confused abo

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In a messy and disorderly manner, Pei Zhuo told Xu Ning everything that happened these days.He originally thought that the more he talked, the more he would lose control, but fortunately Xu Ning kept holding his hand, giving him the courage to piece together a more specific past.

"That is to say, it was yesterday, after Lin Yan finished chatting with you, that you began to lose control of your emotions?"

Pei Zhuo nodded.He's been doing really well before.He is an alpha omega, a biological mother of a child, a teacher at a university... He made himself match all these labels in a proper manner, and he claimed that he did not do badly.

"Then when did Ye Ruize happen? I mean, why did you suddenly think of him?" Xu Ning cleared his mind, and then said, "Don't tell me that you are looking for Chi Liangxiao to use him as a substitute, You are not such a person, Pei Zhuo, you are not that smart," Xu Ning smiled without a hint of sarcasm, "It is difficult for people who have come into contact with you to hate you, because you have no intentions for anyone, and you follow the rules and leave the campus. This kind of environment may even seem a bit stupid. I don't believe you would do such a thing, and you and Ye Ruize...that was ten years ago, don't you still miss him? Every time you hear Chi Liangxiao's message Su, will you think of him?"

Pei Zhuo shook his head and looked at Xu Ning without any escape in his eyes.

"Then why did you suddenly open the box of this memory?" Xu Ning made a movement to lift the lid, as if what lay on the palm of his hand was the fuse of the time sequence, that is, the estrus period a year ago , Pei Zhuo mistook him for Ye Ruize who had reunited after a long absence.

"I don't know, I..." Pei Zhuo drooped his eyes, his already dense and slightly raised eyelashes were glued together by tears, and drooped listlessly.

"I thought his thinking was similar to mine, that is..." Pei Zhuo's shoulders slumped, "Even if you have children, just... let's live like this, I never thought he really...or, I It's worth giving up so much."

"You don't value this marriage and relationship as much as he likes you?" Xu Ning asked.

"I don't know." Pei Zhuo repeated.

"Or, you don't like him at all?"

Pei Zhuo was silent for five or six seconds, and repeated again: "I don't know."

"But you can feel guilty. He cares about you so much, and likes you from the bottom of his heart. It's the first time you're willing to sleep with him, or did you recognize the wrong person?"

"Probably." Pei Zhuo finally said something else, but then became obviously nervous.Just like what Xu Ning said, everything about his ex-boyfriend was triggered after he smelled sandalwood at the door last night.As long as he smells Chi Liangxiao's pheromone, he will think of that estrous period and Ye Ruize's vague figure, as if there is a will in the dark guiding him to blend the two of them together, Or separate completely.

"Okay, now back to the question at the beginning, why did you suddenly think of Ye Ruize?"

"I don't know, I'm in a mess up to now." Pei Zhuo panicked, "I've never experienced this, this kind of emotion..." He grabbed the clothes on his chest, "I'm very uncomfortable, I don't know what's next What should I do. I... I still have work tomorrow, I have to go back to class, write a job title report, I have a child, I..."

He paused, Xu Ning looked at him, waiting for him to say, he still has an Alpha.

Pei Zhuo said, "I don't know how to face him."

"That means that something is messing with your past experience and experience. It may be guilt, but you may not be aware of it yourself. It is a more subtle emotion that you have never experienced, so you are very nervous. Panic, but in the end, Pei Zhuo, you're starting to care about Chi Liangxiao."

"It's a good thing, both for you and him." Xu Ning became a little unscrupulous, "Maybe this strange feeling is love. I fell in love when I was in elementary school and junior high school, and I often rediscovered myself. "

"Then what should I do next?" Pei Zhuo asked, he had no idea, "Should I tell him?"

"Of course my suggestion is no," Xu Ning analyzed, "As you said, the progress between you is too fast to bear the toss. If I were you, I would never let him know for the rest of my life. Second estrus was a mistake."

"……lifetime?"

"That's right." Xu Ning took it for granted, "Marriage is like this, both parties will have their own tacit little secrets. Everyone thinks that my husband and I are very affectionate, but in fact, is he experimenting these nights? room, who I was chatting with just now, we will not ask. I will not raid his laboratory like checking the post, and he will not check my chat records. We both have something to hide from each other, but We all know each other well, as long as the bottom line is not touched, we can pretend that nothing happened."

"Marriage... is it all like this?" Pei Zhuo asked suspiciously.

"Yeah," Xu Ning clasped his hands together, as if closing the previously opened memory box, "The past can be covered up. Don't tell me that you have always been [-]% honest with Chi Liangxiao." He Bitterly said, "Lies and concealment will destroy a marriage, but a long-term marriage will always need lies and concealment to maintain."

Pei Zhuo nodded half-understood, Xu Ning saw that he was still in a daze, and smiled: "Of course, this is entirely my own experience, it doesn't matter if you really want to tell the whole story, Chi Liangxiao is a very good Alpha, he Maybe it's different from the others."

