Snow country

I don't know if it's because he cares more about Xuesheng than before, Zhang Xiao always feels that he often hears about Xuesheng when he walks on campus.

"Hey, has that Kitazawa calmed down? Recently, he only hangs out with an international student."

"That's right. But it's like this at school, who knows what he'll be like when he's out of school hahaha!"

"But I heard from people who practiced with him that he was very disciplined during his internship."

"Can you be unruly? The director of that hospital is his father's classmate, right?"

"I really saw him in Shinjuku before! Believe me, believe me!"

"Okay, trust you. But he is really self-controlled. I heard that he doesn't drink even if he goes to the bar..."

Zhang Xiao came back to his senses suddenly, and then picked up the pen in his hand again.The exam is coming soon, both he and Xuesheng, who is about to graduate, are extremely busy, and he has not even met Xuesheng for several days.

But the connection has not been broken.Thinking of this, Zhang Xiao couldn't help but took out his phone.The dialog box was not pushed to the top by him, but it was always in a position that could be seen at a glance.The last conversation was a few hours ago. Xuesheng cared a few words about his academic problems, and then began to talk about anecdotes during the internship.

The phone suddenly vibrated.Zhang Xiao couldn't help shaking together, and then turned the conversation to the bottom.An emoji was sent over there, it was a cat rolling over because of boredom.

"I've read it so soon, Akatsuki thinks I'm flipping through the chat history? www"

Sure enough, nothing can be hidden from him.Zhang Xiao couldn't help raising the corners of his mouth: "Senior, can't you let me keep some secrets?"

"You really miss me that much?" accompanied by a snickering expression.Zhang Xiao was still organizing his words leisurely, and then he posted a new content over there, "Going home tonight, it would be better to observe the decoration at home."

...Did he go to my house?Zhang Xiao couldn't help but widen his eyes.His fingers rubbed against the corner of the book with some unease, and it took him a while to reply: "What are you doing now?"

"On the tram, the seniors at the hospital told me not to be lazy."

Seeing that crying expression, Zhang Xiao sighed.It would be great if Xuesheng wanted to go back to school, so there is still time to meet each other.It doesn't take too long, just have a meal and chat.

Can't be disappointed, it's too selfish.After thinking about it, he still sent "Come on", and the person over there responded with a big red heart almost instantly.Knowing that it is inconvenient to continue chatting now, Zhang Xiao put away the phone.However, he looked at the book in front of him, but he still couldn't concentrate.

Touching his cheek, Zhang Xiao found that the curvature of his lips couldn't be removed no matter what.

The house is a little cleaner, with a fresh orange smell.

It is easy to notice the extra things—there are a few small plants, which add a little vitality to the small space.A post-it note was pressed under the basin, with neat Chinese characters written on it.

"Breath fresh air!!!" The three exclamation marks were bolded and reddish with a pen, and Zhang Xiao couldn't help but burst out laughing.Flipping over the post-it note, Xuesheng wrote on the back in his own language: "I shouldn't be wrong, I have really studied Chinese recently!"

There is no typo, after all Xue Sheng is a real genius.Sitting down at the desk, Zhang Xiao took out the books in the backpack.Because I really wanted to know what Xuesheng left at home, I hurried back. Today's study task was not completed at all.Thinking about it, Zhang Xiao sighed lightly.

After watching for a few seconds, he uncontrollably turned his gaze back to those plants.His fingers brushed over the delicate leaves, and he picked up his phone to take a picture.Suddenly, he sent a sentence in Chinese: "I will breathe well."

This time there was no reply, and the dialog box was not marked as read, probably because it was busy.Thinking of the exhaustion on Xuesheng's face the last time he saw Xuesheng, Zhang Xiao pursed his lips.

Go see him sometime.Looking at the key hanging on the wall, Zhang Xiao secretly made up his mind.Flattening the post-it note, he carefully inserted it into the title page of the ledger.

Zhang Xiao woke up early.

There is no particular reason, just thinking that at this time, no matter what the situation is, I can see Xuesheng.Normally, Xuesheng is still sleeping, even if he stays in the hospital until late at night, he should go home.It couldn't be more perfect.

There was no one on the tram.Zhang Xiao leaned on the railing and swayed with the tram. He obviously felt sleepy, but his spirit was subtly excited.He thought, maybe it was because he really hadn't seen Xuesheng for a while.

