[Xunsi]May Be a Dream

Bending down to sniff the warm fragrance, seabirds are singing on the coast not far away, the hair tips blown by the breeze are itchy on the skin, and the sound of hissing overflows from the swaying green grass.

"Shinji-kun." A familiar voice called Shinji.

He opened his eyes, and his mother's grave was still in front of him. Looking around, it turned out that Kaoru was standing beside him.

"Xun, you said last night that there is always a fragile corner in the human heart. What if that part keeps expanding?" The mother's vague voice and smile must not be discarded from her heart.

Zhu Kaoru stared at the lily in Shinji's hand: "Then keep looking for ways to make up for it. You can't stop, and you can't think about it overnight. This is the true posture of human beings."

Shinji walked up to Kaoru's side and took the other's hand actively: "I told mom that I like Kaoru. It seems that there is a small space for Kaoru in that corner." He glanced at Kaoru's pretty side face and then Said: "Xun is really special."

"It's fine only in Shinji-kun's heart." Taking Shinji into his arms with one hand, Zhu Kaoru naturally placed a kiss on the other's cheek.

"Kun, don't go outside too often..." Shinji finally couldn't help but remind Zhu Kaoru, although the shy and shy appearance was not convincing at all.

"Is Shinji-kun unhappy?" Zhu Kaoru asked suspiciously.

It would be okay if Zhu Xun asked him back without changing his face, this innocent look of not letting go of the other party's displeasure made him the most difficult to resist: "It's nothing. I'm just sorry." He turned his face away, and his voice was as thin as a mosquito.

"Okay, I have to go to Dr. Akagi's clinic for a follow-up visit." The crimson eyes swept across Ikari's grave, took the flower in the other's hand, and said goodbye with a smile: "See you in Kyoto, mother."

"Koru called mom "Mother", really..." Shinji's face began to flush, and he looked at Gu Zhuxun's smiling face like the morning light as if complaining, and pulled him to Ikari's tombstone and said, "Mom, this is Kaoru, I told you just now. We have to go now, see you next time, next time in Kyoto!" Taking Kaoru with Nagisa bent over and bowed, Shinji reluctantly left, occasionally turning his head to look at Take a look.

It was already noon when I boarded the Renault in Miri again, and it was just one o'clock in the afternoon when I returned to the city for lunch and arrived at Chimu Clinic.

The clinic on Saturday was empty. As soon as Misato opened the door of the clinic, she saw Ritsuko Akagi in a white coat puffing at the window of the hall.

"Here we come!" Ritsuko Akagi looked Shinji up and down, and then said to Misato, "This child seems to be in good condition. There is no clinic on Saturday afternoon. If you do this, it will take up my rest time."

"Don't be like this, Ritsuko!" Misato bumped Ritsuko with her elbow, "Shinji didn't sleep well at night! Didn't you say that you need regular follow-up visits? And it rained yesterday, I'm afraid he's catching a cold."

"I'm in good health, teacher don't need to be so nervous." Ritsuko Akagi's sharp eyes were like needles, Shinji had always been in awe of Akagi.

Misato rubbed the top of Shinji's head: "It's not cute, and I don't need the teacher's concern, obviously my body has always been so-so." She turned to Kaoru Nagisa for help: "Isn't Nagisa the one who cares about Shinji the most, tell me about this guy. "

"Shinji-kun wasn't drenched in the rain, so he shouldn't be catching a cold. The big problem is not sleeping well." Shinji's mental state is far worse than his physical state, and it has only slightly improved in the past two days by his side.

Akagi Ritsuko replied: "I'm not a psychiatrist." The conversation changed: "However, routine physical examinations are indispensable, Ikari Shinji-kun, how do you think a person like you who doesn't like sports or talk and uses music as a sleeping pill will be in good health? Go?" Ritsuko Akagi turned and walked into the office of the clinic, squeezing the flaming cigarette butts into the fully loaded ashtray.

"Go!" Misato pushed Shinji.

Shinji looked back at Kaoru Nagisa who was silent, and reluctantly walked towards Ritsuko Akagi's consulting room.

"Please sit inside." As soon as Shinji walked into the spacious consulting room, Ritsuko, who was flipping through the medical records and pointing to the hospital bed beside him with a ballpoint pen, called him behind the white curtain.

After a while, Ritsuko Akagi came to him with a stethoscope and a box for examination.

When the cold stethoscope penetrated into his clothes and stuck to his skin, his body flinched unconsciously.

With short blonde hair, a face with exquisite makeup, a capable woman in a short shirt and short skirt, wearing purple prism crystal earrings, is skillfully examining the boy.

"Relax." Ritsuko said indifferently.

Shinji shook his head. In the past, Miss Ritsuko would not be as close as he is now when he was debugging. It is inevitable that he will be nervous.

Ms. Ritsuko is a person who is as strict as her father.

Unfastening the equipment, taking off the stethoscope, and turning off the flashlight, Ritsuko said, "There is no problem with the body. Maintaining a relaxed and good attitude is good for sleep. Try not to rely on external forces to fall asleep. For example, sleeping with Zhu-kun is a good choice."

"Miss Ritsuko..." Shinji was startled, gripping the white sheet of the hospital bed tightly.

"What?" Ritsuko glanced at Shinji, opened the curtain, walked back to the desk and turned on the computer to write the medical records.

