Anxious

Xie Songyu didn't want to care about what he didn't agree with, his fear was real, he couldn't stand other people's eyes, and he couldn't bear it many years ago, that rainy night, when he just came home, he was looking forward to and nervous about seeing Xie Yuyue , what his stepfather said.

That was the day Xie Songyu came back by plane. His school was on holiday. When he came out of the airport, Mr. Xie was waiting for him.At that time, Mr. Xie was full of energy. He was between middle age and old age, and he seemed to have a vicissitudes of shrewdness.

He talked a lot with Xie Songyu. He once casually said to Xie Songyu, "Yue said he was waiting for you at home." From observing Xie Songyu's reaction, he had already begun to doubt.

Xie Songyu was taken aback for a moment.

At that time, Xie Yuyue had already had a lot of fun. He would watch Xie Songyu in the video, talk to him while doing it, or suddenly hold his breath and say "I'm here" hoarsely when talking with him.

If two people meet, Xie Yuyue will force him, but this is also when Xie Songyu's own will is not firm, and the gun goes off, young people, it's normal.

But Mr. Xie knew that it was abnormal. Xie Songyu thought he was living under someone else's fence, and he didn't want to make troubles. He was afraid that Mr. Xie would call him cheap and drive him out.His mother's will is to let him stay at home, be filial to Mr. Xie, and get along well with his younger brother. Xie Songyu sometimes dreams of his mother. When he closes his eyes, he feels that fear is tormenting him, and everyone spurns him.

Who made——he fell in love with his stepbrother.

So at this moment, Xie Yuyue said that he disagreed, Xie Songyu thought, so what if he disagrees?

Xie Songyu has too many scruples and persistence.

Xie Songyu was silent for a while, and he said, "Go out first."

Xie Yuyue originally had something to say, but he didn't want Xie Songyu to be too uncomfortable, so he went out anyway.The door was closed, and Xie Songyu was the only one in the small environment. He thought for a long time, washed his face, and waited for the redness on his face to fade before coming out.

As soon as he walked out the door, the toilet door moved, Xie Songyu turned his head, Luo Zishu and his son Xiao Luo were following him, Xie Songyu touched Xiao Luo's head, Xiao Luo lay down, stretched his legs straight, his stomach Googling.

Xie Songyu picked up Xiao Luo and walked towards Luo Zishu.

Xie Yuyue, who was pretending to be good at it, was talking to Luo Zishu. When he saw Xie Songyu coming out, he stared at him. Xie Songyu sat down, and Luo Zishu asked the two of them if they wanted to go out for dinner.

It was meal time, so Xie Songyu nodded.

They went to a small restaurant nearby, and Luo Zishu said that the braised fish head here was delicious, so he insisted on treating them.

The three sat down, Luo Zishu introduced the dishes and asked Xie Yuyue what he wanted to eat.

Xie Yuyue said: "Just ask my brother directly, I love whatever he likes to eat."

Xie Songyu: "..."

Luo Zishu said "Oh", "What does brother Yu eat?"

Xie Songyu casually reported the names of a few dishes, and Luo Zishu ordered them all.

During the dinner, Luo Zishu chatted with them. He didn't know what to say, and the topic came to Xie Songyu's childhood. Luo Zishu said, "Brother Yu, this person is actually quite strange."

Xie Yuyue became interested: "How do you say?"

"I hated him very much before," Luo Zishu drank some wine. "He was too shy, very difficult, and too quiet. When I was a child, I thought it was difficult to play together, so I didn't want to talk to him."

Xie Yuyue smiled: "Yes, I felt the same way when I first met him."

As he said so, he squeezed Xie Songyu's hand under the table.

Xie Songyu pulled his hand, but he squeezed it tightly.

"But now, I finally know what a human is." Luo Zishu shouted again, "Humans are self-cultivation! Self-cultivation! Come! Brother, I respect you."

Xie Songyu raised his glass and touched Luo Zishu, feeling bored.

He rarely drank like this. When he was alone before, he was most afraid that no one would take him back when he was drunk, but today is fine, happy today, and Xie Yu is here, so he always feels that he is not alone.

Xie Songyu forgot to draw his hand, Xie Yuyue turned over his five fingers, inserted/entered his fingers, and interlocked his fingers: "Brother, do you respect me?"

Xie Songyu paused for a second, then clinked glasses with him.Xie Songyu's face turned pink after drinking, and when he felt that his stomach was so hot that he couldn't breathe, he would raise his head slightly, as if he could breathe smoothly this way, so Xie Yuyue succeeded, looking at his beautiful neck and smiling.

Luo Zishu was about to go to the bathroom after drinking for a while. He was not too drunk at this time, so he went to the bathroom by himself. Seeing that he was gone, Xie Yuyue leaned on Xie Songyu's shoulder like a rascal, and said, "I miss you."

Xie Songyu let out a "hmm", and then he reacted as if after um, and said, "Aren't we all together these days?"

"Then I miss you too," Xie Yuyue closed his eyes and smiled, as if talking nonsense, "I miss you kissing me."

"..." Xie Songyu ignored him, but he didn't push him away either, letting Xie Yuyue rest on his shoulder.In fact, it was a little painful, Xie Yuyue was pillowed on the bone, but Xie Songyu didn't say anything.

"Brother, do you know? I hated you when I was a child."

Xie Yuyue was alone, and was not taken seriously in this family. At this time, a new mother and a new brother came, Xie Yuyue would not like him.There was a sense of crisis in the child's heart, and they even wanted to snatch away his bad father who didn't care much about him.

Xie Yuyue bullied Xie Songyu, and every time he bullied or teased him, his anxiety would leave for a short time. Xie Yuyue has been relying on provoking Xie Songyu to calm his sense of crisis.

So he fell.

Now I have to drag Xie Songyu along.

He said: "Brother, you don't know, when I bullied you, I liked you."

Xie Songyu's fingertips moved, he lowered his head, and said softly, "Really?"

"But you didn't like me back then."

Xie Songyu let out a "hmm".

"You liked me after you slept with me."

Xie Songyu shook his head and touched his forehead: "You drank too much."

"I'm not wrong." Xie Yuyue smiled, opened his eyes, and looked up at him, his eyes were clear, "Brother, you are the kind that people say, your body is more honest than your mouth."

He hooked the corner of his mouth and said in a low voice, "I want to touch your dishonest mouth."

Xie Yuyue leaned forward, but Xie Songyu avoided it first. He blushed, not sure if it was because he was teased or because he was drinking, but he was not angry: "Xie Yuyue, be honest."

"I don't, I like my brother the most," Xie Yuyue hung on him like a child, "No one likes him better than me."

Xie Songyu lowered his eyes, his heart was drunk with wine.