Violent Aesthetics

The blood all over his body froze, and Zhu Yu froze in place.

It took a long time for his limbs to regain feeling. He broke free from Gu Ting's arms, stood up from the sofa staggeringly, and looked at Pei Shang as if he had used a lot of courage the moment he turned around.

"He... the shirt he was wearing today..." A sense of guilt and sadness came to mind for no reason.

The white silk textured shirt shone with pearls under the ambiguous light, making the owner's skin fairer and almost transparent, the eyes were covered with a light blue color, the corners of the mouth were pursed down, and the head was slightly lowered, looking extremely disappointed.

Zhu Yu plucked up the courage to walk close to Pei Shang, reaching out to grab Pei Shang's cold knuckles hanging on both sides, but was dodged suddenly.

"Pei Pei... Listen to my explanation, I have nothing to do with him..." Zhu Yu glanced carefully at Pei Shang's face, and said in a weak voice without confidence.

"Aren't you going home?"

Pei Shang spoke suddenly, his voice was choked with sobs.

"Aren't you coming to pick me up for breakfast tomorrow morning?"

"Didn't you just say you miss me and want to hug me?"

The voice was getting lower and lower, and the uncontrollable sobs faintly revealed traces through the trembling voice, which was not a question at all.

"I, I'm coming back to accompany you to have breakfast tomorrow morning, I..." Seeing the rare fragility exposed in front of him, Zhu Yu suddenly panicked, trying to make up for it incoherently but was interrupted,

"Why do you always lie to me?"

"I really, really can't believe you anymore."

Pei Shang lost his focus in his eyes, and his brain was stuck in an endless loop. He grabbed his hair with both hands and pressed it between his elbows, as if he could find a sense of security in this way, and kept chanting nervously,

"I shouldn't have believed him...he's a liar...I shouldn't have believed him...he lied to me...if...killed him then...if I killed myself It's all right... I shouldn't have believed him..." The speed of the speech was extremely fast and blurred, almost half of it was confided in the heart, and the mouth only continued the last paragraph.

Zhu Yu was very anxious, he couldn't understand what Pei Shang was saying at all, and he could only judge that Pei Shang was very bad now by his micro expressions.

"Pei Pei, Pei Pei, what's wrong with you?"

"Pei Pei, Pei Pei, good boy, I was wrong, let's go back, okay?" Zhu Yu tried his best to make his trembling voice as gentle as possible. He tried to hug Pei Shang to calm him down, but only got more intense struggle.

Pei Shang closed his eyes and closed his ears. He shrank himself into a shell to try to protect himself. He didn't want to hear or see anything.His brain was in chaos, the surroundings were too chaotic, he didn't know where he was, he didn't know who he was, and fell helplessly into the nightmare that haunted him.

"Where is Zhu Yu?"

"Where is Zhu Yu?"

"Zhu Yu don't want me?"

"How could Zhu Yu not want me? I like him so much, how could he just abandon me?" A thin figure in his mind knelt on the ground in despair.

Feeling a pair of hands trying to touch him, Pei Shang flung them away in fear, feeling uncontrollable nausea and nausea.

"Go away, go away!" He went from muttering to shouting.

"I only want Zhu Yu, only Zhu Yu can touch me..."

"Where are you, Zhu Yu? I'm so scared..." I swallowed the words after that, repeating it over and over again in my mind.

Zhu Yu's face was full of worry. He looked at Pei Shang, who was sweating continuously and making his skin paler, clenching his teeth and refusing any touch from him.

"Typical stress response, re-experiencing the traumatic content and subconsciously creating an endless loop of avoidance mechanisms. Oh, I didn't expect that your family can't help being so excited?" Opened his mouth with interest.

"What do you mean? Stress or trauma? Tell me clearly!" Zhu Yu anxiously circled around Pei Shang but could do nothing. When the people behind him suddenly spoke in a professional manner, he put aside his dislike for him for the time being. Hastily asked.

"Baby, maybe you remember that I majored in psychology? You can't see that I like to tease you, so just ignore my professional qualification certificate."

As usual, taking advantage of his mouth, Gu Ting continued, "His situation is roughly judged to be mild PTSD, post-traumatic psychological acute stress disorder, which usually does not show up, but will react acutely when stimulated, and repeatedly goes back to the content of the trauma. Press and stimulate again." Slowly took a sip of wine, "The relationship between you two is so interesting. It's really exciting to play, why don't you bring me one, I don't mind 3P, and I can do any position, consider.. .”

"Thinking about your sister, what should we do now? The surname is Gu, if he has any problems, I will definitely kill you!" Zhu Yu violently interrupted Gu Tingpiao's joke that he didn't know where he went. After excited these words, my heart became entangled.

The mood changes violently, sometimes warm and sometimes manic, the morbid possessiveness of handcuffing oneself, and crying silently in sleep... All kinds of Pei Shang appeared in my mind at the same time, and all the strangeness seemed to be explained. Zhu Yu's heart ached as if it was about to burst.

He had a strong intuition that Pei Shang's trauma was related to him.

"There's nothing to do. He doesn't want to be touched by anyone. It should be because the brain has completely entered the self-protection mechanism and rejects all the stimuli around it. Don't touch him forcibly. It will be more irritating and counterproductive..." Gu Ting remained in his sitting position. There is an eerie sense of harmony between the loose, eloquent technical terms and his current state.

And the distressed Zhu Yu didn't listen to Gu Ting's words at all, and rushed up to hug Pei Shang.

