I sell my ass to support my sweetheart

60

People can't always live in the shadow of the past.

To be sunny, to be upward, to be optimistic, to look forward!

A breakup is nothing.

That being said.

But I was still depressed for half a month.

During those half a month, when I saw a convenience store, I wanted to run away.

I can't eat breakfast.

Classes are all about staying up.

When I go to bed at night, I still dream of my grandpa.

The grandfather in the dream held a feather duster and hated iron and steel: "Have you finished your homework? You have become like this for a woman, and if you are hypocritical, grandpa will not come to see you in the future!"

I was so scared that I sat up straight like a carp.

61

In the silent night, Gu Nian's voice was extremely clear.

"Having a nightmare?"

"No."

"Then why are you crying?"

I touched my cheeks and found that my face had been full of tears since I don't know when.

"I do not know."

"Sleep if you don't know."

Gu Nian suddenly became angry for no reason. Gu Nian, who was lying facing me, said this, turned over and turned his back to me.

I didn't know that sentence offended him again.

She also slowly lay down with her back facing him.

Really easy mood swings in the middle of the night.

Originally, those people or things that are less likely to cry when I think of them during the day, but when I think of them at night, they will evoke the deepest part of my memory.

I miss my grandpa so much.

Before he was alive, he always told me that he must study hard, get into a good university, marry a good wife, and find a good job.

Now, I have been admitted to a good university, but he can't see it.

Now he is still under the fence, and he is wronged and sells himself by the catty to make a living.

If grandpa knew that I can only live in this way now, he would crawl out of the coffin angrily and break my legs.

In fact, I am not as free and easy as I imagined.

It's not that I don't care about these things at all. After all, I am a man, and selling my body to another man is still my guardian in name.

To be honest, even I feel a little disgusted myself.

62

I think about my future, maybe it will be fine after graduation.

At that time, I will also have my own lover and my own life.

At that time, you will be able to leave the brutal capitalist behind you, Huang Shiren who exploits the working people!

But what if my future lover cannot accept my past?

Teacher Thrush's voice sounded in my head: "True love is Plato".

Plato! But if Plato cares about my past, and she knows that I am willing to sell myself, what will she think of me?

"That's not true love."

Then in case I love her so much and don't want to give up on her.

The little devil in my heart jumped out, and said aside: "Then don't tell her."

"But isn't that deceit?"

"Can a lie in love be called a lie? This is what a lover would say."

I sniffed and was about to bury my head in the pillow when Gu Nian suddenly pulled me over.

I pressed my head against his chest.

"Thinking about your ex-girlfriend again?"

His eyes were dimmed in the night.

I don't know exactly how he came to this conclusion.

I shook my head and made up nonsense: "No, I just thought that I was too poor and cried poorly."

63

Makes sense, am I not crying poorly?

I have no money.

He won't let me work.

Where is the money!

"Are you going on winter vacation soon?"

"About three months."

"Oh, that's pretty fast, too."

Gu Nian always has his own set of theoretical algorithms.

A semester is four months in total.

It’s only been one month since my school started, and I haven’t even arrived in the middle of the semester. Why is it that I’m about to go on vacation? Three months is also called fast?

Gu Nian patted my head and said seriously: "How about this, come to Gu's for an internship during the winter vacation, and I will pay you."

He was actually thinking about me being poor just now.

I am a little happy.

Even a little excited.

As long as I have money, I seem to be one step closer to leaving!