I still have your pendant

Feelings are different in the eyes of different people.

The young Fu Hang couldn't hide things in his eyes, and he was probably willing to tell Li Que that she almost set him up with a few words, and then Fu Hang said everything he could say, including his unspeakable feelings for He Qucheng.

Li Que laughed when she heard it at the beginning, and didn't comment much, she more or less guessed that Fu Hang didn't know the fact that He Qucheng had gone to her, nor did he know that He Qucheng had told him about him, Li Que He just listened calmly and glanced at the man on the phone from time to time.

Later, Li Que and Fu Hang often stayed together, and they were both young children who talked a lot, and Li Que was the only one who knew what was on his mind.

Back then when He Qucheng said a word to Fu Hang, Fu Hang would talk to Li Que for a long time. Fu Hang would tell Li Que that He Qucheng was kind to him when he was young, and he would ask Li Qucheng to help analyze whether He Qucheng liked him or not, and he would ask Li Que for help. Think about how to solve the problem that He Yaohua posed to He Qucheng.

When he first entered college, Fu Hang majored in marketing management. He Qusheng had the same major as him but was a little older.

At that time, He Qusheng had already started to help He Yaohua with company affairs, and he also moved out of He Zhai and rented a house next to the school.

Fu Hang was a freshman in that year and couldn't move out of school, but he was still clinging to He Qucheng. It turned out that several seniors who wanted to pursue He Qucheng were all blocked by Fu Hang and Li Que.

The relationship between the three of them has been noisy until He Qucheng left the country.

Li Que couldn't see what was good about He Qucheng, but she could see what kind of disposition Fu Hang was. What did Fu Hang's young feelings look like back then?Like the breeze that blows through the willows by the river every early spring?Or like the cherry blossoms blooming in the misty rain and fog in March?

Li Que couldn't tell, but she was willing to use all good things to name Fu Hang's liking. That liking probably really came from her heart, and that's why she was devastated when she was finally hit.

Li Que was busy with internships and part-time jobs in his junior year at the time. Fu Hang wanted to change his major to major in Chinese language and literature after talking with Mr. Dong, and his relationship with the old lady was stiff, and the old lady adopted the same policy for thousands of years. Means, stop paying Hang's living expenses.

That year when Fu Hang moved into the house that He Qucheng rented, Li Que came to see him from time to time, chatted with him, and bickered along the way.

But Li Que noticed that Fu Hang no longer had the rowdy look he used to, his smile gradually subsided, and when he mentioned He Qucheng, his eyes were no longer lit with stars, but an inexplicable worry.

Li Que seldom contacted He Qucheng. Most of the news about him was told by Fu Hang to her, so she didn't know at the time that Fu Hang had already slept in his bed before He Qucheng left, and that person had been in his bed since he left the country. At first he still had contact with Fu Hang, but by that time he had not responded to Fu Hang's news for more than two months, nor had he made any phone calls to Fu Hang.

The man who stood at the airport and said "wait for me" to Fu Hang seemed to have died on the other side of the ocean, without a word from him.

Until Fu Hang saw the news that he was engaged to the daughter of the Chinese-American consortium.

Li Que didn't know if Fu Hang had called He Qucheng to confirm anything at that time, and if he had listened to He Qucheng's explanation.

Because in her opinion, He Qucheng would never harm Fu Hang. Although she couldn't see through that man, she could see clearly what kind of mood He Qucheng had in looking for her in high school, and she could also see Fu Hang clearly. Every time he deliberately made trouble and broke him alone with other girls, the smile in He Qucheng's eyes.

If He Qucheng didn't have Fu Hang in his heart, Li Que wouldn't believe it.

But when she finished her part-time job that day and rushed to Fu Hang's side desperately, what she saw was the fresh life that was once full of flowers and branches, and turned into the August autumn wind with yellow leaves borrowing ground.

She was cold at that time, and she didn't know what to do. She saw the bloody cut on Fu Hang's wrist still oozing blood. The man lying on the bed couldn't see any blood on his lips. The knife in his hand looked cold and cold.

With trembling hands, Li Que broadcast the emergency call, and only reported the address in a daze under the desperate comfort of the operator on the other end of the phone.

