Strong tease

——Being able to marry you as a wife from before to now must be what I want most in my life.

These words came from Gao Xihui's heart, so much so that her eye circles were red after she said it.

Gao Xihui was really shocked.

Today, when Su Min heard that there are many same-sex couples abroad who can marry, her first reaction was to marry Su Jing'an.

God knows how many times she has had this thought.

Give her credit.

Nurturing her in your arms.

Be your own wife for the rest of your life, and don't let anyone bully you.

When she was young, Gao Xihui was not as calm as she was later, her eyes were full of piousness and seriousness, and tears were mixed together, piercing Su Jingan's heart at once.

Su Jing'an hugged her and buried her head in her embrace, "I... Huihui, I did something before that made you unable to forgive me."

Gao Xihui hugged her tightly, "I know."

Su Jing'an suddenly raised his head and stared at her.

Gao Xihui stared into her eyes: "If something hadn't happened, you wouldn't have been worried since the hospital. You must have something to hide, right?"

In an instant, in an instant, Su Jingan's tears fell.

——You must have something to hide, right?

She believes her.

Just like 19 years ago, Su Jingan understood the way Gao Xihui looked at her in the hospital at that time, but it was her weakness and entanglement that led to today.

A night light.

Su Jing'an curled up into a ball, clutching Gao Xihui's lapel with one hand, feeling a little uneasy: "If I say...I...I'm afraid."

Gao Xihui held her hand and stretched it on her chest, "You will never lose me." She looked at Su Jingan with gentle eyes, "Back then, even if you hurt me or kept it from me, I hate you , Blame you, if we don’t meet again, am I not in love with others?”

Su Jing'an looked at her, weeping quietly.

Gao Xihui leaned forward and kissed her tears dry: "I know, from the moment I fell in love with you, I knew that in this life, no matter whether it is love or hate, as long as it is given by you, I will never let go .”

This is probably the most touching love story in the world.

The two people who used to be tortured by the years, no one dared not want to touch that painful time.

It's like a wall, blocking the two people, even if there is still love, they can't touch that barrier.

Now, Gao Xihui is as affectionate as ever when he was young, and he doesn't have so many grudges in his heart, and Su Jing'an can finally say what he has kept in his heart for so many years.

At that time, Su's mother had liver cancer, and the doctor told her family: "The most taboo thing for liver cancer patients is illness and emotional ups and downs."

Gao Xihui was in Tibet at that time, Su Jingan felt sad but dared not tell her, she knew that Gao Xihui was not used to the climate or environment there, she couldn't help much, how could she add trouble to her.What's more, only Su Jing'an knew how much effort she had put in for this quota of aid to Tibet, and it was related to her life's future.

Su Jing'an was also busy with work at that time, she always asked for leave and the boss also had opinions, and gave her embarrassment from time to time.

She traveled between hospitals and work units, and had to face her mother's sudden collapse. Later, she had no choice but to discuss with her father and asked Su's mother to move to live with her first. Her place is close to the hospital.

Before coming here, Su Jing'an specially tidied up the house, and even greeted Su's mother in advance, she shared the rent with Gao Xihui.

When going to work the next day, Su Jingan's leader at that time asked her to go to the car to help get the wine and said that she would send it to the old leader. She was not involved in the matter deeply, and she didn't understand the reasoning. .

But no one expected that something would happen to her the next day.

When the Disciplinary Committee came, Su Jing'an was stunned. The staff of the Disciplinary Committee looked at Su Jing'an in surprise. She knew Su Jing'an, "It's you."

Su Jingan looked at her blankly.

The staff of the Commission for Discipline Inspection also said very simply, "We received a real-name report saying that you gave ** 2 yuan."

2 yuan was not a small amount at that time.

Su Jing'an vetoed it straight away, and they directly took out the surveillance camera. It turned out that the money was inside the packaging of the wine bottle.

This is solid proof that Su Jing'an was suspended for investigation.

All of a sudden, the way people in the unit looked at her changed. That era was different from now, and such things were still very rare.

Su Jingan felt that the sky was gloomy for the once proud child of heaven, who was labeled as such all of a sudden, but it was the most trusted leader who plotted against her.

That night, the night was extremely cold, she was walking on the streets of Beijing, looking at the bustling crowd, she missed Gao Xihui very much.

How much she wanted to tell her her grievance now.

So what if the whole world doesn't believe her?Huihui will definitely believe her.

