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The words spit out of Jing Xu's mouth,
"You really think so?" The words that came out of his mouth through gritted teeth were trembling endlessly, as if one more word would make him crumble.
After Jing Xu heard his deep and hoarse voice, he knew that this person was angry. He had seen too many angry appearances in his previous life. Even if he closed his eyes, he seemed to be able to describe his current appearance, with his brows furrowed, His eyes were filled with anger, his face was a little ferocious, and the emotions he tried to restrain made his face reddened.
That kind of domineering seeped out from his bones, filled the whole room, and showed the scale of his adulthood. For a moment, his heart seemed to be blocked, and he was suppressed and couldn't breathe.
Jing Xu resisted the trembling in his heart, his forehead was covered with a trace of sweat, and he grabbed the bed sheet desperately, and said calmly, "Yes."
Yan Lun looked at Jing Xu with his head down, with endless grief and anger in his heart. After a long time, he managed to restrain his anger, and said in a hoarse voice with his lips pursed.
"Take a good rest first, we'll talk about this later..."
boom-
There was a heavy closing sound in the ward, like the anger spreading in Yan Lun's heart, resounding throughout the room,
Yan Lun left.
The room was extremely silent, at this moment, even the sound of a needle falling could be heard, Jing Xu scratched his head, unable to cover his painful chest, his heart was so cold that he could only shiver, as if a pump sucked everything with the delay. Lent's warmth was taken away, and they disappeared into the ward together.
This decision seemed to be premeditated and presented to Yan Lun by him, as if Yan Lun knew him, he knew himself better than Yan Lun,
He knows how to stab words into Yan Lun's heart, and at the same time he also knows how to stab words into his own heart, only in this way can he make up his mind to tear this unnecessary love away broken cleanly,
No one can disturb Yan Lun's life, not even himself, this is the only thing he can do.
When he really wanted to understand, he realized that he had pulled out the needle in his hand at some point, and the blood was spilled on the white bed sheet, looking so embarrassed, like a piece of pure white paper without dirt, which had been splashed too much The ink is disgusting.
He looked at the closed door, collapsed on the bed, lost in thought...
To be able to do it all over again, until now he was a little unbelievable, he even felt a little inexplicable,
He thinks that he is not the most important person, and he has a normal life just like everyone else.
He never even believed in gods and ghosts,
only believe in yourself
He doesn't believe in fate, but he has to say that this rebirth made him change his mind...
At this time, he was more confused,
He believes that with his avant-garde mind decades ahead of modern people and his talent like a fortune teller,
It is enough for him, who once stood at the pinnacle of business, to do it at his fingertips,
But when he was enthusiastically trying to plan in his head how to reclaim his fertile soil,
But he smiled slowly, but felt dull,
Without a purpose, how can there be motivation?
He doesn't even know what he should live for in this life?
For the rest of Yan Lun's life?No, maybe he would be better than his previous life without him,
For yourself?Think about my countless wealth in my previous life, but in the end it was just a piece of waste paper.
After thinking about it, the only thing he owes is his family. Looking through the names of the characters in the address book, filtering their final endings in his mind,
He couldn't help but his mind flashed, if it was at this time, it might not be a bad thing.
He leaned on the bed and began to calculate alone. When he finished all the things, the night was also quietly falling,
Just when he was in a good mood and had the ambition of being reborn, he raised his head and bumped into the eyes of Yan Lun who was pushing the door.
For a moment he forgot to react, like a child who did something wrong, he turned his head in panic, and stubbornly stopped looking at him,
Yan Lun looked at the corners of Jing Xu's mouth that had just been raised and smoothed for a moment. He felt very uncomfortable for a moment. He dared to pretend to be affectionate and wandered outside for a few times. He finally calmed down, but when he came back, he found that the other one was not there at all. Taking this matter seriously and still enjoying myself, what could be more uncomfortable than this?
With a straight face, Yan Lun brought in the packed meals from "Old Brand", sat on the seat beside the original bed, looked at the person who turned his head aside, hesitated, turned the medical dining table, and put everything in order It was completely placed, so he pushed towards Jing Xu, made a fist and coughed and said
"Let's eat"
As soon as the words fell, he lowered his head and started to eat by himself. Jing Xu smelled the smell, salivated frequently, and felt a little nostalgic in his heart. He hadn't eaten domestic food for a long time since he went abroad, and he missed it very much.
And the hateful thing is that every plate here is his favorite dish, he felt that the saliva in his mouth was about to flow out from the cracks, he swallowed involuntarily,
Feeling that he shouldn't treat himself badly, he turned around slowly, and gently pulled out his hand that was put under the quilt, just holding the disposable chopsticks,
He was wrapped in by a warm hand, only to hear a warm, angry and low voice coming from above his head
"You, you are just messing around, who made you move around, aren't you afraid of pain? Look, your hands are swollen by you"
Jing Xu rolled his eyes in his heart, and glanced at him, his hand was really purple. Looking back, he felt a little guilty, and pulled out his hand, pursed his mouth, and muttered in an awkward voice:
"It's okay, it's just a little swollen, and it will disappear soon."
Yan Lun looked at the man who was staring at the dishes, and was delighted by his glowing eyes, shook his head dotingly, and sighed in his heart, there was really nothing he could do about him.
While thinking about it, Jing Xu had already picked up the chopsticks, and couldn't wait to put them on the plate. As soon as he picked up a dish, he was cut off halfway by another pair of chopsticks.
"Hey, what do you mean? Don't tell me."
Jing Xu directly slapped the chopsticks on the table angrily. This piece of wood itself did not have such a strong bearing capacity. It was shaken by his slapping, and almost splashed oil on the white bed sheet. Fortunately, Today's dishes are mainly dry fried, otherwise I will really suffer.
"What are you messing around with? The doctor said that you are just fine, and you can only eat light, spicy food. Come on, just eat this bowl of porridge." Yan Lun looked at Jing Xu's furious appearance, and his heart glowed. Warmth, I forgot what happened in the afternoon, and I was relieved.
When Jing Xu heard this, he paused for a moment, and he couldn't shirk it. He could only pick up the bowl of porridge next to him and slowly spooned a few mouthfuls. Seeing the guy's triumphant eyes, he couldn't help but Rolling his eyes, he kept spurning himself in his heart, blaming him for his lack of determination and willingly falling into this person's trap.
Forget it, there is really nothing to do with him, but this matter is not considered a turning point for him, remember, maybe Yan Lun has some tricks behind him.
Thinking of the end, his brows couldn't help frowning again, "Is it hot?" After seeing it, Yan Lun leaned forward to help gently blow off the heat, and asked coquettishly a little cautiously.
After Jing Xu heard it, his ears turned red, and he seemed a little ungrateful. He turned his head and avoided his sight. From the corner of his eye, he watched Yan Lun's eyes chasing him, without saying a word, just staring, as if he was watching him. There were too many words hidden in those dark eyes, but for a while, I didn't know where to start from, and after a long silence,
The author has something to say: ps: When I looked back, I found that there were hundreds of words missing, Ah Si is ashamed.....
☆、Sorry....
Only then did he hear a low voice "I'm sorry" from his ear.