Xu Ning's comments on Chi Liangxiao were all positive, and Pei Zhuo couldn't agree more, but when he turned off the light and lay on the bed, he made the same decision as Xu Ning suggested.

He felt that what Xu Ning said was right, he had to continue to hide everything about the estrous period, just like he pretended that sex brought him pure pleasure.

He has to do the same.He seemed to suddenly become afraid of being alone, and panicked about being alone. This was only the first day he left home. He was lying on the single bed that was not narrow, and he had already started thinking about Chi Liangxiao.If the alpha is there, he will remove the bedside table between the two beds, merge the two single beds, then get under his covers, hug him from behind, and rub his nose against the glands in the back of his neck .

Alpha will do the foreplay very gently, grind it in patiently, the movement range is not large, and the kiss will fall on his skin finely.But after a while, he will still become vicious, this is the nature of alphas, they will invade, possess, and completely conquer omega, even if they are not in estrus, they will invade their genitals.Pei Zhuo sensed his intention, and was suppressed by the pheromone without any resistance.He closed his eyes in shame, and asked out of tune under Alpha's persevering impact, you won't leave, will you?

Alpha changed his posture and answered this question with practical actions.Pei Zhuo buried his entire face in the pillow, and the stimulation brought by every entry pushed him to the culmination that he had never reached.But he couldn't experience it, because he opened his genitals, which would only bring pain to omega during the non-estrus/period. When Pei Zhuo fell to the ice valley in an instant, alpha climbed to heaven.

He lay on Pei Zhuo's back, Pei Zhuo could even hear his heart beating.His face was covered with sweat or tears, his eyes were wide open, his voice was trembling even more than before, and he asked again with a sense of loss, you won't leave, right?

The alpha's snort wandered around the back of his neck, biting and kissing there too.He grabbed Pei Zhuo's shoulders and turned him over, telling the lowered Omega, no.

Hearing the sound, Pei Zhuo raised his head, and Alpha's face occupied his entire field of vision. He pushed away in horror, as if struggling after drowning, and sat up from the bed with his back arched.

He didn't make a sound, so the sleeping Xu Ning was not awakened.He hugged himself, huddled up, his forehead resting on his knees so he wouldn't shake too much.When he didn't need to bite the tiger's mouth to suppress the urge to shout, he slowly lay down again, his body stiff when lying flat.

He was afraid that he would dream of Ye Ruize again, so he didn't sleep any more, and he didn't feel sleepy, just looked at the gap between the curtains.During the past few hours, his mind went blank, and he couldn't remember the last time he dreamed of Ye Ruize.The past can indeed be covered up, or even forgotten, forgetting that they really liked each other ten years ago, and then separated, leaving Pei Zhuo alone, waiting for the dawn alone like now.

He opened the curtains to let the still-unglare sunlight shine in, then washed, tidied up, put on formal clothes and went out with Xu Ning.They didn't get on the same bus, because Xu Ning was going to the conference site, while he was going to the hotel where the Kangsheng Pharmaceutical delegation was staying in a high-end business car.This is a well-known foreign enterprise group with an elite R&D team and production lines all over the world. The antibody vaccine made from Lin Tang's serum is mass-produced by their company.Xu Ning stood in the lobby of the hotel and waited. He had seen the list of the delegation before, and it was full of first and last names in foreign languages.He took it for granted that none of the visitors were from country Z, and that the four who came down first were indeed Caucasians with high cheekbones and deep eye sockets with alpha pheromone maskers attached.

But when the tall, broad-shouldered, middle-aged man with the same skin color as Pei Zhuo went downstairs and walked towards him, Pei Zhuo was stunned and couldn't hear any sound, only the itchy humming remained in his ears.The man had short, energetic hair, three-dimensional browbones but soft eyes. The years had left traces on his face, but more of it added a mature charm.

There is no wrinkle in his blue-gray suit, and the leather shoes are exquisite, which are obviously tailor-made. Chi Liangxiao who is wearing a vest and stepping on flip-flops at home suddenly flashes before Pei Zhuo's eyes, but the tinnitus and the other party's tinnitus are quickly pushed away. Greetings are dispelled.

"Long time no see." He held out his hand to Pei Zhuo.Pei Zhuo looked at him, blinked, shook his hand politely, quickly pulled it out before the other party clenched it, then turned around and led them into the car to the venue.

Everyone was very quiet and did not ask any questions or doubts during the drive, but just looked at the scenery outside the window leisurely and enjoyed the early morning light.Pei Zhuo was sitting in the co-pilot, holding the list in his hand, then took out his mobile phone and sent a text message to Xu Ning: Can we change it?

Xu Ning replied quickly: Baby, my side is the simultaneous interpretation team, it's not just a change.

Soon another post: What's wrong?Trouble with the delegation?

Pei Zhuo: Ye Ruize is sitting right behind me.

Xu Ning:? ? ? ? ?

Pei Zhuo entered this name again. For some reason, the state of the whole person reached a certain kind of calm after being extremely chaotic: Elvis Oudbier, the current CEO of Kangsheng Pharmaceutical, is Ye Ruize.