Back home, Su Jing'an hugged Xi'an and cried secretly for a while, she entered the house, Su's mother and Su's father looked at her and hesitated to speak.

The second elder also knew about it, but no one dared to ask any questions.

Sometimes people's fortune is like this, when one thing is unlucky, everything else follows.

Thursday.

After Su Jing'an was prescribed medicine in the hospital, she just went to the vegetable market to buy vegetables, when she received a call from her parents. They were very strict on the phone and told her to go back immediately.

Su Jingan was extremely nervous. When she got home, what she faced was the cries and roars of her parents.

I don't know who called and told the two elders about her relationship with Gao Xihui. The two elders completely collapsed. They insisted that Gao Xihui was responsible for their daughter's misfortune, and that the money was also related to her. They also suspected that her daughter was It wasn't because she put a curse on her, and her going to Tibet was also related to some sorcery.

Su Jing'an was going crazy. She had never lost her temper with her parents since she was a child, but this time, she quarreled so thoroughly that she slammed the door and left.

In the evening, she carried Xi'an and lived on the street, while Su Jingan sat in front of the bus bench, weeping silently.

Xi'an looked up at her and yelled "Meow Meow".

Chaos all night.

The next day, Su Jingan went to see Huang Lao. She could allow others to splash her dirty water, but Gao Xihui could not.

She can't be absent, and she has to be innocently slandered.

Huang Lao's students are all over the world, and Su Jing'an usually keeps a low profile and never reveals anything. No one knows that she is Huang Lao's direct disciple.

Until Mr. Huang called Su Jing'an's leader, lit a cigarette and said earnestly: "You use the 20 yuan for other purposes, so I won't say anything. I'll block the hole for you here, let alone [-] yuan." , even [-], you can't ruin the future of other people's dolls."

The other party was ashamed, "Old Huang, I... how can I let you."

Su Jingan sat quietly on the side, looking at the leader who had brought her with her since she entered the unit.

People are gone.

Huang Lao said earnestly, "It's good for you to suffer once. On this road, you must not have the intention to harm others, but you must have the intention to guard against others. Do you understand?"

Su Jingan nodded.

Huang Lao: "Go back, he doesn't dare to mess around anymore, I'll greet you at the Commission for Discipline Inspection. This matter has nothing to do with you, and you got involved not only because of you, but also because of you and Huihui relation."

Even if they are careful, no matter how cautious they are in their daily actions, the love in their eyes cannot be hidden.

Mr. Huang: "Go back, let's settle the family first."

The Su family had already become a mess. At that time, Su Pei, who had just started work, was also called back. He was in love with Yirou at this time, and he understood the relationship very well: "Parents, don't—"

Before he finished speaking, Su's mother scolded him like a dog.

Father Su was even angrier, he was so angry that he stared at Su Jing'an: "Can you break with that pervert?"

Su Jing'an looked at her and took a deep breath: "She is not a pervert, she is my lover."

As soon as the words were finished, Su's father slapped Su Jingan's face, and Su Pei shuddered, "Dad, what are you doing!!!"

Su Jing'an felt her head was buzzing, and the surrounding sounds seemed to be deaf. At that time, she didn't know that her eardrum was perforated, so she just stubbornly looked at her father.

Anger hits the heart.

Su's mother passed out and was rushed to the hospital. The doctor saw this and sighed: "I need chemotherapy."

Leaving aside the cost, the pain the old man endured is unimaginable.

But Su's mother still refused to receive treatment. She looked at Su Jing'an and said coldly, "If you don't break up with her for a day, I won't receive treatment for a day. It depends on whether you choose that pervert or the mother who gave birth to you and raised you. "

Dad Su also followed suit. He looked at Su Pei: "You have been working for a year, tell me the address of the Disciplinary Committee, or it is run by the police, I will go over and ask, I am a good daughter, Why have you been seduced by a woman after working for several years?"

Su Pei's expression changed, "Dad, are you crazy?"

This system, regardless of whether this matter is true or not, if parents make such a fuss, Su Jing'an's future will be gone.

Father Su became cruel, he looked at Su Jing'an: "If you go on like this with her for the rest of your life, I might as well not have you as a daughter and take you back to the countryside to marry. I'll give you a week to make your own decision. "

a few days.

Su Jingan lost a lot of weight, she couldn't sleep, even in her dream, seeing Gao Xihui felt her heart ache.

gray gray...

what should I do?

