Anxious

In the room, old man Xie was chatting with An Qingshui, and he didn't know what to say so happily, the old man was so happy that he couldn't close his mouth from ear to ear.

Xie Yuyue pushed open the door, revealed his head, narrowed his eyes, and said sweetly, "Huh? Whose family's old fairy descended to earth?"

"Xiaoyue, come," the old man greeted him, "come in."

Xie Yuyue walked in, followed by Xie Songyu.

The old man smiled and said, "Xiaoyue, I was talking about you with Qing Shui."

"Speaking of me? What are you two talking about me again?"

"You've been busy all day long, and you don't know how to come back to see me. Qing Shui is so angry." The old man just laughed, "Look at you."

"Him? He's so happy," Xie Yuyue pulled up a stool, sat next to him, and said nonchalantly, "An Qingshui, didn't he expect me to rush around and kick me as your own son?" , don’t be active.”

"Wow, Yu Yue..." An Qingshui's eyes widened, "What nonsense are you talking about, you have a vicious heart..."

"...a guy with a vicious heart," Xie Yuyue bit the words "vicious with a vicious heart" evenly, completely overwhelming An Qingshui, "You are my real brother, I even know what you want to say."

The old man just laughed.

I don't know why, as long as it is in front of family members and acquaintances, Xie Yuyue never takes the initiative to talk to Xie Songyu, and he doesn't even look at him. Instead, he always finds him unhappy and says "brother" everywhere. It is also a strange tone, which makes people feel uncomfortable.

An Qingshui glanced at Xie Songyu quickly, the seat Xie Songyu was sitting on was occupied by Xie Yuyue, so he could only stand aside, even though he didn't have any uncomfortable reaction, but no matter what he said, he was the eldest son of Mr. Xie , shouldn't be standing by and waiting like that new Assistant Liu.

An Qingshui stood up, smiled at Xie Songyu, and said: "There are small shops in this hospital, I'm going downstairs to buy something to drink, and I want to drink something sweet. Brother Song, don't stand there either." Come on, sit here."

As soon as he finished speaking, he walked out, Assistant Liu and the lawyer followed.

An Qingshui ran fast, and went out before a few people could speak. Xie Yuyue twitched the corner of her mouth, apparently scolding him in her heart.

The house immediately became quiet, and there were only three of Xie's father and son left. The embarrassment was like the smell of a burnt pot. Although it couldn't be seen, it did permeate.

Mr. Xie didn't seem to feel the embarrassment. He glanced at his two sons and said, "You two brothers haven't seen each other for many years."

Xie Yuyue only looked at Xie Songyu at this time, he closed his eyes slightly, and then smiled: "No, I haven't seen my brother for a long time, and I always want to eat his dishes. I haven't eaten since high school. How did you eat it, I really think about it."

Xie Songyu didn't know if he listened or not, so he nodded, "Well, I haven't been back for a long time."

"It didn't take long," the old man said, "didn't Songyu come back to see me during the Chinese New Year? Don't look at my father's old age. I remember many things clearly. You two children, what's the matter, my father's heart clear."

Xie Yuyue blinked: "Yes, Dad is right."

Xie Yuyue's heart was as bright as a mirror, and he remembered 12 years ago, the old man suddenly asked Xie Songyu if he wanted to go abroad.

Xie Songyu was a sophomore at that time, during the summer vacation, just after returning home, Xie Yuyue was waiting at the door, thinking that as soon as he came back, he would pounce on him and hug him.He knew earlier that it was Xie Songyu who was picked up by his father. At that time, Xie Yuyue had just confessed his love to him. Maybe there was something wrong in his heart. Xie Songyu was afraid that his father would find out about their affairs, so he was always very nervous when he was at home.

Xie Yuyue couldn't be more clear about Xie Songyu's mood, so he was waiting for that time. He just wanted to scare Xie Songyu. In fact, his brother couldn't tell when he was frightened, but if Xie Yuyue hung on him, he would It was noticeable that the muscles in his back were stiff.

