Amateur red "mother"

The cold wind outside the house was blocked, and it flapped on the glass window for a while before turning elsewhere unwillingly.

With the blocking of the windows, the cold wind is no longer raging, and the heat brought by high technology is spreading in the house little by little, and the warmth spreads in this cozy two-bedroom.

The decoration and furniture facilities of the room are very simple, but the design is a bit strange. The entrance hallway is next to a very dark retro bookshelf extending from the wall. Under the light, it looks like the branches of those old trees protruding from the thick trunk.

Next to the bookshelf stood a coat rack of the same color and style. On the crooked branches, there were two coats hanging on it, one in navy blue and one in khaki.

As soon as you enter the living room, there is a beige fabric sofa facing the glass door of the living room. Opposite the sofa is a large semi-floor-to-ceiling glass window. The curtains are simple beige lattice without any pattern embellishment.

All the houses in Wener Garden are built around a garden. Unit 7 where Dai Fei lives is close to the center of the garden. Standing in front of the living room window, you can see the artificial lake next to the tree shade. The lake is very clear. Standing in front of the window and looking down, You can see the reflections on both sides of the lake. The size of the lake is small, and it looks like a mirror embedded in the ground, reflecting the shadows of trees and the night sky.

Dai Fei walked to the sofa and said to Meng Lei behind him, "I'm sorry, I haven't been back for a few days, the house may be a little messy."

Meng Lei looked at the person in front of him, his gaze was like a torch, and he used his eyes instead of responding.

Dai Fei asked Meng Lei to sit down, and Meng Lei sat down.

Dai Fei entered the kitchen, and his eyes followed into the kitchen.

Dai Fei opened the refrigerator door, but he couldn't see his face. Meng Lei just looked at his pale hands, grasping the wide refrigerator door.

Dai Fei walked into the kitchen next to him, took out honey from the refrigerator, opened the disinfection cabinet, took out a cup, poured hot water into it, stood there for a while, touched the cup with the back of his hand, and felt that the water was warm. It's almost time to scoop a spoonful of honey into it.

Dai Fei took the spoon and slowly circled along the edge of the cup, watching the lumps of honey being dispersed in the warm water little by little, and said, "I'm sorry, I've run out of milk at home, and the honey was sent by Dai Yu from the countryside. Come on, it's all natural."

The water temperature is not high, and the honey may have been in the refrigerator for too long, and it has not melted completely for a while.

The sound of the steel spoon colliding with the ceramic cup is extremely clear in the quiet room, and after a while, some heartbeat sounds are slowly mixed in. The two sounds are mixed together, and the original crisp collision sound becomes a little low...

"you……"

"you……"

Perhaps at this time, there was the sound of each other's heartbeat in the collision of porcelain, and the two wanted to say something at the same time.

Dai Fei didn't look at Meng Lei, but just lowered his head and continued with the action: "The visitor is a guest, you should speak first."

Meng Lei never took his eyes off Dai Fei from the moment he entered the room, and now he was staring at him closely, and asked, "Are... are you okay?"

Dai Fei stopped stirring, the honey had already melted, and the clear water turned slightly yellow. After a while, Dai Fei handed the warm water with honey to Meng Lei.

Meng Lei didn't say it clearly, but Dai Fei knew that he wasn't asking how the past two years were going.

After handing the cup to Meng Lei, Dai Fei went straight to the window.

Dai Fei walked away lightly, but Meng Lei felt as if the footsteps were stepping on his heart.

Even though the distance was very close, Dai Fei seemed to walk a lot of steps before reaching the window. After a long time, he replied: "Well, I'm fine."

There was another silence, and Dai Fei sighed: "When did you know I was here?"

Meng Lei still looked at Dai Fei, the corner of his mouth moved, and finally found his own voice: "Two days ago."

24th?On my birthday...

But...Dai Fei remembered that Cao Jing hadn't seen him at that time.

Meng Lei took a sip of the water with honey, frowned slightly, and put the water glass on the coffee table. For a while, neither of them spoke.

When Su Su helped Dai Fei find this community, he just saw the greening map outside the community, and Dai Fei liked it very much.

On the second day after moving in, he asked someone to adjust the layout of the furniture in the living room. Except for the home appliances, all household items were drawn by Dai Fei himself, and the company's production line was slightly adjusted according to his own preferences.

The sofa that was originally by the window was also moved to the center of the living room, with its back facing the door and facing the floor-to-ceiling windows. Sitting on the sofa, you can see a large area of ​​scenery outside the window.