"You're right, I've thought about it, sometimes I may really put too much pressure on you, too conceited, sometimes self-righteous..." This unique gentle voice with a hint of confession, Burning It touched Jing Xu's heart, and made him extremely guilty at this moment. He knew that the person who should say sorry the most was not him but himself.
There was a trace of inexplicable emotion in Yan Lun's eyes, and he continued:
"You said go back to live, I think it's okay, I may not have much time to see you in the next time, and I have Mrs. Li to help me at home, it's not bad, after all, I have to take the college entrance examination, so I have to make good use of it , the nutrition needs to keep up..."
He was babbling, Jing Xu suddenly felt that these words were extremely harsh, and interrupted his words directly, "Okay. It's good that you know, stop babbling, it's annoying"
In the past, he was always a dignified person in front of himself. He couldn't see him being so low-key in front of others, including himself. Obviously, he was the one who caused all the troubles. He was always the one who was to blame, and he didn't have to I bow my head and apologize for being so myself,
Even if he injects drugs in the end and kneels in front of him in the most embarrassing posture, even if he is pushed into the dust in the end and is spurned by others, it is only God who spurned himself and has nothing to do with him. He really does not need to apologize, This is all his own willingness, what can he use as a talking point, and there is a trace of pain in his heart,
"Yan Lun, I am very grateful for what you have done to me, but sometimes I also need to take a breath, and I don't want to always follow behind you and never see the scenery ahead of you,
You are sometimes to me, after all, you are not the same person, it is like fucking you to the military academy, and I am the last to know, I have thin arms and thin legs, I dare to delay you...
You are well now, wish you could drive away this troublesome clingy man, pat your ass and leave?I know, I'm a fucking follower in front of you... just nothing..."
Even Jing Xu couldn't believe it when he said this, but from time to time, he said something against his will, which made his throat ache a little because of choking,
with a bang,
The chair slammed down,
Jing Xu suddenly thumped in his heart, and raised his head to look at Yan Lun. Yan Lun's hands were trembling and he clenched his fists. ferocious, with a face full of painful disappointment,
It was like overwhelming mountains and seas, making Jing Xu's heart breathless. Jing Xu felt that his whole body was soaked in cold sweat. He wished he could slap his mouth several times.
But he is more about acting calmly to the depths. He knows that this is like a game, and his bet is to make this person give up on him, not to use that blind tenderness in the wrong place,
He was afraid, afraid that he would not be able to control his obsession, and would use his tenderness as a sharp weapon to assassinate him again. That kind of addictive addiction, like a drug, had penetrated into the bone marrow, causing him to itch all over his body unbearably. If you can't quit, then you can only destroy him alive, even if you can't be a brother... you can...
Yan Lun's heart felt like a needle was being pricked, and he lost his strength for a while. He helped his forehead to suppress the madness in his eyes, and sighed softly, "Don't worry... If this is the case, I won't bother you anymore."
After Jing Xu heard what he said, he felt his ears sizzling for a moment. He turned around slowly and put the sheet over his head, trying to hide his emotions.
Thinking about all the past, I just feel that life is like a dream, muddleheaded, there are too many people coming and going by my side, but I can't catch it anyway, just like the clue that he can't catch, full of clues. There is a conspiracy, and I can't figure it out,
Before dawn, he got up to tidy up, changed his clothes, and disappeared in the hospital. He was afraid... He was afraid that he would see that gentle face again, and he would not be able to save himself...
Get in the taxi, look through the window and look into the distance, the traces of those rudimentary buildings made him dazed for a moment, the ring in his pocket rang continuously, it happened that Lian Mu called, and he took the call with his forehead
"Hey, why aren't you in the hospital, kid? I didn't see you when I arrived at the hospital. Where are you now?" The voice in the microphone made him forget to respond for a while, his nose was sour, and his mouth was about to overflow. Tears flowed back.
"I'll go back first. I didn't think there was much problem, so I just came out of the hospital. How come you have time to come to me?" Jing Xu said with reddened eyes, coughing and moistening his throat
"Cut, you slipped away pretty fast. I've been in class for the past few days and I don't have time to come. I happen to be free this weekend. When I first came to see the hospital, I was almost overturned by Yan Lun, since you're fine. , remember to call him yourself, "
After hearing this, Jing Xu sighed and said,
"Do I have to report to someone after I get out of the hospital? You tell him not to mess around, I'm in good health, I'm not a porcelain doll, I have a sense of proportion"
"Hey, why does this sound a bit wrong, did you quarrel with Yan Lun?"
Jing Xu paused, not knowing how to answer for a while, so he said nonsense, "It's nothing...don't think about it..."
"San'er, don't you feel tired of what you said? I can't hide any of your virtues from me. Just your stickiness to Yan Lun, now you will run away without telling Yan Lun with your tail between your legs?
You kid, I've known you for so many years, I don't know you yet, Yanlun usually treats you like an ancestor, eating and drinking, taking care of you like a child bride-in-law,
I'm so anxious to find you today, can't you fucking lose your temper less?Is there anything I can't talk about properly, as if it's like parting from life to death? "
Lian Mu's complaints came from the microphone one after another. These syllables were like blades cutting him to pieces. Thinking of what he did to Yan Lun before, he rudely wiped his cheeks with his hand like a rag. , pretending to be serious
"I didn't lose my temper with him. I thought I was fine this morning, so I was discharged from the hospital. You know what I hate the most is the hospital. I can't stay in the hospital. Besides, I don't want to disturb Yanlun.
His mother is still in the hospital for examination, I want to go back first, wash up, my body will stink after being buried in the pile of medicine all day..." Jing Xu was nagging and interpreting, at first he said that he was a little guilty , but the more I talked about it later, the more I felt that it was such a truth, and even I almost believed it.
It took a long time to hear the ringing on the other end of the phone. A dull sigh mixed with the noise unique to the ward rang from Rang's ears, and a gentle and deep voice came from the other end, as if with a slight Helpless and exhausted, "Okay, you go back and be careful, call me if you have something to do"
When Jing Xu heard this voice, his throat tightened, and he couldn't utter a word for a long time. He heard that there was no sound on the other end, and he even wondered if he was hallucinating before, but the call on the other end was cut off , like a kite with a broken string, living in no fixed place.
Stamped his feet irritably, touched his nose in embarrassment, the pinnae of the ear became red and spread to the whole ear, and the lie was caught by the master, Jing Xu wanted to get under the car for a while.
I smiled slowly to myself, thinking of just now, I really thought it was fucking funny, I had a headache, and finally I was tired, watching the people coming and going outside the window, he closed his eyes in a trance, as if dreaming of that unbearable Looking back on the past,
……
In that undecorated white-faced and plain-walled ward, a face as pale as paper, with haze in his eyes, stared straight at the tall and handsome man standing in front of the window,
The man turned around and walked towards him. He walked calmly and casually. His low-key posture was not intentional, but there was a sense of calmness and prestige in his bones, which made people feel fearful for no reason.
The low and magnetic voice exploded in my ears, not as gentle as before, but full of anger
"You really did that?"
One sentence froze him in place.
"So you came here just to ask this?"
Jing Xu's originally fair face became even more livid, his cheeks were sunken, and his chest fluctuated violently up and down due to the stimulation, with a kind of suffocating despair.
