disliked, humble love

To eat dumplings during the Spring Festival, Xue Ye put a pot on the pot, and threw several dumplings into it after the water boiled.

The melted quick-frozen dumplings stick together into strange shapes, which cannot be counted.Xue Ye stood lonely and waited. When the water boiled for the second time, he poured a bowl of cold water and boiled the pot again. He took out a large plate of sticky dumpling wrappers and fillings.

Let’s make do with it, it’s all bought by Brother Jie’s boxing money.Besides, these dumplings have been used as ice packs for Brother Jie, which is considered a meritorious service.Xue Ye was afraid that he would not be full, so he ordered another bowl of sesame oil noodles for himself, and finally returned to the living room with two large bowls.

There is a big red blessing on the floor-to-ceiling windows, and Double Happiness on the head of the sofa bed, which is a bit tacky.The books on the floor packed a week's worth of laundry, as well as dirty laundry that should have been taken home for washing.Xue Ye sat down, and there were still photos of his parents on the dining table.

He brought it here.

That house really didn't feel like a home, and I couldn't stay there for a minute.After dark, Xue Ye fled back here as if fleeing for his life, hiding in a cave that could give him shelter like a seriously injured beast.

This is home, and you can also see the teaching building of the Sports Academy.For the first time, Xue Ye bought half a dozen cans of beer, planning to satisfy his hunger in the past few days.The Spring Festival Gala opened, Xue Ye sat in front of the TV on time, and the photos of his parents were also facing the TV.

"Happy Chinese New Year, Mom and Dad, you... are all well." Xue Ye was dumb, unable to speak the words of remembering his loved ones in his heart.Shapeless dumplings soaked in noodle soup, two hard-boiled eggs, sesame oil and vinegar.

After drinking the cold beer, Xue Ye's tongue became less dull, and he smiled at his relatives in the photo: "I'm fine, brother Jie took me to cure the disease that needs to be treated, and I will return to the competition this year."

The middle-aged couple in the photo just smiled and didn't speak.Two cold photo frames are placed side by side.

"I'm going back to the arena, you must not be willing..." Xue Ye muttered to himself, "I've let go, parents, you can let go too, don't blame anyone, I can still dance. The only thing I'm sorry for you is I never dared to tell you guys that I'm gay and I don't like girls."

The middle-aged couple in the photo did not blame, but still laughed.

"I'm sorry, I didn't dare to tell you, for fear of disappointing you. And you don't like Brother Jie, you always tell me to stay away from him, saying that he is too wild... But I made it through, Brother Jie said, and I will pay for it at my own expense Athlete, he also rented the house, and this.” Xue Ye quickly showed off the necklace, like a little girl receiving an expensive gift from her boyfriend for the first time, “Brother Jie bought it, and he said he would wear it after the boxing match. I Both... both of us... we are both gay."

After the accident, Xue Ye never dared to look at the photos of his parents. Looking at it now, his parents seemed very happy that he was in a relationship.

"The injury in the first year of high school was actually done by Brother Jie. In order to make me remember, he was afraid that I would bleed to death. He took the punishment of staying in school for probation for me, and he always took the blame for me." Xue Ye had a drink Hiccup, "Brother Jie also said to take me to see his grandma, parents, but I never dared to tell you that after the high school entrance examination... I don't want to live anymore."

"You just say forget it, how can I forget it?" Xue Ye sucked on the noodles, his eyelashes drooping down to cover his pupils, "I practiced long jump before I was in elementary school, so I forgot it anyway, I know why you Hello, I am also afraid that you are worried. But I am very angry when I hear other people talking about it, I did not lose."

"But I don't dare to die. My sister is gone. What will you do if I have something to do?" Xue Ye brought the black and white photos closer, "Dad, Mom, do you know how cool and handsome Jie is? During military training, he I never fold the quilt, and I don’t listen to the instructors. The instructors are all soldiers, so he dares not even listen to the army, isn’t he awesome?”

The smiling faces of his parents made Xue Ye feel warm all over.

"You guys think so, too?" Xue Ye wiped the photo frame, "Brother Jie is protecting me, I'm clearly responsible for many things, and he's the one to blame... Do you agree? Hiccup... I'm going to wash the dishes and come back Watch TV with you."

Xue Ye stuffed the last dumpling into his mouth, and the door suddenly rang.He looked over with a little drunkenness, and before his thoughts turned, he directly collided with Brother Jie's eyes.

Jack?Xue Ye shook his head, he must be drunk.Brother Jie is at home for the New Year, and it is impossible to come back.

Xue Ye?Zhu Jie stayed where he was. He thought that what awaited him would be a dark, empty room, but unexpectedly, it was brightly lit.After drinking beer, you won't get drunk, right?He looked in front of him again, not drunk.

