【Lusheng】Organization for Human Happiness Promotion

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Lucifer had never heard these thoughts of Sandalphin.

Sandalphin seems to have always existed in that atrium, always smiling innocently.He looked at himself with sparkling eyes, with longing that almost flattered Lucifer.He is beautiful like a gift from the gods - but, in the part he didn't see, Sandalphin was gradually dragged down by fear.I couldn't notice it myself.No, it's not that I failed to notice, but subconsciously ignored it.

The deeper the sense of inferiority in Sandalphin's embrace, the more dependent he is, just like a drowning person would cling to the only piece of driftwood, but catching the driftwood does not mean that he is rescued.It was my fault—it was my fault.It was the first time that Lucifer felt almost suffocation-like distress when his body functions were still intact. His artificial heart was beating violently in his chest, and he hugged Sandalphin.Sandalph froze for a moment, and stretched out his hand to push him: "You came to catch me, right...? Now you have succeeded, you even know the motive and get the evidence! What are you doing now—" "I'm sorry .”

Sandalphin interrupted the sound as if paused.

"I'm sorry." Lucifer hugged him tightly, using a force that could almost make him feel pain: "It's me who is satisfied with your inferiority... If I could face up to your feelings sooner, I wouldn't will make you suffer..."

"What are you talking about... Hey, Master Canaan. Face up? Why do you need to face up to me? Face up to a sinner who has defected and wants to endanger mankind?" Sandalphin struggled, his voice was like Feeling bored and intermittent as if being squeezed out, he didn't know whether to push away or hold Lucifer's coat tightly with his hands: "Didn't you see everything just now? Lucifer, didn't you Do you know everything? I'm a hopeless piece of trash...!"

"no……!"

"You don't understand...you don't understand what it's like to not be needed!!!"

"Sandall, I don't interfere with your going out because I don't need you. It is better for you to have contact with the outside world. I made such a judgment. I hope you can do it without pressure. Pursue the life you want..."

"I want to be with you, will you promise me!!!"

Sandalphine's hands tightly grasped the clothes on his back, raised his head and faced Lucifer with a distorted face that was about to cry: "Don't throw me away, let me help you, let me be Your indispensable existence—what about the result? Isn’t the result all in vain?! I have fallen from a decoration to a sinner who is not as good as a decoration, yet you tell me to live freely?!”

If it weren't for the graceful and cheerful dance music in the reception hall next door, the roar of Sandalphine must have been heard.But now his words are swallowed up in the music, like a struggling bird trapped in a transparent box.Sandalphin finally pushed him away violently.But Lucifer grabbed his arm again before he turned to leave: "San Defen, I hope you can understand that to me you are my eternal peace. Your smile and words have always comforted me In my heart, you are not a decoration, and of course you are not a sinner... You have already been an indispensable existence for me."

"Ha, is it? It's just such ambiguous words, I can say a lot?! But in reality? You are just spreading your sympathy. What am I to you? Subordinate? Friend? Child ? Pets? In fact, even without me, you would have saved countless people like me because of your tenderness, and you would have better people pouring affection into you—and I...I..."

He whimpered, his voice weakened: "I don't even have a position to ask you why..."

Lucifer was silent.He really never seriously thought about his relationship with Sandalphin.However, even Lucifer feels that a single relationship cannot be generalized, and it is not generalized enough.He hesitated for a moment, and said softly to Sandalphin: "I can't give you an answer about our relationship for now, but at least one thing I can confirm. Sandalphine, you are far more important to me than you think .”

"...Enough, I can't escape anyway. I will accept any punishment."

He no longer resisted, as if exhausted.Lucifer knew that his words seemed to hit a transparent wall, and he had to do something to truly break through this barrier, so that Sandalphine and himself could be freed.But what to do...how to do it?He could only stay with Sandalphin, trying to calm her down with hugs and touches.But the unresponsive Sandalphin made his heart ache.They sat in the corner of the courtyard until Lucio came to find them. Lucio realized something was wrong the moment he saw their expressions.He kept a polite smile and met Lucifer's eyes - Sandalphin looked devastated, half of his face was blocked by bangs, and the other half was buried in the scarf.None of them was talking, so after a period of unbearable silence, Lucio tentatively said: "Go back to me first. It's too late today."