He forced himself to laugh a few times, raised his head to meet Yan Lun's eyes, but his whole body suddenly stopped, his face suddenly changed, and the familiar atmosphere pervaded the surroundings, like an invisible hand, tightly grasping his lifeline.
"So what if it is, so what if it's not? Is there anything else that can be changed?" Jing Xu dodged his eyes, looked at his body riddled with holes, and grabbed the edge of the bed deeply, resisting the force that would devour him. sad, hopeless gasps
Hearing the words, Yan Lun was gloomy and ugly, and there were too many emotions in Jing Xu's eyes that Jing Xu couldn't distinguish, but he captured the fleeting pain very well.
The calm tone contained a terrifying aura, overpowering, and his deep eyes swept across the night lightly.
"...After living with you for so many years, I thought you would change. I covered up everything about you. I took your vexatious and unruly waywardness as the ignorance and ignorance of your newborn calf, thinking that one day you would come to your senses. …
...Jing Xu, you should grow up too, I can protect you for a while, but I can't protect you forever,
Yeah, like you said, so what if it's not?The fact that cannot be changed is still in front of us,
This time I am here to see you for the last time, I will deal with the matter here clearly, let the past be the past, you... let's go. "
"Go? Where are you going? It's over, it's over." Jing Xu's head was buzzing loudly, and his black eyes seemed to have lost their original luster and were dull.
He looked at the back that was about to go away, and suddenly felt unwilling. After decades, now that he had finished talking to himself, he ignored the needle being pulled out of his body and rushed towards Yan Lun in embarrassment.
But he dodged like a plague and fell to the ground
Jing Xu withdrew his hand tremblingly, fearing that his dirty hands would scare him away, knelt on the ground, begging to look at him, his voice became hysterical like a lunatic, and the dignity in his bones disappeared at that moment do.
"I don't want to go, how can I go? No... What do you want me to do, what do you want me to do, so that you can look at me, I have done so much for you, can't you see it?
Why don't you want me Yanlun, I can give you anything, don't leave me, only you don't leave me, I can't live without you...you...do you have to abandon me at this time?I beg you..."
The hand is flattering as if grabbing the once warm palm,
But Yan Lun avoided him tiredly, stood up, didn't turn his head to look at him, and walked out of the room without looking back. The mint fragrance in the ward beat his nerves as if it penetrated into the bone marrow, and finally he was When the wind blows, it disperses.
He looked at the man's determined back, with a gnashing of hatred in his throat, the hatred bursting from his constricted pupils, the mask he had disguised for a long time finally shattered, and the iron-green fangs and claws were exposed.
Jing Xu punched the ground with a backhand, blood was flowing, and his eyes were cracked.
For a moment, he wished he could strangle him to death, and was immediately frightened by his own thoughts. How could he do this? He is the person he loves the most.
He said he didn't accept it, he told me to go, yes, who would want this filthy body and filthy soul, it's over, it's over, his heart seems to be hurting, as if he has lost his vitality, escape into the dark,
Yan Lun…..Yen Lun…..Yen Lun….I was wrong…..I was wrong…Sorry…..
No matter how much he yelled, he couldn't call back any pity.
☆、I can't forget......
"Hey, brother, wake up, it's already here." Jing Xu's cheek was patted awake, and he looked around in a daze, staring blankly at the worried eyes of the strange man. The scene in the dream was still in shock, and it took him a long time take it easy,
Only then did he realize that he had slept in the taxi for most of the day. He quickly took out the wallet from his pocket, stuffed it with money, and entered the building regardless of the driver's yelling.
After escaping from that boring taxi, the spring breeze blew across his face, giving people the illusion of a new life. The warm sunshine seemed to shine in his heart, making him squint his eyes comfortably.
That grueling past life seemed like a dream, warning her from time to time about her excessive behavior, like the indestructible [-]th parallel, lest she cross the boundary and lose her way.
But it is truly displayed in front of oneself, which makes people unstoppably afraid. If it is an obsession, then it is not a bad thing to let yourself be cut off. Since it is just your own self-indulgence, why drag people into the water again?
The boss in his previous life made him also realize that sometimes forcing will not yield anything, and being crazy will only bring deeper harm.Then why should you be persistent, why should you never forget, and letting go is not a bad thing.
In this life, he will definitely live a better life than before, that's enough.
A room of 200 square meters, he felt so spacious for the first time, this house was renovated with the joint efforts of Yan Lun before, the whole room is made of black and white, simple and elegant, luxurious yet elegant , but after all, still can't escape the ravages of time,
After he left Huaguo in his previous life, he finally handed over this house to Lian Mu and asked him to sell him. He couldn't help but want to stay here in this place where people drowned. The best result is that they will never see each other again. ,
In the end, he didn't know what happened to the house. It seemed that it was sold for a good price. Lian Mu said to himself,
The homeowner liked it very much, and promised not to redecorate it, but to keep his original design intact, which made him feel a little comfort in his heart, and he found a good owner for his house.
Now that he has stepped into this place, he has mixed feelings, and more is full of sadness. Yes, there are countless different pictures here that are worthy of his own careful scrutiny. The appearance of being corrupted by drugs, with him and his beautiful life, the whole space is filled with all the sweet and sad memories of the previous life,
He can't forget...he can't forget...
Standing under the shower, he washed himself heartily, even though he scraped off his hands with streaks of blood, after all, he still couldn't wash off the dirt in his bones, so he had no choice but to give up, let the blood drip away in a decadent way, and the air radiated The fishy smell is so sweet at this time,
It reminded him of that summer in Washington, the blood overflowing in the bathtub, and the criss-cross wounds under the watch, which made him feel like he had another obsession for a while.
Crazier than loving that person.It was a kind of eagerness like taking drugs, because he had felt endless liberation and redemption in that graceful wrist cutting action,
What a wonderful time it was!
When he stood at the gate of the school again, he finally regained a sense of youthful belonging. He put his hands in his pockets and walked around the campus for a few times. When the bell rang, he came back to his senses. Come,
He was dazed for a long time before he remembered that he came to school to attend class. In a panic, he took out his mobile phone and quickly made a call. There was a low and clear voice on the other end of the phone, as if he was a little cautious, "Hey, tell me, I'm in class."
Jing Xu rubbed his nose, and realized that he and the school were a bit out of place, "Oh, I forgot where the classroom is? I wandered around for a long time"
When Lian Mu heard this, he paused for a moment, then teased with a light smile, "Are you fucking just playing with me? Don't think that I don't know. You are in physical education class today. What's the matter? After the exam? Come out and jump around I'm showing off?"
Before he could answer, there was only a busy tone on the microphone. It seemed that the kid must have been discovered by the teacher.Jing Xu shrugged and walked to the playground, but what he didn't expect was that on the basketball court,
Now that I saw that figure that I didn't really want to meet——Yan Lun
As soon as he appeared, he was captured by Yan Lun, his eyes met, Jing Xu turned his head and dodged, entered the team and stood at the back, before he stood up to his shoulders, he was dragged by someone, and bumped into a warm embrace, before he had time When I struggle, my ears feel hot.
A gentle voice came into his head again, and the heat brushed against his ears, and there was a little more emotion for a while, "You are standing in the wrong place, don't move."
