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On August [-], [-], in the early morning, Leibo.

The sky was blue and white, and the rainstorm gradually stopped.

No matter how many times he came back, Li Bai could still see Yang Jian for the first time in the crowd.After about 20 meters of rain and fog, the man's face was blurred. He was wearing a disposable transparent poncho and stood at the gate of the township government on the roadside in front of him, holding a flower umbrella for the female teacher beside him.The two were surrounded by the villagers, unable to move an inch, and seemed to be trying to explain something.

"Master, stop for a moment." Li Bai called the driver to stop.

Roll down the window, and the smell of damp earth blows in, as well as the juicy smell of grass and wood fiber.Li Bai has seen the rain in this place several times, and it always cools his heart, reminding him of the thick moso bamboo broken from the root.This is the biggest scene he has ever seen. From yesterday evening to now, the county passenger station has not left a car, causing him to stay for a whole night with nothing to do. Only when it was almost dawn did he find an old-fashioned Santana that was willing to go far away. .

The driver was a black and thin young man of the Yi nationality, with two moles on one side of his face and the other on the right.

"Who do you know?" The man looked back at him.

"Do you want to get out of the car?" He asked again.

"No need." Li Bai rubbed his eyelids, took one last look, and then rolled back the window.He lowered his eyes and looked straight ahead: "Let's drive to Qinggang Middle School."

Yang Jian wasn't at school, he was caught up in other things, it seemed like a while, isn't it just right?Li Bai looked at the palm of his hand in a daze, his head was groggy, and he seemed to be very relaxed.

He can reach his destination in half an hour at most, and he can finish what he wants to do quietly in half an hour at most, and after that, he doesn't have to worry about anything else, and he can go wherever he wants to go.

The engine whined a few times, smashed the sticky mud on the ground, and led the car deep into the white forest.

After several previous observations, Li Bai at least figured out where Yang Jian lived.It is the two rows of bungalows at the back of the school building. You can climb up the side of the mountain and look down. There are nine door openings in the first row.

Yang Jian's room is at the far left of the back row, the farthest corner of the school.Li Bai even used binoculars to get a better look. He saw the hanging decoration on the door. The black lacquered wood was painted with colorful patterns and wrapped with colored threads, hanging down like tassels. It was probably some kind of local handicraft.

Can it ward off evil spirits, enjoy blessings, and get rid of bad luck?Maybe that's it?

Who sent it?

Now Li Bai is standing in front of the door, holding up the pendant and stroking it with his fingertips, still unable to answer this question.

But it's good anyway, someone gave Yang Jian a gift, and he was so attentive.I hope she will not forget to give it away in the future.Li Bai sighed, let go of his hand, and the piece of wood clattered against the door panel. The campus during the summer vacation was probably the quietest place in the world, and the rain was so light that it was indistinguishable, only these few bumps were abrupt and ear-piercing.He went to press the doorknob, and sure enough, the door was locked, and then he went to look at the window next to the door.

Although the anti-theft net is installed, a railing is missing in the middle, leaving a relatively large gap.Li Bai reached in and tried to push the screen window.

Unable to push it away.

The rainy day was darker than usual, and the lighting in this room was indeed not good. Standing outside the window, Li Bai still had no idea what was going on inside the room.Finally, he made up his mind, cut a hole on the edge of the screen window with a self-defense knife, raised his breath and reached in to break the lock. He succeeded, opened the window frame, and faced the gap of the fence, which was only more than 30 centimeters wide. , He drilled his head first and then turned sideways vigorously, actually he really stuffed himself inside.

However, he lost his grip and his backpack got stuck. He fell face down on the plaster floor of the room, his body was struggling with his twisted posture just now. Li Bai tried his best to maintain the rhythm of deep breathing and slowly lay flat, slowing down by 2 Minutes, get up and close the window.Fortunately, the incision was not very obvious, not even curled up, so he couldn't find it easily. He turned on the light and looked around. This small house of about ten square meters is really simple and simple, with a single bed and a hanging hanging on the edge. A rusty tin cabinet, a writing desk, and a pile of books on the table.Li Bai flipped through it briefly, and found that besides the few books he sent, there were also many old books by Yang Jian, but most of them were high school textbooks and real test papers, all of which were about physics, and there were a lot of them between the pages. A well-written manuscript.

From the first year of high school to the third year of high school, including the latest college entrance examination papers from [-] to this year, Yang Jian seems to have done every question in each book, and listed many key points of his own summary, sometimes neatly and clearly, sometimes It was flamboyant and phoenix dancing, and Li Bai couldn't find a page that didn't have any traces.

Doesn't this school have a high school?

