[APH parent-child points] His cat

One night, Lovino dreamed of Fernandez again, and it was a happy dream.

He dreamed that Fernandez was sitting on the window sill outside the house, holding his guitar, while Lovino was lying on the window sill inside the house, listening to him playing for himself.The air is filled with the smell of sunshine, the grass is green and comfortable, and the surroundings are full of colorful flowers, which are more beautiful than spring.When it was over, Fernandez looked up, Lovino leaned in, and they kissed.

Lovino woke up and found that it was just a dream, although it was something they had actually done, but the scene was different.He felt a little sorry because it was a dream, but he was not as depressed and sad as usual, because Fernandez was here, and he was no longer missing him.

He suddenly wanted to see him and hug him right now. He felt that he was crazy, and it was as if a hole had been opened in his heart. The emotions he wanted to imprison were flowing out. The kind of beauty kept hitting his head.This is because when people just wake up from a dream, they will always unreservedly restore the emotions in the dream.

If he had this kind of dream in the past, during his painful year, he would sadly think that it would be great if it was true.But now, when this dream could really become a reality, he retreated.

It's not that he doesn't want to face up to his relationship with Fernandez, but he doesn't dare. He is more sensitive than ordinary people, and he is also more insecure than ordinary people, afraid of being hurt.Just like a rose, once stabbed by it once, even though it is still irresistibly beautiful, but the second time, it is impossible to immediately open your arms and hug it tightly.So he has been vacillating.Once trust is broken, it is extremely difficult to rebuild it intact.Fernandez chased him here. He could believe that he really loved him, but he couldn't believe that he would never leave him again.Fernandez said that he fell in love with himself a year ago, even if he loved himself, didn't he just throw it away a year ago?How could he believe that such a thing would never happen again.

The next morning, Lovino came out of the room and met Fernandez in the hallway.

"Good morning." He smiled at him.

Lovino immediately remembered the dream last night. The warmth he gave him in the dream seemed to still surround him. When he saw the real person, he felt like wanting to pour out his feelings to him. Look at Fernandez.

Fernandez also looked at him, then came up to hug him gently, and put a short kiss on his lips.

"Good morning kiss," he said to him.

Lovino left his arms and ran away.

Fernandez looked at Lovino's back. The way Lovino looked at him just now was full of longing.Having experienced countless love scenes, he could naturally see what Lovino was longing for, so he gave him a hug and a kiss along the way.I just don't understand why Lovino suddenly showed such a look so actively, but it is a good thing for him.

During the next day's work, Lovino felt uneasy all the time, because of the influence of that dream, strange emotions and impulses would always flow in his chest.

"My God, my cousin is getting married, and I have to go to her wedding." While taking a nap in the afternoon, Dana answered a phone call, and after finishing, he said dejectedly.

Lovino cheered up immediately: "Aren't you coming back again?"

Dana: "No, I'll be back."

Cut, Lovino lay back on the bed in disappointment.After Dana received the call, she immediately went to ask for leave, almost leaving immediately, even though it was raining heavily outside.He might be going for a while, and Lovino felt like he'd almost used up his latest vacation.

But in this way, only Lovino was the one who prepared the dinner, and Dana left in a hurry, so he didn't have time to arrange a temporary replacement today.But Lovino can handle it alone.

It's just that after dinner, cleaning the kitchen alone took some time, and dawdled until very late.It was still raining heavily outside, and thunder and lightning flashed, which was a little scary.

Fernandez came to the kitchen, saw Lovino alone in there, and said, "It's really only you."

"Huh? What?" Lovino turned around and asked.

"I heard that another person took time off and left, so it's just you working. Need help?"

"No need, it will be over soon."

Fernandez was behind Lovino, and Lovino skillfully and quickly rinsed the washed dishes with clean water one by one, and then neatly put them into the basin.

"But it's surprising. Lovino was not good at these things before, but he has learned it now." Fernandez said with a smile.

"Well...it still messes up occasionally."

"If you want to do it, you can still do it well, come on."

"If you don't do well, there's nothing you can do. If you don't know anything, you're going to starve yourself to death, bastard." Lovino muttered.Fernandez thought that in the past year, after Lovino left, he had no idea what happened to him alone, and even if he asked, Lovino might not tell him.But if he used to do odd jobs, he obviously couldn't do anything, so he must have suffered a lot to grow up to this level.

"When I was alone, I discovered something." Lovino took the initiative to speak again, his voice sounded a little lost, "I used to be very useless and always dependent on others. When I was young, my family had money. , I don't need to do anything. When I grow up, I don't need to do the same. When I lose everything, I can't fucking do anything. At this time, I have Feliciano. And later, With you..." Lovino said the last sentence in a low voice, and Fernandez couldn't help but feel his heart tighten, and he clenched his fist.