Dai Fei stood in front of the window, looking at the artificial lake downstairs, maybe the weather was a bit cold, the moon forced himself to run out, his eyes were still half-open, floating on the water, the wind blew, and his body began to wrinkle up.

Dai Fei looked at the circles of ripples, occasionally falling a few fallen leaves, undulating high and low, the wind is not strong at this time, so their shaking movements are very gentle.

After a while, Dai Fei said to himself: "Actually... I haven't eaten birthday cakes for many years."

Meng Lei looked at the cake on the coffee table, his eyes fluctuated, he pursed his lips, but remained silent.

Dai Fei's voice came from the opposite side: "When I was 10 years old, my grandfather said it was a ceremony for becoming a child, and also said... I am a little man. In short, it is a very important day. You must come and celebrate it for me personally. Birthday……"

"Grandpa's house is in the next county town tens of kilometers away. Oh, no, it should be a rural area below the county town. In our place, the winter is very cold. On such a cold day, two old people, it's still not bright in the morning..."

Dai Fei paused for a while, his voice was a little hoarse, and he continued after a while, "The two old men walked from their village for more than an hour, from the dim light to the bright light, and then came to the town, and then sat down again. After more than an hour... that kind of special bumpy three-wheeled car came to Shuguang Village to celebrate my birthday."

After a pause, Dai Fei was taking something out of his pocket. Meng Lei watched his movements and asked, "What are you looking for?"

Dai Fei took out a pack of cigarettes and replied: "Looking for a fire, do you have one?" After a while, he smiled embarrassedly and said: "Oh, I forgot, you don't smoke."

Meng Lei glanced at the coffee table, took out a lighter from a bulging book, and handed it over: "You... When did you start smoking?"

Dai Fei took the lighter, lit the cigarette, and took a puff. It seemed that he was worried that it would smoke Meng Lei, and he walked to the window before spitting out the smoke: "Huh...sometimes it's too late to work overtime, and coffee doesn't help. This works. , can refresh..."

Dai Fei laughed at himself: "Smoking is harmful to your health... You see, the manufacturer themselves have such a saying, but they are still producing this thing... The point is, the sales are even better..."

Meng Lei frowned and said, "From now on... we should smoke less."

Dai Fei said apologetically: "I'm sorry, I've been working a lot of overtime recently, so I just smoke this one. Actually... I don't usually smoke very much. This stuff...is really harmful to health."

Meng Lei wanted to see Dai Fei's eyes, but Dai Fei turned his back to him, under the smog shrouded in smoke, he could only see his already thin figure appearing thinner in front of the window.

Facing Meng Lei's back became slightly curved, Meng Lei pinched his palms, resisting the urge to step forward and hug that man into his arms.

Dai Fei snuffed out the remaining half of the cigarette, put it in a retro-designed ashtray, watched the flame of the cigarette butt gradually go out, and then continued: "My mother was very happy at the time, so she ran to the town and bought an ashtray. Cakes, very small ones...but still a bit expensive, my family was so poor back then...however, my mother was very skillful, and would often secretly help some rich people in the neighboring villages make clothes and earn money I just saved for myself, the tuition and miscellaneous fees I went to school at that time, buying some extracurricular materials, etc., were all given by my mother..."

"At that time, everyone was eating, and she suddenly took out the cake. I don't know if she was too happy or wanted to surprise me. She didn't tell any of us in advance that she bought the cake, and she didn't tell my dad that it was She bought it with the money she saved... When my dad saw the cake with fruit and chocolate, his face changed... Oh, but he didn't have a seizure because my grandpa was here, he was very afraid of my grandpa, My family’s house can be changed from a ten-square-meter hut to a two-bedroom one-living room, and it was all built with money from my grandfather..."

Dai Fei's voice became slower and slower: "The next day, grandpa went back. That night, while I was doing my homework, I heard the sound of things being thrown in the next room... My dad's voice was really loud when he was young. , very noisy... I heard him clearly, he shouted, which wild man is that... why did you let my grandpa come over the cake you bought for her, did you humiliate him on purpose, seeing how he raised someone else's son happy……"

Dai Fei clapped his hands and let out a sigh of relief: "That was the first time he did it. Later, I don't know if he felt that beating someone could vent his grievances. From that winter onwards, as long as my mother made him feel a little bit uncomfortable, Or... He was drunk, oh, and, he just lost money playing cards... I could hear the noise next door, every time... My room door was locked from the outside, there was no way out. don't go..."