These materials were also released separately from the junior high school lesson plans. Obviously, in Yang Jian's eyes, they had nothing to do with each other.

Li Bai still couldn't figure out what that person wanted to do, and he didn't frown to look at other people's privacy anymore.He climbed into the small bed and lay there for a while, not daring to move. He raised one hand to touch the wall. He wrote on the wall, where he could see it when he was lying on his side. name.

After getting up, he carefully smoothed out the folds that he had laid down.The bedding was dry and fluffy, the pillows still smelled of soap, and the ashtray was also clean. After checking it many times, Yang Jian really didn't fall into a slump, and he didn't live his life in a muddle like he did.Li Bai was able to relax a little bit.He squatted on the ground, took out a large piece of stuff from his bag, and unwrapped the layers of newspapers on the outside. When only the last layer of kraft paper was left, he searched for this heavy "brick" in his arms, and finally found it. It went into the deepest part of the bottom drawer of the desk.

There is only a small vacancy, and the other places are piled up with old homework of the students. The date is two years ago, and a thin layer of dust can be felt. This drawer should not be opened often.

Well, it should be a long time before Yang Jian finds out that there are 12 cash here.If he wanted to return to the city at that time, the money would be enough for him to turn around for a while. If he wanted to stay here, he might be able to use the money to build a small house, find a woman he likes, and live an ordinary and stable life.

I hope that the RMB will not depreciate too much by then.

Li Bai threw the backpack out, then got out of the gap by himself, pulled back the screen, and then snapped back the lock.Putting down all his belongings, he only left more than 5000 yuan in his card. In addition to mineral water, soda biscuits and other sundries, there is only a stack of medical records left in his bag. Now that he is traveling light, where should he go?Li Bai didn't have a clue for a while, just thinking of Su Shi's Ci, he felt that the lack of a bamboo stick might also lack a pair of straw shoes-he saw it in "Middle School Students Must Recite Ancient Poems" in the bookstore.

Somehow, ever since he accepted the fact that Yang Jian gave up everything and went to the deep mountains and old forests to become a teacher in his heart, he likes to imagine that he is a student, he doesn't like to do homework, and he suffers from headaches every day because of force analysis.

It was still too cold to wear a T-shirt, Li Bai got goosebumps, crossed his arms, and walked slowly up the back hill.There was no one in sight on the road, and the rain began to fall again.

If there is less than half a year left in your life, the rational way to deal with it is probably to find something you really want to do, and do it one by one, trying to save a little regret.Half a month has passed, and Li Bai has read the inspection report several times without any further disturbances. At the same time, he is well aware of his own faults. It is because he lacks the things he wants to do, and only one thing he just finished. That's why it's like a headless chicken.

Seeing more living people may give inspiration.

He circled half of the mountain, and came back to the place where he saw Yang Jian.The front of the township government is already empty, the terrain here is relatively flat, and this short side street is the busiest place in Qinggang Township, and many shops are still open in rainy days.It's time for dinner, and there is a mutton restaurant a few steps away that is steaming hot. Li Bai put away his umbrella and hid himself under the narrow eaves. After a few steps, he stopped suddenly at the door and shrank outside the door frame. See with one eye.

Several tables in the small shop were full, and the seat at the innermost, facing him, was the familiar female teacher.She has a small face with apricot eyes, dark but even skin tone, and a high ponytail when she smiles. She has a very cheerful and pleasing appearance.And the gray shirt opposite her, whose back was soaked, seemed to be the one who was making her laugh.Two bowls of noodles were served, and the female teacher took out two pairs of chopsticks and handed one pair to Yang Jian.

Li Bai changed his family to eat, and he ate at the Xiaolongbao next door, listening to the neighbors talking about the Torch Festival, the most lively festival of the Yi people, talking about wrestling and beauty pageant, and it was actually tomorrow.Ordered two steamed buns with meat and vegetables, and Li Bai dipped them in vinegar and chili oil to eat, but felt that the free porridge was more palatable.He paid the porridge and left before finishing his porridge, because he saw two people passing by outside the door, and Yang Jian's poncho was probably rotten. He was holding the flower umbrella to cover his colleagues, and half of his body was drenched in the rain.

After a long distance, Li Bai silently followed behind, watching the gray being drenched deeper and deeper until it was drenched.The two were still chatting and laughing. There was the mountain road under their feet, and they would go back to school if they walked down.Li Bai didn't want to go back at all, he didn't understand why he would follow Yang Jian hopelessly as soon as he saw Yang Jian, obviously the only thing he wanted to do was to smoke, but the empty cigarette case had been crushed to pieces.He simply put down his umbrella and drenched himself, raised his face and opened his mouth to catch a few drops of rain... In the end, his entanglement was replaced by a kind of fear. It's already shorter than the way it came from, but it's empty and there's only myself left.