"I rely on you with peace of mind, but when I left everyone, or after everyone left me, I realized that it is impossible to always rely on others. No one will always make me depend on you for a lifetime. Everyone will Leave. Whether it's grandpa, or parents, or Feliciano... all he can think about right now is that bloody potato bastard. Or, it's you. So I..."

Before he finished speaking, he was embraced by the people behind him. Lovino froze and stopped what he was doing.

"I'm sorry." Fernandez said, Rovinor paused, and said:

"I'm not blaming you. No matter whether you liked me or not, it's your freedom to reject me. You don't have to do this. It's better to say that it's strange to drag a waste like me."

"No, it's my fault, it's all my fault." These words from Lovino made Fernandez feel extremely distressed.He hugged Lovino tightly, resting his chin on his shoulder.Lovino used to depend on him so much and trust him.But what has he done.

"Lovino, I will always be with you, and I will never leave again. I will help you do what you can't do, and what you don't want to do. No matter how many things, I am willing to do for you. You It's okay to do nothing, it's okay to rely on me, I hope you can still rely on me. I want to tell you the truth, but it sounds too beautiful to say these words to you after doing something wrong Come on, you don't have to rush to decide whether you believe me or not, I will use time to prove it. My wish is that you need help in the future. Don't be brave by yourself. Tell me, okay? Even if you don't know anything Do, you are my most important treasure, so don't force yourself."

"Really...let's talk when we encounter that kind of thing. Let...let go of me, you first, what can I do with you, you bastard." Lovino's heart was beating, he turned his head, and said to the people behind him like this.

Fernandez lifted his chin with his hand and kissed him.After a while, he let go of Lovino.

"Okay, I'll take care of it myself here, what the hell are you supposed to do." Lovino said with a blushing face.

"Eh? Can't we go back together after you're done?"

"No! Get out!" He stayed here and couldn't settle down to do things. As long as his eyes were on him, Lovino felt weak all over.

"Okay, then go back and rest early. I'll go first." Fernandez left the kitchen after finishing speaking.

Lovino cleaned all the remaining dishes and put them in the basin.He was carrying the basin and was about to walk towards the cupboard. Suddenly, a bright lightning flashed, followed by a loud noise, and the surroundings suddenly fell into darkness.Lovino was taken aback, and almost let go of his hand and smashed a pot of dishes. Is the circuit broken?He tried to remind himself to be calm and not to cry out.He put the basin back on the cupboard, and supported the cupboard with his hands. The inside of the house was pitch black, the window was pitch black, and the corridor leading to the door was also pitch black. He couldn’t see anything clearly, and there seemed to be ghosts and monsters lurking all around. .

Lovino was already afraid of the dark, and he was terrified.There was no sound around in the corridor, only the sound of raindrops falling, and it seemed that no one was there. The thought of going back to his room through the long darkness made his feet weak. "F...Fernandez?" He tried to call out in a trembling voice, but it had been a few minutes since he left, so it was impossible to hear him?

"Yes." But Fernandez's voice appeared at the door.He had just walked halfway, and after the power outage, as soon as he remembered that Lovino was afraid of the dark, he ran back as fast as he could, just in time to hear Lovino calling himself.

"Where are you? I...I'm scared." Lovino said in a crying voice, stretching out his hand, and Fernandez walked towards him, his eyes could see more clearly after adapting to the darkness.

"I'm here, it's okay, don't cry." Fernandez comforted him with a gentle voice, and he took Lovino's hand. "Come on, come with me." He led Lovino out of the kitchen, back to the corridor, and took Lovino all the way back to the room.

Lovino returned to his room, and he sat down on the bed before he breathed a sigh of relief.But then he became nervous again, because Dana was gone, which meant that he was alone in the room tonight, and he could have slept with the light on, but now there was a power outage.

"Are you all right?" Fernandez asked him, and Lovino gave him a light grace.Fernandez asked again, "Are you going to sleep?"

There is nothing to do if you don’t sleep now, Lovino took off his clothes, lay down, wrapped the quilt tightly and hid in the bed.Seeing him sleeping, Fernandez left the room, and with the sound of the door closing softly, Lovino's heart suddenly panicked.

But Fernandez came back soon, and he didn't close the door tightly when he went out just now.The sound of the door opening still startled Lovino, but the familiar figure could be vaguely recognized in the darkness.

Fernandez opened the chair by the table and sat down. He brought a candle and a book, lit the candle with a lighter and put it on the table. Then he said to Lovino: "Can't you sleep alone? I'm here with you , I will leave after you fall asleep."

