I still have your pendant

Fu Hang now felt something trembling in his chest, and he had a severe headache.

He felt that there were insects in his head, but he didn't seem to have any, but he didn't want to reach out and rub his temples to find out.Because he was afraid that if he didn't make up his mind to ask this matter clearly today, the old lady might tease and prevaricate it again in the future.

Fu Hang has always loved and hated the old lady. He thanked the old lady for giving him this life, but at the same time he hated the old lady's behavior.

Similarly, he has always understood the old lady's strong style. When he was young, he challenged her old lady's authority several times. When he grew up, he followed the principle of filial piety, and never got angry with the old lady again.

But this time, it seemed that he couldn't bear it anymore. After all, the resentment accumulated for too long would eventually explode, and those teeth and blood that had been swallowed would eventually spit out, causing both sides to suffer.

Fu Hang stood there and looked at He Qucheng, as if waiting for his rebuttal to what he just said.

But I don't know if it was his illusion, he felt that there was some regret in He Qucheng's drooping eyes, but that feeling passed in a flash, and the one who raised his head in a blink of an eye was still the same He Qucheng, but he no longer looked like him. He Qusheng.

Fu Hang only heard the man say seriously, "There are some things that I have nothing to say. I am a child of the He family, and I also bear what I should bear, so are you obedient? Don't worry about these, go to rest, okay?"

"You know exactly what I mean."

Fu Hang hooked the corner of his mouth and smiled, as if he was laughing at himself.

Now he really wants to tell He Qucheng if he can stop treating himself as a child, if he can stop protecting himself for granted, and if he can explain all these things clearly to himself.

Does He Qucheng know that he loves him? What he wants is to stand in the position of a lover and communicate with He Qucheng on an equal footing, instead of appearing to be unreasonable as he is now.

He is also a man, why should he live like this?

"Enough, let's break the word today, old lady," Fu Hang didn't look at He Qucheng again, he was afraid that the more he watched, the more heartbroken he was, so he turned his head to look directly at the old lady, "Let's break the relationship between mother and child today, I don't I wonder where your family is."

Fu Hang bent down, took the paternity test sheet that the old lady had read and threw on the coffee table, and tore it to pieces.

"In the future, I will not be from the He family, and I don't want to be from the He family anymore. You don't have to make excuses for my own good, and that's all." Fu Hang tore the thing and smiled, looking a bit hideous, "I There are some things that I want to tell you clearly, yo, you just came down and I will tell you too."

Fu Hang looked at He Yaohua and the old man who had just come down and were still wearing pajamas, smiled, and did it by himself, as if talking to himself.

"I, Fu Hang is gay, just the same," Fu Hang looked at the eyes of those people where he looked, and then looked at them with a smile, "Old lady, don't look at me like that, even if you look at me It can't change anything."

"I like men, but I still listened to your words and married An Qingya, and I became stupid. I actually didn't understand when I was a child. Ever since my father died, I have never understood why you treat me like this, why you put everything in the He family They are all more important than me, and why they maintain the reputation of the He family everywhere, I don't understand," Fu Hang paused, "I don't want to understand either."

"When I was young, you always threatened me and kicked me out for disobedience. I was very scared. I lost my dad at the time, and I thought you were everything."

"So I listened to you, studied hard, worked hard for the college entrance examination, got close to the university you wanted me to go to, and studied the major you wanted me to study, but do you know what the servants at home said about me? What? They said that I was a oil bottle, that I was trash, and that I was an accessory of the He family. I put up with all these things, and I thought, I’ll be fine when I go out in the future, and I’ll be fine when I grow up.”

"Because you are my mother, I won't tell you, quarrel with you or complain with you. But do you know the result of my doing so?"

"When I was a sophomore, I wanted to change my major. You didn't agree, and you stopped my credit card, which meant that I was left to fend for myself. I lived with my teacher at that time, do you know? An outsider treats me better than you .”

"Teacher, he knows what I like to eat, what to play, and what kind of literary works I like. He never just cooks a bowl of porridge after quarreling with me. He will reason with me, comfort me, and explain, but you What? Do you think that if I drink a bowl of porridge, everything will be fine? Let me ask you, do you know that some wounds will form scars even after they heal, which is ugly, distorted, and unbearable. "

Fu Hang looked at the tearful eyes of the old lady and felt it was funny, but also felt sad, he couldn't allow others to interrupt, and continued, "How much courage did I take to tell you that I wanted to act, but what about you? Said that if I went to the showbiz, I would be pointed out by people in the He family's business. If I went, my financial source would be cut off and I would be threatened to cut off the relationship between mother and child. Yes, you will stop it if you say so. Do you know how I survived those years? of?"