Fortunately not.Yang Jian is a signpost nailed in the eyes.

Stay a little longer, just a little while, and then I'll go.Li Bai said to himself.

He stood guard outside the school like a thief. At 27:10, Yang Jian walked out of the school gate not long after entering, changed into dry clothes, followed by Xiao Han, and they brought back three children each at around 30:[-].At [-]:[-], he set off alone again. At that time, it was raining heavily. About three hours later, an old pickup truck drove up to the gate. There were four students sitting in the trunk. When the next one came down, Yang Jian locked the car door, sent them into the campus, then came out again, and picked up another group at around [-]:[-].

I have heard before that there are big mountains here, and it is inconvenient for children to go to and from school, so many teachers personally pick them up on horseback, just to make parents willing to let their children go to school.Now it seems that the boarding school is not immune, the summer vacation is coming to an end, and Yang Jian is also doing this kind of work.

Li Bai looked at his back disappearing into the night, the rain had completely stopped, the clouds had dissipated, only the moonlight was bright, but it couldn't illuminate him, only the children could be heard running and jumping, stepping on the muddy ground with "crack" "Click, click" sound, very light.

Li Bai was about to leave, he thought, this "a little while" is too long.

Going up the mountain again, Li Bai was afraid of stepping on a collapsed place, so he walked along the concrete road.He had never walked by so late before, but he didn't feel any anxiety in his heart.He doesn't even feel nervous.If he really ran into a legendary gangster with no waist knife, or a poisonous snake or beast, he might not even bother to run away.It's a pity that the journey was quiet, with only the sound of insects. According to past experience, he could walk to the next town at dawn.

At that time, just wait for the bus to go back to the county.

Who knew that Li Bai would be tired from walking before twelve o'clock, leaning on a stone to drink water and eat biscuits, he laughed at himself, it stands to reason that with his current physical condition, he should be dying on a drip in the hospital, but he actually ran away Wandering in places where I can’t see clearly on the map, silently memorizing "The Difficult Road to Shu", I walked dozens of miles a day.

Not greasy, how wild the legs are.

He should really be a student if he had the chance.

Suddenly there was a strange noise in his ear, and Li Bai was disappointed to find that it was the wheels rubbing against the ground, and the light penetrated into the rustling dense forest... He thought that some unlucky passerby would be shocked by him immediately.However, it was himself who was going to be frightened in the next second—the car turned a corner and drove straight towards him. It had a white shell, a big nose, and square headlights. The car is dazzling!

Li Bai dropped the biscuits and water and ran away.

The other party was also persistent in chasing, a half-thick tree fell across the road, Li Bai jumped over it, the car actually increased its horsepower and ran over vigorously, honking its horn twice from time to time.The sound of the whistle became more and more anxious, and the road ahead became brighter and brighter. It was the two high beams that were about to stick to his buttocks. Li Bai couldn't run anymore. Yihua knelt on the ground and almost fell to the ground covered in mud.

"Stinging——" It was a sudden brake, the front of the car was too close to him, and the small waist exposed could even feel the heat from the engine.

Someone came to the side, cast a long shadow in front of him, put his hands under his armpit and picked him up, without saying a word, regardless of his struggle and stagger, he was pushed into the carriage like carrying an object.Then the black figure walked around the front of the car. Li Bai's legs hurt from being knocked and his arms were grabbed too tightly. "Click" to engage the lock, and the lights on the roof of the carriage came on.

The night is too quiet.

Yang Jian's eyes were burning red.

"Is it interesting," he said, "Isn't it gone and not coming?"

"I really won't come in the future, really." Li Bai said in a daze, looking at the bloodshot eyes through the lens.

"You can come if you want, and you can just squat there from noon to night and stare at me and do nothing, you have your hobbies, whatever you want," Yang Jian didn't dodge, looking back at him, "Don't fucking run around in the middle of the night Find death on this road!"

"...I have a knife."

"Do you know how many knives he has?"

"I know I'm annoying, and if something happens to me here, you won't feel comfortable, I know," Li Bai lowered his head, "I really won't come here in the future, it will be the last time, I promise."

Yang Jian was so angry that he laughed, he squeezed the corners of his eyes, and adjusted his breathing gently, allowing this kind of silence that made Li Bai restless to last for a while. "Look up." He said suddenly.

Li Bai didn't know whether it was coercion or pardon, but he turned his head away, and Yang Jian's teary eyes were blurred.

"Why are you crying?" The voice was also cold.