Lovino's heart was shocked, he huddled under the quilt, and a warm current flowed through his body.After a while, he whispered, "Thank you...thank you."

He heard Fernandez's chuckle, he looked up and saw Fernandez resting his head on one hand, and smiled at him, "Go to sleep."

Lovino closed his eyes, trying to fall asleep as hard as he could before he left, and sleep well into the morning.But he found that he couldn't sleep at all.Because Fernández was next to him, when he closed his eyes and thought about it, he didn't want to fall asleep.He would always secretly open his eyes slightly, and then look at Fernandez's side face by candlelight, while the other party sat quietly in a chair and read a book, being very careful when turning the pages of the book, trying not to make any noise.

This scene was very familiar, and it brought back memories of Lovino.Lovino remembered the time when he fell ill a year ago, and Fernandez took him to his home. When Lovino was sleeping at night, he sat at the desk with the lamp on while reading a book while guarding himself.When he wakes up in a daze, he can always see the figure from the back in the dim light, which makes him feel very at ease and comfortable.

It's the same now, how familiar and nostalgic these situations and emotions are, so much that I want to shed tears.

Lovino thought about how terrified he would be if he woke up in the middle of the night tonight and found that Fernandez had gone.What scares him more than the darkness is that when he wakes up from the darkness, he finds that the people around him are gone.Thinking of it this way, he couldn't sleep even more, and he was terrified of Fernandez's departure.

After a long time, so long that Fernandez had finished reading half of the book, he looked up and realized that the rain had stopped at some point.He turned his head and looked at Lovino by the faint candlelight. The person on the bed was very quiet, only the sound of even breathing could be heard, and he must have fallen asleep.I'm sleepy too, it's time to go to sleep.

He got up and walked to the bed, and helped Lovino tuck his back.Then he went to the table and blew out the candles.He suddenly thought, if Lovino woke up in the middle of the night, he would still be very scared if he was alone?After all, he was so scared that he was about to cry just now.

Lovino wasn't asleep at all, he was still awake, and when he felt that the candlelight was extinguished, his heart ached, Fernandez was leaving, he knew that he would be left alone in this room soon, He secretly grabbed the sheet under the quilt.

But he found that Fernandez did not leave as he thought.Fernandez continued to sit down at the table. He opened his eyes and judged by his figure that Fernandez was lying on the table.What is this guy doing?After a while, Fernandez still maintained this posture.Could it be that he... sleeps here?

After a while, Lovino couldn't bear it any longer, and he said, "Hello..."

Hearing his shout, Fernandez straightened up and looked towards Lovino, "Lovino, are you awake?"

"What are you... doing, bastard? Why haven't you left yet?"

"Well, I'm afraid you'll wake up like this, and you'll be scared if you're alone. I'll be here with you tonight, so you can sleep peacefully." A smile can be felt from his voice, Lovino I can clearly and 100% describe his current expression in my mind, it must be with a very gentle smile and warm eyes.

Lovino's nose was sour, and his eyes immediately filled with tears and flowed out.He scrambled towards the side of the bed near the wall, then patted the space outside beside him, and whispered to Fernandez, "Here...there is an empty space."

Fernandez was taken aback, and it took him a while to understand what Lovino meant.He asked in surprise, "Can you?"

"Hurry up." Lovino said in an awkward voice.

Then it would be better to be respectful than obedient, Fernandez sat on the edge of the bed, took off his clothes, and then stretched the quilt to lie beside Lovino.He turned and faced Lovino, who bet he was smiling right now.

"Stop fucking staring at me," Lovino said.

"It seems impossible." Fernandez replied with a smile.

"Damn it! Believe it or not, I'll kick you down."

"It's too much, you asked me to come up."

Lovino shut his mouth, he was wronged.Fernandez huddled up, but the skin of his face touched a wet spot on the pillow.He raised his hand and touched Lovino's cheek, and sure enough his fingertips touched the cold liquid.

"Why are you crying? Did you have a nightmare?"

What a man!Insanely dull!Lovino was out of breath, and he slammed Fernandez with his head hammer, hitting the opponent's chin, and the opponent let out a cry of "Wow--".

"It's all your fault! It's all fucking fault." Lovino shouted, and in the next second, he was hugged.

"Really? Did you cry because of me? I'm sorry."

Lovino slept with his upper body naked, and the other's firm arm was pressed against his skin, and he felt his whole body was burning hot.But he didn't escape, he lowered his head and buried his head in the opponent's arms.

"Go to sleep, good night." Fernandez kissed his forehead and said to him in a soft voice.