passive transformation

For most, family influences last a lifetime.

During the period of ignorance, children will consciously learn the image of their parents, and then compare, imitate and improve to find the most suitable appearance for themselves.

Therefore, children who come out of a harmonious and warm family are more cheerful and more adaptable. They have learned this ability very early.

Tang Sen was not so lucky.

From a medical point of view, Tang's father and Tang's mother can be said to be people with certain mental illnesses, mean, picky, and excessive pursuit of perfection. Two of the same kind formed a family and destroyed Tang Sen's childhood.

Even after leaving home, Tang Sen's frequent self-loathing and confusion are all sequelae of childhood.

He felt that the connection between himself and the world was very shallow, like a spider web in the corner of a dilapidated house, which would break if he pulled it.

However, Tang Sen was a little bit reconciled in his bones. He didn't want to be manipulated or manipulated by ♂. No one could live on his behalf, so he resisted, broke free, and ran out of the deep pool.

He liked Tang Eryu.

It's not love in the full sense, but also mixed with some yearning for family affection, as well as a fascination with healthy and warm people.

It's just that this kind of emotion was not shown, and no one noticed it, including Tang Yanyu.

Tang Sen can understand why Uncle Chang was so happy to meet Xiaohe when he was nearly fifty years old. Due to his physical illness, he dared not make promises to others, and he did not have the courage to pursue love and family. Help, when he was homeless, Uncle Chang seemed to have his own little happiness, and carefully gave Xiaohe a place to shelter from the wind and rain, and managed this little happiness.

"I'm sick, so I don't dare to delay her." This sentence has been in Uncle Chang's heart for more than ten years, and it is also the reason why he doesn't have much contact with his family, sees a doctor and lives alone, and opens a porridge shop alone.

Tang Sen heard about some cousins ​​in the family, and laughed at Uncle Chang as a cowardly and unambitious elder, but just suffering from some illness. Is marriage just to have children?If you don't want a child, you can adopt one. If he is not with Xiaohe, it means he is not good enough and has no ability.

At that time, Uncle Chang seldom went back. Tang Sen just listened to a few words and didn't pay much attention.

But later, after he got acquainted with Uncle Chang, he understood what Uncle Chang meant by cowardice.

Sickness means abnormality and trouble for others.

Not only is he afraid to have children, but Uncle Chang’s health is still not very good and he needs regular treatment. He can’t do many heavy jobs that the man who is the pillar of the family can do. Every week he takes a warm water bag and goes to the hospital for injections. In the middle of the night, I will come back under the moonlight, and occasionally I have to ask someone to take care of myself for a few days.

Uncle Chang felt that with such a self, why should he trap a good woman all his life, serve him and take care of him, and be dragged down by himself.

So, he didn't dare, he didn't have the courage.

Tang Sen's current state is similar. Uncle Chang is physically ill, and he is mentally ill. The uncontrollable transformation every year and the usually not very good mental state are abnormal.

Brother Ernyu knew about his problem, took him home, and was willing to help without bothering him. Maybe he didn't realize that what he often said to Shijiu was to call him if he had something to do.

Tang Sen sometimes looks up Tang Eryu's news, sees their company team building, sees him going out with friends, holds class reunions, attends friends' weddings, helps buddies prepare for marriage proposals, organizes donations to send love, and has a rich and fulfilling social life. It is completely different from my own cold life.

While envious and yearning, it also told Tang Sen how far he was from Tang Yanyu.

No longer thinking about this problem, Tang Sen arranged the brackets and began to pile up stones in front of the camera. The stones he selected were large and small, and they were picked up specially. Relying on gravity and friction, they were skillfully put together Together, it will make Tang Sen feel very peaceful.

The shooting time was not long. Tang Sen put away the mobile phone and the bracket, collected some weeds washed up by the small river or the bags that occasionally floated by, took them away from the small river and threw them into the trash can before leaving.

Tang Nianyu knew that Tang Sen had to prepare for the final exam at the end of June after returning to school, and he didn't bother him. At the beginning of July, he called Tang Sen and asked if he wanted to come out to play.

He and a few friends were planning to go to the Northwest, and rented two cars for a self-driving tour. Thinking that Tang Sen had nowhere to go during the holidays, he asked him to come with him.

Tang Sen knows how to drive, and his driving skills are still very good, just to prevent the new personality from using a car, and he doesn't drive himself, if there is any accident.

From another perspective, because of the new personality problem, Tang Sen learned a lot of skills to be prepared.

He doesn't know how to face such a group trip, but he can't stand Tang Yanyu's invitation. After all, his annual leave is used here, and it will be difficult to find such a long period of rest this year. Northwest China in summer Being able to eat fresh melons and fruits, many scenes are not bad, so Tang Sen still nodded in agreement.

Compared with his indifferent and withdrawn appearance, he still has a more careful personality. He prepared things properly, thinking about the last time Tang Niangniang brought gifts, and gave his little flowers to his roommates who would not leave school during the summer vacation. Help take care of him, and promise to bring him special products by the way.

Just water the little flowers regularly, it's a very easy job, the roommate smiled brightly, and asked Tang Sen to help him bring back some almonds, he likes this kind of dried fruit.

In addition to Tang Sen and Tang Yanyu, there are four other people, a pair of brothers, and two college roommates of Tang Yanyu, Li Nian and Wen Jinyuan.

Tang Nianyu has a very good relationship with the three college roommates. The one who was left alone is his partner. Now he is left to work in the company, and he watched the three of them go on a trip sadly. The brothers are Wen Jinyuan’s friends. He is a doctor, and his younger brother, like Tang Sen, is still a college student.

The six of them went to pick up the car as soon as they came out of the airport. They headed north, made an appointment to see Tianchi Lake and Kanas Lake, and then went around the border. I was very familiar with what to prepare, and a few people did not leave the city in a hurry after buying things. They ate the big plate chicken and pilaf recommended by the locals, and climbed the Hongshan Park in the city once before leaving.

Li Nian and Wen Jinyuan have met Tang Sen before, and they have a good impression of him. They know that he is a little less talkative, but he is very reliable and responsible in his work. The older brother is also very friendly, and he prepared carefully Standing medicine, the impression is very good.

He is the younger brother of the brothers, a very beautiful and exquisite boy in Korean version, he looks a bit bearish, when we first met, he sat next to him wearing earphones and playing games, no one paid attention to him, and when he saw Tang Yanyu and the others, he was perfunctory He said hello, looking a little horizontal.

But we have only been together for two days, this little brother doesn't know what's going on, he always likes to get close to Tang Sen, the kind who is very aggressive, "Brother Xiaosen? I'll call you Nineteen, okay?"

"Brother Nineteen, why don't you speak?"