Li Que's mind was probably in a mess at the time, she couldn't calm down, her heart was trembling, she was standing in the corridor of the hospital holding Fu Hang's cell phone, but the page on the cell phone screen was still on the page where He Qucheng was engaged Regarding the news, she couldn't hold back at that time, she made a call to He Qucheng's mobile phone, and immediately scolded that person.

But she cried after cursing and cursing. She couldn't afford the medical expenses and couldn't sign the operation responsibility letter handed to her by the nurse just now.

She could only stand outside the emergency room and wait for God to pronounce Fu Hang's sentence, but no one knew the result of the sentence.

Li Que then squatted at the door of the emergency room, cursing He Qucheng inarticulately, but finally asked him what to do.

She couldn't help it, she didn't dare to tell the old lady, to be precise, she was afraid of the old lady.

Afterwards, it was He Qucheng who sent money to Li Que, and the relationship he found overnight, and then he was transferred to another hospital after Fu Hang stabilized. He was also the one who asked Li Que to tear up the critical illness notice, as if he had never seen it again.

On the phone that day, after hearing so much from He Qucheng, Li Que asked Fu Hang two questions. She asked He Qucheng in a crying voice, "Do you know how much he loves you?"

He Qucheng was silent for a while, and said he knew.

Later Li Que asked again, "What about you? Do you love him?"

He Qucheng didn't answer at that time, but just hung up the phone in silence.

That night, after Fu Hang was transferred to the hospital, because of wound infection and high fever, Li Que took care of him all night before falling asleep beside Fu Hang's bed in a daze.

It's just that when she woke up, she didn't expect He Qucheng to come back. He must have been on an overnight flight, and he hadn't had time to change into his business suit yet, so he looked dusty.

Seeing that she was awake, He Qucheng looked down at the man with flushed cheeks on the hospital bed, and answered Li Que's second question softly, saying, "I love him more than anyone else."

Li Que didn't speak, she more or less felt that it was inappropriate for her to stay there, so she got up and went back to help Fu Hang get a change of clothes.

As for He Qucheng, he came out after staying in the ward for a few hours. Li Que didn't care what he did, and Fu Hang looked like he couldn't do anything even if he wanted to.

He Qucheng seemed to have something to deal with the next day, and he flew back to the United States overnight.

Li Que sent He Qucheng to the airport. The two of them didn't speak during the journey. Li Que had scolded him before, but he didn't think much of thanking him, so he kept a cold face.

She wanted to ask about He Qucheng's engagement, but after thinking about it, he still hoped that He Qucheng could explain to Fu Hang by himself, so Li Que didn't say anything to He Qucheng until the end.

On the contrary, it was He Qucheng who said a few words to Li Qun with a tired face when he was fast entering the airport.

He Qucheng said: "If he hates me after waking up, let him go. If anything happens to Fu Hang in the future, if the old lady is inconvenient, just tell me and I will help him. I will trouble you later."

Without knowing it, Li Qucheng complied with what He Qucheng said, and then saw the man turn around and disappear into the crowded crowd at the airport.

Li Que felt that He Qucheng might have something to hide but it was hard to tell, so he went back to the hospital full of speculation.

When Li Que arrived at the hospital, Fu Hang was already awake.

It's just that what greeted her in the ward was the unspeakable silence. Sitting alone on the hospital bed, Fu Hang felt as if a lively fish had been knocked out of its huge body by the rocks in the sea. The bloody appearance of the wound made people worry.

Hearing the movement, Fu Hangxu turned his face to look at Li Qun. Before he could speak, an unknown smile floated on his face, and then he heard Fu Hang say a word.

Fu Hang said: "Maybe it's not bad to die just like that."

That sound seemed to come from deep underground, like a kind of boundless dark night, making people feel confused for a moment.If Li Que were to describe how she felt when she heard this voice, she probably only had four words to say.

shudder.

At that time, Li Que couldn't hold back the tears in the corners of his eyes, so he slapped him straight up, turned around and left after the slap.

She didn't know how to tell the man lying on the hospital bed like ashes, how beautiful life is, and there are many people who love him and like him.

At that time, Li Que couldn't even hold Fu Hang's hand and say to live. Perhaps it was because he heard He Qucheng's words, and also because he knew the importance of He Qucheng's dealing with Hang. At that time, Li Que couldn't do anything except slap him. can't do it.

