[Xunsi]May Be a Dream

When school was over in the afternoon, raindrops began to fall in the cloudy sky since noon, and it became more and more intense. There were lightning and thunder in the dense dark clouds, followed by more intensive rainfall.

"Oh, it's really raining." Misato looked up at the sky in front of the teaching building, and muttered, "If I had known that I would be late like this, I would have to go back and get an umbrella."

"Teacher, use it! Shinji-kun and I will hold the umbrella together." Nagisa Kaoru handed her umbrella to Misato.

Asuka who had just walked out of the shoe cabinet heard the words and looked at Nagisa Kaoru with her lips pouted, and said disdainfully: "Anyway, I want to eat tofu from stupid Shinji again."

"That's no problem." Ayanami took out an umbrella from her schoolbag.

"Ayanami! What's the problem?! They're all boys, boys!"

Ayanami opened the umbrella, glanced at Asuka and said lightly, "Let's go."

"Goodbye, Mr. Katsuragi." She bowed to Misato and walked into the rain with an umbrella.

Asuka covered her head with her schoolbag, and hurriedly chased after her: "Idiot Ayanami, wait for me!"

Shinji watched the figures of the two gradually disappear into the rain: "Well... after all, you still didn't bring an umbrella..." Is he ashamed to say that about others?

"Well, Asuka is like this, don't take it to heart." After that, Misato also opened her umbrella and walked into the rain, not forgetting to shout to the two: "Zhu-kun, please work hard, don't let Shinji get caught in the rain ! Goodbye." At the end, he showed his signature winking emoji.

Kaoru put his arms around Shinji's shoulders and held up the umbrella: "Let's go!"

It was also the first time for him to be hugged tightly by Kaoru in public. Shinji just followed Kaoru's pace and walked forward with his legs, and his upper body was stiff in Kaoru's arms.

"Is it cold?" Kaoru Nagisa asked, the hand wrapped around Shinji's shoulder rubbed Shinji's arm through the coat, trying to give Shinji some warmth.

Seeing that the other party's shoulders were already wet by the rain, Shinji shook his head: "I'm fine, Kaoru is probably cold, your shoulders are soaked. This umbrella is too small, it's a bit difficult for two people to use it."

"You can't pull down the teacher, Shinji-kun sure doesn't want to."

"Well, anyway, I'd better go home and take a hot bath." I couldn't say it, but Kaoru's intentions were so obvious that people couldn't ignore it.

The two passed by the Electric City, Zhu Xun stopped and looked at Shinji and said, "Shinji-kun's Walkman is really too old. It has been repaired several times. I really can't fix it this time. I want to give Shinji-kun a new one. , can you?"

"That Walkman. That's right, it's been too long." Shinji knew without thinking that the Walkman he hadn't seen was the one his father had used.

He glanced at the brightly lit electrical city, and said in a low voice, "It's okay, if it can't be repaired, let's forget it. Maybe it won't be too hard without it."

"is it?"

Bean-sized raindrops hit the transparent plastic umbrella with a crackling sound, and when he looked up, he could see the blurry sky above, and Shinji walked silently.

"What kind of work does father do here?"

"It's a university professor again, doing research or something."

Shinji murmured: "I really hope he doesn't do any more weird research." Ayanami was born for his father's "research", and he didn't know why he came into this world.

"A professor of bioengineering at a university in Tokyo."

"Mom, are you here?"

"Ah. Oh, that tombstone is no longer an ornament in the dense forest of steles. She died shortly after you were born."

"The sense of reality is really low." Shinji looked down at the vamp that was constantly moving forward, and the rain slid across the white vamp.

"Even if the setting of the world has changed, Shinji-kun has not changed, and this world is not perfect, the world is a little gentler to you, isn't it good?"

"This world is kind to us now, Kaoru doesn't have to be our enemy anymore. If Kaoru and everyone can always be by my side, I think, no matter how cruel this world is, I can get through it." Shinji was silent for a while He also laughed at himself: "It's really self-willed, right, obviously unwilling to give anything."

"Shinji-kun is not a cold and selfish person, but more kind and sensitive than anyone else."

"Father used to say, grow up. I said, I don't know what maturity is. I still do."

"Mature does not mean being brave, people will always change. If Shinji-kun only knows how to pretend to be an adult and try to be brave, it will only hurt others and yourself. The birth of this world only hopes that the heart of Shinji-kun will no longer be forcibly named "Mature" wraps up."

"is it?"

"Similarly, Shinji-kun must work hard, desperately, to learn more and more things that he didn't understand there before."

"Is it the same about my father? I used to say that I was avoiding and avoiding. I don't understand. Isn't that normal?"

"Whether he loves you or not, you have to face him squarely."

"Even if I'm not needed?" Shinji stopped walking.

"Is lilin's existence needed from the very beginning?" Zhu Xun said again: "Just like the apostles. But now, I have someone I want, and someone who needs me."

The white-haired boy showed a beautiful smile again.

Shinji stared blankly at Zhuxun, and suddenly said, "I want to go see my mother."

"Okay, let's go when the weather is nice."

"It seems that being alone is not a bad thing."

"How could Shinji-kun be alone?"

Zhu Kaoru didn't tell Shinji that when one person is the only one for another person, the pain of losing one person is double-faced. I don't know who is more painful than the other. When losing a person, it is so terrible.