Lucifer originally wanted to bring such a Sandalphin back to Canaan, but considering all the circumstances, he nodded and thanked Lucio for his kindness.The most important thing is that he is not sure whether returning to the atrium will be a recuperation or suffering for Sandalphin.The other guests had almost left, and Lucio's car was parked at the side door of the banquet hall.When Lucifer took Sandalph's hand and left, he heard footsteps from high heels.He looked down and saw that the high heels on Sandalphin's feet were bought for Sandalphin when he was collecting gifts.Sandalphin probably just got used to it not long ago, and he still stumbled a little while walking.Lucifer looked both heartwarming and uncomfortable, and said softly to wait a moment, then stretched out his hand and hugged Sandalphin horizontally.

Sandalph froze briefly, but soon became unresponsive again.Lucio asked: "Xiaosheng...is he drunk? He drank a lot when he wanted to talk to others."

"Probably not. Sandalphin's body should have a relatively high tolerance to alcohol. I picked him up because he might be wearing shoes he's not used to... Walking is not smooth." Lucifer answered seriously He said, but he thought about it for a while, and said, "I'd better buy him some hangover medicine. Where is the nearby pharmacy...?"

"No need." Sandalphin refused with no ups and downs.

In this way, the atmosphere is stuck again.Lucio seemed to want to ask what happened along the way, but finally kept silent.This did not change after they returned to Lucio's mansion.Lucifer accompanied Sandalphin until he watched Sandalphine fall asleep before leaving Sandalphine's room for a short while.Lucio was waiting for him in the living room. Seeing him coming out alone, he glanced at the closed door of the guest room and asked softly, "It doesn't seem to be going well?"

"It's all my fault." Lucifer replied in a low voice: "I hurt him."

"...Did I come up with a bad idea? Originally, I wanted you to talk about your heart, so I asked you to go to see Xiaosheng in my identity, but it seems that you are even more unhappy." Lucio took The fruit juice poured Lucifer a glass: "Do you want to drink it? This is what Xiaosheng drinks recently."

"Juice? Does he like it?"

"I don't know. Give him a pour and he'll finish it. But if you like it, I can't see it. What did he like to drink?"

"Coffee . . . he said he liked it. I think . . . he really does."

"Are you not even sure?"

Lucifer was unable to answer.If it was before today, he probably still has the confidence to say that Sandalphin likes coffee very much.But after today, he suddenly found that he didn't know enough about Sandalphin.He said to Lucio: "Today's conversation let me know his thoughts. I am very grateful to you for this. If there is no such opportunity, there will probably be irreversible consequences."

"Understood, but still haven't solved it? Where is it stuck? Tell Brother Lucio if you don't mind—?"

Lucifer froze for a moment, then cast a puzzled look: "Brother?"

Lucio himself was also taken aback, and then scratched his cheek with his fingers: "I don't really mean brother... No, there is a little bit of meaning? I just want to make the atmosphere more relaxed, so I chose a wisecrack...Look The effect is not very good. Especially your appearance, which is almost exactly the same as Lucifer."

"I'm sorry about Lucifer."

"This is not something you need to feel sorry for. You did a good job of what you should do. I also said before, in my opinion, whether it is Lucifer or the enhanced person created by Lucifer's hand, For me, there is a feeling of sympathy and family. Although I have never experienced any normal family relationship in my life. So whether it is talking to Xiaosheng or talking to you, it makes me feel very fresh and interesting .”

"Family...?" Lucifer repeated the word.

"Do you find it offensive? After all, we haven't even met directly before. It must be strange that a stranger suddenly comes and says you are family." Lucio shrugged.

"No." Lucifer denied his words, then leaned on the balcony and looked at a small lake facing Lucio's mansion, the moonlight shining on the water made the whole lake look beautiful Silver: "It just occurred to me that I haven't been able to define my relationship with Sandalphin until now. You can think of us as 'family' so easily, but there never seems to be such a consensus between me and him .It's only now that I realize that the connection that holds us together is so shallow that it's unimaginable..."