Later, when Fu Hang was ill, he never told the old lady. Li Que didn't know if He Qucheng had said something to the old lady. Anyway, Fu Hang didn't receive many calls from the old lady during that time.

When Fu Hang was hospitalized, not many people came to see Fu Hang in the hospital, but Mr. Dong and Mr. Qu often came. Li Que talked with them about the reasons for Fu Hang's suicide. After hearing it, Mr. Dong didn't say much. I just come to see him from time to time when I have time, and relieve him of boredom.

Li Que didn't know what made Fu Hang cheer up. Anyway, one day after Fu Hang saw a psychiatrist, he suddenly told Li Que that he wanted to be an actor, and he hoped that Li Que could help him.

As promised, Li Que gave him a helping hand, but she was only a student at that time, and she could not help much. Fu Hang's debut was more on his own.

Li Que originally thought that Fu Hang would be able to go smoothly in the future, but every time he thought about it, not long after his debut, Fu Hang got into trouble.

During that turmoil, Li Que went back and forth between the school and Fu Hang's rental house. As for the old lady, her relationship with Fu Hang had never broken the ice.

At that time, Fu Hang drank in the rented house day and night. The worst time he drank, he had stomach bleeding and was taken to the hospital for digestive endoscopy. When Fu Hang was taken to the hospital by the ambulance, all he was talking about was He Qusheng. name.

Li Que had no choice but to call He Qucheng. She didn't say anything, and He Qucheng didn't ask any more questions. He just asked her to wait for news.

Not long after that, Li Que asked Fu Hang to meet Director Yin according to He Qucheng's method, and Fu Hang also passed the audition smoothly and became a hit, and the old lady was also discussing Fu Hang's marriage with An Qingya at that time .

In Li Que's eyes, after Fu Hang committed suicide that time, the soul whose real name was Fu Hang had died, and the one left was just an empty shell that only knew how to obey, and he never looked at He Qucheng again in his eyes. The stars, and no longer have the yearning for love.

When Fu Hang got married, he was 23 years old, and that was probably the first time he saw He Qucheng after four years of separation.

Li Que didn't know how Fu Hang felt when he saw He Qucheng, nor what He Qucheng was thinking.

She only knew that the scene of running away from the marriage did not happen on the day of the wedding. She only knew that He Qucheng smiled and gave a house as a gift and said "Happy Newly Married" to Fu Hang. She only knew that Fu Hang's eyes were red at the banquet that day, but He never called that person's name again, only called him "Brother".

Li Que didn't know a lot, and he didn't know much about these two people.

She didn't ask He Qucheng anything, and she didn't say much, but on the day of Fu Hang's wedding, she didn't know what happened, and she took He Qucheng out for a drink at night, and she used the alcohol to vomit all the dissatisfaction she had with him a few years ago. She came out and asked him, "Do you like Fu Hang? Since you like you, why did you let go?"

How did He Qucheng answer at that time?

He Qucheng seemed to have drunk a glass of whiskey at that time, his eyes seemed to be red, and his voice was a little hoarse.

He said: "If he can be happy, I am willing. If he is not happy, I hope he can look back at me later."

Li Que drank too much at the time, lying on the bar counter, he just laughed, vomited all over He Qucheng with a smile, and then said three words, "You fart."

"Why didn't you say you loved him when his mother helped you win the cooperation case? Why didn't you say you loved him when he rushed to the airport overnight to see you off? Now that he is about to get married, why can't you tell him in person? Love him? His mother cut his wrists for you, why are you still so cowardly? Think about it yourself, can Fu Hang be happy without you? You have been with him for so many years as an old man. Blind? Did he call your name when he was drunk? When did he go to your dilapidated rented house and shut himself up for a day? When did he put you down seriously?"

"He Qucheng, I can see it. Why do you want him to look back at you, why do you want him to be happy? It's all an excuse, you don't love him at all."

After Li Que finished speaking, he threw a glass at He Qucheng, and He Qucheng didn't hide and let her smash it.

After a while, when He Qucheng's forehead was bled by that thing, he said something that Li Que could remember to hate him for the rest of his life.

"Probably, maybe I just don't love him enough."

The author has something to say:

Director Fu: Look at what you said in the last sentence?

He Ruoji: I said I love you very much, kiss.