm sorry for making you feel disgusted with his departure!

In the early stage, I always wanted to portray Naiqing as arrogant and cute, so as to contrast with the forced growth in the later stage, but I failed, sorry again!

All in all, I am very happy with the updates during this period of time!Halfway through the writing, I don’t want to do it any more, so let’s keep it in the most youthful and childish way, so that I can look back and commemorate it in the future!

And more!I once said that the prototype of Aunt Li came from the mouth of one of my high school classmates. The authenticity is very much to be verified. Here I want to tell all the girls that they must pay attention to their own safety!There are really many bad people in the world, and the degree of badness is beyond your imagination!Be sure to be vigilant about similar issues!Be sensitive!Safety is the most important thing!

I wrote 38 words by accidentally practicing my pen. I am very grateful for my initial enthusiasm!Thank you very much for persevering bit by bit!I am also very grateful to see my broken writing and not dislike my cuties!In the vast sea of ​​people, we met in Feiwen and you just happened to read my article, and you still don’t dislike my broken writing. Thank you for liking Brother Naiqing and Brother Xiaoxiao!Love you guys!Comparing my heart!bow!

My next article, Repeater, will be serialized in a few days!Forced love type!Interested babies can poke me!The overall rhythm will be much faster than the school bully!challenge yourself!come on, come on, come on!The second practice essay!I will work hard to improve and try my best to give you a good experience when reading the article!