After listening quietly for a while, Lucio suddenly raised his hand to signal Lucifer to stop.Then he smiled and said: "Lucifer. When a strengthened person does not enter human society, the ethical relationship of human beings does not apply, so what you just said is wrong. The relationship between you and Sandalphin does not need to be 'defined' The definition of human doesn't work for you either. The relationship between you is based on 'what relationship do you want'."

He sighed deeply: "Whether it's family or friends, everything is out of want rather than necessity. I want family members so I treat you with the same attitude as family members. What do you want Xiaosheng to be yours?"

no answer.

"It seems that the problem is here." Lucio made a bingo gesture: "I suggest you all stay here for a while, think about your thoughts, and it's not too late to go back. Just take advantage of this In time, I will also study the core you brought, and I will ask you to answer any questions, and it is not appropriate for you to walk away."

"Thank you." Lucifer thanked him earnestly.

Back in Sandalphin's room, Sandalphin didn't seem to be sleeping well.He tightly grasped the corner of the quilt and curled up into a ball.Lucifer lay down gently beside him, hugging him from behind.This might have woken up Sandalphin a little bit, because Lucifer heard his breathing rhythm changed, but he was just gasping for breath as if he had just woken up from a nightmare, but he calmed down quickly.Lucifer was considerate and didn't expose it, but also silently closed his eyes.

Unfortunately, there was no progress in the next few days.

Sandalphin became like a taciturn wandering spirit, completely giving up communication with others.Even if Lucifer asked him about something, he would only answer with um and ok.Although no one put him in shackles, he was like a prisoner serving his sentence, completely lost the anger he had before.Lucifer tried to take him wandering around the city to get in touch with interesting things, but it was useless, or in other words, the more effort he expended, the more fear in Sandalphin's eyes grew.

The void created by distrust cannot be filled in this way, Lucifer also knew it, but doing nothing would definitely be worse.He also knows this.So even if it was futile, he did not mention work in front of Sandalphin at all for the time being, and just concentrated on spending time with Sandalphin.He went to the park the day before yesterday, went to the cinema yesterday, and Lucifer took him to the beach today.

"This season is not suitable for swimming, but we can still pick up some shells." Lucifer chose a private suit for Sandalphin to go out, and the black hooded sweater was loosely put on Sandalphin, making him look more beautiful. Thin.Lucifer straightened his collar for him: "If you want, we can also go to a deeper place by boat, then we should be able to fish. It's very interesting, you can try it."

"... Lucifer."

Sandalphin finally took the initiative to speak: "What's the point of doing these things with me? You are far from free enough to waste all your time on me, right?"

"It's not a waste." Lucifer stroked his hair, then took him by the hand and bought two bottles of coconut juice in a nearby shop: "I promised you before, I will take you out to see Look. I am very happy to be able to fulfill this promise now."

"Really? Then you will go back after fulfilling the agreement?"

"En." Lucifer nodded, but immediately added: "Together with you. Then, I will bring you out next time." He said without waiting for Sandalphine to reply, and took one of them. A bottle of coconut water was inserted into a straw and handed to Sandalphin: "Try it?"

Sandalphin did not speak again, but silently stuffed the straw into his mouth.Lucifer took his hand and came to the beach.The weather that is about to enter winter makes the beach sparsely populated. Although the weather is very sunny and the scenery is not bad, it is an indisputable fact that there is no excitement in summer.Lucifer looked at Sandalphin: "Next time we come in summer, it would be better to prepare a swimsuit for you, right?"

Sandalphin curled her hand slightly in his palm.

"I think humans will bring a lot of other things, such as swimming rings, sunscreen care, food and other game props. They will build sandcastles on the beach, play ball, and bask in the sun. Those who like swimming will Go swimming. Which Sandalphin do you like?"

"...Any one will do?"

"Then shall we all try again then?"

"Lucifer...!"

Sandalphine shook off his hand and stared at him with a complicated expression: "What on earth do you want to do? Change me back to the original state? Continue to pretend that nothing happened? When the time comes "It's not up to you to decide when and where you are."

"I want to make you happy." Lucifer smiled gently: "I will do it."

