[Xunsi]May Be a Dream

At that time, terrible events happened all around.

But no one who could be called a "companion" was by his side.

Suddenly, singing came from the ruins, it was an ode to joy, it was the voice of a boy.

He followed the sound and looked up. In the orange shadow, he had fair skin, light gray hair, a slender and tender body, and his school uniform, which was incompatible with the ruins, was so abrupt and dazzling.

Kaoru Nagisa sat on the shore facing the water surface of the uncomfortable LCL immersed in the dusk, happily humming the ordinary Ode to Joy.

It's so good to sing!The first sentence Nagisa Kaoru said when he took the initiative to talk to him.

Gentle and friendly, as a companion, Zhu Kaoru is more suitable than anyone else, let him approach unconsciously, and the other party is also willing to accept him.

The time when the two were together was the happiest time in Shinji's 14 years. It felt good, so good that he temporarily forgot the pain from life, the pain that confused him brought about by the strange life.

Until being betrayed, until the humming ode to joy sounded again, until in the final dogma, in front of LILITH, Zhu Xun said something he didn’t understand, when choosing to die, the pain of losing an important person is still worse than being The anger of betrayal is much more intense.

It was so violent that his childish nature was exposed.

You can no longer play with me, since you want to destroy it, let's do it thoroughly!Find the next one who can play with me!

In the end, he still didn't understand anything.

But no one is there anymore.

There is no next companion, and there is no one who can replace Zhu Xun in his heart.

Even if Zhu Xun had to die, he was the one who was selfish and unbearable.

Is it the world's fault, or is it just his nature?

Self-trapped, selfish, afraid of being hurt, and finally cruel.

It's weird, it's scary...

The mattress beside him sank softly, causing Shinji to gasp again as if awakened from a dream.

"I didn't have the Walkman with me, so you didn't sleep well?" Kaoru asked, putting his hand on the back of Shinji's hand.

The slightly cool body temperature made Shinji turn his head away, and the eyes of the two met.

Are you afraid of human contact?

Those words flashed through Shinji's mind.

He didn't lower his head because of shyness like before, but his eyes couldn't concentrate and wandered around.

Through the moonlight, Shinji could see the smile on Nagisa Kaoru's face deepening.

"There's nothing I can do about you!" Zhu Xun stood up, bent over and picked up the quilt on the bed, walked to the skylight, removed the telescope, and spread the quilt on the ground.

"If you can't sleep, let's watch the stars together. You have to go to school tomorrow." Zhu Kaoru lay on the spread quilt, with his head resting on his crossed hands, quietly looking at the sky outside the small window.

The fine starlight lit up the starry sky, and also lit up Zhu Xun's eyes, which were no longer the red of the setting sun.

Nothing has changed in the dream, they can still watch the stars and sleep together.

Is it the last time...

Shinji got off the bed and lay down beside Kaoru Nagisa.

The two unexpectedly did not talk.

The reassuring magic of the owner of the starry sky as always.

In front of my eyes, the dark blue sky flickered...

"Good night, Shinji-kun." There was still a warm breath in his ear.

"Good night, Kaoru."

Perhaps, I laughed.Shinji thought so.