Anxious

Xie Songyu was awakened by the glare of the light. He slept very deeply this time. He thought he had slept until dawn, but when he opened his eyes, he realized it was the light.

This is Xie Songyu's former bedroom. He was inexplicably familiar with this light. He got up and turned off the light after waiting for a while. He had tossed with Xie Yuyue for too long last night. Unbearably sleepy, Xie Songyu fell asleep while Xie Yuyue cleaned him up.

Xie Songyu can actually stay up late. When he was the busiest at work, he slept on and off for less than eight hours in three days.It's okay to sleep late.But last night, I couldn't even lift my eyelids, so that I couldn't remember how I was put back to bed by Xie Yuyue, how I slept, and where Xie Yuyue slept...all these trivial things can't be remembered.

He turned off the light, and lay back in the dim environment, with the soft quilt gently touching his face, thinking in his heart, this quilt has not been used for so long, why is there no damp smell on it.

After a while, he slowly fell asleep again.

Xie Yuyue didn't open the door very loudly, he just went out to use the toilet.

It's past five in the morning, Xie Yuyue lived alone for too long, and when he woke up, he forgot that Xie Songyu was by his side, so he turned on the light, and when he came back, he was a little sober, and then he remembered what happened yesterday.

A bag bulged up on the bed, and two legs protruded from that bag. Looking up, half of the face was raised on the pillow, and the rest was hidden under the quilt. Xie Songyu closed his eyes, his eyelashes moved slightly, as if he was sleeping soundly It was very light, but the rising and falling breathing seemed to be in a dream.

Such a jade-like person became more and more hazy under the dim light of the room, making him appear somewhat indescribable.

Xie Yuyue wiped his nose subconsciously, but fortunately, there was nothing.

Xie Yuyue went to bed lightly, pulled the quilt slightly, and covered Xie Songyu's stomach, then lay down by herself, rubbed next to Xie Songyu, touched him with the quilt, and naturally reached out to wrap him around him.After Xie Songyu moved a bit and got used to Xie Yuyue's approaching, Xie Yuyue stretched his legs over and hugged Xie Songyu like a koala. Xie Songyu seemed to wake up for a moment, but soon fell asleep again .

Xie Yuyue was a little confused at first, after all, it was not yet dawn, but Xie Songyu was lying beside him, and he couldn't fall asleep.

He hugged Xie Songyu, smelled Xie Songyu's smell, closed his eyes, his nose told others that he was back, opened his eyes, and his eyes told him the same. I will thank Songyu, and then Xie Songyu for a while, trying to repeatedly confirm that the temperature and smell are real.

Xie Yuyue was also like this when he was young. He is actually not a few years younger than Xie Songyu. In Xie Songyu's eyes, his peers are all junior high school students. Everyone may be a little middle school, but they are all rebellious, especially boys. I always like to go in the opposite direction, and brothers and sisters seem to be special exceptions, and there is no way to be particularly close.

Although it can't be generalized, everyone around Xie Songyu is like this.

Xie Songyu is an only child. After his father died, he was the only one in the family. Loneliness is certain, but it is impossible to have brothers and sisters with the same blood as him. Xie Songyu never thought that he would have brother.

At this time, Xie Yuyue appeared.

Xie Yuyue is not the kind of brother Xie Songyu imagined, he is neither cool nor mischievous, on the contrary, Xie Yuyue is actually very good at first glance.He is the kind of person who is not interested and unfamiliar, and will choose to pretend, because there is no intersection in the first place, and of course there is no need for in-depth understanding.Xie Yuyue will not cut himself out for others to see.

The first time Xie Songyu met, of course it was such an illusion.

Xie Yuyue is also good-looking. His good looks are different from Xie Songyu's. Xie Songyu is a very well-behaved little boy at first sight. He was not tall at that time, so he sat there and ate quietly, my lord He likes such well-behaved children, and Xie Yuyue is the kind who smiles and says cute things. He looks at Xie Songyu with a smile, and then says "Brother, hello", and secretly said to Xie Songyu, "You want to Be my brother", like a beautiful porcelain doll.

Xie Yuyue is an extremely aggressive and hurtful kind of good-looking.

Later, when he became familiar with Xie Songyu, he would always bother Xie Songyu, saying, "Brother, help me pour me a glass of water", "Brother, help me read the questions", "Brother, please sleep with me"...as long as He said so, most of Xie Songyu would satisfy him.

Later, Xie Songyu was eaten to death by Xie Yuyue, and later...

Xie Yuyue thought about it for a long time, and also watched it for a long time. Xie Songyu didn't know if he felt such a strong gaze in his sleep, or what dream he had for it.

