【Hammer Base】Forever in Love Underwater

Thor Odinson gently sat down on the chair beside the bed, gently rested his elbows on his thighs, and bent down slightly - there was no such movement pattern of "slightly" in his body, he was heavy, Rebuke, willful.But in front of the sleeping Loki, he seemed to be thrown into outer space, his whole body lost the pull of gravity, his hands and feet were flimsy, and he didn't need any strength.His thinking is also like a glass of water sprinkled in the universe, slowly stagnating and wriggling, unable to distinguish east, west, north, south, and not knowing where to flow.

On the most turbulent battlefield, he has never been so turbulent.The cowardice of a fearless hero often occurs at the bedside of his sweetheart.

He didn't know how long it had been—he stared blankly at Loki's hand resting on the bed sheet, lost in thought—he didn't know how long it had been, the doctors and nurses came in and out, changed their medicines, finished shifts, He was still sitting, with his head bowed, silent, like a statue of a mournful god.His whole body was full of knotted muscles, which were originally a proof of his strength, but at this moment, they all became a mockery of his powerlessness.

What should he do?He could make Loki a star and take him home.He can arrange a bedroom for Loki in the brand new Asgard - he has lingered in it secretly for a long time, and he can copy every detail to perfection.He could take Loki home and let him sleep in his bed.He could do everything as quickly as possible except pluck the moon.

He's a god, so there will be moons too, it just takes more time and energy, as long as Loki is patient and waits for him—

But what if Loki decides not to wait?He can force the stars to change their orbits, but he can't force Loki to change his mind - Loki would rather let go of his hand and let himself fall from the rainbow bridge, into the boundless void, than let him change himself, affect himself .He said that if you leave him, you will leave him.He said he was going to die, he was going to die.

How can he be so capricious?

What can God do with a wayward person?

he does not know.

Loki is tall, tough, smart and cunning, and has long been in the shrine. He was originally a strong character; but there is always a gloomy stubbornness in his expression, as if he has been silently enduring huge disappointment and grievances, and he may collapse anytime and anywhere.His sharper and sharper sharpness comes at the expense of self-polished thinness; his flash of cold light scares the hearts of his enemies, as well as Thor's hearts—he's afraid he'll snap and shatter suddenly.

He has been fighting with this kind of fear for more than 1000 years, like holding a sick and broken baby bird in his palm; he dare not put his hands together, for fear that he will crush Nabubu's heartbeat lightly or heavily; Let go—he was afraid that if he let go, the poor little thing would die in the cold wind.

Longing for someone like Loki is like being on the brink of a war that could break out at any moment.Their father said that a king should not start wars, but should always be ready for war; so he was already a good king.He has longed for Loki for hundreds of years, and he has prepared for the battle with all his strength for hundreds of years: he is ready to resist the sharp blade at any time, and he has long been prepared to die without bones.Whether Loki wants to kill him, or love him, he can fight.

But Loki never actually murdered him.He put on a vicious look and threatened to kill the gods, but in the end he was only willing to gesticulate at him with a knife.

Loki had never really loved him either.He paced up and down beside him, tilted his head to look at him, talked softly and lazily, and looked at him with twinkling eyes - he was more proficient in "seduction" than the most seasoned romantic master Art, however, does not stop there.He teased him, scratched him, tickled him, then withdrew his hand and politely called him brother.He's confused - is Loki hinting, seducing him?Or is he born to be such a stunner, so graceful and careless towards everyone?

His love and hate are all fanfare, but they are all bluffs.Maybe it's all just a game - he loves watching Thor confused and nervous, he loves watching the omnipotent god panic and run away because of him, and laugh.

How he wishes Loki could make a real move.It doesn't matter if you stab him with a knife, or kiss him with your head up, even if it's just to bite him with all your strength - he wants more than once to settle the dust quickly.

But when the dust settled for him, Loki said "I'm going to die".

He smiled at him, as if very pleased with the ending.He swayed and then fell into the arms of God—he was so light—how could he be so light?He was like a bird whose flesh and bones have been boiled dry in the air, finally willing to land and perch once.But Thor catches him like he's lifted a heavy weight.God suddenly couldn't stand; he hugged him tightly, staggered, and suddenly fell to his knees on the battlefield billowing with gunpowder smoke.

