Conservation of energy

Shen Lin frantically ran to Luo Xintong's house to look for him, but no one opened the door, so he opened the door with the key, but there was no one in the house, and Fan Wenyan was not there. Seeing the family coming back, the landlord told Shen Tong with contemptuous eyes and mocking eyes. Lin, the woman who lived in this family fell ill the day before yesterday. There was too much trouble and she couldn't contact her family, so she had to report to the police, who finally sent her to the hospital.Shen Lin frantically ran to the hospital. The doctors knew him and gave him the ward number. Shen Lin was outside the ward and saw his mother sleeping on the bed. There was a person sitting next to him, a thin boy, but it wasn't Luo Xintong. It was Luo Xinheng. When Luo Xinheng saw Shen Lin coming, he only said that his mother was ill. The police rushed over overnight when they contacted them. The next morning, he received a call again, saying that his brother passed out outside and was rescued. Now he is in another family. He was admitted to the hospital, and grandpa was taking care of him.

After Shen Lin asked which hospital it was, he ran hurriedly, and saw Luo Xin laying motionless on the hospital bed, with no expression on his pale face, his eyes were staring straight at the ceiling, like a ghost, Shen Lin looked After a long time, Luo Xintong didn't look at him.When Shen Lin walked into the ward, Luo Xintong only glanced at Shen Lin, then closed his eyes, pointed in the direction of the door and said in a torn and hoarse voice: You go out.Shen Lin didn't dare to provoke Luo Xintong anymore, so she went out.Shen Lin squatted at the door of the ward, and after a long time, he heard Luo Xintong's suppressed cries coming from the ward...

During Luo Xintong's hospitalization, classmates Zhang Xiangyun, Ji Yan, Su Moxuan and several roommates from the same dormitory all visited him. Luo Xintong didn't tell anyone what happened, and when others asked him, he just kept silent. Zhang Xiangyun also muttered, "Why didn't Shen Lin take care of you?" Luo Xintong's face changed in a daze, Su Moxuan pinched Zhang Xiangyun hard, Ji Yan pushed the stupid thing out, the two saw Luo Xin With the dots of red marks on his neck and chest, he knew what was going on.Su Moxuan sat with Luo Xintong for a while, letting him recover from his illness, and don't worry about other things.Ji Yan didn't ask what happened to Luo Xintong, but just said a sentence that made Zhang Xiangyun feel in the fog, - the past can't get it, now it can't get it, and the future can't get it.

Luo Xintong laughed, you thought it was the past, but actually "now" is its continuation.You think now, the real time has passed, it has become the past.What you thought was the future is actually the present.All appearances are false.The hearts of all living beings are like time, which is constantly changing and can never be grasped. When we talk about the future, it has already become the present, and when we talk about the present, it has become the past.

A few days later, Luo Xintong was discharged from the hospital, and his mother was still lying in the hospital. When Luo Xintong arrived at the hospital, and accompanied her, his mother finally woke up.Fan Wenyan looked at Luo Xintong and said: "Mom has dragged you down, you have paid too much for this family." Luo Xintong held her mother's hand tightly to signal her not to speak, Fan Wenyan shook her head and smiled: "Mom is very happy, You have been outstanding since you were young, successful in your studies, and have a good personality, so you have so many friends and noble people around you to help you. Your mother is much happier. Zhang Xiangyun and Shen Lin are two sons who treat their mother very well. Like you, they are very happy. I love my mother very much, Shen Lin is a good boy, he is always with you, always with me when my mother is sick, and with you, he loves my mother just like you."

Fan Wenyan stopped, Luo Xintong didn't know why his mother said this, he just thought that his mother was feeling emotional for a while, or that Shen Lin was not by his side this time, he was thinking about how to tell his mother that Shen Lin might not come here in the future .But I heard my mother continue to say:

"Mom doesn't know what's going on with you, but mom saw you two kissing more than once, and sometimes heard you making some noises in the room...Of course mom knows what you're doing, mom doesn't know if you're doing it right, But my mother knows that when my mother was young, there was a pair of boys in the village. They came to the village by jumping in the queue. They are also educated people. Both of them are handsome and talented. There were performances in the village at that time, and the two of them performed on the stage. They held a musical instrument that their mother could not name. But my mother thought it sounded good. Every time the two came to the stage, everyone applauded enthusiastically. The young girls in the audience were stunned. The two refused to accept them. Some older girls admired them and were embarrassed, so they asked their mothers to help deliver things to them. Sometimes their mothers saw them playing the musical instruments in their hands in the yard, and sometimes they sang to their mothers. I don’t understand the song, although I don’t understand it, but my mother thinks it sounds good, and they look very beautiful and happy. But later, they were ridiculed by everyone in the same village, no one invited them to the stage, no one was willing to help them do work, The vegetables grown in their vegetable garden were pulled out for no reason, and the little animals they raised were poisoned to death repeatedly. Even passers-by would spit and scold them when they passed by their house. Crying together, sometimes talking about things that mother couldn't understand, and then, they finally couldn't stand it anymore, and both jumped into the well, which was already whitish when they were salvaged, and that well was one of the few in our village. The well was filled on the spot, and the villagers scolded the two for committing crimes, and they would not die in their own yard, so they insisted on harming others..."

Luo Xintong was startled by Fan Wenyan's words, as if he had seen two people come to life, from the stars holding the moon to falling off the altar... Aren't he and Shen Lin repeating the same mistakes?He was silent for a long time and didn't answer his mother's words. He didn't know when his mother knew about it. He didn't know why his mother kept silent before. He had imagined his mother's mental state countless times after she knew it. The doctor said that he couldn't be stimulated. It is difficult for normal parents to accept that their son is gay, not to mention that the mother is a mental patient, but she never expected that the mother would have known it long ago...

On Luo Xintong's pale face, only his eyes were bloodshot, "Mom, when did you find out?"

"It's much earlier than you think. At first you let him live in. The way he usually looks at you and you look at him is different from when you look at Zhang Xiangyun. All kinds of small movements and signs between you have just begun. I just doubt it, but I think it's impossible, because both of you are so good. Although your mother is sick, you are her son. We are connected by blood. Can't come out? Until your mother found you in the room after your college entrance examination..."

So, after the college entrance examination, it was because he found out that his son was gay?For such a long time, I have been silently forbearing, and even watched Shen Lin's every move at home during the college entrance examination...Luo Xintong didn't dare to think about it anymore, and regretted it in his heart. He was at home with Shen Lin every day. I always remind my mother, how did my mother force herself so hard?Why is it so severe this time?Why did you choose to speak out this time?Is it because of Shen Lin's actions before the college entrance examination?still……

"Your godfather came to me and asked me to persuade Shen Lin to change his choice. I thought you were just confused for a while, but when I knew that he was going to give up Tsinghua University and go to Qin University with you, I knew that you two were serious." , I have dragged you down and caused you to give up the school in Beijing. Shen Lin is a good boy. I can't hurt him anymore, let alone watch you two take the wrong path. You are both good boys, but, You are all boys, this road is too difficult, you...forget it."

Fan Wenyan didn't have a single complaint, and defended the two of them everywhere, but she let herself give up because the road was too difficult. Luo Xintong was silent for a long time, thought for a while, yes, forget it, and finally nodded lightly, agreeing Mom is "okay".Fan Wenyan watched her son answer with a smile, but there were tears in her eyes.Holding my son and crying softly...