Xie Yuyue wanted to ask him and wake him up.

So Xie Yuyue sat up, touched Xie Songyu's face, and bent down/body to kiss him.

Xie Songyu's lips looked cold because he had no expression, but Xie Yuyue knew what kind of temperature it was as soon as he put it on - the slightly cool skin was in the hot and humid breath.

Xie Yuyue pressed the tip of his tongue against his lips, and after Xie Songyu moved, he held his face with his hands and kissed him deeply.

Xie Songyu's oxygen was quickly eaten away by Xie Yuyue, he finally hummed as if he couldn't stand it, then woke up from the dream, stretched out his hand to push Xie Yuyue uncomfortable.

Xie Yuyue separated a little, and when Xie Songyu took a breath, he pushed himself down again. He was alone, but let Xie Songyu drown and struggle.

But the feeling of suffocation didn't last long. Xie Yuyue straddled Xie Songyu, propped himself up with his arms, watched Xie Songyu panting heavily, and laughed at him: "Why don't you breathe through your nose, brother, you are so stupid."

Xie Songyu seldom has this kind of experience. He has put a person in his heart for too long. He cannot accept the closeness of others, and of course he has no experience.He looked at Xie Yuyue, and after a few seconds he said, "...I won't."

Xie Yuyue raised his eyebrows: "Why not?"

Xie Songyu didn't answer him, of course he knew that Xie Yuyue had a lover, he was not jealous, but just felt uncomfortable, how could he be like Xie Yuyue?They have seen many different people, and there is a huge river with a length of 12 years in the middle.

Xie Songyu didn't speak, but took a long breath of relief, turned slightly sideways under Xie Yuyue's confinement, and closed his eyes as if he was extremely sleepy.

Seeing this, Xie Yuyue bit his ear, licked his earlobe wet, and then whispered: "Are you angry?"

Xie Songyu shook his head: "No."

"I only love you."

Xie Songyu didn't answer, he couldn't answer this kind of question.

If last night was wandering, how did they get along when they were sober?keep mistake?Pretend to be confused?Or pretend nothing happened and that's it?

Xie Songyu didn't know, and couldn't give a clear answer, but he was very clear about one thing, that is, Xie Yuyue himself would never be the one who solved the answer, he would only create problems.

Xie Songyu finally chose to escape, he said: "I'm hungry."

Xie Yuyue just laughed and said, "You don't answer my words, and you still want to beg for food from me?"

He reached into the quilt, touched Xie Songyu's shoulders, and stopped on his chest. Xie Songyu let out a low hum. Chin kiss, murmured in his ear: "I only love you."

Xie Songyu was in the mist that could not be seen clearly, he listened to these words in a daze, felt the strength of Xie Yuyue on his body, and while trembling, he shed tears and thought to himself, I love you a little too.

But he dared not speak out.

Having said that, some things are different.

Although Xie Songyu himself knew how smudged and useless his behavior was, he still didn't say it, and swallowed these words in the sound of the tide, like a wax ball filled with secrets, hiding in his body , Let this secret slip through the eyes of the "enemy", and it is best never to see the light of day.

Xie Songyu's tears flowed in his hair, Xie Yuyue kissed and kissed that wet track, and the two finally completed it in a sticky atmosphere.

Xie Yuyue pressed on Xie Songyu and asked him: "Do you love me?"

Xie Songyu didn't answer, but when Xie Yuyue was looking for his lips, he leaned forward. He was also a bit overbearing, and needed tenderness and caress after the end.

Xie Yuyue hid for a while, looked at Xie Songyu's wet eyes, kissed him briefly, and said, "It doesn't matter if you don't say it, you will always say it."

He smiled, Xie Songyu's most common kind of smile, cheerful, sly, and with an aggressive winning ticket.

Xie Songyu is most afraid of his smile, because it won't take long for Xie Songyu to let Xie Yuyue get his wish.It doesn't matter whether his wish is a good thing or a bad thing, and it doesn't matter how much Xie Songyu has to lose and bear during the whole process of his wish.

Xie Songyu and Xie Yuyue embraced each other. He hugged Xie Yuyue, rubbed the tip of his nose against Xie Yuyue's temple hair, and said softly: "I, I won't say. I don't want to..." His voice was nasal, like a bird suffering The wronged little animal.

Xie Yuyue gave a "hmm" and said magnanimously: "Then don't say it, just think about it in your heart."

Xie Songyu stopped shaking his head, the aftertaste faded, he was hungry and sleepy.