"It's nothing..." Shinji sat across from Ritsuko, waiting for Ritsuko to complete the body report.

"I've seen some signs of it on weekdays, and I've talked with Misato too, so of course I know what's going on with you." Ritsuko raised her glasses, "It's no big deal if you like boys, but Shinji-kun Ikari, are you sure that's what you mean?" ? I think you're more likely to be with Soryu or Ayanami."

"The feeling of getting along with Ayanami, Asuka, and Katsuragi-sensei is completely different from the feeling of being with Kaoru." If liking Kaoru is a disease, it is also a disease that can never be cured, and it is also a disease that should not be cured.

"Of course." Ritsuko stopped and glanced at him.

"I... I don't know how to express it. It is true that before Kaoru, when I faced Asuka, I thought about many possible things that might happen. I had a crush on Ayanami, and I even had a vision when I faced Katsuragi-sensei. However, those I just kept the feeling in my heart. After a long time, I almost forgot that feeling, and I was even indifferent. No matter how much pressure Asuka exerted, I couldn’t respond. I only knew that they were important friends. This is not the kind of liking, no. "The moment Zhu Xun died, he finally understood that his desire for women, his longing for this boy, was nothing to mention in front of his love, care, and admiration.

Because it fills the lack of soul, so the loss makes the original loss become shattered.

In his muddy thoughts, the cry in his heart kept coming: "Zhu Jun, Zhu Jun, Zhu Jun, Zhu Jun Zhu Jun Zhu Jun Zhu Jun Zhu Jun Zhu Jun Zhu Jun Zhu Jun Zhu Jun Zhu Jun Zhu Jun Zhu Jun... I want to see you again You are fine too."

Standing in reality, not only is Zhu Xun gone, but there is also no one around.

"I will meet all kinds of men and women in the future, and you will be sure that you will like Zhu-kun at that time? Kid?" The crimson and delicate lips uttered a ruthless question.

"If I don't like it anymore, I can't like anyone else."

Akagi Ritsuko paused for a moment, and sharp eyes were cast on Shinji's calm face: "It's really rare to talk so much. I hope so, if I can be so firm after 20 years old, I will be convinced, Ikari Shinji-kun. After pulling the printed report and handing it to Shinji, Ritsuko raised her long legs and looked at him.

"Well, I can." Shinji smiled sincerely.

Ritsuko played with the ballpoint pen, with a face that couldn't be softened by the mole of tears, and said, "It's finished, you can go out."

"Thank you, Miss Ritsuko." He exited the office and closed the door.

As soon as Misato saw Shinji, she stood up and asked, "How is it?"

"It's okay, it's okay." After handing the report to Misato, Shinji said to Nagisa Kaoru, "Today I have to make Kaoru and the teacher wait all day, I feel a little sorry."

"If you're sorry, please invite the teacher to dinner next time. You have to do it yourself!" Misato looked at her watch and said, "Get the report, and when you go back, Nagisa-kun should pay attention to Shinji's physical condition! The teacher wants to talk to Dr. Akagi For a while, the topic of adults is a bit boring, you can go back by tram."

Saying goodbye to Misato, the two left the clinic, Kaoru was still reading the report carefully, Shinji looked at Nagisa Kaoru: "Miss Ritsuko said, to get rid of the habit of relying on external forces to fall asleep, you can try to fall asleep with someone you know."

Zhu Kaoru folded the report and put it in the satchel: "The effect last night was very good. Why don't I move to the room on the second floor and sleep with Shinji-kun while watching the stars? Do you remember the first day?"

Shinji nodded, and whispered, "Move here, if Kaoru likes it."

"Listening to the Walkman with Shinji-kun, and falling asleep together is also very wonderful!"

"If you like it, we can sleep together anyway..."

"Is Shinji-kun inviting me?"

"Kuno thinks it is."

On the tram at dusk, Shinji leaned on Nagisa Kaoru's shoulder and fell asleep lightly. The handsome white-haired boy holding a white lily would occasionally kiss the black-haired boy's hair.

In the clinic, Ritsuko tapped the keyboard silently, while Misato stared at the words appearing on the screen.

"Everything is normal for the experimental subject... Ritsuko, do you really want to help the teacher?"

"It's just a routine, don't be nervous, I'm considering that matter. However, after today's investigation, the chances are not high. You really dare to do it, let those two children be together."

Misato said with a hippie smile, "Isn't it good? We dirty adults can only envy them. The two of them are simply born heteropolar magnets."

"Hmph, the world of adults is not easy to mess with. Just don't break the heteropolar magnets. Dirty adults, innocent games are not suitable for you. Don't forget the little police department and go to the bachelor party? Don't I often come to my clinic to drink beer."

"Ryukko is really long-winded. Now that I am a teacher, how can I be unrestrained?! I can only find you for a drink."

Ritsuko Akagi joked, "Oh, it's amazing that Katsuragi Misato, who claims to be a filthy lord, became a holy teacher in a second. I don't know whose house has a mountain of cigarette butts and beer cans?"

"Shut up, Ritsuko!"

"Be careful, I really promised the teacher." Ritsuko was wearing glasses, smoking a cigarette, and looked at Misato coldly.

"How dare you!"

The Akagi Clinic is still a mess today.