Blood and tears hung on the tip of his nose.He didn't even have the strength to look up.

—He looked up, looking at the machines attached to Loki's body.God's attitude towards life is somewhat absurd and poetic. They divination fate and utter prophecy, like looking up at the clouds to speculate on the weather, but they don't make extra efforts on life and death.But Zhongting people have a pragmatic and sincere attitude towards life. They believe that life can be measured, and everything is in those big and small numbers.

Now Loki's life is in those numbers and curves, and Thor has become the first god in the world who can read an electrocardiogram; holding Loki's case log, pointing his fingers at those numbers, lowering his head, carefully identifying , analyzing in bewilderment; he bowed his knees before death like a mortal.

Loki's heartbeat was slow and chaotic.Get stronger, get weaker.Between strength and weakness, there is a long silence.

His breathing sounded the same way when he was little.Get stronger, get weaker.Between strong and weak, there is often a suffocating hiss. Thor lowered his head and kissed his flustered little mouth, and he let out a long breath of relief, as if he had finally poked his head out of the rushing water.He knew what people said about Loki: they said he was putting on airs at a young age, trying to get extra love and treasure. Thor finds this strange: what is extra love?He takes whatever he wants from his younger brother, there is no prescribed share, so there is no extra to speak of; he puts his love and treasure in front of Loki, like a mortal who wants to please a god, but is afraid of giving too little or too much No countertops, it looks shabby.

He wanted Loki to understand that he didn't just love him for this - he loved him a lot, but he still didn't know how to put this invisible thing into his hands - even now, he still didn't find out.He is a god, but he is too young; young gods, like young people, need to suffer through some things before they can be enlightened.

He kisses Loki for a long time, like a dying man with his mouth.Sometimes he kisses the hair on the top of his head and breathes in the faint, immature aroma of milk on his body.Sometimes he kissed his little hands and feet, like kissing soft flower buds.He kissed his little belly, making him tickle and giggle.He hugged his younger brother's weak and limp body like he was hugging a cloud that is hot and cold, fearing that the cloud will turn into rain-they are still young and don't know what is measured and decent, but the other people in the fairy palace I understand.They want to make the touch between brothers more measured and decent, but Thor doesn't do it.He punched away the Golden Palace guard who was trying to hug Loki with his small, cannonball-like fist - he rarely loses his temper like that.

Getting Loki to eat is more difficult than getting Loki to breathe.He refused to swallow, he cried loudly. Thor sees himself as Loki's special set of cutlery; of course, they can't do that in front of people - he just can't figure out where and why all those "can'ts" and "can'ts" come from?He feeds Loki mouth to mouth; he melts the corners of the candy in his mouth, and stuffs the round sweetness into Loki's mouth.

Loki's eyes widen, and he smacks the candy in his mouth foolishly, looking at Thor in wonder.

"Okay," Loki told him, babbling against his mouth, "brother, okay."

"Sweet," Thor taught him the correct way to describe the taste, "it's called sweet."

"Sweet," Loki says blankly, as if he's trying to remember the feeling so he can file it in his head; and suddenly, tears fill his eyes—his tiny hands are gripping Thor's fingers— —how sweet and happy must have been in his heart, that he wept with joy and trembled all over, "Sweet!" He loudly proclaimed his happiness, "Sweet!"

He was happy, and so was Thor.He was born so devoted to Loki.

When they grow up to a certain age, they are still like this, you kiss me, I kiss you, hug each other upside down. Thor has gradually become a little "sensible", knowing that most of the brothers don't entangle each other like they do.But his growing sensible is also accompanied by growing arrogance - no one can control him; he knows he shouldn't, but he wants to.The rising god possesses the rebelliousness and arrogance enough to cover the sky and turn right and wrong, like a huge banner that is hunting.But such rebellion and arrogance became gentle and careful in front of Loki; he kissed Loki, like kissing a little chick in the palm of his hand.He won't let go.

