Snow country

"I think you're weird."

Hearing this, Zhang Xiao didn't raise his head, but responded with a nasal voice, and continued to focus on the curry on the plate.

"I said you are strange!!" The friend turned up the volume, and the foreign language that the people around him didn't understand attracted surprised eyes.He cleared his throat in embarrassment, and managed to calm himself down a bit.

This is the friend Xuesheng went to meet the night he left.There was no one else to talk to, so when he went out for a drink one time, Zhang Xiao also told the whole story about him and Xuesheng.It only took one day for my friend to absorb and digest that he was gay, and the attitude towards him was the same as before.

Zhang Xiao felt that the novelty was nothing more than his friend's indignant attitude.He watched his friend angrily messing with the poor plate of curry, and muttered: "I really don't know what you think! You should have hit him as early as Zhuo Jian's day! Block him! Talk to him Cut off contact! It's not you but him who is wrong! Why are you not angry at all!"

"I'm not angry." Zhang Xiao looked up and smiled, "I'm quite angry."

"Then why don't you ask for the key back?! You still let him in?! You still have a relationship with him?!" The friend's eyes widened, "Even if you are gay, you can find a better one if you dump him." Yes!"

"That's different." Zhang Xiao muttered to himself.He poured a glass of water for his friend as a flattery, but instead grinned his friend even more angrily. He looked at him as if he was looking at a middle-aged woman who had been domestically abused and not divorced, and was waiting for her husband to improve. Zhang Xiao couldn't help but bow his head. laughed.

But he knew he was different.He had long since stopped expecting Xuesheng to really like him.

He knows that friends are for his own good.He should be thankful that this friend has a relatively simple mind, thinking of games besides studying.If other people heard the complete story of him and Xuesheng, they might laugh at him for being cheap, willing to be treated as a chongqi doll and not resist at all.

But this is his story, everything can only be decided by himself.Because he is not a chongqi doll after all, he can feel joy.If someone really said that in front of him, he felt that he could seriously refute that, in fact, he only regarded Xue Sheng as a humanoid masturbation stick.

It's not as simple as being disappointed, but because he wants less, so he can feel happy very easily.

He doesn't care what other people think of him.He didn't want to apply other people's views on love to himself, and he didn't know how to express his anger.So that's fine for now.

The friend noticed his distraction, and shrugged and changed the subject: "Speaking of which, what are you going to do after graduation? Are you going back to China? Did you submit your resume here, or do you go directly to graduate school with your tutor?"

"Should be going back to China, but let's submit a resume." Zhang Xiao put down his glass and half-jokingly said, "If I get an internal offer in July and August, maybe I won't leave."

The friends who decided to stay here early were a little happy when they heard the news.He smiled and told Zhang Xiao about the wonderful interview request sent by Xinyi's company. Zhang Xiao listened, but couldn't help being a little distracted.

He knew he wanted to return home.But now that he is a senior, he really has very little time left. For some reason, he is reluctant to part with this piece of land.

"Senior, senior! You have finally come out, I have been waiting for you for a long time!"

Zhang Xiao actually didn't think about it.When he was in his junior year, he felt that he would never see Xuesheng again in his life, and he also thought about leaving the past behind and starting a new relationship.He really tried too.

For example, the younger generation with bright eyes who kept waving at him not far away.

The younger generation has no similarities with Xue Sheng.He is dark-skinned, tall and full of wild beauty.The way he smiles is reminiscent of sand, waves and sunshine, just like his favorite surfing.When he is happy, his eyes will smile crookedly, but he looks a bit silly, like a husky, he is non-aggressive and cute.

The younger generation is a straightforward person who can look into Zhang Xiao's eyes and say "I like you" very loudly.

He is very good, Zhang Xiao knows it well.Maybe before meeting Xuesheng, he actually liked this kind of big boy with bright smile and just right shyness.

However, upon hearing the younger generation's confession, Zhang Xiao, who had been faintly aware of it for a long time, took a step back, bowed slightly, and told him that he could not associate with him.

"Why are you here?" Zhang Xiao came back to his senses, and walked to the junior in two or three steps.

"I forgot to return the novel I borrowed from my senior." The junior took out a library book wrapped in a book jacket from his bag. "It's very interesting. But I didn't expect you to be able to read such a difficult book."

Zhang Xiao took it over and half-jokingly said, "Do you look down on the vocabulary of foreigners? This is also a tool for learning."

"That's not what I meant!" Afraid of being misunderstood by Zhang Xiao, the junior hurriedly waved his hands and smiled foolishly, "I actually felt miraculous while reading it, and felt like I was one step closer to the senior."

"I……"

"I know, senior doesn't like me. But liking you is my business. I want to know more about the person I like. There's nothing wrong with that." The younger generation blinked and interrupted Zhang Xiao's words, "And senior It's my friend. When senior returns to China, I will definitely go and play with senior!"

"This is all for the future." Zhang Xiao laughed, "Have you eaten yet? If there is anything you want to eat, senior invites you."

"Really! Then go eat curry!"

"You don't have to eat curry every time."

"But I only know that senior likes this...do you want to eat what I recommend?"

"I invite you to dinner, it's up to you to decide."

Isn't that great?It's just friends who can talk, and they both know that they can only be friends.

Falling in love that is destined to separate will only make people feel tired.

But Zhang Xiao didn't expect to see Xuesheng here.