"Because I wanted to reduce the cost of living and sleeping, I lived in the house my brother left behind after he went abroad. Li Que had to go to school at that time. When I didn't sign the company, I went out to work during the day and went to Hengdian to audition at night. I slept for less than 5 hours, and almost fell over on the side of the road a few times and was hit by a car and died. After paying the utility bills, there was nothing left. In those years, I ate steamed buns every day and only porridge, really. , I think I was treated better than the Long March of the Red Army at that time. But fortunately, Li Que is more competitive, and I don’t have to worry about her if she can get a scholarship.”

"But later, after I worked hard, you said you wanted me to go back to He's house. To be honest, it was mostly because of you that I was able to go back to He's house."

"I don't blame you for cutting off my source of income, because I chose this path myself, but thinking about it now, if I hadn't worked hard in the entertainment circle, would I never be able to enter your He family again? Damen, don’t you even want to admit that you are a real son?”

Fu Hangxu saw that the old lady wanted to refute, and waved his hand, "Can you wait for me to finish first, can you?"

"Now I don't understand, how can Benben feel sorry for the He family, and how can I feel sorry for the He family. I have reduced film and television activities, reduced studio business arrangements, and I have suppressed almost all announcements to try my best to let Don't worry, I will spend as much time with Qingya and Benben as possible to reduce those crazy business talk about the He family, but what about you? What about you? Is this how you treat me? "

"I'm Fuhang, my surname is Fu, and my surname is also Fu. I don't care what you say to me now. I'm really not making trouble, and I don't want to. I was obedient and almost never made trouble when I was young, so now I If it's a fuss, there's no need for it, right?"

There was no superfluous expression on Fu Hang's face, as if he was simply expounding the facts, and his tone was unbelievably flat, he was completely different from the one with the smile on his face just now, "That's all I said, I'm talking to you today. If you sever the relationship between mother and child, I will never come to the He family again. You don’t have to worry about Benben’s blood relationship with me, and you won’t worry about the crazy talk about my career to the He family. I want to change my major from my sophomore year I didn’t call you mom again, I only called you old lady, so this is probably the last time I call you mom.”

"Mom, let me go, okay?"

Fu Hang raised his head and looked at the old lady with a pair of eyes, the tears in his eyes were the grievances and resentment accumulated for more than ten years.

Fu Hang felt as if he was relieved, and the words he said seemed to throw the burden that had been carried on his back for so many years to the ground in an instant. Looking at the old lady's face, Fu Hang felt a little ridiculous.

He is probably still unfilial, he can't be a filial son, and he can't be a filial son.

When I was young, I naively thought that everything would get better when I grew up, but in fact, after I grow up, it is not much different from before. It is the same anyway, and I still live well as I am happy.

The old lady didn't speak, so why didn't she know that Fu Hang's stubborn appearance actually resembled himself very much.

But she never knew how heavy this child could bear, and how he survived all these years.When she remarried back then, she had thought about how Fu Hang would discipline her in the future, but who would have expected that discipline to become like this.

Fu Hang ignored the old lady's answer, glanced at He Qucheng who was standing there, and asked suddenly, "I'm leaving soon, are you sure you have nothing to tell me?"

He Qucheng stopped talking, didn't look at Fu Hang, and didn't answer the question.

Fu Hang got up and smiled faintly, "I see, then let's do it like this, if possible, you'd better never let me know," Fu Hang said, walked up to the old man, and hugged the old man, " Sorry for making this happen on your birthday."

The old man has been listening to Fu Hang's words without interrupting, but Fu Hang also knows that he can only listen to the old man if he can't walk in the end.

"Let's go, kid." This was the old man's final answer to Fu Hang.

Fu Hang smiled, nodded, and lifted his feet to go out, but he bowed to the old lady when he passed by, and gave her a little bit of kindness for his birth.

But before he left, Fu Hang still turned his head to look at He Qucheng, who was also looking at him, no one could say clearly whether his eyes met in heartbeat or regret.

As for the meaning of Fu Hang's phrase "Let's do it this way", no one can explain clearly.

What Fu Hang can say clearly is the frustration in his heart every time he takes a step towards the door, the disillusionment hidden in those red eyes, and a farewell to this family that has lived for nearly 20 years.

Fu Hang walked out of the front hall and out of the fence of He's house, but he didn't know if it was his own illusion, he seemed to hear the sound of something breaking to the ground when the door of He's house was closed.

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He Ruoji: I don't want us to be like this, I want us to be like that.