But the chick broke free from his palm by itself.He will always remember that day—he remembers that he lowered his head; Loki was half hidden in the darkness, like a transparent ghost that couldn't stand the sunlight; It oozes a candy-like glow; he leans down and kisses Loki lightly—how old were they then?Five hundred years old, six hundred years old?It's strange, he clearly remembers the slightly smiling corner of Loki's mouth, but he can't even remember their exact age-not only the age, but his memory during that time, besides Loki's appearance at that time, seems to be It's all blank - he has no childhood memories, teenage memories, he just has Loki.It was as if the first few hundred years of his life were but a dream.

Dreams don't hurt, but he remembers the pain. Loki was kissed by him, but his face suddenly changed.He backed away suddenly, panicked, like a fawn suddenly startled by the tusks of a lion. Terrified, Thor reaches out, trying to pull Loki into his arms; but Loki avoids his touch like ice avoids fire.

Later on the battlefield, Thor was once pierced through the chest by a spear.But the pain caused by that kind of injury was not as good as the first tear that Loki shed—the tear made circles of painful ripples on his soul—Loki's tears kept falling, and he His soul was smashed upside down, and the waves were turbulent. "Loki!" he called, crawling towards him in a hurry, but Loki still dodged, and even turned around and rolled off the bed onto the floor—Thor tried to grab him, but his fingertips barely brushed the hem of Loki's clothes.

This fall, Loki no longer has the strength to get back up.

He was lying on the ground with his limbs open, as if sinking into the bottom of the water, gradually losing air and sunlight.He looked at the roof, but his eyes were dazed and scattered, as if he didn't see anything.Through the dome of Asgard, he seemed to see some kind of mysterious instruction.Then, his eyes became condensed and hardened, and he became ice, a knife, and an evil spirit.

His chick broke free from his grasp.But he spread his hands blankly, not knowing what he did wrong.No matter what he did wrong, he is willing to apologize.Come back, come back, he clasped his hands together and kept secretly begging.But Loki doesn't give him the chance to apologize.He politely called him brother as if nothing had happened, and never let him kiss or hug him again.At this time, Thor's "sensibility" tied him up with hindsight - the dazzling arrogance and arrogance 200 years ago gradually no longer dominated Thor's words and deeds, and he knew that if Loki didn't want to, he shouldn't kiss him mouth, and kissed his shoulder.He grew up helplessly—the child in him was yelling, hysterical, and stomping his feet to get his brother back; but the future king in his mind ordered him: restrain yourself, guard against arrogance and impetuosity, and never Don't be rude.

He has been growing eagerly—he eats food wholeheartedly, gallops through the wind and frost swords;

But in those few years, he suddenly became listless.He hated his mission.

He watches Loki warily. Loki turned his head to meet his gaze, smiled casually, then turned his head away from him again.His breathing was soft and steady, and his every move was in line with royal norms.Those violent, painful, trembling struggles were gone from him. Thor doesn't know what's going on.He couldn't even read his breath, let alone his thoughts and feelings.He hates himself for being stupid.

later.

Later, his father forced him to kneel before the faces of the gods and vowed to "never love only one person".The gods were shocked by his power - it turned out that he was more than just Thor.The appearances of the gods flickered in the erratic light of the flames, like suspicious eyes—they were high above, with fluttering robes, looking down at the offspring who had just obtained the godhead, examining his outstanding strength, and also examining his outstanding strength. virtue.He was dying, blood all over his body, and his throat was cracked.

In the agony, before the gods, he thought of Loki.He was born so devoted to Loki. Loki pressed against his mouth and said cheerfully, "Sweet, brother, sweet" - Loki, Loki, Loki.

He knelt down and kowtowed before the gods.

Knock once, knock again, knock three times—

Boom!Boom!Boom!

Loki, Loki, Loki—

"I will never," he gripped the briquette floor with his nailless hand, "I will never love anyone alone."

In an instant, the hall was full of light——

From now on, he is a god.

The brand-new god, bowing his head before the gods, finally wept bitterly.

He knew that his dream had completely woken up.From then on, he could love, but he couldn't see Loki.Because he swore not to love alone, not exclusively - but how could he not love Loki alone - as long as he looked at him more, how could he not put him above the entire universe?As long as he gives him a promise to settle the dust, how can he not follow him and fall together?

—he awoke from his own fugue.He hastily withdrew his gaze from Loki.

What can he do?He can't love him, so he stands up and leaves again and again.At least he can give him a moon.It was the only thing he could do for his love who wasn't his love.

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