I also want to know.Li Bai shook his head and thought painfully.

"I thought it was a hallucination during the day, you are always elusive, and I have psychological hints when I see corners and corners," but the man suddenly softened again, and said unhurriedly, "But when I went back to the dormitory just now, I found that my screen window broken."

A heavy brown paper bag was placed on Li Bai's dirty lap.

"What do you mean by that?" The question also popped up.

"Did you take it apart?" Li Bai wiped his eyelids, "...I kept it so hidden, how did you find it?"

Yang Jian didn't speak, but just looked at his face intently, a kind of undisguised observation, it seemed that Yang Jian didn't intend to give him an answer before getting his explanation.

"It's just that I have saved this money in the past few years. If I call you, you will definitely get it back," Li Bai swallowed his tears and said sincerely, "So I can only use this method to give it to you, and I don't want to travel through mountains and rivers. "

"You know I don't want it, so why give it back?" Yang Jian also asked sincerely.

Li Bai couldn't answer anymore, could he say "Because I'm going to die, I don't worry about you"?He couldn't even find a room for relaxation.

"Let me go." He begged helplessly, touching the nail on the braces with his tongue, spitting out the saliva that made him even more embarrassed.

But Yang Jian didn't seem to hear this at all, and he didn't unlock the door. After seeing him enough, he suddenly became very sure, and picked up his bag belt to take the backpack away.Li Bai pulled the handle of the car in vain, and hugged the backpack so tightly that he wanted to shrink it under the seat, but he couldn't compete with the narrow space. Yang Jian pressed over, with one hand supporting the car glass, almost covering him under his body, Staring at his face so intently... Li Bai understood that he was, completely, unable to leave.

When the backpack was about to be pulled away from him, he also let go.

I'm so unlucky, I'm too stupid, he thought, until the last time, I'm still like this... I am indecisive and reluctant to let go, and then I stay, being seen through and exposed.

Yang Jian sat back in his seat, unzipped the chain of the bag, and began to take out the contents one by one, and put them on Li Bai's trembling lap like the big bag of money.A box of scallion cream flavored soda crackers, several medicine bottles, a pack of tissues, and a bank card tied to an ID card with a rubber ring.

A tube of lubricating oil with a plastic seal, and a box of new sleeves.

He glanced at Li Bai.

Li Bai was exhausted, but he smiled a little: "Don't look at me like that."

"I've come here, and you've seen it too," he said softly again, "Why don't you just do it with me once."

"I bought it a long time ago. Every time I came back to see you secretly, I brought it with me, but I didn't take it out every time." She pressed her hand on her leg, not letting him take it away, "I won't lie to you, every time!"

However, Yang Jian withdrew his wrist and continued to search in the bag.

The last two items were also taken out, but they were not placed on Li Bai's lap.Two medical records, one thick and one thin, one English and one Chinese, were read by Yang Jian on the steering wheel.

Li Bai suddenly felt that he could not exert any strength.How come everything he wanted to hide from the world was pulled under the light to expose it to the sun within a few minutes.Is it so difficult to find a place to die peacefully?Still, it was his fault again, he was superfluous, and ran here to give Yang Jian what he didn't want in exchange for touching himself and was caught straight.

He covered his face and breathed hard, the sound of every page turning seemed to push him to a dead end.

But Yang Jian was so silent, the more he turned to the back, the lower his breathing became.

It seems that breathing has also become difficult for Yang Jian.

"It was quite sudden." Li Bai felt a terrible pain in his heart. He lowered his hands and looked up at the lamp above his head. Speaking to him was like mechanical labor. Drinking. I have never drunk that kind of foreign wine. It may be an allergy. I passed out and was sent to the hospital for gastric lavage. I also checked my blood. The doctor said that I had many abnormal indicators, and then I didn’t know what happened. They said that I might have a tumor in my liver? But I couldn’t understand much of what they said, and I couldn’t even understand the report, and it would be too expensive to continue the examination, so I thought about going back to my country to talk about it.”

"Then I came back and checked online, which hospital in Beijing is good for cancer..." Li Bai saw that the examination report was in Yang Jian's hand, and it had already been flipped to the Chinese one. "Later, cancer was detected when I went to the hospital , it’s still in the advanced stage, and the doctor said it will be at most six months before it can be cured.”

"It's not that I don't want to be cured, but I only have so much money, and ten times the price they quoted is not enough for me. Besides, even if I get cured, won't I live a few more years?" Finally said the most difficult sentence, "I just felt that there was really no need for that. Bringing the money over... I didn't consider it properly, but I just counted down the days, and the more I thought about it, the more I felt that you at least need me in this world, and now I can't do it. You might be better off with them."

