[APH parent-child points] His cat

Fernandez was getting more and more busy, often late at night, by which time Lovino must have been asleep.So texting good night is replacing phone chatting more and more.

How can a few words alone be enough!asshole!Although Lovino was very dissatisfied, he didn't complain, and he didn't show it.Fernandez is already very busy and tired, and he must not make things difficult for him.

But Lovino was very blocked in his heart. It had been so long, and he could only read a few words every day, but couldn't feel anything. He wanted to feel more about the other party's mood.

Lovino began to think wildly, distance is always a relationship killer.Will the other party weaken their feelings?Will there be any difference in the life of the other party without your own life?That damned guy used to have a messy private life, but this time when he went back, he often socialized outside and got drunk, so he didn't mess around!And he can't say anything even if he fucks himself, because they're not a couple.

Gradually, this kind of thoughts continued to, will he really love himself and be by his side forever?Impossible, a lifetime is so far away, these sentences are so ethereal.If he leaves again...

What if this person leaves me again?His sensitive heart would always lead him to make such assumptions.The injuries he had suffered in the past made him still full of distrust for the future.

Lovino can just muddle along with anything, just look at today, talk about tomorrow's things tomorrow, and think about future things later, but this thing is not allowed.Because I have experienced it, I know that this is such a painful thing, and because I have experienced it, I will be afraid.So it is impossible for him to immerse himself in Fernandez's love for him now, and think about what to do after Fernandez leaves.He is now dreading that day.

His distrust of Fernandez is not only because of Fernandez's problems, but also from his own, deep inferiority complex.Why did Fernandez love him all the time, he was such a waste, he couldn't do anything, and he often caused trouble for him.If one day he gets tired, he will leave him sooner or later.Like a year ago, he told Lovino: "I'm running out of patience."

He really felt like he was going crazy, and of course he wouldn't show those emotions with Fernandez.Because he felt that he was worthless, and even if he showed it, Fernandez would definitely reply him: "I will not leave you."

Thinking about it this way, Lovino felt that he was crazy. He was sure that Fernandez would say that, which meant that he clearly believed that Fernandez would not leave him.But...

One night, Lovino had fallen asleep when his cell phone rang.

He thought it was Fernandez at first, and he woke up immediately, but when he saw the screen, he realized it was Feliciano.Calling so late, Lovino thought something happened, but when he answered, he heard Feliciano's very cheerful voice:

"ciao~ciao~, good evening brother."

"Damn it! What the fuck do you think it is now!" Lovino opened his mouth and cursed, and Dana on the bed next to him was woken up by him, turned over and looked at Lovino resentfully, but Lovino couldn't see in the dark.

"Hey——" Feliciano was taken aback, "I'm sorry, brother, are you already asleep?"

"Of course! What's the matter, you bastard!"

"Well, brother, I want to say happy birthday. It's past midnight now, it's March NO.17."

March NO.17 is my and Feliciano's birthday, I almost forgot, it turned out to be so fast.So fast, a month has passed...

"I see...you too. Idiot brother."

"Luther gave me good things. Besides, he will take me out to play during the day, and he agreed to treat me to a big meal at night, hehe. How will my brother live? Will he be with Brother Antonio?"

At the mention of the name, Lovino gripped the sheets tightly. "He...is not here now, he has something to do, so he went back early."

"VE... so sorry."

"What a pity! Let me ask you, are you with that potato bastard now?"

"That's right, Luther's words are by my side, what's wrong?"

You are really not together all the time, why is your relationship so good!Even though he wanted to ask, Lovino held back.After hesitating for a while, Lovino asked:

"Hey Feliciano, are you so sure... that he will always be with you? If one day, he leaves you, what will you... do?"

"Eh? How is it possible! Luther's words will definitely not work! He will take care of me for the rest of my life!"

"Asshole, I said what if! What if! Look, love or something, being together all the time, everyone said that when they were in love, but there are not many people who really go to the end together, right? If you I don't want him to leave, but later, he still left, what will you do at this time..." If you want to confide these childish things in your heart, if you want to talk to someone, that is the best person for Lovino It's Feliciano.

"Why did you leave?"

"If, the other party is tired of you, etc..."

"So, what about you? Do you still love him?"

Lovino hesitated for a moment, and said, "Of course. Otherwise, I wouldn't be bothered about such things."

"If you love, then go and get it back. You don't want the other person to leave, you want to be together forever, why don't you take the initiative to express these feelings?"

"Do...I can't do it!"