After hearing this, Jing Xu rubbed his nose in a daze, looked at the students around him who were staring at him, and probably knew what was going on. He meowed left and right, except for Yan Lun beside him don't know each other,
He thought that he was not only standing in the wrong place, but also entered the wrong class in a daze, but after thinking about it carefully, he didn't feel embarrassed. Seeing the reactions of the people around him, he seemed to have become accustomed to his behavior. At this moment, he was hypocritical, It's also self-indulgent,
After thinking about it, he suddenly realized that he remembered that he often did such things in his previous life, and this behavior was often used by Lian Mu as an after-dinner conversation topic. The famous quote written by him seemed to follow him throughout his high school career, and sporadic even in college. I heard from Lian Mu's mouth: San'er, the person is in class 3, but the soul is still in class 1.
Yan Lun looked at the person standing in front of him, with a hint of helplessness in his eyes, he gently rubbed Jing Xu's hair, thinking of what he said last night, he still felt a little sad,
It feels like the child raised by him has grown up suddenly, and he dislikes himself for blocking him, and even clamors to get away from him, which makes him feel as uncomfortable as something in his heart has been ripped away.
He couldn't express more emotions for a while, but he felt that there was a gap between the child and himself, which made him extremely uncomfortable. In his blueprint, Jing Xu should stand behind him obediently and give him a good time. Protecting, but as for why, he couldn't say a reason for a while, it seems that it should be like this,
Now that I think about it, maybe I am really like what Jing Xu said, too arrogant, too self-righteous?Just thinking about it makes him feel even more uncomfortable.
Jing Xu glanced at Yan Lun from the corner of his eye, and pursed his lips. He was a little annoyed at the palms on top of his head, but it was more about indulgence, so he could only pretend to be stupid and stood in Yan Lun holding his breath. He was not really relieved until the teacher finally said something about free activities.
Looking around, he couldn't stay still for a few minutes. The stadium here was a bit stuffy, and the smell of men's sweat mixed with the pungent smell of the rubber floor made him a little uncomfortable.
He lowered his head and hurried out, and bumped into a hard chest head-on. When he looked up, he saw Yan Lun standing in front of him, who was half a head taller than him, looking at him with raised eyebrows, with a hint of mockery in his eyes,
When he saw it, his hair was a little numb, like a provocative cat, he arched his body, frowned on the spot, turned up the volume at least a few degrees, cheered himself up, and said, "What are you doing?"
But in Yan Lun's eyes, he felt unstoppably cute. Jing Xu's appearance was a bit baby fat, his skin was fair and smooth, and the fluff on his face seemed to be clearly and delicately distinguished in the sunlight.
It seems to have inherited some foreign blood, and the eyes are not pure Chinese, with a hint of light brown, big round eyes and slender eyelashes covering the lower part, which makes people tickle, almost as delicate as a porcelain doll .
At this time, his face was fierce but he looked like a cat with fried fur. He was round and very cute. Yan Lun's heart softened. Like a cat, he had a great time playing, and finally compromised under Jing Xu's frowning and asked
"Why are you here? Shouldn't you go to the playground? Today you have an exam..."
Before Jing Xu finished listening to what he said, he patted the palm that was making trouble on his head, and said a little irritably, "It's none of your business, I can't come here for a stroll..."
Before he finished speaking, he saw a classmate running towards him, and stopped beside him panting, "Li Jingxu, you are the only one left who hasn't been evaluated yet, hurry up"
After Jing Xu heard it, he stopped dawdling, ignored the figure closely following behind him, and walked to the playground with his classmates.
After running for a while, I was a little short of breath but still passable. Compared with those who were in the army in the previous life, they were nothing.
He lowered his head, and as soon as he caught his breath, he saw a pair of slender white hands holding water rushing into his eyes. He didn't need to raise his head, he just listened to the voices of nympho and discussions around him, and knew that he was standing in front of him. Who is the person in front of you,
For some reason, he felt a little annoyed, and angrily knocked the water in Yan Lun's hand to the ground, without even looking at him, he just walked into the small jungle outside the playground,
This place is relatively tight, and it is a place for couples to date at night. Although he is not familiar with this place, his mind is a little confused now, and he doesn't care about other things.
He knew that the behavior just now was done to Yan Lun in front of the whole school, but even so, why not, if he could get rid of this person, it would be best if he could disappear from his world from now on, then he probably would do it for him Applause for what you did.
In fact, to put it bluntly, I was still afraid. The endless approaching was like chewing gum sticking to my feet.
This feeling is very bad, his concentration is good, but it is not included by Yan Lun's side, he knows that the longer this situation seems to be more unfavorable to himself,
The more you walk in, the faster you go, as if you want to get rid of the person who is chasing after you,
The solitary leaf crunched under his feet, just like the mood he couldn't calm down now,
Before he could come up with a countermeasure, he felt that his feet were on the ground, and he almost jumped into the dirty pond. In the end, he was caught by the people behind him and escaped the catastrophe. If he didn't open it, he finally couldn't bear it and yelled at him, "Fart, let go!"
Yan Lun grabbed Jing Xu's body and locked him tightly in his arms. He was relieved until he confirmed that the man was intact. Thinking of the scene where Jing Xu almost fell into the pond just now, he couldn't help breaking out in a faint sweat , gently rubbed the top of his hair, and blamed him angrily, "Do you know that this is dangerous, huh? I was scared to death by you just now, what if something happens to you if you are so rampant , you almost fell just now."
"I want you to take care of it, you said you won't take care of me." There was a trace of complaint that he didn't even notice.
Yan Lun got angry when he heard this, and he raised his voice and said sadly, "What? You don't recognize me as a brother so soon? You little heartless, what's wrong with you? I just don't understand, what do you have?" It's annoying, isn't it just this matter, you said that if there is something we can solve together, who are you angry with?"
In fact, Yan Lun had quickly filtered out several suspicions in his mind yesterday, but he couldn't figure out what happened recently that made San'er so upset, and he took his temper out on himself.
Seeing his vigor over and over again, it seems that he is inexplicably flustered by the gesture of breaking up with him. That kind of feeling makes him feel terrible. If he doesn't handle it well,
If he is allowed to rage again, then this fire may burn the relationship between him and Jing Xu completely, so he asked the old man for a leave for the first time. He must forcibly suppress the momentum that has not yet formed and forever Culling, that's what he wants to do now.
Jing Xu kept pushing, but he couldn't push that hard arm away. Angrily, he bit Yan Lun's shoulder fiercely, and only heard a muffled groan. Yan Lun seemed to be in severe pain, but there was no There was no sign of letting go, and in the end he gave in first, feeling the familiar fishy smell from his shoulders before giving up.
"You guys let go first, can you talk properly, don't be so sticky. How decent is the rubbing and hugging of two big men?" After struggling for a long time and still not breaking free, Jing Xu decided to change the method.
Yan Lun felt relieved that the person in his arms was no longer struggling, but he didn't let go of his hand. Instead, he kissed Jing Xu's fair neck a few times with his head,
Jing Xu was rigidly frozen in place, and he felt a burning sensation that made his whole body boil, which was constantly spreading to the whole body, and his whole body was numb and out of shape.
Immediately afterwards, I heard Yan Lun's stubborn complaint, "No, what happened to my younger brother? We used to be tired all the time, why don't you have any objections?"