He didn't know how long Xuesheng sat there.He frowned, thinking that he was hallucinating, but observing the junior's reaction sideways, he knew that it must be Xuesheng.

"Is it Senior Kitazawa?" The junior's voice was a bit gloomy, "Senior, you..."

"It's okay." Zhang Xiao interrupted the younger generation's words.His relationship with Xuesheng was only three months old, but it was well known at the time, to the point where everyone who knew Xuesheng would call him "Mrs. Dean".The younger generation who was only a year younger than him and wanted to pursue him naturally knew it too.

Suddenly meeting Xuesheng's eyes, seeing Xuesheng walking towards him with a smile, Zhang Xiao was secretly a little irritable, and unconsciously sped up his speech: "You go first. I'm sorry, I will contact you later."

The junior opened his mouth, but in the end he didn't say anything, just turned around and left silently.

"I'm on vacation for a few days, so I want to go back to school." Walking in front of him, Xue Sheng smiled.That smile was as gentle as ever, but for some reason, Zhang Xiao felt that he was not happy.

It turned out that the heirs of the inherited hospital also had vacations.Zhang Xiao thought about something irrelevant, and asked, "Senior, are you waiting for me?"

"Well, it just so happens that a junior I know told me that you are eating here." Xuesheng hesitated for a moment, but still asked, "What is your relationship with the person just now?"

Hearing this question, Zhang Xiao couldn't help but frowned: "It's just a friend."

"only friends?"

Listening to this tone, it's like asking a cheating lover.

Just like what Zhang Xiaoben should have asked Xuesheng a year ago.

Fingers clenched into fists unconsciously, Zhang Xiao bit his lip, raised his head to meet Xuesheng's eyes, sharp words rushed out without thinking: "Senior Xuesheng, what is our relationship? With our relationship, we I don't think you have any reason to ask me that."

"...Our relationship?" Xue Sheng didn't seem to expect Zhang Xiao to say that.He blinked in a daze, with obvious grievances and fragility in his eyes.

"Yes, our relationship." Zhang Xiao paused.He felt a little regretful about saying this, so he could only take a deep breath and suppress the sudden anger, "You come to Tokyo, I will let you in, I will entertain you, I feel very comfortable with you, and you are also very happy. But That's all there is to it, isn't it?"

Xuesheng's lips were murmured, as if he couldn't find anything to refute, he looked pitiful.After a long time, he answered in a daze: "But I said I like you, and you also..."

The strange thing is, seeing Xuesheng like this, Zhang Xiao didn't feel refreshed at all.He just felt as if his heart had been pricked by a needle. It didn't hurt too much, but the pain could spread to his limbs along the nerves.

At this point, it still hurts.It's outrageous.

He turned his head away, avoiding Xuesheng's gaze: "Forget it, senior, I don't want to talk to you here. It's rare for you to come to Tokyo, so let me treat you to tea. But I'm sorry, I've already eaten."

"...Do you miss me that much?"

I have said that I don't want to talk about this topic anymore, so why bother to delve into it?Zhang Xiao felt as if something was pressing on his shoulders, making him unable to breathe heavily.He finally met Shang Xuesheng's slightly red eyes—these eyes seemed a bit similar to that night.

If possible, he hopes that Xuesheng will always be just a symbol, a snow elf who can make his heart beat.

But everything is different.

"Senior, I'm tired too." Swallowing his saliva, Zhang Xiao asked again, "Are you going to drink tea?"

Xuesheng just looked at Zhang Xiao like this, and shook his head for a long time.He laughed again, that smile was obviously pretty, but it was full of complex emotions that Zhang Xiao couldn't understand: "No...you go and do your work, I'll wait for you at home."

He didn't want to speculate.

Zhang Xiao stared at Xuesheng, and after a while, he bowed to Xuesheng, turned and left.

He didn't look back, so he didn't know that Xue Sheng had been watching his back until the figure disappeared around the corner.Xuesheng sighed, and his body that stood up straight collapsed instantly.He rubbed his aching forehead, the four-hour Shinkansen made him a little uncomfortable.He stood there blankly, but he didn't know what to do with Zhang Xiao.

He knows everything is his fault.

The phone vibrated, it was his mentor.Zhang Xiao took out his phone and replied to the message, moved his fingers, and clicked on the dialog box not far away before he could react rationally.

Although they hadn't met before today, Xuesheng was not like that year. He hadn't heard from him since he returned to Akita.Just like at the beginning, Xuesheng would send some interesting things to him every day from time to time.Zhang Xiao would reply occasionally, and occasionally not. After a year, the anxiety and excitement of looking at the phone from time to time have long been worn away.

But what he was looking for was the photo that Xuesheng sent him before.

"The cherry blossoms here are also withering. Fortunately, I took a photo when it was in full bloom. I want to keep the most beautiful moment and share it with Akatsuki."

In the photo, the hanging branches are studded with pink flowers.Zhang Xiao didn't know much about the varieties of cherry blossoms, but felt that they were a little different from the ones he knew.The ones Xuesheng took are weaker, more poignant, and look more fragile.

It matches Xuesheng better.

After looking at the photos quietly for a while, Zhang Xiaocai locked the screen of the phone.He raised his head and looked around, the cherry trees had long since lost their flowers.

He thought to himself, before going home in a while, go to the convenience store to see if there is any cherry blossom flavored jelly.