"It's because I'm being self-indulgent." He had no choice, facing Yang Jian's silence, he seemed to be tied to the seat by an invisible rope, and there was really nothing he could do.

But Yang Jian read the two reports from the beginning to the end page after page, no matter how long he read, and no matter how long Li Bai lost his voice after chanting for a while, he closed the pages carefully and put them back. Inside the backpack.It was the same with those oils, sets, and sundries. He seemed to have digested the whole thing, and of course he understood that these were the last things Li Bai kept by his side.And the money, stuffed in together.After repacking, the backpack was put back on Li Bai's lap.

As if frightened, Li Bai suddenly looked at Yang Jian, and tightly grasped the belt with his ten fingers.

"People with advanced liver cancer have black and yellow faces, not like you." Yang Jian was also looking at him.

"Are you praising me for being good-looking?" Li Bai smiled, and said awkwardly, "It's really inexplicable. There are so many people who smoke and drink, why did they just fall on me? It's normal not to be able to accept it temporarily, but It's reality, gotta accept it, I've accepted it now. It's better than spending years in a hospital bed and then dying. Maybe I can be reincarnated as your student, burn me some paper then and tell me Where do you teach?"

However, Yang Jian ignored his nonsense of pretending to be calm, and turned his head skillfully when the road ahead was wide, and returned directly on the same road.Li Bai felt absurdly finished, and suddenly he didn't want to run away, and he couldn't run away anyway, so Yang Jian could put him wherever he liked, and he could do whatever he wanted him to do.It's also strange enough, the more desperate he is, the less he struggles.It doesn't matter that the cliff is in front of me, even the tears have run out, and now the fundus of my eyes is dry, like sand has entered, this feeling is too familiar, Li Bai almost wants to laugh, what does it mean to look good, what does it mean to have sex with me, what do you mean by yourself? Started to speak amazingly again?

The idiot thinks so, and he thinks the same way, so he really is a idiot, but he can't prove it in everything, lest others forget it, right?

Li Bai pressed his forehead against the car window, his shoulders trembled, and he reached into the hem of his clothes to pinch the thin belly. It hurt, but he was still unconscious. What the hell was he doing.Yang Jian is not clear again, what is Yang Jian doing.

Yang Jian just concentrated on driving, turning dangerous turns, and running over broken trees, and he couldn't see any distraction from the corners of his shadowed eyes.It was like climbing in the dark body of a monster, the forest was airtight, the people passing by along the way were all asleep, none of the houses were lit, and the school was also asleep. Yang Jian parked the car in front of the school gate, pulled out the accelerator key At that second, the world became quiet again.

"I really didn't want to bother you," Li Bai said suddenly, trying his best to say, "Last time you asked me if I was still leaving, I felt that I could never come back after I left, it's best if you forget about me. I still think so when I come here this time, I want to put my things down and leave, but I saw you again... I followed and came back, I made another mistake, if I went straight then, I..."

"I really, really hope that you will be happy. There is nothing terrible about death, but I'm afraid that you won't see... how the living people are doing." He frowned, his throat was swollen and sore, and he was about to be unable to speak.

"Get out of the car." Yang Jian said.

Li Bai was stunned, but he did it obediently, at least no one came around to open the door for him.He was holding the bag in his hands, and when he noticed that Yang Jian had taken two steps towards the campus and looked back at him, he hurriedly put the bag on his shoulders again.

Yang Jian turned back and continued walking.

Li Bai trotted to keep up.

Yang Jian looked sideways, there was only a piece of moonlight on his face that was so white that it turned blue, and there was a gloomy coolness inexplicably, his eyes were shining, as if there was water.He took Li Bai's hand, and involuntarily squeezed his five fingers into the tiger's mouth, and inserted them back into his trouser pocket.

He just dragged Li Bai towards the dormitory behind the school building.

"Where are you going?" Li Bai shut down.He originally thought that with his current temperament, Yang Jian would let him find a classroom to make do for the night.Never occupy the student's bed, and never squeeze with other teachers.

"You still don't know the way?" Yang Jian seemed to be laughing at him.

"I...?" The fingers hurt so much from being clenched, sweating profusely, slippery, astringent, for two people.

Is he sad too, is he afraid, not because I'm a real person, his brother, but some, other, thing.Li Bai had such an illusion for a moment.

"Didn't you say we're going to do it once?" Yang Jian breathed a sigh of relief and stood still in front of the door. Water was still dripping from the eaves, making constant noises in the puddles, patter, patter, moon shadow. Being broken up, he said lightly, "Do it a few more times, don't die, okay?"