Sandalphine looked away: "Absurd...absurd. Ah, or is this my punishment? It made me have an illusion, and then woke me up? That is really cruel..."

It is also common these days for the topic to be turned in a negative direction.Sandalph couldn't control himself a little bit, Lucifer could feel that he was serious about these entertainment activities, but he would immediately think of the emptiness after all this was over, and then move forward because he resisted that emptiness. Speak unkind words.Then after speaking, he fell into deeper self-destruction because of his indiscretion.The reason is that Lucifer was unable to prove his own worth to him, all Lucifer could think of for the time being was to prove it in a long time, so he firmly said: "I don't intend to punish you, this is My personal rest time with you will continue in the future."

After he finished speaking, he pointed to the seaside hut that was not open: "If you don't want to take a walk, let's sit for a while? Think about where to go next?"

"..." San Defen remained silent again, Lucifer held his hand again, led him to sit on the stool over there and said, "I'll go buy some food, do you want to eat?" What?"

"……unnecessary."

"Crepes Strawberry or Chocolate?"

"No, if you want to eat, you can just buy it yourself."

"Take both. Wait for me here."

Lucifer left for a short while, and looked at Sandalphin from a distance when he turned the corner.Sure enough, not long after he left, Sandalph hugged his head, pulled his hair, and fell into self-blame.That thin back is full of love and affection, and recently Lucifer often feels that he is full of desire to hug San Defen.In his cognition, hugging is very close to a comforting gesture, but hugging too often may tire Sandalphin, so he restrained himself as much as possible.Only hold Sandalphin in his arms when he is tired, or when he is sleeping at night.But in fact, at any time and any place, Lucifer wanted to put him in his arms.

When he was buying crepes, he saw many other flavors, even coffee-flavored ones, and after weighing it up, he bought one of each and filled his hands full.When he turned back with six crepes, he froze for a moment. Three women stood next to Sandalphine, who was sitting alone in the seaside hut.They were talking and laughing at what Sandalphin was saying, and Sandalphin seemed to be struggling to deal with it.It seems that these people were also walking a little farther on the beach, so that means, they are talking to Sandalphin?

After Lucifer got closer, he was able to confirm that it was indeed the case.Because a few girls sitting on the other side of the table are asking: "Did this little brother come out alone? You don't look like a local, are you here for tourism?" "Are you interested in going near my house?" Do you want to go shopping? It’s different from here, it’s very lively!”…

Because of the angle, Lucifer could see Sandalphin's face more clearly than the expressions of those girls.Probably the girl on the opposite side said something funny, and the three girls laughed together.In order to match the atmosphere, Sandalphine also smiled - this should be a good thing, but Lucifer suddenly felt a trace of indescribable displeasure in his heart.

"Sunda Fern." Lucifer called out to him, and Sin Del Fern's gaze followed the sound.Lucifer kept a steady tone: "Can you come and help me get it?"

Sandalphin came across the table.Then when he turned his back to the stranger, he let go of his piled up smiles, and walked to Lucifer's side to help him hold those crepes.He was a little puzzled: "Why are there so many..." But Lucifer, who had one free hand, gently hugged his shoulder: "Because I want you to taste every flavor, let's go back."

"Uh-huh."

Going back today is earlier than usual.When Sandalphin changed out the clothes for going out, Lucifer discovered for the first time that Sandalphin's nakedness would bring him a wonderful feeling.Of course, he has seen Sandalphin naked many times, not to mention the time in the petri dish, when the Sandalphin was just made, he couldn't move around well, it was Lucifer who helped him clean and check his body functional.He knew even a tiny fingernail on Sandalphin by heart.But today he watched Sandalphin's naked back, waist and legs stretch out with the movement of undressing, and that kind of wonderful emotion spread more and more in his heart.He thought about it, probably because he hadn't carefully checked the situation of Sandalphin for a long time, and he was already a little strange to Sandalphin.This is not acceptable.

"Sunda Fern." He called Sander Fein in a low voice, and then waved to him: "Come here, let me check your body."

Sandalphin looked confused, wondering why he was doing this.But soon he silently obeyed, took off and didn't change into indoor clothes, but walked up to Lucifer in a pair of underpants, and stood there.