Yan Lun paused and felt
"You really think so?" The words that came out of his mouth through gritted teeth were trembling endlessly, as if one more word would make him crumble.
After Jing Xu heard his deep and hoarse voice, he knew that this person was angry. He had seen too many angry appearances in his previous life. Even if he closed his eyes, he seemed to be able to describe his current appearance, with his brows furrowed, His eyes were filled with anger, his face was a little ferocious, and the emotions he tried to restrain made his face reddened.
That kind of domineering seeped out from his bones, filled the whole room, and showed the scale of his adulthood. For a moment, his heart seemed to be blocked, and he was suppressed and couldn't breathe.
Jing Xu resisted the trembling in his heart, his forehead was covered with a trace of sweat, and he grabbed the bed sheet desperately, and said calmly, "Yes."
Yan Lun looked at Jing Xu with his head down, with endless grief and anger in his heart. After a long time, he managed to restrain his anger, and said in a hoarse voice with his lips pursed.
"Take a good rest first, we'll talk about this later..."
boom-
There was a heavy closing sound in the ward, like the anger spreading in Yan Lun's heart, resounding throughout the room,
Yan Lun left.
The room was extremely silent, at this moment, even the sound of a needle falling could be heard, Jing Xu scratched his head, unable to cover his painful chest, his heart was so cold that he could only shiver, as if a pump sucked everything with the delay. Lent's warmth was taken away, and they disappeared into the ward together.
This decision seemed to be premeditated and presented to Yan Lun by him, as if Yan Lun knew him, he knew himself better than Yan Lun,
He knows how to stab words into Yan Lun's heart, and at the same time he also knows how to stab words into his own heart, only in this way can he make up his mind to tear this unnecessary love away broken cleanly,
No one can disturb Yan Lun's life, not even himself, this is the only thing he can do.
When he really wanted to understand, he realized that he had pulled out the needle in his hand at some point, and the blood was spilled on the white bed sheet, looking so embarrassed, like a piece of pure white paper without dirt, which had been splashed too much The ink is disgusting.
He looked at the closed door, collapsed on the bed, lost in thought...
To be able to do it all over again, until now he was a little unbelievable, he even felt a little inexplicable,
He thinks that he is not the most important person, and he has a normal life just like everyone else.
He never even believed in gods and ghosts,
only believe in yourself
He doesn't believe in fate, but he has to say that this rebirth made him change his mind...
At this time, he was more confused,
He believes that with his avant-garde mind decades ahead of modern people and his talent like a fortune teller,
It is enough for him, who once stood at the pinnacle of business, to do it at his fingertips,
But when he was enthusiastically trying to plan in his head how to reclaim his fertile soil,
But he smiled slowly, but felt dull,
Without a purpose, how can there be motivation?
He doesn't even know what he should live for in this life?
For the rest of Yan Lun's life?No, maybe he would be better than his previous life without him,
For yourself?Think about my countless wealth in my previous life, but in the end it was just a piece of waste paper.
After thinking about it, the only thing he owes is his family. Looking through the names of the characters in the address book, filtering their final endings in his mind,
He couldn't help but his mind flashed, if it was at this time, it might not be a bad thing.
He leaned on the bed and began to calculate alone. When he finished all the things, the night was also quietly falling,
Just when he was in a good mood and had the ambition of being reborn, he raised his head and bumped into the eyes of Yan Lun who was pushing the door.
For a moment he forgot to react, like a child who did something wrong, he turned his head in panic, and stubbornly stopped looking at him,
Yan Lun looked at the corners of Jing Xu's mouth that had just been raised and smoothed for a moment. He felt very uncomfortable for a moment. He dared to pretend to be affectionate and wandered outside for a few times. He finally calmed down, but when he came back, he found that the other one was not there at all. Taking this matter seriously and still enjoying myself, what could be more uncomfortable than this?
With a straight face, Yan Lun brought in the packed meals from "Old Brand", sat on the seat beside the original bed, looked at the person who turned his head aside, hesitated, turned the medical dining table, and put everything in order It was completely placed, so he pushed towards Jing Xu, made a fist and coughed and said
"Let's eat"
As soon as the words fell, he lowered his head and started to eat by himself. Jing Xu smelled the smell, salivated frequently, and felt a little nostalgic in his heart. He hadn't eaten domestic food for a long time since he went abroad, and he missed it very much.
And the hateful thing is that every plate here is his favorite dish, he felt that the saliva in his mouth was about to flow out from the cracks, he swallowed involuntarily,
Feeling that he shouldn't treat himself badly, he turned around slowly, and gently pulled out his hand that was put under the quilt, just holding the disposable chopsticks,
He was wrapped in by a warm hand, only to hear a warm, angry and low voice coming from above his head
"You, you are just messing around, who made you move around, aren't you afraid of pain? Look, your hands are swollen by you"
Jing Xu rolled his eyes in his heart, and glanced at him, his hand was really purple. Looking back, he felt a little guilty, and pulled out his hand, pursed his mouth, and muttered in an awkward voice:
"It's okay, it's just a little swollen, and it will disappear soon."
Yan Lun looked at the man who was staring at the dishes, and was delighted by his glowing eyes, shook his head dotingly, and sighed in his heart, there was really nothing he could do about him.
While thinking about it, Jing Xu had already picked up the chopsticks, and couldn't wait to put them on the plate. As soon as he picked up a dish, he was cut off halfway by another pair of chopsticks.
"Hey, what do you mean? Don't tell me."
Jing Xu directly slapped the chopsticks on the table angrily. This piece of wood itself did not have such a strong bearing capacity. It was shaken by his slapping, and almost splashed oil on the white bed sheet. Fortunately, Today's dishes are mainly dry fried, otherwise I will really suffer.
"What are you messing around with? The doctor said that you are just fine, and you can only eat light, spicy food. Come on, just eat this bowl of porridge." Yan Lun looked at Jing Xu's furious appearance, and his heart glowed. Warmth, I forgot what happened in the afternoon, and I was relieved.
When Jing Xu heard this, he paused for a moment, and he couldn't shirk it. He could only pick up the bowl of porridge next to him and slowly spooned a few mouthfuls. Seeing the guy's triumphant eyes, he couldn't help but Rolling his eyes, he kept spurning himself in his heart, blaming him for his lack of determination and willingly falling into this person's trap.
Forget it, there is really nothing to do with him, but this matter is not considered a turning point for him, remember, maybe Yan Lun has some tricks behind him.
Thinking of the end, his brows couldn't help frowning again, "Is it hot?" After seeing it, Yan Lun leaned forward to help gently blow off the heat, and asked coquettishly a little cautiously.
After Jing Xu heard it, his ears turned red, and he seemed a little ungrateful. He turned his head and avoided his sight. From the corner of his eye, he watched Yan Lun's eyes chasing him, without saying a word, just staring, as if he was watching him. There were too many words hidden in those dark eyes, but for a while, I didn't know where to start from, and after a long silence,
The author has something to say: ps: When I looked back, I found that there were hundreds of words missing, Ah Si is ashamed.....
☆、Sorry....
Only then did he hear a low voice "I'm sorry" from his ear.