Really Xue Ye.

Why is Xue Ye back?He should be at home for the New Year, right?

"Why are you back?" Zhu Jie closed the door and glanced at a few cans of beer on the table, "Neng Nai, can you drink?"

"Jie, Brother Jie..." Xue Ye gasped, it was Brother Jie, with half a dumpling in his mouth, his cheeks were flushed, "Why are you back?"

"I asked you." Zhu Jie also carried a few cans of beer, and returned his attention to the table again, "On New Year's Eve, your parents are so relieved to let you run out..."

Xue Ye wanted to collect the photo frame but it was too late.

A black and white photo with an inscription on the frame.Zhu Jie put down the beer slowly, picked up the photo frame to look at it, and recalled whether Xue Ye's parents looked like this and had such a face.

Obviously, I only drank one sip, but my tongue felt hot and sore.

"Xue Ye." He gently put down the photo frame and asked for confirmation in disbelief, "Where are your parents?"

Xue Ye leaned against the wall and said nothing, his eyes were so red.The eyelashes are long but not curled, just like the woman in the photo.

"I'm asking you something!" Zhu Jie walked up to him, put his hands on his face and looked at him.Xue Ye turned his face away, he turned around viciously, and asked him in fear, "Where are your parents?"

Brother Jie turned his face to him, Xue Ye swallowed half of the dumpling raw, opened his mouth, it was a summer vacation grievance. "Jack."

"Xue Ye, tell me, where are your parents?" Zhu Jie continued to play with his face, afraid that he would not meet his eyes.Xue Ye had just finished eating sesame oil noodles and dumplings, and his mouth was covered with oil. Zhu Jie wiped it off slowly with his hands, waiting for his answer to give him a fatal blow.

"Brother Jie." Xue Ye groaned a few times, rubbing Zhu Jie's palms repeatedly, his face turning red even more, "Brother Jie."

Zhu Jie suspected that there was something wrong with his hearing, maybe it was broken by a bone, no matter what he heard, the sound was so low. "Tell me, what happened?"

Xue Ye suddenly became quiet, standing motionless, leaning between the person and the wall.A few seconds later, he raised his face slightly and looked at Zhu Jie helplessly, as if waiting for someone to rescue him.

It's over.Zhu Jie was speechless for a while, he had seen such an expression once during military training.

"Mom and Dad." Xue Ye said, with a voice that didn't suit him, as if he had been frightened, as if he didn't believe it, "It's gone."

Gone.Zhu Jie's hearing suddenly recovered, and he recovered after being bombarded by the word "lost", and he was on the verge of collapse.

"It's gone." He ground his teeth, didn't believe it, and repeated veiledly.But except for the deceased, who would enlarge the frontal photos into black and white photos.

On the photo frame, there are inscriptions.It is a photo frame for the funeral home.

Gone.Zhu Jie stood in front of Xue Ye, his whole body was numb.He understood why Xue Ye would sit down on the ground when he saw that he was injured. Now he also feels the same way, and he can fall down if he touches it casually.But he can't fall, Xue Ye's parents are gone, he can't fall.

Xue Ye's face was red and his nose was sore, but he didn't have a single tear.He began to pretend to be calm: "Brother Jie, I was wrong. I wanted to tell you but I couldn't find a chance. You are suspended, and I told you that it would be too messy. I originally waited for the Spring Festival to pass. I wanted you to have a good New Year. I didn't think about you. came back."

"Why not?" Zhu Jie tried to maintain his standing posture, and asked him with difficulty, "Didn't they pick you up on the day of the college entrance examination mobilization?"

They don't like themselves, Zhu Jie knows it himself.Xue Ye's father is a man from Shanghai, and he came to Beijing to develop for Xue Ye's mother.My mother wears a hearing aid. She participated in parent-teacher meetings and signed with Xue Yebi in the first year of high school. She watched by herself and couldn't understand anything.

In order to understand, he learned sign language with Xue Ye, and since then he understood another world.

Xue Ye shook his head, dizzy before his eyes.The head became heavy.

"Say it!" Zhu Jie held his chin, "Is it summer vacation?"

It must be.Not coming to report for the military training at the university, changing departments, and having a back injury, everything happened during that damn summer vacation.

"Well, summer vacation. Parents were in a car accident." Xue Ye nodded while talking. When he returned to the military training in the first year of high school, he was in a hurry to tell his new brother Jie, "I killed someone and lost a lot of money. Hugh During the trial, the lawyer refused to let me go. I wanted to apologize, but I was beaten. Brother Jie, I didn’t mean to lie to you, so don’t be angry with me. If there is no accident at home, I will definitely go to the military training, and I will not change departments. As I said, if you practice every day, I will practice one day."