Xie Yuyue likes this, and also likes to touch his back, feel the ups and downs and tremors of his muscles, which has been tried and tested.

But that day, Xie Yuyue couldn't wait for them to come in.

Just at the door, Xie Songyu said "OK".

He wanted to go abroad, so people asked him very suddenly, and people answered him without any hesitation, and with a casual sentence, he settled the affairs of his life.And when Dad Xie and Xie Songyu went home and kept silent about this matter, they would be able to keep Xie Yuyue's secrets to themselves.

When Xie Yuyue found out, Xie Songyu was about to leave, and he didn't have time to stop it.

Originally going abroad is not something that never sees each other, but Xie Yuyue has no idea in his heart. He knows that he is too annoying, and he also knows the many concerns in his brother's heart. Their way of getting along will always be Xie Yuyue looking for Xie Songyu, Go after Xie Songyu.Xie Songyu has always been passive, he never said the word "like" at any time, once he left, Xie Yuyue felt that there was a deep ditch between them, unreachable.

But Xie Yuyue is not a good person, even a younger brother can't be a good younger brother, he is not well-behaved, and he is not obedient, he clearly knows all this, as long as he lets go of Xie Songyu, he can be relieved and go on the right path, but he doesn't, he I have Xie Songyu in my heart, but I also have myself.Only two people exist together, that is the only correct answer.

As Xie Songyu said, Xie Yuyue, you are a devil.

On the day of parting, Xie Yuyue pulled Xie Songyu by the collar, sat on him, pressed him on the head of the bed, and asked him over and over again——Xie Songyu, how dare you leave me, how dare you...

Finally he asked him, Xie Songyu, are you still coming back.

But Xie Songyu didn't speak.The answer is very clear, it is the one that Xie Yuyue disagrees with the most.

"when are you leaving?"

Xie Yuyue was startled, the voice suddenly rang in his ears, and he came back to his senses, only to realize that it was Mr. Xie who was asking Xie Songyu.

"Next month." Xie Songyu replied without hesitation, it seemed that it was already scheduled.

Xie Yuyue heard the answer and looked up at Xie Songyu. They sat on both sides of the bed, facing each other, but no one could see what was going on in each other's mind.When Xie Yuyue found out by himself, he was already in a cold sweat. He recalled things from a long time ago. This memory was too long and affected him too much.

It was his nightmare for the past 12 years. The Xie Songyu in the dream was even more ruthless than the one in front of him, and it always made Xie Yuyue wake up in the middle of the night.

"Well," the old man nodded, then turned to look at Xie Yuyue, "Xiaoyue, what about you?"

"Me? What me?"

"Schedule," Xie Songyu said succinctly, "Please invite Dad to dinner."

"Oh." Xie Yuyue understood that Xie Songyu would indeed go out to treat the old man to a meal when he returned to China. This is his filial piety that he has not been around all year round, and cannot be exhausted.In previous years, the two of them would never meet, probably avoiding them on purpose, but this year—Xie Songyu came back because the old man said that he was "very ill", but now it seems to be false—so the two are not related The brothers just met.

"Then—" Xie Yuyue wanted to say, "Please dad, what do you want me to do", but he immediately thought that this was probably brought up by the old man. There are only three of them in this family. The old man is actually not in good health and is getting old , their family just get together once less.So he said, "When? I can do it."

Mr. Xie smiled gratifiedly, and said: "Then just listen to your brother, he will make arrangements."

Xie Songyu nodded.

Speaking of this time, An Qingshui, who went down to buy water, also came back. Xie Songyu told Xie Yuyue after watching the time, and Assistant Liu wrote down the day of eating, and adjusted the schedule for Xie Yuyue.

An Qingshui gave everyone a bottle of water, and afterward, the old man made a will, and the lawyer wrote it down.After everything was done, it was almost eight o'clock, and the hospital could only leave one family member at night. Xie Yuyue didn't stay in the hospital overnight, and called the aunt at home to take care of the old man.