He sat up straight, his tone became a little harsh,

"No! You can't forcefully appease him. His brain is out of control now, and it's beyond your control at all. His brain will regard all contact as an invasion by default! You..."

The person in his arms began to struggle violently, like a small beast that had been invaded into its territory and frantically resisted the invader. He twisted his body, kicked and kicked his legs, but still stubbornly closed his eyes and covered his ears.

Zhu Yu also used all his strength to wrap Pei Shang, unable to remove his hand covering his ears, so he kissed him delicately, pecking his fingers lightly while repeating in a low voice,

"It's okay, it's okay, I'm Zhu Yu, I won't hurt you, I'm Zhu Yu, it's okay..."

Pei Shang was still trapped in a nightmare, the thin Omega woke up from the quilt with pain like torn all over his body, feverish in a daze, calling softly,

"Zhu Yu? Zhu Yu? Where are you..."

The sticky body is unbearable for him who has a cleanliness, and he feels a little better when he thinks that it belongs to the person he loves. After being marked and sick, he has a great sense of dependence on his Alpha.

You know, the Omega that was abandoned after being marked is like a mermaid who can't get true love, and can only disappear into this world in bubbles when the sun rises.

The unanswered calls over and over again gradually made his heart cold. He tried hard to open his heavy eyelids and looked around. There was really no one.

"Pei Shang, Pei Pei, baby, I'm here, it's okay, it's okay, be good, be good..." The man in his arms still resisted fiercely, Zhu Yu's already disheveled shirt was ripped even more messily, and the two The black and white entanglement of an identical shirt makes the whole scene more chaotic and ambiguous.

Zhu Yu was taller than Pei Shang. He pressed the back of Pei Shang's head with one hand and pushed him into his neck. At the same time, he began to gently rub and comfort him. He turned his face and kissed Pei Shang's ear without any eroticism. , only to appease.The person in his arms was still struggling, perhaps as Gu Ting said, he shrank himself into a shell, resisting any external signals.

With nowhere to go, in order to appease Pei Shang, Zhu Yu gritted his teeth and released his pheromone even though the nightclub was very noisy.

In an instant, the sweet and fragrant Shui Hengzhi pheromone spread rapidly, and the people around couldn't help but turn to this side curiously, and Pei Shang was caught in this familiar smell.

"Congratulations..."

"Did Zhu Yu come to see me?"

"Zhu Yu didn't want me... Did he come to see me?"

Zhu Yu felt that the person in his arms gradually let go of the hands covering his ears, tremblingly grasping his collar, and his tense body began to relax.He hurriedly hugged Pei Shang even harder, followed the back of his head once and for all, and whispered in his ear, "It's okay, be good, it's okay..."

Gu Ting, who managed to control himself not to be fascinated by the pheromone, looked at the two hugging tightly in front of him, and couldn't help but let out a cold snort in his heart, "I let him comfort you. Really, evil fate."

The hand that grabbed his collar was extraordinarily strong, and Zhu Yu's whole body was pulled to that side. He stroked Pei Shang's forehead covered in cold sweat, rubbed his tightly closed eyelids with his fingertips, and said in a low voice. Talk to yourself.

"Why don't you open your eyes?"

"Huh? Are you feeling better?"

"look at me"

Unexpectedly, there was no response, Pei Shang just kept holding on to the collar tightly, with his forehead against his chest, panting slightly quickly.

Zhu Yu continued to hug him distressedly but helplessly, repeating comforting movements, but finally began to be willing to seriously think about the gap between him and Pei Shang that must be seen clearly.

This relationship has always been muddled from the very beginning, he never thought about it for a long time, everything is just based on feeling, but Pei Shang is not such a person.The harm I caused him could not be repaired, the two sides could not talk about it, their relationship could only maintain a short-term superficial peace forever, and the inside was still deformed.

He hasn't fully recognized his heart yet, but he is very sure of one thing, he doesn't want Pei Shang to feel sad because of him.

Zhu Yu let go of his arms around Pei Shang's back, trying to change his position.

"Zhu Yu! Zhu Yu left me?"

"He let me go..."

"Why did he let me go..."

The chaotic state made the contact of the skin extremely sensitive. Pei Shang felt that the warm breath that had been covering him was taken away, and the sense of insecurity came again. He was afraid of being abandoned, and he was eager to find his own warmth.

Suddenly the person in his arms was breathing heavily, panting heavily, causing his whole body to tremble, Zhu Yu hurriedly hugged the person into his arms again with a tense and distressed tone,

"Hey, don't be afraid, it's okay, it's okay..."

Anxiety, longing, sadness, despair... The overlapping emotions rushed in like a raging tide, slamming Pei Shang onto the shore and forcing him to face the reality.

Almost instantly, Pei Shang opened his eyes, and the originally clear eyes became confused and out of focus.

His ears were moist, and it took him a while to realize that he was in Zhu Yu's arms. He didn't need to tilt his head to know that it was Zhu Yu who was kissing his auricle. He had kissed someone else before thinking of this mouth, and he felt uncontrollable nausea Strongly rushing forward, he subconsciously pushed Zhu Yu away tremblingly.

Looking up, it is already full of disgust and coldness

"Do not touch me!"

Not wanting to look at the people behind him any more, Pei Shang turned and left.

He waited until Gu Gu was out of sight before he staggered away as if fleeing.

When he finally arrived at his car, Pei Shang seemed to have been drained of all his strength. He slid down the car and sat on the ground weakly, covering his face with his hands.