Feliciano lowered his voice and said, "Brother, this is not acceptable. Do you still remember what I told you about the kid I knew when I was young? In the end, I could only watch helplessly. Watching him leave, I listened to his words and waited for him to come back. But in the end, I couldn’t wait. Just watching can’t change anything, right? Just waiting can’t do anything? I already understand these things. So, I I like Luther, and I will tell him, kiss or hug, just say what you want. If Luther leaves, I will definitely chase him and hold him tightly to prevent him from leaving. Isn’t it like this? In fact, you should think like this in your heart when encountering such a situation, shouldn’t you?” Feliciano sat in Ludwig’s arms, looked up at Ludwig with a smile, Luther Vichy heard his words, although he was a little embarrassed, but he was very happy in his heart, and he showed a faint smile.

Lovino grabbed the sheet tightly, yes, he didn't want him to leave!Don't want him to leave!He did think so, yes.

"Brother, the person you are talking about is Brother Antonio, right?" Feliciano asked.

"Bai...idiot brother!" Lovino jumped up and cursed.

"That, brother, I don't think you need to worry about this kind of problem at all. I told you before that brother Antonio definitely likes brother. After such a long time, he still likes brother, doesn't he? Why? Worrying about something like that? He's so attached to you that you're only hurting him if you suspect something like that. And, you see, Brother Antonio was looking for you while you were gone, and then after you Go to your side, because he doesn't want you to leave, so he does. If one day, in case, he leaves you, it's your turn to do the same to him, don't want to lose If you want to, go and take it back, and convey your heart to the other party. My brother will definitely be able to do it."

Lovino clenched the phone tightly, and after a while, he said softly, "I know what to do. Thank... Thank you, Feliciano."

"Well, come on, brother. That's it first, good night."

"Good night."

After hanging up the phone, Lovino lay on the bed. Feliciano was right. His words finally made him think about something, gave him strength, and made up his mind.

After dawn the next day, he woke up and started to pack his things.

"Are you leaving?" Dana asked.

"Well, I'm going back."

"Go back? You use this word a little strangely. I remember you said before that this small town is your hometown."

"It was my previous hometown." Lovino corrected.If he hadn't come here to escape Fernandez a year ago, he would still be living in that city.

Lovino took the luggage and the cat, boarded the train, and embarked on the journey.He didn't tell Fernandez about this.

He has a mood of lightness, joy and anticipation that he has never felt before, because he intends to pursue the future he wants.

It was eight o'clock in the evening when we returned to that city.Holding the cat in one hand and the luggage in the other, he got off the train.

He called Fernandez, who was quickly picked up.

"Good evening, what's the matter?" the other party asked in a gentle voice.

"I am back."

"...Come back? What do you mean by come back?"

"Where are you? I want to see you." Lovino said directly.

"Wait, Lovino, you..." the other party said in an unbelievable tone, "Well, I probably don't have time now, can you go to my house first? I will rush back as soon as possible, absolutely. Do you remember the password? ?"

"kindness."

After hanging up the phone, Lovino took a taxi to Fernandez's apartment.Enter the door and put down the cat.The cat must be hungry, seeing him meowing all the time, Lovino was also hungry, he went to rummage through the refrigerator, took out the bread, fed the cat some, and then ate some himself.

Lie on the sofa and played with the cat for a while, waiting patiently for Fernandez to come back.

Now I am actually very nervous. Thoughts and actions are two different things. What should I say and what should I do next.Can he really do it?

The cat jumped aside and went to sleep.Lovino has been waiting bored.

The room was quiet, and Lovino was lying on the sofa hugging the cushions.The sound of car engines coming from downstairs, the noisy sound of people talking, the sound of flying insects hitting the glass, the sound of people passing by in the corridor outside the door... all these made him restless, Uneasy.Eventually the sound returned to the house, the ticking of the wall clock on the wall, and he kept looking up at the time, almost every few minutes.That bastard said come back soon, how long is soon?Why don't you come back?

He wanted to see him, he couldn't wait to see him, and wanted to tell him what was in his heart.

Finally, at ten o'clock, Lovino heard the sound of the porch door knocking, and someone came in, and his heart suddenly jumped up, jumping into his throat.He got up from the sofa and walked towards the entrance. Sure enough, Fernandez came back.Seeing the person he had been thinking about all the time, Lovino suddenly wanted to cry, wanted to jump up and hug him and ask you if you fucking know how many days you kept me waiting!

Fernandez was pleasantly surprised to see him.But Lovino neither cried nor said anything, he just ran over, threw himself into the arms of the person opposite, and hugged Fernandez tightly.

