What is your choice? ?

You have chosen [D. "If... I can play this role well, I am willing to risk everything."]

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After you hesitated for a moment, a trace of struggle and determination flashed across your face.

"If..." You raised your head and looked at Director Jiang who was waiting for your answer with burning eyes, "I can play this role well, and I am willing to risk everything."

Director Jiang was taken aback when he heard your answer, and then he showed an incomparably bright smile.

"Good boy! A man should be so decisive!" He smiled and walked over, squeezed your shoulder vigorously, "Go, I'll give you a little treat!"

When you come to this dressing room again after a short time, you unexpectedly find that you are not as conflicted as last time.Perhaps it is because you have promised Director Jiang that you will do everything you can to interpret the character, and you have already prepared yourself psychologically.

Just when you were about to take a deep breath, adjust your mentality, and become a master of women's clothing, Director Jiang stopped you.

He seemed to see the seriousness in your eyes, and he patted your back lightly with his lips hooked.

"Relax, I don't want you to think of womenswear as an assignment. I want you to think of it as an outlet for your natural instincts."

A channel to vent your instinct?But last time Director Jiang clearly pointed out that the protagonist of the movie is still a man in terms of self-cognition.You don't quite understand this statement, so you look at Director Jiang in a daze.

He sneered without any malice, and gave you a playful look, "Let me guess your mentality when you dressed as a woman last time..."

After a long while, his wandering eyes fell on you again, and then he concluded word by word.

"Passivity, shame, surprise, helplessness—am I right?"

He smiled and shook his head without waiting for your reaction, "But for the protagonist in the movie, women's clothing is not the same thing. For him, women's clothing is a way for him to release his nature. What I mean by nature is not It refers to gender cognitive impairment, but psychological depression... Do you remember the era and background of the movie?"

When you heard this, you couldn't help but tense up, and replied seriously, "About ten years ago, a small town that had just boomed, the residents were simple but still feudal, and it was a traditional environment that favored boys over girls."

Director Jiang nodded, "That's right, the patriarchal environment gave the protagonist a preconceived idea - men must be strong, and only women are qualified to be weak. However, the protagonist's indecisive character is doomed that he will be separated from the mainstream society." The stereotypes of men are very different. This psychological contradiction gradually became more extreme after he entered adolescence, which made him unable to accept his unique self. At this time, in order to justify his "abnormality" , he dressed himself up as a woman. And whenever he was a woman, he justified his weakness and sensuality."

You're surprised and a little tight at the same time. You thought you'd spent ten times ten trying to think about character creation, only to find that your original thinking was so superficial and immature.

"And for such a protagonist, women's clothing is actually a shame—of course, this kind of shame is different from the shame you felt last time." Director Jiang continued, "Your shame is because you are not used to women's clothing and feel embarrassed. And The shame of the protagonist of the movie is that he is different from the mainstream society - he is ashamed of himself."

Then he changed the subject and turned the topic to you as if nothing had happened.

"Have you ever felt ashamed of being different from mainstream society?"

You opened your eyes slightly, your heart trembled, and you were unable to speak for a long time.

Director Jiang's serious eyes suddenly softened, and he gently placed his palm on top of your head.

"Just change your clothes according to that mood. I'll wait for you outside the door."

When you stepped out of the dressing room, Director Jiang raised his head and gave you a sideways glance.You just felt that his expression froze, as if his whole body was frozen.

After a while, he snorted softly, with a kind of enthusiasm in his eyes that you can't understand.

"You really are talented."

You heard an inaudible sigh that seemed to escape from his wriggling lips.

You thought Director Jiang would take you to the bedroom and put on makeup for you like last time.However, he didn't do that, instead he took you back to the living room, with the tendency of having a long conversation.

"Okay, just now we solved the problem of women's fetishism, and now there are three problems left."

You widened your eyes, almost screaming out.

three? ?Isn't that all the interpretation of the role just now? ?

Director Jiang seemed to finally be unable to bear your surprise, and rolled his eyes at you for the first time.

"Grass, your IQ is really all about comprehension."

you:……

For a moment, you really don't know whether the old man in front of you is mocking you or praising you.

"The other two problems will be discussed later. Now you have a problem that must be corrected before shooting." Director Jiang paused, with a helpless expression, "Mirror mirror phobia, you must get rid of this."

"There are a lot of shots where you look at yourself in the mirror in front of the dressing table. If you can't look in the mirror as if nothing happened, then no matter how full and true your interpretation of the character is, I will end up still. I must be ruthless to cut you off."

"—This is out of my responsibility for my own work, and I have no choice."

It all seems absurd to you all of a sudden.You have just made up your mind to work hard to become this role, and you have just experienced the fun of being brought into the role, but all this has suddenly come to naught...

...because of your bloody mirror phobia.

"Stop! Don't be in a hurry to be sad, just listen to me." Director Jiang showed a smile on his face, "I think this can be resolved. Otherwise, why would I still give you a chance? "

"You, you really have a solution??" You stared at Director Jiang in disbelief, and stammered.

"To be precise, there are actually two ways." He rubbed his chin and said slowly, "You and the protagonist of the movie both have self-loathing problems, but your self-loathing is more serious. Although the protagonist of the movie hates the usual But he still appreciates himself in women’s clothing—what you lack is self-appreciation. From my daily interactions with you, I found that you are a person who likes to apologize and thank you. Simply put, you are a self-blaming personality with A hybrid version of the pleaser personality...can you guess what the world calls it?"

You fell silent, and Director Jiang didn't intend to get an answer from your mouth.

"Masochistic." Director Jiang's face was very serious, "Your aptitude in this area may be far beyond your imagination."

You are numb all over, and you want to speak to defend yourself, but you find that you can't utter a word.

"So my first method is to cure your masochistic tendency. I think it can be saved if your potential has not been fully awakened. I want to use the method of provocation to stimulate your self-esteem, so that Arouse your self-validation. Once you develop immunity to external harm and learn self-validation, I believe that your self-loathing episode will be much reduced-and your mirror phobia should be controlled.”

"The second method is self-hypnosis. As long as you can divide your consciousness into two, one is your usual self, and the other is your self in women's clothing. In this way, as long as you subconsciously think that this women's clothing If you are not the real you, then your mirror phobia can be temporarily relieved—after all, this woman’s personality is a blank personality and does not have the mentality of self-loathing.”

When Director Jiang said this, he smiled wryly, "I know that both methods are quite risky, but this is actually the best solution I came up with after careful consideration."

It seems that what Director Jiang said just now is still echoing in your ears.You feel hesitant and eager to try, timid and at the same time resenting your cowardice.You definitely want the role, but are you really ready for it?

At this point, you decide—

【A. Choose the first method】

【B. Choose the second method】

【C. Give up interpreting the role】