"You're right, I've thought about it, sometimes I may really put too much pressure on you, too conceited, sometimes self-righteous..." This unique gentle voice with a hint of confession, Burning It touched Jing Xu's heart, and made him extremely guilty at this moment. He knew that the person who should say sorry the most was not him but himself.
There was a trace of inexplicable emotion in Yan Lun's eyes, and he continued:
"You said go back to live, I think it's okay, I may not have much time to see you in the next time, and I have Mrs. Li to help me at home, it's not bad, after all, I have to take the college entrance examination, so I have to make good use of it , the nutrition needs to keep up..."
He was babbling, Jing Xu suddenly felt that these words were extremely harsh, and interrupted his words directly, "Okay. It's good that you know, stop babbling, it's annoying"
In the past, he was always a dignified person in front of himself. He couldn't see him being so low-key in front of others, including himself. Obviously, he was the one who caused all the troubles. He was always the one who was to blame, and he didn't have to I bow my head and apologize for being so myself,
Even if he injects drugs in the end and kneels in front of him in the most embarrassing posture, even if he is pushed into the dust in the end and is spurned by others, it is only God who spurned himself and has nothing to do with him. He really does not need to apologize, This is all his own willingness, what can he use as a talking point, and there is a trace of pain in his heart,
"Yan Lun, I am very grateful for what you have done to me, but sometimes I also need to take a breath, and I don't want to always follow behind you and never see the scenery ahead of you,
You are sometimes to me, after all, you are not the same person, it is like fucking you to the military academy, and I am the last to know, I have thin arms and thin legs, I dare to delay you...
You are well now, wish you could drive away this troublesome clingy man, pat your ass and leave?I know, I'm a fucking follower in front of you... just nothing..."
Even Jing Xu couldn't believe it when he said this, but from time to time, he said something against his will, which made his throat ache a little because of choking,
with a bang,
The chair slammed down,
Jing Xu suddenly thumped in his heart, and raised his head to look at Yan Lun. Yan Lun's hands were trembling and he clenched his fists. ferocious, with a face full of painful disappointment,
It was like overwhelming mountains and seas, making Jing Xu's heart breathless. Jing Xu felt that his whole body was soaked in cold sweat. He wished he could slap his mouth several times.
But he is more about acting calmly to the depths. He knows that this is like a game, and his bet is to make this person give up on him, not to use that blind tenderness in the wrong place,
He was afraid, afraid that he would not be able to control his obsession, and would use his tenderness as a sharp weapon to assassinate him again. That kind of addictive addiction, like a drug, had penetrated into the bone marrow, causing him to itch all over his body unbearably. If you can't quit, then you can only destroy him alive, even if you can't be a brother... you can...
Yan Lun's heart felt like a needle was being pricked, and he lost his strength for a while. He helped his forehead to suppress the madness in his eyes, and sighed softly, "Don't worry... If this is the case, I won't bother you anymore."
After Jing Xu heard what he said, he felt his ears sizzling for a moment. He turned around slowly and put the sheet over his head, trying to hide his emotions.
Thinking about all the past, I just feel that life is like a dream, muddleheaded, there are too many people coming and going by my side, but I can't catch it anyway, just like the clue that he can't catch, full of clues. There is a conspiracy, and I can't figure it out,
Before dawn, he got up to tidy up, changed his clothes, and disappeared in the hospital. He was afraid... He was afraid that he would see that gentle face again, and he would not be able to save himself...
Get in the taxi, look through the window and look into the distance, the traces of those rudimentary buildings made him dazed for a moment, the ring in his pocket rang continuously, it happened that Lian Mu called, and he took the call with his forehead
"Hey, why aren't you in the hospital, kid? I didn't see you when I arrived at the hospital. Where are you now?" The voice in the microphone made him forget to respond for a while, his nose was sour, and his mouth was about to overflow. Tears flowed back.
"I'll go back first. I didn't think there was much problem, so I just came out of the hospital. How come you have time to come to me?" Jing Xu said with reddened eyes, coughing and moistening his throat
"Cut, you slipped away pretty fast. I've been in class for the past few days and I don't have time to come. I happen to be free this weekend. When I first came to see the hospital, I was almost overturned by Yan Lun, since you're fine. , remember to call him yourself, "
After hearing this, Jing Xu sighed and said,
"Do I have to report to someone after I get out of the hospital? You tell him not to mess around, I'm in good health, I'm not a porcelain doll, I have a sense of proportion"
"Hey, why does this sound a bit wrong, did you quarrel with Yan Lun?"
Jing Xu paused, not knowing how to answer for a while, so he said nonsense, "It's nothing...don't think about it..."
"San'er, don't you feel tired of what you said? I can't hide any of your virtues from me. Just your stickiness to Yan Lun, now you will run away without telling Yan Lun with your tail between your legs?
You kid, I've known you for so many years, I don't know you yet, Yanlun usually treats you like an ancestor, eating and drinking, taking care of you like a child bride-in-law,
I'm so anxious to find you today, can't you fucking lose your temper less?Is there anything I can't talk about properly, as if it's like parting from life to death? "
Lian Mu's complaints came from the microphone one after another. These syllables were like blades cutting him to pieces. Thinking of what he did to Yan Lun before, he rudely wiped his cheeks with his hand like a rag. , pretending to be serious
"I didn't lose my temper with him. I thought I was fine this morning, so I was discharged from the hospital. You know what I hate the most is the hospital. I can't stay in the hospital. Besides, I don't want to disturb Yanlun.
His mother is still in the hospital for examination, I want to go back first, wash up, my body will stink after being buried in the pile of medicine all day..." Jing Xu was nagging and interpreting, at first he said that he was a little guilty , but the more I talked about it later, the more I felt that it was such a truth, and even I almost believed it.
It took a long time to hear the ringing on the other end of the phone. A dull sigh mixed with the noise unique to the ward rang from Rang's ears, and a gentle and deep voice came from the other end, as if with a slight Helpless and exhausted, "Okay, you go back and be careful, call me if you have something to do"
When Jing Xu heard this voice, his throat tightened, and he couldn't utter a word for a long time. He heard that there was no sound on the other end, and he even wondered if he was hallucinating before, but the call on the other end was cut off , like a kite with a broken string, living in no fixed place.
Stamped his feet irritably, touched his nose in embarrassment, the pinnae of the ear became red and spread to the whole ear, and the lie was caught by the master, Jing Xu wanted to get under the car for a while.
I smiled slowly to myself, thinking of just now, I really thought it was fucking funny, I had a headache, and finally I was tired, watching the people coming and going outside the window, he closed his eyes in a trance, as if dreaming of that unbearable Looking back on the past,
……
In that undecorated white-faced and plain-walled ward, a face as pale as paper, with haze in his eyes, stared straight at the tall and handsome man standing in front of the window,
The man turned around and walked towards him. He walked calmly and casually. His low-key posture was not intentional, but there was a sense of calmness and prestige in his bones, which made people feel fearful for no reason.
The low and magnetic voice exploded in my ears, not as gentle as before, but full of anger
"You really did that?"
One sentence froze him in place.
"So you came here just to ask this?"
Jing Xu's originally fair face became even more livid, his cheeks were sunken, and his chest fluctuated violently up and down due to the stimulation, with a kind of suffocating despair.