On the fifth day, Mr. Huang called her, and his voice was very excited: "I heard that Xiao Hui is coming back. It said that she has performed very well and has made meritorious service. This time, she will be promoted to She is really ambitious, she is the youngest female leading cadre."

hang up the phone.

Su Jingan's heart was empty, Su Pei walked over cautiously, and lowered his voice: "Sister, Dad also knows that she is coming back, and she is really going to make trouble."

Between family affection, love, and the future, he was tormented repeatedly.

She looked forward to that person.

Su Jing'an really wanted to tell her everything more than once, but she didn't dare, the words in her heart were swallowed again, she would rather die than live.

After all, she hurt her after all.

Or in the most extreme way.

After hearing what Su Jingan said, Gao Xihui was at a loss for a moment.

After so many years, so many things have happened?

Su Jingan got up and left Gao Xihui's embrace. She walked to the bedside, took out a thick notebook from the cabinet and handed it to Gao Xihui without looking her in the eyes: "This is the book I brought back from Wangchuan. You wrote... memory, here you are."

She didn't want to hide it anymore, no matter whether Gao Xihui decided to leave after seeing all this, or continued to hate her, she would admit it.

These things have been hidden in her heart for so many years, and now that she has said them out, she really feels like the big stone on her chest has been removed.

Gao Xihui didn't take the note, but stared at Su Jingan, who kept his head down.

I don't know how long it took.

Gao Xihui pushed away the note in her hand, cupped her chin with both hands very preciously, and kissed her lips lightly.

A bitter, unbelievable kiss fell on her lips like this, and landed on Su Jingan's heart. She looked at Gao Xihui blankly as if she was stupid.

shallow kiss.

Gao Xihui looked at her with tears in his eyes: "You, you silly girl."

Su Jing'an's heart ached. She looked at Gao Xihui with fear and uneasiness: "You...will you believe me?"

"Don't you believe me?" Gao Xihui asked back, she shook her head and smiled faintly: "If you really fell in love with someone else, how could you be alone for so long? Who are you waiting for? I'm afraid it's me who is 45 years old. I also know, but I just can't pass the hurdle in my heart, or I have been waiting for you to tell me. I told you, in this life, except for your words, I will not listen to anyone or believe anyone. "

Su Jing'an lowered her head and wept silently, "I'm sorry... Hui Hui, I'm sorry... it's just..." She grabbed Gao Xihui's hand and wanted to say "Don't leave", but she couldn't.

Gao Xihui wiped the tears on her face, and murmured: "I love you dearly, and I am angry with you. There is obviously love between us, An An, why did we miss 19 years..."

That night, Su Jingan curled up in Gao Xihui's arms and cried happily. She knew that even if Gao Xihui forgave her now, when she recovered, with her arrogance, she might still leave.

She was restless, curled up in a ball, clutching at the sheets.

Gao Xihui stayed with her for a long time, until late at night, she put on a dress and got up, tucked the quilt for Su Jingan, and went to the study.

Three in the morning.

When Su Jingan woke up, she didn't see anyone. She yelled "Huihui" a little bit uneasy. She didn't even have time to put on her shoes, so she looked around for Gao Xihui with her bare feet.

Finally, on the rattan chair in the study, I saw the tired and asleep man.

Her body has undergone major trauma, and it will be difficult to recover for a while, and she will get tired easily.

Su Jing'an walked over, took a coat and put it on for her. She walked to the desk and wanted to turn off the light for her, but unexpectedly saw the paper on the desk.

——On September 2019, 9, to my old self.

Old gray?Hehe, maybe I should call you that?Talk to yourself, I'm afraid I'm not schizophrenic, right?

I know that when you read this letter, you have already recovered, remembering your past, your past, all the entanglements and pains between you.

I know, I have no way to shake you when I am young, after all, I know my temper best.

But I still want to tell you, don't leave her.

No matter how angry, painful and entangled, we should think about the beginning.

Think about the girl who gave up so much for you.

Think about that shy girl who just smiles for you.

Think about the girl who secretly cried at the station.

Think of the girl who has been punished for suffering so much alone.

Think about the vows you once made to her.

If you can't forget it with all your strength, if you still think about her at the last moment of your life, then you can spend the rest of your life with her well.

If you still can't forgive, please, no matter how angry you are, don't hurt my girl, and don't say something against your will to make her cry.

After all, I love her so much now.

I'm not trying to convince you, I just know that you must still love her deeply.