After sending all the people away, only Xie Yuyue and Xie Songyu were left at the gate of the hospital.

Xie Yuyue exhaled slowly under the dim streetlights. Recently, the weather is not cool in autumn. Only at this time is it okay. There is no sun, at least it is not too hot.

Xie Yuyue called him: "Brother Xiao Yuzi?"

He was laughing when he said this. To be honest, Ben San’s pretending to be tender seems to make people feel disgusting, but Xie Yuyue didn’t feel that way when he said this. A demon to confuse others.

Xie Songyu didn't ignore his reasons, so he said "um", which was regarded as a response.

"Now? Where are you going?" Xie Yuyue pointed to the car not far away, "Shall I take you?"

Xie Songyu glanced at his finger and shook his head: "No, I have my own car..."

"Then give me a ride." Xie Yuyue took two steps forward, asked where his car was, and said, "Assistant Liu has gone back, I think you will take me in a car, if that's the case, then I'll take you. "

"What about your car? Why don't you drive away?" Xie Songyu wanted to say, "You can call a substitute driver", but Xie Yuyue's reply was too fast, and he couldn't say it.

"Brother, don't dislike me," Xie Yuyue smiled, "You don't miss me so much? I miss you so much."

So familiar.

This sentence, this smile, brought Xie Songyu back to 20 years ago so suddenly.

Eight-year-old Xie Yuyue is very annoying. He is an age that even dogs hate. He tears up Xie Songyu's homework, freezes him with cold feet when he sleeps, stuffs snow into Xie Songyu's collar, and uses it in spring. He threw flowers at Xie Songyu. It was the first time he knew there was a festival like Songkran and splashed water on him. Xie Songyu fell, knocked, and caught a cold for him. He was trained by school teachers... and received many unnecessary experiences. suffering.

This kind of Xie Yuyue is a devil, Xie Songyu was crying in the quilt, he was ten years old, and he didn't cry much when his mother died, but Xie Yuyue was so angry that he shed tears every day.

Xie Songyu hated Xie's father for a while, thinking that if he hadn't married his mother, he wouldn't have known Xie Yuyue.But when he grows up later, this childish hatred will dissipate, Xie Songyu has to save his energy to deal with Xie Yuyue, and he can't tell other thoughts.

Xie Yuyue is very good at coaxing people. After he is mischievous, he will hug Xie Songyu, kiss Xie Songyu's eyes like his mother, rub his face, and then say some worthless "I'm sorry", and swear to protect him , Never mess with him again.

Xie Songyu is a soft-hearted person and easily deceived, so he is often fooled.

Perhaps, a man in his early 30s is a man in his prime, always looking back, not very inspirational, not passionate, always somewhat depressed and indecisive.Xie Songyu has heard a saying, saying yes, only when the present is not good enough, people always think about the past-because the past is better than the present, if a hero has a present to brag about, he will definitely not stay in the courage of the past.

Xie Songyu didn't know if it was right or not, it seemed reasonable, but he also felt that this was a very one-sided idea.

Xie Songyu's life is better than before. He is handsome, free, rich, and can be regarded as a member of the upper class of society, but he still always thinks of the past.Time can heal all pain and heal the knots that were once entangled, so Xie Songyu should shake hands with Xie Yuyue and make peace, brother and friend.

But he can't do it, the more he can't do it, the more he thinks about the past, but the more he thinks about it, the more he can't let go.

However, this makes no sense, does it?

Xie Songyu has no reason to indulge in the past.

Therefore, he shouldn't soften his heart when he heard Xie Yuyue say "miss him" as before.

Xie Songyu thinks that if a person can remember the trivial things for 20 years, then the matter itself is no longer trivial.This is a battle, which belongs to Xie Songyu alone, and can only be regarded as winning with one purpose-that is to forget Xie Yuyue, completely, completely, and let this become a real trivial matter, which will disappear with time. Never bother yourself.