He forced himself to laugh a few times, raised his head to meet Yan Lun's eyes, but his whole body suddenly stopped, his face suddenly changed, and the familiar atmosphere pervaded the surroundings, like an invisible hand, tightly grasping his lifeline.
"So what if it is, so what if it's not? Is there anything else that can be changed?" Jing Xu dodged his eyes, looked at his body riddled with holes, and grabbed the edge of the bed deeply, resisting the force that would devour him. sad, hopeless gasps
Hearing the words, Yan Lun was gloomy and ugly, and there were too many emotions in Jing Xu's eyes that Jing Xu couldn't distinguish, but he captured the fleeting pain very well.
The calm tone contained a terrifying aura, overpowering, and his deep eyes swept across the night lightly.
"...After living with you for so many years, I thought you would change. I covered up everything about you. I took your vexatious and unruly waywardness as the ignorance and ignorance of your newborn calf, thinking that one day you would come to your senses. …
...Jing Xu, you should grow up too, I can protect you for a while, but I can't protect you forever,
Yeah, like you said, so what if it's not?The fact that cannot be changed is still in front of us,
This time I am here to see you for the last time, I will deal with the matter here clearly, let the past be the past, you... let's go. "
"Go? Where are you going? It's over, it's over." Jing Xu's head was buzzing loudly, and his black eyes seemed to have lost their original luster and were dull.
He looked at the back that was about to go away, and suddenly felt unwilling. After decades, now that he had finished talking to himself, he ignored the needle being pulled out of his body and rushed towards Yan Lun in embarrassment.
But he dodged like a plague and fell to the ground
Jing Xu withdrew his hand tremblingly, fearing that his dirty hands would scare him away, knelt on the ground, begging to look at him, his voice became hysterical like a lunatic, and the dignity in his bones disappeared at that moment do.
"I don't want to go, how can I go? No... What do you want me to do, what do you want me to do, so that you can look at me, I have done so much for you, can't you see it?
Why don't you want me Yanlun, I can give you anything, don't leave me, only you don't leave me, I can't live without you...you...do you have to abandon me at this time?I beg you..."
The hand is flattering as if grabbing the once warm palm,
But Yan Lun avoided him tiredly, stood up, didn't turn his head to look at him, and walked out of the room without looking back. The mint fragrance in the ward beat his nerves as if it penetrated into the bone marrow, and finally he was When the wind blows, it disperses.
He looked at the man's determined back, with a gnashing of hatred in his throat, the hatred bursting from his constricted pupils, the mask he had disguised for a long time finally shattered, and the iron-green fangs and claws were exposed.
Jing Xu punched the ground with a backhand, blood was flowing, and his eyes were cracked.
For a moment, he wished he could strangle him to death, and was immediately frightened by his own thoughts. How could he do this? He is the person he loves the most.
He said he didn't accept it, he told me to go, yes, who would want this filthy body and filthy soul, it's over, it's over, his heart seems to be hurting, as if he has lost his vitality, escape into the dark,
Yan Lun…..Yen Lun…..Yen Lun….I was wrong…..I was wrong…Sorry…..
No matter how much he yelled, he couldn't call back any pity.
☆、I can't forget......
"Hey, brother, wake up, it's already here." Jing Xu's cheek was patted awake, and he looked around in a daze, staring blankly at the worried eyes of the strange man. The scene in the dream was still in shock, and it took him a long time take it easy,
Only then did he realize that he had slept in the taxi for most of the day. He quickly took out the wallet from his pocket, stuffed it with money, and entered the building regardless of the driver's yelling.
After escaping from that boring taxi, the spring breeze blew across his face, giving people the illusion of a new life. The warm sunshine seemed to shine in his heart, making him squint his eyes comfortably.
That grueling past life seemed like a dream, warning her from time to time about her excessive behavior, like the indestructible [-]th parallel, lest she cross the boundary and lose her way.
But it is truly displayed in front of oneself, which makes people unstoppably afraid. If it is an obsession, then it is not a bad thing to let yourself be cut off. Since it is just your own self-indulgence, why drag people into the water again?
The boss in his previous life made him also realize that sometimes forcing will not yield anything, and being crazy will only bring deeper harm.Then why should you be persistent, why should you never forget, and letting go is not a bad thing.
In this life, he will definitely live a better life than before, that's enough.
A room of 200 square meters, he felt so spacious for the first time, this house was renovated with the joint efforts of Yan Lun before, the whole room is made of black and white, simple and elegant, luxurious yet elegant , but after all, still can't escape the ravages of time,
After he left Huaguo in his previous life, he finally handed over this house to Lian Mu and asked him to sell him. He couldn't help but want to stay here in this place where people drowned. The best result is that they will never see each other again. ,
In the end, he didn't know what happened to the house. It seemed that it was sold for a good price. Lian Mu said to himself,
The homeowner liked it very much, and promised not to redecorate it, but to keep his original design intact, which made him feel a little comfort in his heart, and he found a good owner for his house.
Now that he has stepped into this place, he has mixed feelings, and more is full of sadness. Yes, there are countless different pictures here that are worthy of his own careful scrutiny. The appearance of being corrupted by drugs, with him and his beautiful life, the whole space is filled with all the sweet and sad memories of the previous life,
He can't forget...he can't forget...
Standing under the shower, he washed himself heartily, even though he scraped off his hands with streaks of blood, after all, he still couldn't wash off the dirt in his bones, so he had no choice but to give up, let the blood drip away in a decadent way, and the air radiated The fishy smell is so sweet at this time,
It reminded him of that summer in Washington, the blood overflowing in the bathtub, and the criss-cross wounds under the watch, which made him feel like he had another obsession for a while.
Crazier than loving that person.It was a kind of eagerness like taking drugs, because he had felt endless liberation and redemption in that graceful wrist cutting action,
What a wonderful time it was!
When he stood at the gate of the school again, he finally regained a sense of youthful belonging. He put his hands in his pockets and walked around the campus for a few times. When the bell rang, he came back to his senses. Come,
He was dazed for a long time before he remembered that he came to school to attend class. In a panic, he took out his mobile phone and quickly made a call. There was a low and clear voice on the other end of the phone, as if he was a little cautious, "Hey, tell me, I'm in class."
Jing Xu rubbed his nose, and realized that he and the school were a bit out of place, "Oh, I forgot where the classroom is? I wandered around for a long time"
When Lian Mu heard this, he paused for a moment, then teased with a light smile, "Are you fucking just playing with me? Don't think that I don't know. You are in physical education class today. What's the matter? After the exam? Come out and jump around I'm showing off?"
Before he could answer, there was only a busy tone on the microphone. It seemed that the kid must have been discovered by the teacher.Jing Xu shrugged and walked to the playground, but what he didn't expect was that on the basketball court,
Now that I saw that figure that I didn't really want to meet——Yan Lun
As soon as he appeared, he was captured by Yan Lun, his eyes met, Jing Xu turned his head and dodged, entered the team and stood at the back, before he stood up to his shoulders, he was dragged by someone, and bumped into a warm embrace, before he had time When I struggle, my ears feel hot.
A gentle voice came into his head again, and the heat brushed against his ears, and there was a little more emotion for a while, "You are standing in the wrong place, don't move."