Fernandez was surprised by Lovino's initiative, but he quickly hugged Lovino and kissed him deeply.Lovino kissed back, this was the hug and kiss he had dreamed countless times.It finally became reality again today.

It took a long time before their lips left each other's.Fernandez looked at the person in his arms affectionately. He hadn't seen him for more than a month. He missed Lovino all the time. Today, Lovino suddenly told himself that he was back. At that moment, he really wanted to go back Come to him.Lovino raised his head and looked at the face of the person on his body. He had been thinking about it day and night for more than a month, and the face often appeared in his dreams.

"Why?" Fernandez asked.

Lovino's heart rose again, and he moved his Adam's apple.Speak up, say what's on your mind.

"I miss you, I miss you so much, I want to see you, bastard."

Hearing Lovino's frank answer, Fernandez was very surprised, and then he happily kissed Lovino again.

"I always feel that Lovino is cuter today. I am the same, I miss you very much, sorry, I promised to return to you soon, but..."

"It's okay." Lovino interrupted him.

Fernandez looked at him with a smile, and Lovino blushed a little, and he said, "Today...is my birthday."

"Eh? I don't know! Totally unprepared, sorry. Why didn't you tell me earlier?"

"Actually, I also forgot... Feliciano called me today, and I just remembered." Lovino said.

"You..." Fernandez smiled helplessly, raised his hand and bent his index finger to scratch his nose. "Then, there is still a little time, what is Lovino's birthday wish?"

"Say it, will you help me realize it?"

"Well, I will. Even if I can't finish it today, I will do it tomorrow and the day after tomorrow."

Lovino's heart began to beat wildly. Although these words had been drafted since he hung up on Feliciano's phone yesterday, he had said and practiced countless times in his heart, but at this moment, he Still very nervous.He felt hot all over his body, especially his fingertips and cheeks.As if boiling water, the brain began to churn with steam.The words had already reached the throat, but they did not climb up again.Lovino is cheering for himself, he has come here, he must speak out.

speak out.

speak out.

Say it now!

"I want you……"

After finishing speaking, Lovinuo paused, this sentence seemed to have exhausted all the strength in his body, and there were still a lot of words to say, but he let it out all at once.

"You said... what?" Fernandez asked, looking at him with incredible eyes.He wondered if he heard it wrong, but Lovino actually said...

Lovino tightened his hand holding Fernandez, and tightly grasped his back, his nails sank deeply without knowing it, and he buried his head in Fernandez's arms.

"I want you not to leave me! Be with me all the time...Damn it! You must never leave me again, understand...you bastard!"

After Lovino finished speaking, his cheeks were as red as if they had been boiled.He hugged the man in front of him tightly, too shy to raise his head.

Fernandez was stunned, and he said in a daze, "You..."

"Shut up!" Lovino interrupted him, "Listen well, I never want to live without you, if you dare to leave me... I will chase you to the ends of the earth and I will never let you go, damn it Yes. I've been pestering you for the rest of my life, bastard..."

Fernandez looked at the person hiding in his arms. After a while, he reached out and lifted Lovino's chin, making Lovino look into his eyes:

"Look at me, Lovino," he said, and Lovino looked at him with an extremely shy expression, "You're serious, aren't you?"

"kindness."

"You'll forgive me, won't you?"

"kindness."

"You're willing to trust me, aren't you?"

"kindness."

Fernandez stopped talking, he stared deeply at the person in his arms, after a while, he laughed, and then hugged Lovino tightly again, and Lovino also hugged him tightly.

"Yes, my love." Fernandez replied affectionately, and said with a voice full of laughter: "Lovino is so happy to say such a thing, he is so happy that he is about to die."

"...idiot." Lovino cursed softly.But he was also very happy. The feeling of happiness and satisfaction in his heart was hundreds of times sweeter than soaking in a sugar jar.

"I swear, I will not leave you, I will never leave you. I love you, I love you so much, I will never leave you. I can say it several times. And I am the same, if Lovino leaves me If you do, I will chase you anywhere and never let go."

Listening to these words, Lovino's mood was so indescribably comfortable. Once he completely opened his heart, when love was revealed without reservation, and emotions intertwined and collided with each other, his heart seemed to swell with a lot of bright colors. The colorful balloons, the body is light and light, this feeling of happiness is about to fly into the sky.

He suddenly felt that he was really bothering others before, that's right, fight for what you want, and say what you want.