A few days seemed like years.Closing his eyes, Zhang Xiao felt that he had almost forgotten Xuesheng's smile, but the clearer scene was still Xuesheng's tears.With a deeper relationship, he still has no way to ask the reason for those tears, and he doesn't even know whether Xuesheng remembers their real first meeting.

But Zhang Xiao is willing to believe that Xue Sheng remembers.Because they recognized him, that celebration banquet would embrace him.

With his hand in his jacket pocket, his fingers rubbed against the key that didn't belong to him.After Xuesheng gave him this key, he never had a chance to use it. Now he came here uninvited like Xuesheng, but he was still a little nervous.Even though he was so close, he was not as chic as Xuesheng.

Then when you stand in front of Xuesheng, you should be a little braver.He took the initiative to wrap his arms around Xuesheng's neck and say "I miss you", he could do it.

But Zhang Xiao didn't expect that in the end he walked out of that door as if fleeing.

Thursday is the non-burnable garbage collection day in the area where Yuki lives.He put the tied garbage bag at the recycling point, and when he turned around to leave, he staggered abruptly.He leaned on the wall, and for some reason smiled softly.

He himself didn't know when he remembered these details related to Xuesheng, and why he kindly helped Xuesheng take out the trash.

What he should do, obviously, is to cut off everything without looking back, or simply lift Xuesheng up from the bed and beat him up hard.He walked away quietly like this, but he wanted to leave traces of his past, what kind of words did he say.

But he was a coward.

——After seeing Xuesheng lying naked on the bed with another boy.

It's not yet dawn, and I don't know if the laboratory is open or not, and if the seniors who stay up late can take him in for a while.

Thinking a little bit wildly, but Zhang Xiao felt that his feet were weak, and he no longer had the strength to walk.Turning into a dark alley, he crouched down.

Looking up at the sky, although the sky is low, there is no trace of snow.Zhang Xiao thought inappropriately, as expected, the TV dramas are all lies, and it should be snowing at this time, so as to bring out the sadness in his heart.

After all, his eyes were swollen, but he couldn't cry at all.

Zhang Xiao even began to suspect that what he saw when he opened the door just now was an illusion, because he didn't even see the boy's appearance clearly.I only remember that the boy looked very thin, nestled in Xuesheng's arms in a small ball, like a small animal that needed protection.

What about him?Although he is shorter than Xuesheng, he still has the skeleton of a normal man, and he also has muscles to the touch. It must look ugly when Xuesheng hugs him.

...Is that why Xuesheng is looking for someone else?Or was he just one of those people who came and went from the beginning to the end?

Zhang Xiao pressed his chest in a daze. He didn't know why he became like this when he happily went out to meet the person he liked.

How nice it would be if everything was just a nightmare.

Closing his eyes, Zhang Xiao couldn't control the appearance of Xue Sheng in his mind.From the very first kiss to the new year we spent together.His smile is bright, but he never wants to show his vulnerable side.Crying makes me cry alone in the dark, and I hide my expression even when I'm sad.

Is this the real Kitazawa Yukio?

You are wrong.Zhang Xiao, you are wrong.From the beginning to the end, Kitazawa Yukio never said such words as "like you" or "go out with me".That person didn't actually do much.He just gave him a key, made a special trip to accompany him for the New Year, and put a few pots of plants on his desk.

Keys can be given to many people, as can gifts.Accompaniment can be divided as long as there is time, these are not special.It was himself, his own imagination that gave meaning to those things—those were not given by Xuesheng.

Only then did Zhang Xiao realize that the person who was wrong was really himself.It was me who moved my heart, because I was fascinated by his smile and tears, and it was because I couldn't help but fantasize about things that will happen after a long, long time.He thought about the fireworks in summer and Akita in winter, and in his imagination he was standing beside the same person.

Xuesheng may never know, but Zhang Xiao even thought that if possible, he would stay in this city after graduation.As Xuesheng said, there is nothing wrong with Tokyo. It is a city that encompasses everything, and it can also accommodate a foreigner like him.

At least it would allow him to reach Akita easily.

He stood up.

I don't know if I'm a cold hearted person.After calming down, what he was thinking was, how about turning off the phone, so that today he can finally study hard without thinking about Xue Sheng.