Anxious

To my dearest love.

There should be such a work in the world.

Xie Songyu forgot that it was a song, an article, a poem, a letter, a small sculpture... or something else. In short, Xie Yuyue gave him something with such a name, so he often Read these words in your heart.But it's just a remembrance, after all, it was delivered very early, and Xie Songyu didn't remember what it was at all.

It should be more than ten years ago, earlier than 12 years.

Xie Songyu thought to himself, he hasn't seen Xie Yuyue for 12 years, it's been a long time.

But 12 years is actually nothing, Xie Songyu originally thought that they would never see each other again.

Xie Songyu returned to China because of a phone call from the old man. Actually, the old man was not sick, and there was nothing serious about minor surgery, but he suddenly remembered the will when he was lying on the hospital bed.Maybe people have this concern when they get older, but when they think about the will, the old man remembers that he has a son who has traveled across the ocean and has not returned for 12 years.

Xie Songyu's name is ugly and difficult to pronounce. It was originally called Songyu, and his surname was not Xie. It was the oil bottle brought by Mr. Xie's second wife.Although he is not the old man's own flesh and blood, he has to be called when the inheritance is distributed, because he is the old man's little lucky star, and he saved the old man's life when he was young.The old man is grateful to him, and feeds him with good food and drink. Xie Songyu is very filial and capable, and he is more honest than his own son Xie Yuyue. The old man sees him anywhere, of course he remembers everything, and he is also a part of the property. of.

As for the will, it was partly because the old man missed him, so he asked Xie Songyu to sit on the plane for more than ten hours, and finally saw him.

Xie Songyu knew it in his heart, and he also knew how happily the old man smiled when he saw him, even if he didn't want to come anymore, he still came.

The reason why he didn't want to come is actually very simple, that is, because of Xie Yuyue, and only because of Xie Yuyue.

Xie Yuyue is a brown candy that can't be shaken off. He provokes Xie Songyu and affects Xie Songyu's emotions. This is still the case after many years when the two have not seen each other.

Human emotions have many functions, and some of them are faintly frightening. Xie Songyu doesn't want to get stuck in it out of hand.He was too scared, he was just too scared.

But... see you anyway.

Xie Yuyue looks very different from when he was a child.

Of course, this difference is only a change in appearance. There are still shadows of childhood, but the difference is very big at first glance, and it can be seen that it is familiar after a long time.His personality hasn't changed, it's just as difficult as before - it's the kind of personality that Xie Songyu can't handle, and even worse.

Xie Songyu leaned on the sofa at home, unconsciously thinking about Xie Yuyue.By the time he realized it, the watch had gone from four o'clock to 04:30.Xie Songyu sighed secretly, stretched out his hand and patted his face lightly, and decided not to think about it anymore.

After all, they hadn't seen each other for a month after that day.Looking at it this way, in fact, there is no need for them to have any contact. 12 years, how long, no one will remember the previous things for so long, maybe after two days after dinner with the old man, they will never see each other again .

Xie Songyu lay on the sofa for a while, turned over, his house is quite big, and there are many vacant places, it looked like nothing before, but now he feels a little inexplicably lonely, as if someone else is needed here.

Maybe it's just living alone for a long time. People who live alone will occasionally hope that they will be accompanied by someone. This is human instinct.Xie Songyu told herself so, then slowly closed her eyes and fell asleep.

In the dream, there was an erratic voice, saying, brother—brother—does he also like me so much that he can’t help it?

Xie Songyu forgot who he was, and he didn't remember what he said in the dream, but the voice laughed, so happy, and approached him, touched him, and touched his cheek.

Xie Songyu didn't know who it was, but he liked it very much because he didn't feel disgusted or struggled.

——To, my dearest you.

To my beloved you, to my beloved brother.

The little voice was reading word by word, it was a memory that had been dusty for a long time. The child stood on the podium and read, and the "brother" passing by the bed was called and stopped.

My brother, he can cook delicious dishes, my brother can do housework, my brother can give me delicious food, he can teach me to do my homework...

The child read a long string of "my brother", but the last paragraph said "hate" - "but I hate him, I hate him for being nice to others, I hate him kissing my mother and not kissing me, I hate... "

Brother, I hate you so much.

How can you be so nice to others?

You kiss me too?

why not?I loved you so much.

I loved you so much!why go? !

Thank you Songyu, thank you Songyu, thank you Songyu! !

……

Xie Yuyue's voice became clearer and closer, he pushed through the clouds and stood in front of Xie Songyu.But the questioning just now disappeared, and he looked at Xie Songyu with a very sad expression, but said in his mouth——

Brother, you can be my wife, okay?

Xie Songyu opened his eyes suddenly.

……

...Fortunately, it was a dream.

Xie Songyu's heart was beating "thump-thump-thump", as if he didn't wear a red scarf at school or didn't know why he didn't finish his homework the day before, and the teacher walked up to him step by step, panic and confusion filled the whole place. face.

Xie Songyu is a good boy, he has never had this kind of experience, and his fear will be magnified, although the current Xie Songyu will not be affected by such trivial things.

But fortunately, there is nothing, these are all fake, they are all just dreams.

Xie Songyu was lying sideways on the sofa, his face was facing the back of the sofa, his back was exposed in the air, he felt uneasy, the coolness behind him made him feel insecure at all, but he didn't want to turn around and saw the empty Home would frighten him even more.

The current Xie Songyu is the fragile Xie Songyu. This is the fragility of human nature, the kind of fragility that erupts once every few years.

Lying down like this, Xie Songyu's tears flowed all over his face.

He didn't know why he was crying, but the night was so long, it was still blurred.