He has been worrying about this and that because he is afraid of being hurt, and he dare not accept happiness.How foolish it is to dare not have it because you are afraid of losing it.When he finally had the courage and determination to accept all this, a kind of strength and a kind of faith suddenly surged through him.The fuck has been decided, from now on this man is just Lao Tzu's thing!No one wants to rob him.I will no longer be afraid of him leaving, I will hold him tightly, and if he really leaves, I will take it back.

Isn't that great?Great isn't it?Lovino hugged Fernandez tightly, leaned his head on his shoulder, and leaned his body in his arms with peace of mind. He felt extremely warm, just like embracing the warm sun.

Fernandez kissed him on the forehead. "Happy birthday, Lovino."

"Yeah," Lovino replied, "I'm happy now, asshole."

Fernandez looked at him. "Huh? Really? You can't tell at all."

"What do you mean, you bastard!"

"I mean, Lovino, if you're feeling happy, try to laugh, okay?"

"What...why do you have to be like you, laughing like a fool."

"But, I really want to see Lovino's smile."

"I can't do it! Don't force me, bastard." Lovino said with an awkward expression on his face.

"You can do it. I know some things about Lovino's past. I've seen photos of you before. You can obviously smile so well."

previous things?Lovino thought for a while, when he used to laugh, he usually stood on the stage, did he mean this? "But, that's because on the stage, now..."

"No, it's because you're happy." Fernandez interrupted him. "No matter what you do, you laugh because you're happy, don't you? I remember when I made you happy before, you I said, how can there be so many happy things.” Fernandez squeezed his hand and pressed it against his chest, “Lovino, as long as you stand in front of me, I will feel very happy. You will have the same feeling as me. Do you feel it?"

Lovino nodded, "Of course... yes."

"Then you see, aren't these just happy things. I know you too late. I'm sorry. I wasn't by your side when you were alone or in pain. So I will give you the rest of my life. You don’t have to do anything, just leave it to me, I will always be with you, I just need to see you live happily and healthy. Because after making a decision, it will only make you happy, and happy You should smile when you are happy, so if you don’t show a happy expression, mine will be sad.”

"Idiot!" Lovino cursed in a low voice, but he was so touched to death, he was already extremely happy, so he wanted to cry more than smile.

"Hey Lovino, smile and let me see your smile."

Lovino looked at Fernandez with fiery eyes and strong expectations.He laughed when he was happy, and now he could laugh, and he couldn't find a reason to keep suppressing his smile.

His eyes were bent like crescent moons, and there was a happy smile in his clear eyes. His lips were slightly opened, and the corners of his mouth were curved in a beautiful arc, spreading to his cheeks with a moving expression.The smile on his face slowly bloomed, like a blooming lily of the valley, lovely and pure, without blemishes.

Angels are here!Fernandez stared blankly. After a while, he came back to his senses. He took out his mobile phone and pressed a few times quickly, saying, "Don't move." Then he took several consecutive photos of Lovino's face.

"What are you doing!"

"Well, because I made an agreement with Xiaofei, I must let the smile return to your face, so I must send him a copy of this photo!"

"Hey, what kind of idiot agreement are you guys making!"

"Ah, even if it's Lovino, I can't say that."

Lovino put away his smile and glared at him with puffed cheeks.Fernandez hugged him and said with a smile, "Those are irrelevant now, Lovino smile again, smile again, you are so beautiful when you smile."

"It's too little! Give you a little bit of sweetness and you will be proud, damn it! Is it too good for you tonight?" Lovino kicked him, "I'm hungry, cook for me !"

"Yes, as ordered. Hold on for a while and go."

"Humph."

Lovino feels very lucky that this is the best birthday present he has received in 22 years, and it can last a lifetime.God was very disrespectful to him, but he didn't resent God very much. He always believed that as long as people are alive, good things can always happen, just like now, thank God for not forgetting his unlucky child.

He was suddenly full of expectation and confidence in his future life.Even if the job is gone, and the younger brother runs away with the potato bastard, he can't do what he can do with his body injury.Eh?Thinking about it this way, it seems that the future is not so bright. Although Fernandez told himself that he didn't have to do anything in the future, he still didn't want to rely on him so hopelessly.But without a diploma or ability, even if you want to work hard, how will you live your life in the future?

Cut, never mind, my stomach is getting more and more hungry after thinking about such complicated things, let's talk about tomorrow's matter tomorrow, the boat will be straight when it reaches the bridge, there will always be a way.But now it is enough for him to hug the man in front of him tightly.