"Maybe afraid of disturbing me, my mother tried her best to suppress her voice, but... I know, she has been crying. The next morning she will come to help me open the door and ask me to have breakfast, and then... I can see her With a scarf covering her face..."

Dai Fei smiled, but there was no warmth in his voice: "Actually, it wasn't that serious at first, he just scolded, and it might take several months for him to lose his mind because of drinking too much. But... later After my grandfather left, it became... more frequent. Later, when I heard that my dad had someone outside, he began to stay away all night. "

"Oh... At that time, I was actually very happy, and I was very grateful to that woman. Later... Mom's health became worse and worse. She often hugged her stomach and gritted her teeth, sweating all over her body. I remember one time, at two o'clock in the morning It was about one o'clock, and my mother fainted from the pain. It was my third uncle who carried her to the clinic at the entrance of the village. I found him at his friend's place. Maybe it was really noisy. He didn't pay attention to me, and just kept... kept going He smiled and shouted at those people, deal the cards, deal the cards quickly..."

"Later, not long after, she left..."

After a long time, Dai Fei exhaled, his tone very light and slow: "That year was the last time I celebrated my birthday..."

After a long time, the wind outside the window stopped, the reflection in the lake became clearer, the arc of the moon gradually expanded, the leaves stopped shaking, and they lay quietly on the lake.

Seeing everything return to calm, Dai Fei said slowly: "You knew it a long time ago, didn't you?"

Before Meng Lei could answer, Dai Fei laughed at himself: "Heh... I'm not asking nonsense..."

Meng Lei's hand hanging by his side tightened and he didn't speak.

Dai Fei looked out the window and said softly, "Why didn't you tell me?"

Meng Lei: "I..."

Dai Fei's voice was very soft, as if he was talking to himself: "You should feel that this person is really pitiful, so don't hit him anymore... right?"

Meng Lei frowned and said, "Those are all in the past."

Dai Fei: "Well...it's indeed over, you see my dad is so old, his voice is not loud, and such a tall man has become a lot shorter because of his hunchback, um... his temper seems to have improved. "

After a while, Dai Fei said: "But... how can I remember it so clearly? It always feels like it just happened yesterday..."

Putting his hands in front of his eyes and shaking them tightly, Dai Fei looked at his movements and said: "The words my mother told me before she died, the stories she told, and me... I don't know if it is my own life or not. Father, heh, he came to the hospital to see my mother only after he was notified that he was critically ill. Why do I remember it so clearly? Maybe, my memory is pretty good..."

Dai Fei stood in front of the window all the time, motionless, with his back to the light, making it difficult for people to see the expression on his face.He seemed to feel a little cold, rubbed his hands together to keep warm, and then continued: "You said, even if it's not your own, you haven't had any feelings for so many years?"

After a while, Dai Fei smiled and shook his head: "Oh, I forgot, this has nothing to do with feelings, um... face, it's because of face, which man can bear a grassland on his head?"

Dai Fei turned his face slightly, looked at the wall clock in the late Qing Dynasty on the wall, and said, "You have kept this secret for so many years..."

Meng Lei looked at his profile and said, "I'm sorry..."

Dai Fei laughed: "Look, until now, I'm still listening to you apologizing to me? What qualifications do I have... I'm just a sympathetic person who didn't even know the truth before I started moralizing. Kidnapping everyone around me is so funny..."

Meng Lei said nervously: "I just..."

"You just want me to be happy, don't you?" Dai Fei interrupted Meng Lei with a little strength in his tone: "But, you should know... what I want is the truth, not a lie, even if the lie is good-intentioned, I And don't..."

Meng Lei immediately stood up, and when Chao Fei was about to walk over, Dai Fei's voice stopped him: "Just sit down..." Meng Lei could only stop and stand there looking at him.

Dai Fei didn't look back, but still looked out of the window. After a while, the glass door of the wall clock opened, and the time-telling bird, which had been restrained, ran out and called.

Amidst the chirping of birds, Dai Fei's voice came over: "This way... I can see you when I turn around."

Meng Lei's figure swayed, he clenched and loosened his hands, and after repeating this several times, he said, "I've always been here."

The time-telling bird put away its calls and hid in the small glass window. The surroundings suddenly became quiet. For a while, only the sound of breathing of the two could be heard. With the heat in the room, the airflow produced by the breathing of the two rushed towards The other party gradually merged together, getting tighter and tighter...