If you practice every day, I will practice one day, a simple promise.The two people who fell in love for the first time, the boy said it, and the boy remembered it.

"Such a big matter, why don't you call me?" Zhu Jie asked, wave after wave of reality pounding his heart.

"I didn't wait for you at the school gate. I thought you didn't want to talk to me anymore." Xue Ye's words were not deceiving, lying in the hospital, pressing the number many times and then exiting.

It's because I didn't wait for myself.Zhu Jie was horrified, every nerve and bone was crushed on the day when the college entrance examination ended.He dared not think, or even explain. "

"I didn't want to stay in grandma's house, so I took my parents home." Finally Xue Ye said, "Family reunion, Brother Jie, I'm the only family here."

"I'm not." Zhu Jie straightened Xue Ye's face, his heart beating wildly, "I didn't..."

I'm not waiting.

I was waiting for you, but I was picked up by my grandfather's driver.Zhu Jie said the last word in an inaudible voice. He wanted to tell Xue Ye all this time, I waited, but I didn't wait until you came out, and I didn't see you until I got in the car.

When I got in the car, the mobile phone was confiscated.

The time difference caused by a wrong body forced Xue Ye to dare not contact him during the summer vacation.

The mobile phone was confiscated. During the military training, he used a classmate's mobile phone to call Xue Ye, but he refused to answer the unfamiliar number.

"It's okay." Xue Ye rubbed his eyes, "I made it through Brother Jie, and I accepted the matter of my parents. I will exercise hard in the future and don't leave any regrets for myself. Just now... I used the strength of wine to talk to my parents. I said, let’s get well, after the festival, I’ll accompany you to go... Brother Jie, Brother Jie?”

Tears fell, Zhu Jie didn't know it at all.Xue Ye saw it.

First, the roots of the eyelashes were wet, and the black eyelashes suddenly became darker, and the entire row was wet with teardrops.Then it flowed down from right below the pupil, and because it was too heavy, it fell on the chest before it could reach the chin.

Jackie, are you crying?Xue Ye's whole body tensed up immediately. Brother Jie had never cried before when he was injured, but he cried for himself.

Zhu Jie didn't realize why he was crying. He didn't know what happened to his fate, and he wanted to focus Xue Ye's suffering in his life on the first 18 years of his life.If he had bravely called Xue Ye to stop him, Xue Ye would not have been picked up by Tao Wenchang and the others alone in front of No. [-] Middle School. If he had friends at the time, he could have contacted Tao Wenchang, Zhang Zhao, or even Su Xiaoyuan. Xue Ye, tell him not to answer an unfamiliar number, that's me.

If he had the concept of family, he might have already noticed Xue Ye's strangeness.

It's too late, it's too late.Zhu Jie hugged Xue Ye, not daring to think about it.In the face of fate, no one is lucky.

"It's all right." He hugged Xue Ye tighter and tighter, and slid his hand from Xue Ye's Adam's apple to his face, covering his tired eyes, "Xiaoye, I'll be fine from now on."

Xue Ye frowned, seeing darkness and the warmth of his palms.But he has a voice to find in this darkness, and he has followed this indifferent voice to the present.Road to Hades smells like a shroud when it first smells, the shadow of death is dark and no one survives, but the after tone is completely reversed, bursting out bright flowers with vigorous vitality.

"Brother Jie, I'm sleepy." Xue Ye said rustlingly, "I'm so tired, I can't stand it anymore."

"Sleep when you're sleepy, you don't have to stay up." Zhu Jie helped him to lie down, and the two covered their heads with a quilt.

Xue Ye nodded in bewilderment. He had been struggling for too many days recently, and his body couldn't hold it any longer.His neck started to turn red and his Adam's apple itched, but it was insignificant in front of his broken willpower, and he just wanted to sleep soundly.

"Brother Jie, happy Chinese New Year, I didn't want to hide it from you."

"Yeah." Zhu Jie smelled his hair, "Happy Chinese New Year."

"Brother Jie, do you think I still have a home?"

"Have a home."

"That's fine. If you say yes, I believe you... Brother Jie, why are you back?" Xue Ye took advantage of his last sobriety to ask, "Where's Zhu Mo?"

"She's home." Zhu Jie's fingers found his injured lumbar spine. "Sleep, we'll talk about it tomorrow."

Knowing that he was drunk, Xue Ye shook his head in a ridiculous way: "Thank you Brother Jie, Brother Jie, I really like you, very, very much."

Zhu Jie only nodded his head, and when he fell asleep, he didn't feel sleepy and was awake all the time.This is Xue Ye's first Spring Festival without his parents. He has to stay past 12 o'clock to watch the new year for the two of them.