After hearing this, Jing Xu rubbed his nose in a daze, looked at the students around him who were staring at him, and probably knew what was going on. He meowed left and right, except for Yan Lun beside him don't know each other,
He thought that he was not only standing in the wrong place, but also entered the wrong class in a daze, but after thinking about it carefully, he didn't feel embarrassed. Seeing the reactions of the people around him, he seemed to have become accustomed to his behavior. At this moment, he was hypocritical, It's also self-indulgent,
After thinking about it, he suddenly realized that he remembered that he often did such things in his previous life, and this behavior was often used by Lian Mu as an after-dinner conversation topic. The famous quote written by him seemed to follow him throughout his high school career, and sporadic even in college. I heard from Lian Mu's mouth: San'er, the person is in class 3, but the soul is still in class 1.
Yan Lun looked at the person standing in front of him, with a hint of helplessness in his eyes, he gently rubbed Jing Xu's hair, thinking of what he said last night, he still felt a little sad,
It feels like the child raised by him has grown up suddenly, and he dislikes himself for blocking him, and even clamors to get away from him, which makes him feel as uncomfortable as something in his heart has been ripped away.
He couldn't express more emotions for a while, but he felt that there was a gap between the child and himself, which made him extremely uncomfortable. In his blueprint, Jing Xu should stand behind him obediently and give him a good time. Protecting, but as for why, he couldn't say a reason for a while, it seems that it should be like this,
Now that I think about it, maybe I am really like what Jing Xu said, too arrogant, too self-righteous?Just thinking about it makes him feel even more uncomfortable.
Jing Xu glanced at Yan Lun from the corner of his eye, and pursed his lips. He was a little annoyed at the palms on top of his head, but it was more about indulgence, so he could only pretend to be stupid and stood in Yan Lun holding his breath. He was not really relieved until the teacher finally said something about free activities.
Looking around, he couldn't stay still for a few minutes. The stadium here was a bit stuffy, and the smell of men's sweat mixed with the pungent smell of the rubber floor made him a little uncomfortable.
He lowered his head and hurried out, and bumped into a hard chest head-on. When he looked up, he saw Yan Lun standing in front of him, who was half a head taller than him, looking at him with raised eyebrows, with a hint of mockery in his eyes,
When he saw it, his hair was a little numb, like a provocative cat, he arched his body, frowned on the spot, turned up the volume at least a few degrees, cheered himself up, and said, "What are you doing?"
But in Yan Lun's eyes, he felt unstoppably cute. Jing Xu's appearance was a bit baby fat, his skin was fair and smooth, and the fluff on his face seemed to be clearly and delicately distinguished in the sunlight.
It seems to have inherited some foreign blood, and the eyes are not pure Chinese, with a hint of light brown, big round eyes and slender eyelashes covering the lower part, which makes people tickle, almost as delicate as a porcelain doll .
At this time, his face was fierce but he looked like a cat with fried fur. He was round and very cute. Yan Lun's heart softened. Like a cat, he had a great time playing, and finally compromised under Jing Xu's frowning and asked
"Why are you here? Shouldn't you go to the playground? Today you have an exam..."
Before Jing Xu finished listening to what he said, he patted the palm that was making trouble on his head, and said a little irritably, "It's none of your business, I can't come here for a stroll..."
Before he finished speaking, he saw a classmate running towards him, and stopped beside him panting, "Li Jingxu, you are the only one left who hasn't been evaluated yet, hurry up"
After Jing Xu heard it, he stopped dawdling, ignored the figure closely following behind him, and walked to the playground with his classmates.
After running for a while, I was a little short of breath but still passable. Compared with those who were in the army in the previous life, they were nothing.
He lowered his head, and as soon as he caught his breath, he saw a pair of slender white hands holding water rushing into his eyes. He didn't need to raise his head, he just listened to the voices of nympho and discussions around him, and knew that he was standing in front of him. Who is the person in front of you,
For some reason, he felt a little annoyed, and angrily knocked the water in Yan Lun's hand to the ground, without even looking at him, he just walked into the small jungle outside the playground,
This place is relatively tight, and it is a place for couples to date at night. Although he is not familiar with this place, his mind is a little confused now, and he doesn't care about other things.
He knew that the behavior just now was done to Yan Lun in front of the whole school, but even so, why not, if he could get rid of this person, it would be best if he could disappear from his world from now on, then he probably would do it for him Applause for what you did.
In fact, to put it bluntly, I was still afraid. The endless approaching was like chewing gum sticking to my feet.
This feeling is very bad, his concentration is good, but it is not included by Yan Lun's side, he knows that the longer this situation seems to be more unfavorable to himself,
The more you walk in, the faster you go, as if you want to get rid of the person who is chasing after you,
The solitary leaf crunched under his feet, just like the mood he couldn't calm down now,
Before he could come up with a countermeasure, he felt that his feet were on the ground, and he almost jumped into the dirty pond. In the end, he was caught by the people behind him and escaped the catastrophe. If he didn't open it, he finally couldn't bear it and yelled at him, "Fart, let go!"
Yan Lun grabbed Jing Xu's body and locked him tightly in his arms. He was relieved until he confirmed that the man was intact. Thinking of the scene where Jing Xu almost fell into the pond just now, he couldn't help breaking out in a faint sweat , gently rubbed the top of his hair, and blamed him angrily, "Do you know that this is dangerous, huh? I was scared to death by you just now, what if something happens to you if you are so rampant , you almost fell just now."
"I want you to take care of it, you said you won't take care of me." There was a trace of complaint that he didn't even notice.
Yan Lun got angry when he heard this, and he raised his voice and said sadly, "What? You don't recognize me as a brother so soon? You little heartless, what's wrong with you? I just don't understand, what do you have?" It's annoying, isn't it just this matter, you said that if there is something we can solve together, who are you angry with?"
In fact, Yan Lun had quickly filtered out several suspicions in his mind yesterday, but he couldn't figure out what happened recently that made San'er so upset, and he took his temper out on himself.
Seeing his vigor over and over again, it seems that he is inexplicably flustered by the gesture of breaking up with him. That kind of feeling makes him feel terrible. If he doesn't handle it well,
If he is allowed to rage again, then this fire may burn the relationship between him and Jing Xu completely, so he asked the old man for a leave for the first time. He must forcibly suppress the momentum that has not yet formed and forever Culling, that's what he wants to do now.
Jing Xu kept pushing, but he couldn't push that hard arm away. Angrily, he bit Yan Lun's shoulder fiercely, and only heard a muffled groan. Yan Lun seemed to be in severe pain, but there was no There was no sign of letting go, and in the end he gave in first, feeling the familiar fishy smell from his shoulders before giving up.
"You guys let go first, can you talk properly, don't be so sticky. How decent is the rubbing and hugging of two big men?" After struggling for a long time and still not breaking free, Jing Xu decided to change the method.
Yan Lun felt relieved that the person in his arms was no longer struggling, but he didn't let go of his hand. Instead, he kissed Jing Xu's fair neck a few times with his head,
Jing Xu was rigidly frozen in place, and he felt a burning sensation that made his whole body boil, which was constantly spreading to the whole body, and his whole body was numb and out of shape.
Immediately afterwards, I heard Yan Lun's stubborn complaint, "No, what happened to my younger brother? We used to be tired all the time, why don't you have any objections?"
Yan Lun paused and felt
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